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brianlux · February 2018

Thoughts_Arrive said:

brianlux said:

If I were badgered by ANYONE trying to get me to drink more, I would tell them to go pound sand. If it happened at a work place, that might be more difficult, but I would distance myself as much as possible. Whether you drink (or smoke or snort or whatever) or not is nobody's effin business but your own.

The office was so small we were all crammed in there so I was surrounded by people giving me a hard time.
I got distanced by getting fired for "not fitting into the team".

Their loss, Thoughts. I hope you found a better group to work with since then!

HughFreakingDillon said:

brianlux said:

If I were badgered by ANYONE trying to get me to drink more, I would tell them to go pound sand. If it happened at a work place, that might be more difficult, but I would distance myself as much as possible. Whether you drink (or smoke or snort or whatever) or not is nobody's effin business but your own.

it really is herd behaviour. it's people feeling insecure that someone isn't fitting into their mold, in this case, that someone is able to have just a good a time without being out of it, or that maybe that one person drinking might bring the rest down. peer pressure exists even at the adult level, and it really is odd.

Well said, HFD. Peer pressure sucks.

Shyner · February 2018

I'm sad. My car is taking all my money and i can't buy records. Anxiety is high. Wanting to sleep forever is relevant. Wanting to leave my life still even though i have at least 10 faithfull lovers of my soul.
I don't know how to die but it seems i want to. So sad. Love to all

brianlux · February 2018

Shyner said:

I'm sad. My car is taking all my money and i can't buy records. Anxiety is high. Wanting to sleep forever is relevant. Wanting to leave my life still even though i have at least 10 faithfull lovers of my soul.
I don't know how to die but it seems i want to. So sad. Love to all

10 lovers of your soul and friends here. Hang in there Shyner. If you get to a point where you feel at the end, please consider calling a crisis hot line. And remember, you have friends here!

HughFreakingDillon · February 2018

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lastexitlondon · February 2018

So i have a chance friday night to go in to london for a glen hansard gig. (Who i absolutely love) ive met him and seen many gigs even travelling to Berlin twice and cork. But im in turmoil. I love his new album . But im a mess and even getting the train is scaring me. My head is all over the place but a chance of a single ticket came up. I must fight the fear or i will stay home forever

oftenreading · February 2018

lastexitlondon said:

So i have a chance friday night to go in to london for a glen hansard gig. (Who i absolutely love) ive met him and seen many gigs even travelling to Berlin twice and cork. But im in turmoil. I love his new album . But im a mess and even getting the train is scaring me. My head is all over the place but a chance of a single ticket came up. I must fight the fear or i will stay home forever

Absolutely, go. Don’t miss out on something wonderful due to fear. You can do this.

lastexitlondon · February 2018

The old rob would have jumped all over it. It's crazy how ive turned 180° and know i don't know rob. Fuckin gutting

HughFreakingDillon · February 2018

lastexitlondon said:

So i have a chance friday night to go in to london for a glen hansard gig. (Who i absolutely love) ive met him and seen many gigs even travelling to Berlin twice and cork. But im in turmoil. I love his new album . But im a mess and even getting the train is scaring me. My head is all over the place but a chance of a single ticket came up. I must fight the fear or i will stay home forever

several years ago, I had tickets to one of my favourite aritsts at the time, Jeff Martin of the Canadian band the Tea Party. he was playing a solo gig at a bar here in Winnipeg. My wife and I were going to go. that night, about an hour before show time, I came down with a debilitating anxiety attack. At the time, I didn't know what the fuck was going on, as I had never experienced this before (I was experienced with depression, but not anxiety yet). I was literally in the fetal position on the floor in my basement telling my wife that I couldn't go, I didn't know why, I just couldn't. Luckily she was supportive and she just held me.

That was probably 10 years ago, and I still often think back in regret of missing that show. So now everytime I have some kind of panic come on before something (I almost always do before a concert-it really sucks but I've learned to live with it), I just fucking make myself go, no matter how shitty I feel, no matter how much I think is going to go wrong. I just force it.

The big thing for me, I tell my wife all the time, I wish I could choose to buy tickets to a show the day of. I hate the anticipation. It freaks me out. I always have this feeling of dread of being in a closed venue with a shitload of people (not in a dangerous way, I don't know what it is, really). But once I get there I'm good.

You can do this. And it will feel so good that you did.

lastexitlondon · February 2018

Do you know i have the exact same thing ive been to 38 pj shows and i swear ive done this most. And ive said to my wife exactly that i wish i could buy on the day of the show . I always have felt ill leading up to pj and day of shows. Its fuckin ridiculous but i swear i spent years doing that and i regret it after every show that im such a prick. I have this coming up with the euro tour. I just have no clue how i will do it. I feel so different now. But everytime ive thought im dying

camsjam · February 2018

Gonna be another restless night. Damn 10C lottery! Finally decided to enter just for GA for Seattle shows. Really want to do Missoula n Fenway 2 also . I know the chances of winning both are slim and could very well win nothing but I can't afford to get 4 PAIRS of tickets when I will be going solo. I struggled with committing to a week or two in August...seems so far away now. But after going through a couple of tough years the 3 things that made me really happy were seeing PJ in Greenville and Quebec City and seeing the total solar eclipse last summer. I've always wanted to visit Seattle and Vancouver so if it works out it would be a great vacation long overdue. Being by the ocean makes me happy too. Just have to wait and see if it's meant to be.

lastexitlondon · February 2018

Why is it so damn hard to carry on with symptoms. I swear ive reached the point i don't have the energy to carry on anymore. Yesterday one of my daughtera was 14. She was a twin,but my son died just before birth. I have come to terms with it over the years and have got a lovely baby now . I have 4 children in total but i only live with my new baby now and every year i have some food with my children on her birthday and we visit the grave and lay flowers. I took my baby this year as it would be her brother too.
All this im normally in the moment but because of this brain problem im gone. Im in apace. Im not capable to even be in the time im in. Nobody understanda the severity of my symptoms.

lastexitlondon · February 2018

I saw the dr on Monday and told him the meds had done nothing despite the increase in dose. I told him how disturbed my thoughts are now becoming. He referred me back to mental health system. And said he couldn't help much more. There is something very wrong
I keep telling him and he says its all a long psychiatric episode. Because he knows me. But nobody believes me. Hopeless and drowning

brianlux · February 2018

lastexitlondon said:

I saw the dr on Monday and told him the meds had done nothing despite the increase in dose. I told him how disturbed my thoughts are now becoming. He referred me back to mental health system. And said he couldn't help much more. There is something very wrong
I keep telling him and he says its all a long psychiatric episode. Because he knows me. But nobody believes me. Hopeless and drowning

I believe you. I hope you find the right help, the kind that will believe you and believe in you.

Thoughts_Arrive · February 2018

lastexitlondon said:

I saw the dr on Monday and told him the meds had done nothing despite the increase in dose. I told him how disturbed my thoughts are now becoming. He referred me back to mental health system. And said he couldn't help much more. There is something very wrong
I keep telling him and he says its all a long psychiatric episode. Because he knows me. But nobody believes me. Hopeless and drowning

Sorry to hear your symptoms are still persisting.
Have you considered voluntary admission to a clinic?

lastexitlondon · February 2018

I don't think thats possible here. Im referred back into the system for all the good that will be. Im sure im not in need of a psychiatrist .

lastexitlondon · February 2018

Thanks for caring you guys

lastexitlondon · February 2018

I feel stupid like only i think the worst

HughFreakingDillon · February 2018

lastexitlondon said:

I feel stupid like only i think the worst

I'm with you dude. had a good week last week. then, this week.......fargh. every time I think things are taking a turn, it pulls me right back in and it almost feels worse because I was actually optimistic for a short time. you just feel so beat down. you don't want to get up anymore.

mickeyrat · February 2018

lastexitlondon said:

I don't think thats possible here. Im referred back into the system for all the good that will be. Im sure im not in need of a psychiatrist .

and you've been wrong how often?

latch on to whatever glimmer of hope you can get.

lastexitlondon · February 2018

True mickeyrat and paul i feel like we are th3 sam3 person. Big love to you both

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