A safe place for anxiety sufferers to share.

lastexitlondon

I haven't found any. At the moment my brain won't work. I wake and have a blank vacancy. I believe im loosing my mind i have a hollow gap where my thoughts used to be

brianlux

lastexitlondon said:

I haven't found any. At the moment my brain won't work. I wake and have a blank vacancy. I believe im loosing my mind i have a hollow gap where my thoughts used to be

In 1994, in the midst of a terrible life crisis, I self published a little book under the pseudonym "Joe West" that  I called Get Into Your Skull".  I gave a copy to my best friend to reading hoping he would appreciate how much work I put into it.  The next time I saw him I asked what he thought about the book.  I kind of shook his head and said, "Dude, you need to get out of your skull more."    Though I still think the book is fine the way it is (it was an honest and said what I needed to say at the time), at the time, I was bummed and offended by what he said but eventually (and ever since), I took that to be some of the best advice I ever had.

It sounds like you're in what I and others have referred to as "being in the spin cycle" where thoughts become self-fulfilled prophesy.  (That's another assessment another friend  or two said of of me and I bristled at the notion, taking offense at it but later recognized the validity of their words.) 

Grab onto what is good and works, lastexit.  Grab on and hold on.  Your life depends on it.  Go out for long brisk walks.  Do stuff with your kids.  Take care of your body too.  We used to say "you are what you eat".  That's true too.  Drink lots of water, get fresh air, exercise.  Be good to your body. 

And don't over-think stuff. 

Keep us post.  I really wish you well.

Thoughts_Arrive

lastexitlondon said:

I haven't found any. At the moment my brain won't work. I wake and have a blank vacancy. I believe im loosing my mind i have a hollow gap where my thoughts used to be

Try a different psychologist. Surely you will find one that works for you. I wish you well.

lastexitlondon

Thank you very much for being here during my night time. If i survive i will be back to let you know. The people who replied on here are true kind souls. 

brianlux

lastexitlondon said:

Thank you very much for being here during my night time. If i survive i will be back to let you know. The people who replied on here are true kind souls. 

It's late out here (12:40 AM)  Gonna hit the pillow.  Hope to see you here tomorrow, last exit!

Thoughts_Arrive

lastexitlondon said:

Thank you very much for being here during my night time. If i survive i will be back to let you know. The people who replied on here are true kind souls. 

Have you tried mindfulness and meditation? 

chime

lastexitlondon said:

Im 42 and have extreme health anxiety. At the moment i fear i have cancer and i fear i have dementia. Even typing the words im crying its 3am here i spent yesterday taking valium and sleeping because i can't face a day. Now it starts again. I gave up drinking 10 days ago after 3 weeks prior abstaining on week days then binges on weekends. Im trying to say my brain is readjusting but my memory is gone and i can't think of anything. Scared is an understatement.  I have globus sensation so im told i believe cancer. 
I can't read the words properly i may have to leave the forum a while

Hi.  I mentioned before that my Mum suffers from severe health anxiety.  I don't know how much to mention as I don't want to act as a trigger for you.  With my Mum it is also centered on having cancer (the location of which will depend on her symptoms at that time) but I wanted to respond as you mentioned globus.  My Mum suffered from globus hystericus off and on (largely on) for well over a year and  she too believed this was cancer.

My Mum found this video and the exercises it contained  useful https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-M-S5Ie-5PQ

Please do let me know if you would rather me not respond and discuss what has happened with my Mum as I would not wish to be a trigger for you.

RogueStoner

Lastexit, sorry to read that you're struggling again. I would've been on here too but I restarted my meds just a couple days ago and actually slept last night. Starting to feel a little better. Enough to repeat Brian's words..."hold on for dear life". Don't give up. Remember, stress can cause the cancer you fear. And please don't stress over THAT now too. Good thoughts to you.

brianlux

LastExit, how are you doing?  Give us a holler.

lastexitlondon

Ive called my dr.  I can't go on. Im loosing my memory and im petrified.  Im sorry i can't believe this is not some kind of dementia.

lastexitlondon

My only hope is that quitting alcohol 2 weeks ago has contributed to this. But i doubt it. Im toast

Shyner

Never forget that in your death
The lord is with you
All the kings and queens unite
To be with you. 
Don't die it hurts my stomach. 
The heart needs prayer
Goodnight

mickeyrat

lastexitlondon said:

Ive called my dr.  I can't go on. Im loosing my memory and im petrified.  Im sorry i can't believe this is not some kind of dementia.

absolutely tell him about stopping drinking and the amount you were before you stopped.

stuckinline

lastexitlondon said:

My only hope is that quitting alcohol 2 weeks ago has contributed to this. But i doubt it. Im toast

Hang in there. Remember, there are many good people on this forum that are here for you.

curmudgeoness

Hi folks,
I'm popping in here for myself and for my kid. The kid has OCD (and a bunch of other stuff) that leads to anxiety, and it's flaring pretty badly right now as graduation (I hope!) approaches. He is substance-free and has been off all meds, by choice, for eight years or so. {Someone mentioned Lexapro up-thread; that was a nightmare for us, but the kid has multiple neuro issues, so a med for problem A will make problem B worse, etc.} But, he's struggling a lot right now, to the point where he has said he might need meds.

I have more than my share of anxiety -- some I come by honestly, the rest I got from my kid -- and depression that has been pretty severe over the past few years. I've worked hard -- literally, if you check out the "shape up" thread, I work out 18+ hours a week for my mental health more than for my physical health -- and, with my kids semi-launched, I've been able to bring the depression under control and make slow but steady progress in tackling the anxiety. But when my kid goes off a cliff, he often takes me with him.

If anyone feels comfortable sharing, I would like to know your thoughts about marijuana as a treatment for anxiety and OCD. I've read research that suggests that CBD might be the miracle chemical that addresses both my kid's anxiety and his seizures. On the other hand, we've tried enough medications over the years to know that there is no miracle cure-all, and most meds don't help everyone with a particular disorder.   

And, courage to everyone posting here. There are more of us there than it seems.

Thoughts_Arrive

Hey lastexitlondon,
How are ya man?

lastexitlondon

Hi im getting words confused and muddled things are bad. I spoke to my dr and my phycologist and both said its not dementia. Me im so fuckin sure im loosing my mind im petrified

lastexitlondon

Thanks for caring all of you. Love 
Rob

lastexitlondon

Sorry i haven't been able to be on here im just so scared i may be loosing my cognitive functions

Natashapearljamfan

lastexitlondon said:

Sorry i haven't been able to be on here im just so scared i may be loosing my cognitive functions


I'm sending you best wishes, lastexit. I'm hoping this shall pass very soon. I'm sending you a big hug too. Do you have an strategies to try and distract yourself from your thoughts?