A safe place for anxiety sufferers to share.

mickeyrat

  https://www.vox.com/the-highlight/2019/9/17/20863016/anxiety-app-phone-gamification

Thoughts_Arrive

Rob, I am so sorry to read you're doing it tough.
I'm kind of in the same boat with the despair. 
I'm on new medication (started taking Effexor XR on Sunday) and I'm finding it rough with the nausea and dizziness and I keep crying. 
Been in my room the last three days in bed with suicidal ideation and feeling trapped.
I don't know if this is because of the medication kicking in or my experience at a job agency on Tuesday.
Attending my mandatory appointment (as required by social security so I can get welfare payments) made me feel like shit.
I feel like I've wasted 4 years at university as I am being forced to work full time now. 
I don't know what to do.

Fifthelement

Thoughts_Arrive said:

Rob, I am so sorry to read you're doing it tough.
I'm kind of in the same boat with the despair. 
I'm on new medication (started taking Effexor XR on Sunday) and I'm finding it rough with the nausea and dizziness and I keep crying. 
Been in my room the last three days in bed with suicidal ideation and feeling trapped.
I don't know if this is because of the medication kicking in or my experience at a job agency on Tuesday.
Attending my mandatory appointment (as required by social security so I can get welfare payments) made me feel like shit.
I feel like I've wasted 4 years at university as I am being forced to work full time now. 
I don't know what to do.

I hope you've contacted your doctor.  I know medication takes time to work, but you shouldn’t wait if your consumed with suicidal thoughts.  Reach out, they’re people waiting to help you.  You’re worth it M.

https://www.suicideline.org.au/?gclid=EAIaIQobChMInKGvwfj-5AIVhspkCh3oXw3ZEAAYASAAEgIdXPD_BwE

Thoughts_Arrive

Fifthelement said:

Thoughts_Arrive said:

Rob, I am so sorry to read you're doing it tough.
I'm kind of in the same boat with the despair. 
I'm on new medication (started taking Effexor XR on Sunday) and I'm finding it rough with the nausea and dizziness and I keep crying. 
Been in my room the last three days in bed with suicidal ideation and feeling trapped.
I don't know if this is because of the medication kicking in or my experience at a job agency on Tuesday.
Attending my mandatory appointment (as required by social security so I can get welfare payments) made me feel like shit.
I feel like I've wasted 4 years at university as I am being forced to work full time now. 
I don't know what to do.

I hope you've contacted your doctor.  I know medication takes time to work, but you shouldn’t wait if your consumed with suicidal thoughts.  Reach out, they’re people waiting to help you.  You’re worth it M.

https://www.suicideline.org.au/?gclid=EAIaIQobChMInKGvwfj-5AIVhspkCh3oXw3ZEAAYASAAEgIdXPD_BwE

Thank you for your concern and for the link. I'll chat online to them if it gets worse.
I've been scared about these thoughts, I don't want to die. 
If they persist I'm booking in to see my GP tomorrow. 
I might ask my pharmacist too. They told me to try tough out the next 2-3 days with the nausea and dizziness, I should have asked about the thoughts. I'm not feeling sick today. I had my capsule not long ago and am feeling a bit clearer and am distracting myself with reading for my university assignment. Yesterday and this morning I was feeling very bad, crying whilst eating breakfast and in the shower, now it's gone away and I feel a bit better, maybe because I took my capsule. If these thoughts get worse I'll definitely see my GP or use that service.

Thoughts_Arrive

I feel so trapped and disappointed. I have spent 4 years at university and graduate this year if I pass this final subject.
I have no motivation to go on to do further studies and my growing debt is making me anxious.
I don't know what to do. I've been devastated because I feel I've wasted 4 years of my life and accrued a debt for nothing.
I cannot go on living like this. I need to find a career using what I've studied so far. I need a regular income, I need to move out of home and make my own life away from my parents. I need freedom. I need to be someone a woman would want to date.

I feel like I will never find my purpose in life. I feel like I will never find a career that is right for me.
I feel lost. I feel confused.

The social security are forcing me to look for full time work.
I told them relentless bullying has impacted my mental health and I am fearful and dreading going back to working knowing I'll be targeted again because every job I have had I've been bullied. I went back to university so I don't have to work in such environments again.
They told me to use my GP's medical certificate and ask the social security agency to put me through a mental health assessment to see if I qualify for unfit to work status. I don't want to be bullied again, it's destroyed my confidence and mental health further than it was already destroyed. 

Thoughts_Arrive

Sorry Rob, I'm taking the focus away from you. 
I'm more than happy to start a thread for depression sufferers. 

lastexitlondon

No way m. Its not about focus on me.
Stay here its for all of us. Meds do have that effect. Its a tough one to advise on .  The start up is as rough as the taper off .  Im not a great advocate of meds but who am i. Ive become an addict so its all drugs 

lastexitlondon

I too had another medical assesment  and the lady bless her stopped the interview  and said i dont have to ask anymore questions.  I was destressed so much so that she took me out the back way to avoid others seeing me.  They are always so sad they focus on what you can no longer do. I believe you are at a point of real enlightenment  and this is where  you will turn it all around.  You are actively  making changes. Keep going my dear friend.

Fifthelement

mickeyrat said:

  https://www.vox.com/the-highlight/2019/9/17/20863016/anxiety-app-phone-gamification

This article was really interesting mickey.  Might be another useful tool for some people to have.

Fifthelement

Sending you both, Rob and M, warm thoughts and healing vibes.

Thoughts_Arrive

Thank you S and Rob.
Rob, I send you strength, keep fighting bud.

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lastexitlondon

Hey be kind. We are all different  and if T.A is feeling  the way he is doesnt mean you can relate obvs not. Sometimes man you need some soul . 

lastexitlondon

You  cannot only use your own experience as its yours. Not his. Please 

Thoughts_Arrive

I've been depressed and on medication for years, please don't question what I've been diagnosed with by a number of mental health professionals. It's attitudes like yours "are you really depressed?" that makes people scared to admit they have a problem and seek help. Your toughen up and get on with it attitude does not work well for those with depression/anxiety or other mental conditions. Have you thought that it is their illness that stops them from doing that? Do you think I'd choose to live like this?

What they are asking is unreasonable given my history and the fact that I won't be able to study full time and work full time. For your info, I said I am willing to work part time shifts on weekends whilst studying. Yeah no worries about my health, just go and get back to full time work without having addressed your anxiety about returning to work first by seeing a psychologist. 

I'm glad to know you don't care (and perhaps others here) that relentless bullying at every job I've had has impacted my self-esteem, confidence and made me scared to go back. You don't fucking know, have you been called a faggot, asked if you have sucked a cock last night, picked on for being gay (even though I am not), been physically intimidated, stared at all the time, harassed, called stupid etc. You don't know my work history. 

And I will not suddenly stop taking medications without guidance from my GP, you do not suddenly stop antidepressants, you're meant to slowly taper off them as directed. Doing what you suggested is harmful. Don't give advice where you are not qualified to do so.

Good for you that you did not need antidepressants. Don't you fucking dare call me lazy. Have you ever thought that it is because of my depression and anxiety that I struggle to "put in the hard work to win the battle". It robs you of hope and makes you see things in a negative light. You obviously have no idea what it is like. If I was lazy I would not have spent the past 4 years working hard at university and achieving high grades. 

I'm pretty pissed off at some of the things in your post.

HughFreakingDillon

Thoughts_Arrive said:

I've been depressed and on medication for years, please don't question what I've been diagnosed with by a number of mental health professionals. It's attitudes like yours "are you really depressed?" that makes people scared to admit they have a problem and seek help. Your toughen up and get on with it attitude does not work well for those with depression/anxiety or other mental conditions. Have you thought that it is their illness that stops them from doing that? Do you think I'd choose to live like this?

What they are asking is unreasonable given my history and the fact that I won't be able to study full time and work full time. For your info, I said I am willing to work part time shifts on weekends whilst studying. Yeah no worries about my health, just go and get back to full time work without having addressed your anxiety about returning to work first by seeing a psychologist. 

I'm glad to know you don't care (and perhaps others here) that relentless bullying at every job I've had has impacted my self-esteem, confidence and made me scared to go back. You don't fucking know, have you been called a faggot, asked if you have sucked a cock last night, picked on for being gay (even though I am not), been physically intimidated, stared at all the time, harassed, called stupid etc. You don't know my work history. 

And I will not suddenly stop taking medications without guidance from my GP, you do not suddenly stop antidepressants, you're meant to slowly taper off them as directed. Doing what you suggested is harmful. Don't give advice where you are not qualified to do so.

Good for you that you did not need antidepressants. Don't you fucking dare call me lazy. Have you ever thought that it is because of my depression and anxiety that I struggle to "put in the hard work to win the battle". It robs you of hope and makes you see things in a negative light. You obviously have no idea what it is like. If I was lazy I would not have spent the past 4 years working hard at university and achieving high grades. 

I'm pretty pissed off at some of the things in your post.

Ignore him. seriously, don't even respond. he is of no help to anyone here. 

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