A safe place for anxiety sufferers to share.

Meltdown99

Once you hit 40 you will not even care about your own birthday.  But seriously who gives a shit if people wish you a happy birthday.

Thoughts_Arrive

HughFreakingDillon said:

Thoughts_Arrive said:

I have booked an appointment with a GP for this afternoon for an ear complaint. Not sure if I should say I want to go off my medication. I feel it does nothing at all. It's stopped working. Waste of money. Been on medication for 5 yrs approx now.

don't go off of it without your GP knowing. it was the worst mistake i ever made! if it isn't working, then fine, but talk about other options with him/her. 

Nah I wouldn't do that. You're meant to manage the tapering off with your GP's guidance to avoid side effects.
If it were working I wouldn't have this intense self-loathing and feelings of not being loved by anyone.
But given that I am still at university and unemployed would it be bad to go off? These are two big stressors. 

Thoughts_Arrive

Meltdown99 said:

Once you hit 40 you will not even care about your own birthday.  But seriously who gives a shit if people wish you a happy birthday.

I hope I stop caring one day.

HughFreakingDillon

Thoughts_Arrive said:

HughFreakingDillon said:

Thoughts_Arrive said:

I have booked an appointment with a GP for this afternoon for an ear complaint. Not sure if I should say I want to go off my medication. I feel it does nothing at all. It's stopped working. Waste of money. Been on medication for 5 yrs approx now.

don't go off of it without your GP knowing. it was the worst mistake i ever made! if it isn't working, then fine, but talk about other options with him/her. 

Nah I wouldn't do that. You're meant to manage the tapering off with your GP's guidance to avoid side effects.
If it were working I wouldn't have this intense self-loathing and feelings of not being loved by anyone.
But given that I am still at university and unemployed would it be bad to go off? These are two big stressors. 

it depends if the meds are actually working, or if you require something different and/or some therapy to go with it. i'm no shrink, but it seems to me that a lot of your issues stem from things that have happened to you over the course of your life. for me, it wasn't that at all. just one day i started crying at random times when i didn't even think i was sad. i was at work and all of a sudden just burst into tears. i was literally dumbfounded as to why. i thought i felt fine. just fucking bawling. so i went to the doc. and that was 20 years ago. many bumps in the road (again, biggest mistake was going off the meds-that made my life hell for 2 years). 

i don't know if the self-loathing is depression or some type of deep seeded issue from years of emotional abuse on behalf of your mother. anyone who grows up in that type of environment is bound to have issues resulting from it. 

again, i'm not trying to claim i know anything or think i can diagnose anybody. just my opinion on things i've seen you post. you are in this never ending spiral of hating yourself and the world around you. and to be completely honest, you don't seem all that open to helping yourself. you ask for it, then dismiss the answer. i strongly suggest you see a professional and look into your past and how it affects your present. 

feel free to pm me if you want to take this off the boards. 

Thoughts_Arrive

Thanks dude.
I am confused with whether or not they are working. Like, would I be worse without them? 

njnancy

Thoughts_Arrive said:

Thanks dude.
I am confused with whether or not they are working. Like, would I be worse without them? 

That's a question you need to ask your doctor.  NEVER stop taking medication suddenly,  you can go  through withdrawal & possibly endanger your life.  Not a decision to make on your own or here.  Please see your doctor about any medication issues. 

HughFreakingDillon

he did already confirm he doesn't plan to quit the meds without his doc's advice, so we're all good there. 

HughFreakingDillon

Thoughts_Arrive said:

Thanks dude.
I am confused with whether or not they are working. Like, would I be worse without them? 

do you recall being worse or the same prior to taking the meds? are you on a low, dose, medium, or high?

njnancy

HughFreakingDillon said:

he did already confirm he doesn't plan to quit the meds without his doc's advice, so we're all good there. 

I wasn't sure even after reading the new posts so I got nervous.  Been there, done that. Thank you. 

Thoughts_Arrive

njnancy said:

HughFreakingDillon said:

he did already confirm he doesn't plan to quit the meds without his doc's advice, so we're all good there. 

I wasn't sure even after reading the new posts so I got nervous.  Been there, done that. Thank you. 

thanks for your concern. One day recently I forgot to take my medication. I take them first thing in the morning. It was evening and I noticed they were still in my pocket as I take them in secret so my parents don't see. I totally freaked out. I didn't feel off that day, maybe a bit tired.

Thoughts_Arrive

HughFreakingDillon said:

Thoughts_Arrive said:

Thanks dude.
I am confused with whether or not they are working. Like, would I be worse without them? 

do you recall being worse or the same prior to taking the meds? are you on a low, dose, medium, or high?

Worse beforehand. They've helped. But I just feel they've stopped working as this whole year has been rough.
30mg, medium?

Thoughts_Arrive

I just finished my daily workout. It's hard to get motivated to do it but I manage to get on my bike and feel better afterwards, if not only for a short time. 

Meltdown99

You need to make changes in your life.  Have you thought of moving out and getting a job.  Being responsible for self would be a good start.  I left home at 22 and would never move back home no matter what.  Family can drive you bat shit crazy.  I know mine and they still do

Thoughts_Arrive

I applied for 2 jobs recently and got rejected. It's hard to get back into the workforce, my confidence is shot after pretty bad bullying in my last job and bullying before that in other jobs. Need to balance it with university studies which are intense, especially next year. I feel trapped. 

Thoughts_Arrive

So I got prescribed a different class of drug which I am anxious to swap to but feel I need to as the other one's have stopped working.
I hope I don't suffer any bad side effects.
I can get free psychologist sessions at my local GP clinic which I'll attend.

Meltdown99

To be honest you come here with your problems and refuse to take peoples advice.  Why is that?  All people can do is offer advice.  It is up to you to get your life in gear.  I believe you said you are in your 30’s.  We all get rejected from jobs.  You gotta keep trying.  I retired and am now back to work.  I went to be around other people... yes work can be social. 
Do not mistake bullying at work for frustration.  Work can be frustrating.  But life is frustrating at times.  And living at home at your age is part of the problem.  Are afraid of the real world?

Thoughts_Arrive

Just learned one of my best friends is going through a very tough time due to a lot going on in life and is struggling to hold it together emotionally.
I feel so worried about him and trying to give him the best words of support I can.

Thoughts_Arrive

Meltdown99 said:

To be honest you come here with your problems and refuse to take peoples advice.  Why is that?  All people can do is offer advice.  It is up to you to get your life in gear.  I believe you said you are in your 30’s.  We all get rejected from jobs.  You gotta keep trying.  I retired and am now back to work.  I went to be around other people... yes work can be social. 
Do not mistake bullying at work for frustration.  Work can be frustrating.  But life is frustrating at times.  And living at home at your age is part of the problem.  Are afraid of the real world?

Because it all feels overwhelming and anxiety provoking.
I don't know where to start and how to cope.
It sure wasn't frustration, it was bullying. Mocking me for things about me. 

lastexitlondon

Sorry to just pop up . I have to write here  i cant stop crying and i feel the end is near. My mum says to go to hospital  but im scared of the repercussions on my kids if they keep me there.  I cant go on . Nothing works . Nothing. 
Hey T.A you are a good soul. Never ever forget that amd in the end that  is all that  counts  in this world of asshats. I can promise you will rise and fly as soon as you let go. Just  let go of your family of your insecurities.  Remember ive seen you  and you are a normal  guy . And life is there outside of your enclosed world. Travel . If one thing pearl jam did for me is they got me to many countries in europe and i met friends for life that are my family. Love to all of you here. I mean that. Love

Thoughts_Arrive

lastexitlondon said:

Sorry to just pop up . I have to write here  i cant stop crying and i feel the end is near. My mum says to go to hospital  but im scared of the repercussions on my kids if they keep me there.  I cant go on . Nothing works . Nothing. 
Hey T.A you are a good soul. Never ever forget that amd in the end that  is all that  counts  in this world of asshats. I can promise you will rise and fly as soon as you let go. Just  let go of your family of your insecurities.  Remember ive seen you  and you are a normal  guy . And life is there outside of your enclosed world. Travel . If one thing pearl jam did for me is they got me to many countries in europe and i met friends for life that are my family. Love to all of you here. I mean that. Love

Hey Rob,
So sorry to read about how you're feeling and thank you for your kind words.
Sadly, I may look okay on the outside but on the inside it's different.

May I ask, what repercussions you are scared of?
It should be seen as a positive, that you're working on your mental recovery.