A safe place for anxiety sufferers to share.

brianlux

Hang in there josevolution and lastexitlondon .  I know it's hard to do sometimes- I've been battling anxiety for more years than I care to think about- but the better days come.  Give them a chance to come around again.  I'm with you in that struggle. 

josevolution

lastexitlondon said:

It's like grief 

Yep I’ve only felt it before when my 1st real love kicked me to the curb! This hit me a bit different because we really liked the woman in my son’s life, but in reality I need professional help to help me deal with everything that’s spinning in my head! Hope you are ok today and happy Father’s Day to you 

lastexitlondon

Happy father's day to you.
 Today I saw all 4 of my kids and all I do is go on about my problems. It's unacceptable I'm not worth being around 

josevolution

lastexitlondon said:

Happy father's day to you.
 Today I saw all 4 of my kids and all I do is go on about my problems. It's unacceptable I'm not worth being around 

I understand I keep most of my feelings to myself so as not to be a drag on my family even talking to my adult son I try to listen to him and be supportive even though I’m a bit disappointed in him I’m not letting on 

lastexitlondon

I feel for you Jose , I hope you can still enjoy a smoke or drink or whatever releases you may use. Because,
I gave up drink nearly a year ago and it's been the worst year of my life.
They say it makes you depressed. What if you are mental anyway.Never a release or peace . Never.
Seriously don't have any good days or times anymore live in a constant state of distress and fear. I was never like that full time when I had a drink. 
Escape 
It's no crime to escape.
There's no time to escape.
All those yesterdays 

lastexitlondon

I hope you are ok jose

josevolution

lastexitlondon said:

I hope you are ok jose

As good as it can get! Hoping the same for you 

lastexitlondon

Love you you and your family Jose. Always remember you are one of life's great humans and fathers

josevolution

lastexitlondon said:

Love you you and your family Jose. Always remember you are one of life's great humans and fathers

Ah I’m sure you are a fine human and father thanks for the kind words but I feel like I should have done so much more for my kids. 

lastexitlondon

I think we all can feel that way. 
My dad left when I was 8 and I swore I would never leave my kids. And 10 years ago I had to leave , many reasons but my ex wife turned out to be gay. 
So I will always have that to live with. The 3 elder ones I had to leave are now 26( just moved into his own property with a lovely girl), 23 and just graduated university. And 21 still at college. They are getting on.
But it's always me who left. I left with nothing. I met a pj fan we had a baby and I live with them and her son. 
The baby is now 8 in a month and as I type my 21 year old has come to visit for a short while. They all say it's not my fault. But to me it will always be my fault 

CROJAM95

Been feeling it lately… need a reset

PJ_Soul

My mom is suffering from extreme anxiety right now, but apparently isn't aware of it or won't acknowledge it. I know her better than anyone on earth. I underatand anxiety very well, so get what is happening, but she is of the silent generation, and won't do the things that we know will help, like therapy or medication. She has good reason to be suffering from this. She just finished weeks of radiation therapy for breast cancer, she is waiting for a scan to see of she has lung cancer, she recently had brain surgery to solve essential tremours (right brain this time, left brain in 10 months), for which we had to to travel across the country... she is 79 years old, and... amazingly vibrant despite all these issues, but also just crumbling from constant anxiety. 

So yeah, she's flipping out, but in some state of denial about her anxiety over it all. I'm finding that it is causing me extreme anxiety as well. I love her more than anyone else on the face of the planet, and feel pretty overwhelmed by my worry for her, and also struggle with the knowledge that both of my parents are going to doe pretty fucking soon, inevitably. I know most people go through this, but i also think it's even harder for someone like me: no spouse or kids to fall back on. Rough ride. 

PJ_Soul

PS - if anyone knows someone with essential tremors, contact me. The very specialized treatment that my mother had is a fucking miracle, but hard to arrange. Only one place in all of Canada offers it, and i think only the Mayo Clinic in the US does it.... free in Canada, cray-cray expensive in the US, lol. 

josevolution

Whoa PJ S so sorry to hear this hope she can get some good news soon 🤞🤞will keep you both in my thoughts 

lastexitlondon

Health is the biggest fear for me. Understandable that she is scared. I wish her all the very best and peace of mind if it can be possible