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  • camsjam
    camsjam Posts: 375
    lastexitlondon said:
    You guys are in my heart.
    And you are in all of ours Rob....we all wish the best for you.
  • Thoughts_Arrive
    Thoughts_Arrive Melbourne, Australia Posts: 15,165
    lastexitlondon said:
    Im sitting here crying i have my phone appointment  in 2 hours  which will decide when i go in for colonoscopy.  I cant breathe feel sick and need the toilet. 
    I know  whoever calls me will be kind but as i look at my 23 month old. With my 44th birthday in A week  and a who/ed gig tomorrow  .  Im scared . Im scared to death.  Years  ive had feelings of wanting it all to end. 
    All i really want is peace.  No more hollow heart.  No more stomach wrenching .
    No more  fear. 
    I cant have that. A dutch friend said now i must put control in someone elses hands. 
    Ive never done that
    I had one of those last year. It's nothing scary if that helps in any way.
    Adelaide 17/11/2009, Melbourne 20/11/2009, Sydney 22/11/2009, Melbourne (Big Day Out Festival) 24/01/2014
  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,904
    I guess it depends on the result and your symptoms


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  • Thoughts_Arrive
    Thoughts_Arrive Melbourne, Australia Posts: 15,165
    lastexitlondon said:
    I guess it depends on the result and your symptoms
    I thought I had bowel cancer, lucky it was nothing. Was slightly anxious.
    Adelaide 17/11/2009, Melbourne 20/11/2009, Sydney 22/11/2009, Melbourne (Big Day Out Festival) 24/01/2014
  • HughFreakingDillon
    HughFreakingDillon Winnipeg Posts: 39,485
    lastexitlondon said:
    This had already cost a few  gigs and flights  and hotels. I dont care about money. Just that  the  beating i give myself is relentless  and others are saying  come on it will be fine.  You can do it.  Its ONLY nerves. 
    WRONG. I will never book a gig in advance again. On the  day if i can i will go. But i wont plan anything  anymore. If i survive this cancer scare that is.
    i keep telling myself I won't buy tickets in advance anymore either. so much stress leading up to the show. I skipped only a rare couple over the years, but it still sucked the life out of me leading up to the show. But now that I'm on the upswing, I can buy tickets in advance again. you'll get there. I know you don't think so, but you will. 
    By The Time They Figure Out What Went Wrong, We'll Be Sitting On A Beach, Earning Twenty Percent.




  • brianlux
    brianlux Moving through All Kinds of Terrain. Posts: 43,664
    lastexitlondon said:
    I guess it depends on the result and your symptoms
    Let us know how it goes, Rob.  Good thoughts going out to you!
    "It's a sad and beautiful world"
    -Roberto Benigni

  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,904
    Thank you brian.
    Today  im going to see ED if it's  the last thing i do. 


    this song is meant to be called i got shit,itshould be called i got shit tickets-hartford 06 -
  • oftenreading
    oftenreading Victoria, BC Posts: 12,856
    lastexitlondon said:
    Thank you brian.
    Today  im going to see ED if it's  the last thing i do. 
    Go get ‘em, Rob!!
    my small self... like a book amongst the many on a shelf
  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,904
    oftenreading said:
    lastexitlondon said:
    Thank you brian.
    Today  im going to see ED if it's  the last thing i do. 
    Go get ‘em, Rob!!
    This made me cry with pride. 
    The day i tried to live is in my mind. 


    this song is meant to be called i got shit,itshould be called i got shit tickets-hartford 06 -
  • stuckinline
    stuckinline Posts: 3,406
    edited July 2019
    lastexitlondon said:
    Im sitting here crying i have my phone appointment  in 2 hours  which will decide when i go in for colonoscopy.  I cant breathe feel sick and need the toilet. 
    I know  whoever calls me will be kind but as i look at my 23 month old. With my 44th birthday in A week  and a who/ed gig tomorrow  .  Im scared . Im scared to death.  Years  ive had feelings of wanting it all to end. 
    All i really want is peace.  No more hollow heart.  No more stomach wrenching .
    No more  fear. 
    I cant have that. A dutch friend said now i must put control in someone elses hands. 
    Ive never done that
    lastexitlondon, congrats on getting front row at a show and holding Ed's hand!
    Try not to get discouraged, hang in there until they can figure out what's going on.
    Focus on your 23 month old, he/she needs you more than you know.
    Keep us posted.
    Post edited by stuckinline on
  • Meltdown99
    Meltdown99 None Of Your Business... Posts: 10,739
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  • mickeyrat
    mickeyrat Posts: 44,472
    how was the show for you, dude? did you make it through?
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  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,904
    I made it. Got wasted so im ashamed but that day went by ok. No its the hard work. Again and again i try


    this song is meant to be called i got shit,itshould be called i got shit tickets-hartford 06 -
  • Meltdown99
    Meltdown99 None Of Your Business... Posts: 10,739
    Glad you had a great time.  Yes, anxiety is hard work and at the height of anxiety, it can also be physically tiring.  One day at a time...
    Give Peas A Chance…
  • Annafalk
    Annafalk Sweden Posts: 4,004
    lastexitlondon said:
    I made it. Got wasted so im ashamed but that day went by ok. No its the hard work. Again and again i try
    I’m so happy for you!!!, You made it !!!!
  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,904
    edited July 2019
    No the hard work. 
    Post edited by lastexitlondon on


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  • mickeyrat
    mickeyrat Posts: 44,472
    edited July 2019
    lastexitlondon said:
    I made it. Got wasted so im ashamed but that day went by ok. No its the hard work. Again and again i try
    ashamed of what? seriously. If you are in fact an alcoholic, you simply did what an alcoholic does. theres no shame in that.

    now, if the above is true or not, what from this experience can you learn and  use going forward  to benefit yourself and others?
    Post edited by mickeyrat on
    _____________________________________SIGNATURE________________________________________________

    Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
    you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
    memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
    another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,904
    I had some positive  news. Dr. Re examined  me and said he now thinks what he feels is a tendon  as now after a very ....well... deep inspection found both sides the same. So is sure tendons. And it does not explain my symptoms but it does eliminate one risk. That what he referred  me for was not what he thought  after further  examinations.
    I will still have the procedure because symptoms  need  explaining but its a big lift


    this song is meant to be called i got shit,itshould be called i got shit tickets-hartford 06 -
  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,904
    mickeyrat said:
    lastexitlondon said:
    I made it. Got wasted so im ashamed but that day went by ok. No its the hard work. Again and again i try
    ashamed of what? seriously. If you are in fact an alcoholic, you simply did what an alcoholic does. theres no shame in that.

    now, if the above is true or not, what from this experience can you learn and  use going forward  to benefit yourself and others?
    I really dont know. 
    Live for today?
    Don't  give in if you have a breath in you.
    Live your dream.
    Just be.


    this song is meant to be called i got shit,itshould be called i got shit tickets-hartford 06 -
  • HughFreakingDillon
    HughFreakingDillon Winnipeg Posts: 39,485
    lastexitlondon said:
    I had some positive  news. Dr. Re examined  me and said he now thinks what he feels is a tendon  as now after a very ....well... deep inspection found both sides the same. So is sure tendons. And it does not explain my symptoms but it does eliminate one risk. That what he referred  me for was not what he thought  after further  examinations.
    I will still have the procedure because symptoms  need  explaining but its a big lift
    awesome news
    By The Time They Figure Out What Went Wrong, We'll Be Sitting On A Beach, Earning Twenty Percent.




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