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  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,904
    Brian fear is a motherfucker . Hang in there I'm trying the same in the face of the worst feeling  I can remember  having


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  • Gingerlou77
    Gingerlou77 Posts: 429
    lastexitlondon said:
    This is so awful I have nowhere  to turn. Every service I tried turned me back to the last one who didn t want .me.  saw my g.p again after 1 month of not seeing him. Im so fuckin desperate for these symptoms  to abate i cant carry on. 
    I don't know your history but have you been seen by the crisis team?x 
  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,904
    Yes before now. And I had am emergency  assessment in which they said they would contact me with a plan . I heard nothing  for 1 month  until I phoned back at my Dr request. They then said they won't be sending me to their  services. 


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  • HughFreakingDillon
    HughFreakingDillon Winnipeg Posts: 39,485
    lastexitlondon said:
    Yes before now. And I had am emergency  assessment in which they said they would contact me with a plan . I heard nothing  for 1 month  until I phoned back at my Dr request. They then said they won't be sending me to their  services. 
    are they saying why to all of these rejections?
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  • Gingerlou77
    Gingerlou77 Posts: 429
    lastexitlondon said:
    Yes before now. And I had am emergency  assessment in which they said they would contact me with a plan . I heard nothing  for 1 month  until I phoned back at my Dr request. They then said they won't be sending me to their  services. 
    I'm sorry, you're being failed.  Hang in there, baby steps. Will you be at the London shows?xx 
  • PJ_Soul
    PJ_Soul Vancouver, BC Posts: 50,681
    HughFreakingDillon said:
    lastexitlondon said:
    Yes before now. And I had am emergency  assessment in which they said they would contact me with a plan . I heard nothing  for 1 month  until I phoned back at my Dr request. They then said they won't be sending me to their  services. 
    are they saying why to all of these rejections?
    I was going to ask the same thing. If you know why they're saying no, it's easier to find a way to make them say yes.
    With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be careful. Strive to be happy. ~ Desiderata
  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,904
    edited June 2018
    They said I have had many kinds of counselling  and need to try and remember  it and apply it. They don't know what to do with me because  I tried all their meds and none helped . I'm not taking their  tablets so basically  they can't offer anything  else. Until I attempt suicide  and have a plan  for it. I'm phoning  the emergency  help line today. I can't  stay awake. And I'm in turmoil  in my sleep . It's not fair on my family . My brain and body are now giving up.  
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  • Thoughts_Arrive
    Thoughts_Arrive Melbourne, Australia Posts: 15,165
    Pretty sad that the mental health care where you live is so poor.
    I hope you find a way dude.
    Hang in there.
    Adelaide 17/11/2009, Melbourne 20/11/2009, Sydney 22/11/2009, Melbourne (Big Day Out Festival) 24/01/2014
  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,904

    I know my own body and something is horribly  wrong.  But as I ask each time I'm greeted  with anxiety . Well this time these last 8 months  on mental and physical  deterioration I'm told even that I'm doing well because of my "chronic health anxiety " yes the new word for hyercondria. Well i don't  post here often  anymore as it's going on and on over the same old ground and some get pissed off and I also get scared . It's hard for a 42 year old man father of 4 to say I'm scared to death  but I am. No amount of drugs will make it stop legal or illegal ones. I decided to type here out of despair  and to give my girlfriend  a break from me constantly  . And I mean constantly  asking her for help and reassurance which I know I'm not to do. I'm just writing this as I sit alone with the phone in hand wondering  who to ask for help. I'm not sure samaratins or mental health line. I will call my g.p at 8.30 because  they say I can if I am in despair. But even 8.30 seems to far away. It's 6.42am


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  • Thoughts_Arrive
    Thoughts_Arrive Melbourne, Australia Posts: 15,165
    Hang in there bud.
    Try samaritans until 8.30 comes around.
    Don't worry about pissing people off here. It's a place of support not judgment. 
    It takes a man to express his feelings, in your case, fear, disregard societal expectations of manhood. 
    Adelaide 17/11/2009, Melbourne 20/11/2009, Sydney 22/11/2009, Melbourne (Big Day Out Festival) 24/01/2014
  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,904
    Many thanks
    Phoned mental health line not worth the call
     So I am waiting.  Will try gp


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  • brianlux
    brianlux Moving through All Kinds of Terrain. Posts: 43,664
    lastexitlondon said:
    Many thanks
    Phoned mental health line not worth the call
     So I am waiting.  Will try gp
    Good thoughts for you, my friend.
    "It's a sad and beautiful world"
    -Roberto Benigni

  • giventofly69
    giventofly69 Vancouver Posts: 850
    lastexitlondon said:

    I know my own body and something is horribly  wrong.  But as I ask each time I'm greeted  with anxiety . Well this time these last 8 months  on mental and physical  deterioration I'm told even that I'm doing well because of my "chronic health anxiety " yes the new word for hyercondria. Well i don't  post here often  anymore as it's going on and on over the same old ground and some get pissed off and I also get scared . It's hard for a 42 year old man father of 4 to say I'm scared to death  but I am. No amount of drugs will make it stop legal or illegal ones. I decided to type here out of despair  and to give my girlfriend  a break from me constantly  . And I mean constantly  asking her for help and reassurance which I know I'm not to do. I'm just writing this as I sit alone with the phone in hand wondering  who to ask for help. I'm not sure samaratins or mental health line. I will call my g.p at 8.30 because  they say I can if I am in despair. But even 8.30 seems to far away. It's 6.42am
    I've skimmed through parts of this thread...
    Please do keep posting here Lastexit if it helps you.  Like Thoughts_Arrive said ... it's a place of support not judgment.
    Hearts and thoughts to you.
    "Your light's reflected now, reflected from afar. We were but stones, your light made us stars."
  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,904
    edited June 2018
    I'm about to do the hardest thing a guy with chronic  health anxiety  could do in the quest for a breath of air. For 3 hours of heaven. But it costs everything. I'm going to Amsterdam  for the day tomorrow  to chase the dream I always  had. But now it's different.  But remember  me for never giving up and until the last breath I chased my dream though  so ill I can't  understand  how and what I'm doing. Loud love. Rob
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  • oftenreading
    oftenreading Victoria, BC Posts: 12,856
    lastexitlondon said:
    I'm about to do the hardest thing a guy with chronic  health anxiety  could do in the quest for a breath of air. For 3 hours of heaven. But it costs everything. I'm going to Amsterdam  for the day tomorrow  to chase the dream I always  had. But now it's different.  But remember  me for never giving up and until the last breath I chased my dream though  so ill I can't  understand  how and what I'm doing. Loud love. Rob
    Good for you!! You rock, LEL. 
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  • SmallestOceans
    SmallestOceans Posts: 13,542
    lastexitlondon said:
    I'm about to do the hardest thing a guy with chronic  health anxiety  could do in the quest for a breath of air. For 3 hours of heaven. But it costs everything. I'm going to Amsterdam  for the day tomorrow  to chase the dream I always  had. But now it's different.  But remember  me for never giving up and until the last breath I chased my dream though  so ill I can't  understand  how and what I'm doing. Loud love. Rob
    Safe travels Rob. So you won’t be at tonight’s show but tomorrow’s? You gonna try to get near the rail?
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  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,904
    Well the sick  people will be coming out and queue straight  from tonight so I will be there 9am. But who knows where that will get me.i feel really ill and spaced out but im doing it . This is. This is my......last exit


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  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,904
    Do you know Frank.  My polish friend and her husband have my other Krakow ticket said I do not have to pay for it so they said spend the money on this.


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  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,904
    I'm so grateful  and I do believe  if you do good . Then good comes back. This show and the Krakow one have been paid for by  dear friends


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  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,904
    Also as if chronic  health anxiety  is not hard enough  can you actually  believe  my baby daughter is ill. My partner  has just thrown up from a migraine. And I have to feed the rest of the kids whilst feeling personalized  and spaced out. I swear I could just fuckin blow my brains out.


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