A safe place for anxiety sufferers to share.

mickeyrat

Thoughts_Arrive said:

So, I have an appointment today with a psychologist

good health to you.

Thoughts_Arrive

Thanks man

Fifthelement

Thoughts_Arrive said:

So, I have an appointment today with a psychologist

Good luck M.  I hope that this is a fruitful first step to good mental health.  You deserve to be happy.

Thoughts_Arrive

Fifthelement said:

Thoughts_Arrive said:

So, I have an appointment today with a psychologist

Good luck M.  I hope that this is a fruitful first step to good mental health.  You deserve to be happy.

Thanks S. 
I was given some exercises to do for the next 6 weeks until my next session.
Was told I'm in a major depressive state. 
Then I was told by my GP afterwards my cholesterol is at dangerous levels and got put on medication. More anxiety.

mickeyrat

Thoughts_Arrive said:

Fifthelement said:

Thoughts_Arrive said:

So, I have an appointment today with a psychologist

Good luck M.  I hope that this is a fruitful first step to good mental health.  You deserve to be happy.

Thanks S. 
I was given some exercises to do for the next 6 weeks until my next session.
Was told I'm in a major depressive state. 
Then I was told by my GP afterwards my cholesterol is at dangerous levels and got put on medication. More anxiety.

ok. but the cholesterol is something you can really DO something about.... So its at least partially in your control.

Thoughts_Arrive

Yeah I suppose.

I've tried excercise and healthy eating for years but it's just gotten worse. It's genetic my GP said and to not blame myself.

Just anxious about any side effects of the statin. Was told there is a very small chance of certain side effects.

Matts3221

Just having a rough day today for some reason and I feel like typing it here just helps , just feeling so overwhelmed with life , work . Feeling sad and anxious for some reason and cannot shake it. just wanted to cry earlier today.

I think it is just I have a lot going on with work and travel for work ( I hate traveling for work ) I guess I feel more safe when I know I can be home at night ( I know that sounds silly )

Our dumb brains , I feel great some days and today I wish I could just crawl into bed and sleep for the next 18 hours.

Sorry to be a downer just thought maybe typing it out would get it off my chest.

HughFreakingDillon

Matts3221 said:

Just having a rough day today for some reason and I feel like typing it here just helps , just feeling so overwhelmed with life , work . Feeling sad and anxious for some reason and cannot shake it. just wanted to cry earlier today.

I think it is just I have a lot going on with work and travel for work ( I hate traveling for work ) I guess I feel more safe when I know I can be home at night ( I know that sounds silly )

Our dumb brains , I feel great some days and today I wish I could just crawl into bed and sleep for the next 18 hours.

Sorry to be a downer just thought maybe typing it out would get it off my chest.

A) do what helps you without apology
B.) it does not sound silly. we all know the feeling. believe me. travel is a BIG trigger for me anxiety-wise.
C) I wanted to do nothing but sleep 24/7 until I finally got help. 
D) you are not a downer. post anytime you wish. if it helps, do it. that's what this thread is for. pm me if it's easier to do that. 

lastexitlondon

Man i could never work away. Fucked me up. A tearful mess i was. Nothing wrong with needing family and friends near by. 

Matts3221

HughFreakingDillon said:

Matts3221 said:

Just having a rough day today for some reason and I feel like typing it here just helps , just feeling so overwhelmed with life , work . Feeling sad and anxious for some reason and cannot shake it. just wanted to cry earlier today.

I think it is just I have a lot going on with work and travel for work ( I hate traveling for work ) I guess I feel more safe when I know I can be home at night ( I know that sounds silly )

Our dumb brains , I feel great some days and today I wish I could just crawl into bed and sleep for the next 18 hours.

Sorry to be a downer just thought maybe typing it out would get it off my chest.

A) do what helps you without apology
B.) it does not sound silly. we all know the feeling. believe me. travel is a BIG trigger for me anxiety-wise.
C) I wanted to do nothing but sleep 24/7 until I finally got help. 
D) you are not a downer. post anytime you wish. if it helps, do it. that's what this thread is for. pm me if it's easier to do that. 

Honestly these four points helped so very much. Glad there is a place to talk about stuff like this. I am lucky to have gotten help many years ago and go thru years of therapy and still practice mediation , seeing a therapist , meds ect. Just some days it can feel very overwhelming.

Thank you for the kind words they put a smile on my face.

HughFreakingDillon

Matts3221 said:

HughFreakingDillon said:

Matts3221 said:

Just having a rough day today for some reason and I feel like typing it here just helps , just feeling so overwhelmed with life , work . Feeling sad and anxious for some reason and cannot shake it. just wanted to cry earlier today.

I think it is just I have a lot going on with work and travel for work ( I hate traveling for work ) I guess I feel more safe when I know I can be home at night ( I know that sounds silly )

Our dumb brains , I feel great some days and today I wish I could just crawl into bed and sleep for the next 18 hours.

Sorry to be a downer just thought maybe typing it out would get it off my chest.

A) do what helps you without apology
B.) it does not sound silly. we all know the feeling. believe me. travel is a BIG trigger for me anxiety-wise.
C) I wanted to do nothing but sleep 24/7 until I finally got help. 
D) you are not a downer. post anytime you wish. if it helps, do it. that's what this thread is for. pm me if it's easier to do that. 

Honestly these four points helped so very much. Glad there is a place to talk about stuff like this. I am lucky to have gotten help many years ago and go thru years of therapy and still practice mediation , seeing a therapist , meds ect. Just some days it can feel very overwhelming.

Thank you for the kind words they put a smile on my face.

I get it. I know. I'm so glad I could be of help.  

Thoughts_Arrive

Yeah I hated work travel. Always made me anxious. Hated the whole corporate life I felt trapped in.

Fifthelement

HughFreakingDillon said:

Matts3221 said:

Just having a rough day today for some reason and I feel like typing it here just helps , just feeling so overwhelmed with life , work . Feeling sad and anxious for some reason and cannot shake it. just wanted to cry earlier today.

I think it is just I have a lot going on with work and travel for work ( I hate traveling for work ) I guess I feel more safe when I know I can be home at night ( I know that sounds silly )

Our dumb brains , I feel great some days and today I wish I could just crawl into bed and sleep for the next 18 hours.

Sorry to be a downer just thought maybe typing it out would get it off my chest.

A) do what helps you without apology
B.) it does not sound silly. we all know the feeling. believe me. travel is a BIG trigger for me anxiety-wise.
C) I wanted to do nothing but sleep 24/7 until I finally got help. 
D) you are not a downer. post anytime you wish. if it helps, do it. that's what this thread is for. pm me if it's easier to do that. 

Excellent points HFD.  I too have huge anxiety over the logistics of travelling.  Matts, I hope your day improved.  (((Hugs)))

Matts3221

Thank you all so very much for your kind words , I am feeling great today.

It was a quick trip just overnight , fly from Boston to Orlando for a one day meeting and then flew back the next day.

This board has been a huge help and honestly a little weight is lifted off my wife whom is 100% supportive of me but to take anything off her hands was great.

At work but in my home office and looking forward to the weekend. I am always here for anyone as well if you need to DM me.

Love you all and I truly mean that.

HughFreakingDillon

Matts3221 said:

Thank you all so very much for your kind words , I am feeling great today.

It was a quick trip just overnight , fly from Boston to Orlando for a one day meeting and then flew back the next day.

This board has been a huge help and honestly a little weight is lifted off my wife whom is 100% supportive of me but to take anything off her hands was great.

At work but in my home office and looking forward to the weekend. I am always here for anyone as well if you need to DM me.

Love you all and I truly mean that.

excellent to hear! cheers!

rgambs

Panic attacks suck, having general anxiety about the possibility of having a panic attack sucks too.
Having to hide both sucks worse than either.

HughFreakingDillon

rgambs said:

Panic attacks suck, having general anxiety about the possibility of having a panic attack sucks too.
Having to hide both sucks worse than either.

more exhausting than any physical exercise. I was tired AF for 2 years straight from putting on my smiley face at work and social functions. 

rgambs

I'm better off in public.  It may seem crazy, but the primary driver for my anxiety is the possibility that my wife will know I have anxiety.  It's as if I need to feign invulnerability or I will open myself to vulnerability I can't handle.
She eradicated anxiety many years ago, and through that process I learned how to become anxious in response to her anxiety.  Now hers is gone and I'm terrified that mine (which stems from hers) will regenerate hers.  It's rather convoluted, I suppose.

Matts3221

rgambs said:

I'm better off in public.  It may seem crazy, but the primary driver for my anxiety is the possibility that my wife will know I have anxiety.  It's as if I need to feign invulnerability or I will open myself to vulnerability I can't handle.
She eradicated anxiety many years ago, and through that process I learned how to become anxious in response to her anxiety.  Now hers is gone and I'm terrified that mine (which stems from hers) will regenerate hers.  It's rather convoluted, I suppose.

Different for everyone , my wife suffers from depression and anxiety as well. I don't think there is ever a permeant fix on the issue just getting better at stagies to keep it more under control.

My wife says she can see it in my eyes , she will then have me take my meds , make me a cup of tea and I will just lay down for an hour till my anti anxiety meds kick in.

I know everyone deals differently I find , therapist , exercise , medication , writing  all as different tools to use.

The more tools in your toolbox ( as my therapist says ) can be helpful.

I am sure if you told your wife this fear my hope would be she would tell you , that you are being silly and can always be honest around her.

HughFreakingDillon

rgambs said:

I'm better off in public.  It may seem crazy, but the primary driver for my anxiety is the possibility that my wife will know I have anxiety.  It's as if I need to feign invulnerability or I will open myself to vulnerability I can't handle.
She eradicated anxiety many years ago, and through that process I learned how to become anxious in response to her anxiety.  Now hers is gone and I'm terrified that mine (which stems from hers) will regenerate hers.  It's rather convoluted, I suppose.

how does one go about eradicating their anxiety? everything I've read points to it being manageable, but not curable.