A safe place for anxiety sufferers to share.

hedonist

myoung321 said:

Woke up... Still Alive!...... Happy Birthday to me 

"When you think you're gonna die yesterday, today is sweet." - Buddy from Ozark

Hope it's been as good a day as possible!

brianlux

myoung321 said:

Woke up... Still Alive!...... Happy Birthday to me 

Happy Birthday.  Keep on truckin'!

Matts3221

myoung321 said:

Woke up... Still Alive!...... Happy Birthday to me 

Happy Birthday !!!! I woke up today as well !!! Keep up the social distiancing , we got this and we will get thru this.

next year you should throw a Fucking crazy birthday party by yourself.

side note , I have FaceTimedd with so many friends this weekend some I have not talked to in years , so nice to catch up 

also if you have anxity , don’t watch Outbreak on Netflix, don’t know what I was thinking Friday night , my wife was fine I ended up starting at the ceiling till 4am lol, just learn from my mistake 

myoung321

Woke up again today!!   Thanks guys! I really appreciate it! 

hedonist said:

myoung321 said:

Woke up... Still Alive!...... Happy Birthday to me 

"When you think you're gonna die yesterday, today is sweet." - Buddy from Ozark

Hope it's been as good a day as possible!

Thanks!  Had a great day, around the house

and It is truly Sweet!  

https://community.pearljam.com/discussion/270253/shocked-by-heart-icd-ouch-again-oct-19/p1

oftenreading

Matts3221 said:

myoung321 said:

Woke up... Still Alive!...... Happy Birthday to me 

Happy Birthday !!!! I woke up today as well !!! Keep up the social distiancing , we got this and we will get thru this.

next year you should throw a Fucking crazy birthday party by yourself.

side note , I have FaceTimedd with so many friends this weekend some I have not talked to in years , so nice to catch up 

also if you have anxity , don’t watch Outbreak on Netflix, don’t know what I was thinking Friday night , my wife was fine I ended up starting at the ceiling till 4am lol, just learn from my mistake 

Outbreak? Oh my.  

Sorry, but the idea of that made me laugh

myoung321

oftenreading said:

Matts3221 said:

myoung321 said:

Woke up... Still Alive!...... Happy Birthday to me 

Happy Birthday !!!! I woke up today as well !!! Keep up the social distiancing , we got this and we will get thru this.

next year you should throw a Fucking crazy birthday party by yourself.

side note , I have FaceTimedd with so many friends this weekend some I have not talked to in years , so nice to catch up 

also if you have anxity , don’t watch Outbreak on Netflix, don’t know what I was thinking Friday night , my wife was fine I ended up starting at the ceiling till 4am lol, just learn from my mistake 

Outbreak? Oh my.  

Sorry, but the idea of that made me laugh

Double Feature with "Contagion" ,,,No thanks... I'm good 

jhager79

It's taken me a long time, but I finally realize that it's ok that I'm not ok. 

josevolution

Just wanna stop in here to say hello 👋 hoping everyone is ok just wanna show support, in these trying times..

myoung321

jhager79 said:

It's taken me a long time, but I finally realize that it's ok that I'm not ok. 

It takes time to get there and everyday you have to work to stay there, but you're right. It's okay! 

myoung321

josevolution said:

Just wanna stop in here to say hello 👋 hoping everyone is ok just wanna show support, in these trying times..

Hey Jose! Glad to hear you're well today.

josevolution

myoung321 said:

josevolution said:

Just wanna stop in here to say hello 👋 hoping everyone is ok just wanna show support, in these trying times..

Hey Jose! Glad to hear you're well today.

I’m hoping you are too maybe just sayin that will help ..

brianlux

jhager79 said:

It's taken me a long time, but I finally realize that it's ok that I'm not ok. 

I get it j. 

Last night I hit the wall.  I've been stuffing my emotions in an effort to stay strong for my wife who is worried, like most of us, about a lot of C19 related things.  I came to bed and right away she asked, "What's wrong?" and I just lost it, just totally lost it.  After I settled down a bit, I told her I was sorry and that I've been trying to be strong.  She totally understood and said it was alright.  I think it was good for me and, maybe even in a way good for her that I showed my emotions.  But what I need to work on is keeping a handle on stress.  I can feel what that is doing to me and how stress could be worse for me than anything else right now. 

So anyway, yes, I understand and hope you are hanging in there.  Thank goodness for my wife and thank goodness for the internet and for the Pearl Jam fan club site where we can come together and share our feelings and give each other encouragement. 

So best wishes to you and to all here, you good people!

myoung321

brianlux said:

jhager79 said:

It's taken me a long time, but I finally realize that it's ok that I'm not ok. 

I get it j. 

Last night I hit the wall.  I've been stuffing my emotions in an effort to stay strong for my wife who is worried, like most of us, about a lot of C19 related things.  I came to bed and right away she asked, "What's wrong?" and I just lost it, just totally lost it.  After I settled down a bit, I told her I was sorry and that I've been trying to be strong.  She totally understood and said it was alright.  I think it was good for me and, maybe even in a way good for her that I showed my emotions.  But what I need to work on is keeping a handle on stress.  I can feel what that is doing to me and how stress could be worse for me than anything else right now. 

So anyway, yes, I understand and hope you are hanging in there.  Thank goodness for my wife and thank goodness for the internet and for the Pearl Jam fan club site where we can come together and share our feelings and give each other encouragement. 

So best wishes to you and to all here, you good people!

Thanks for sharing Brian!... never good to keep that all bottled up. I know exactly how you feel!  

Thoughts_Arrive

Kind of hard to get started on working on my university assignments with all the fear about coronavirus

brianlux

myoung321 said:

brianlux said:

jhager79 said:

It's taken me a long time, but I finally realize that it's ok that I'm not ok. 

I get it j. 

Last night I hit the wall.  I've been stuffing my emotions in an effort to stay strong for my wife who is worried, like most of us, about a lot of C19 related things.  I came to bed and right away she asked, "What's wrong?" and I just lost it, just totally lost it.  After I settled down a bit, I told her I was sorry and that I've been trying to be strong.  She totally understood and said it was alright.  I think it was good for me and, maybe even in a way good for her that I showed my emotions.  But what I need to work on is keeping a handle on stress.  I can feel what that is doing to me and how stress could be worse for me than anything else right now. 

So anyway, yes, I understand and hope you are hanging in there.  Thank goodness for my wife and thank goodness for the internet and for the Pearl Jam fan club site where we can come together and share our feelings and give each other encouragement. 

So best wishes to you and to all here, you good people!

Thanks for sharing Brian!... never good to keep that all bottled up. I know exactly how you feel!  

We're all in it together, my friend!

brianlux

Thoughts_Arrive said:

Kind of hard to get started on working on my university assignments with all the fear about coronavirus

I can only imagine.  Concentration is difficult at times like this.  Maybe when things start feeling a little more routine school will give you something to focus on and give you time to think about things other than the difficulties. 

That's probably what I should do here soon- find something to focus on, a project or a goal. That's how I got out of my major- almost life ending- depression in the late 90's.  I got involved in something I felt good about by working at our local health library.  That and taking classes helped me to keep going.

Thoughts_Arrive

That sounds like a good idea, Brian. Get involved with something.

hedonist

Rob, how are you and your family doing?

lastexitlondon

Our health is ok as far  as i know.  
But i cant explain  whats happening  here. Tempo n groove video called me from new york last night . And a dear friend is stuck in poland with her baby son. Whilst here i went to the pharmacy  for my son then again for my daughter  in law who is in isolation with a 3 month old with colic. I went and got food for my mum and my ex wife and my kids . Ive done so much for others and all i do is cry and cry.  Im running on empty. I lost a stone in weight and im whimpering  and restless when i try  and sleep. This cant go on . I dont come on the forum anymore because  the ocd in me can't  stop looking at the thread about it. We are living it now and i will never be able to ever trust anything  . This wont stop even when it stops for everyone else. I love you all and i love my family  but i am afraid i will just one of these days say thats enough for me. Im still sober. And weed free. Although i wish i was free enough  to enjoy my last weeks. Im not . I think im Destined  to die sad and heart broken.  Im sorry its a negative  post and nobody needs that . I try not to do that. But its what it is atm. 

HughFreakingDillon

jhager79 said:

It's taken me a long time, but I finally realize that it's ok that I'm not ok. 

honestly, sometimes that's when the ladder appears to get you out. 

mickeyrat

HughFreakingDillon said:

jhager79 said:

It's taken me a long time, but I finally realize that it's ok that I'm not ok. 

honestly, sometimes that's when the ladder appears to get you out. 

yep. we seem to buy into these societal expectations of xyz. its bullshit. comparing our insides against what we perceive others outsides to be.....

lastexitlondon

Lockdown has made me safer than ive ever been. Ocd means im the  best to do lots of the jobs that now require  military precision and im thriving. I lost 1 stone in weight. I cook fresh everyday . (I was most days anyway).I excersise 30mins every morning  at 9am. I am the one who does  the  trip  out to shop for 2 families.  I have a routine  with cleaning  down the shopping and myself.. ive moved my veg growing  stuff to a piece of grass behind my flat and started  with  my 2 year old to get that going  . Only thing is i cant sleep and im getting angry at night.
I just wanted to say out of adversity  and now not only the  fear for my life but my childrens ive driven on to be the boss of this  situation.
Do i still  have all my previous problems?yes.
Am i completely  clean?yes.
Do i want to drink or smoke weed .? Yes everyday. And my trouble will come when they say its ok to go out again because i wont. But my family will want to. Thats where my life will be not ever ok.
I guess im saying if this is my last hurrah then im going down fighting. Much love to my brothers and sisters here. Stay safe and stay home. Oh and  i dont look at any phone or internet except for once a day i watch dr.campbell a retired dr who only does fact for that day.  Cutting the  media out has saved my life at this  time. Well  worth  doing for us with health anxiety  or anxiety  at all.
There  is a quote my mum sent me. And i will try post it. 
The  words are the exact  words  i said to her the  week  before this one. 
Be pro active and control the controllable. 
Rob.

lastexitlondon

lastexitlondon

Sending what little strength i have left at 2.15a.m to you if  you  need it. 
Listen to the  new album and think of me. 
Whoever said.

hedonist

Rob, I’m happy you’ve got a sense of control over what you can right now. That you’re finding - and creating - your own routine and way to some peace through this. 

I hope good sleep finds you soon. And, that the anger dissipates some. Totally understandable, though. 

lastexitlondon

Thank you . I will try again for some sleep now. Stay safe at home . This  is only the start. Hold on as tight  as you  can.

oftenreading

Sleep - ah, yes, I kind of remember you.

Yesterday I was awake for the day at 2:45. This morning was somewhat better. On the bright side, I get lots of reading done in the night, and then get several things accomplished before work if I get up at 5:00. 

It's an ill wind that blows nobody any good. 

what dreams

lastexitlondon said:

Lockdown has made me safer than ive ever been. Ocd means im the  best to do lots of the jobs that now require  military precision and im thriving. I lost 1 stone in weight. I cook fresh everyday . (I was most days anyway).I excersise 30mins every morning  at 9am. I am the one who does  the  trip  out to shop for 2 families.  I have a routine  with cleaning  down the shopping and myself.. ive moved my veg growing  stuff to a piece of grass behind my flat and started  with  my 2 year old to get that going  . Only thing is i cant sleep and im getting angry at night.
I just wanted to say out of adversity  and now not only the  fear for my life but my childrens ive driven on to be the boss of this  situation.
Do i still  have all my previous problems?yes.
Am i completely  clean?yes.
Do i want to drink or smoke weed .? Yes everyday. And my trouble will come when they say its ok to go out again because i wont. But my family will want to. Thats where my life will be not ever ok.
I guess im saying if this is my last hurrah then im going down fighting. Much love to my brothers and sisters here. Stay safe and stay home. Oh and  i dont look at any phone or internet except for once a day i watch dr.campbell a retired dr who only does fact for that day.  Cutting the  media out has saved my life at this  time. Well  worth  doing for us with health anxiety  or anxiety  at all.
There  is a quote my mum sent me. And i will try post it. 
The  words are the exact  words  i said to her the  week  before this one. 
Be pro active and control the controllable. 
Rob.

This is a great perspective. In the "dis"- ability community over the past decade, there has been a lot of reframing of how we see people with different intellectual and mental challenges. Mental illness is no different. It can be a blessing. I really admire how you never give up.

Good luck with the sleep. That can take a toll after a while, so I hope you find some peace at night soon. 

Thoughts_Arrive

Nobody likes me and I'm feeling down.
People at university don't seem friendly.
People on here are all against me.
I don't know anymore.

mickeyrat

how has the new record been taken by everyone?