A safe place for anxiety sufferers to share.

lastexitlondon

My only hope is that quitting alcohol 2 weeks ago has contributed to this. But i doubt it. Im toast

Shyner

Never forget that in your death
The lord is with you
All the kings and queens unite
To be with you. 
Don't die it hurts my stomach. 
The heart needs prayer
Goodnight

mickeyrat

lastexitlondon said:

Ive called my dr.  I can't go on. Im loosing my memory and im petrified.  Im sorry i can't believe this is not some kind of dementia.

absolutely tell him about stopping drinking and the amount you were before you stopped.

stuckinline

lastexitlondon said:

My only hope is that quitting alcohol 2 weeks ago has contributed to this. But i doubt it. Im toast

Hang in there. Remember, there are many good people on this forum that are here for you.

curmudgeoness

Hi folks,
I'm popping in here for myself and for my kid. The kid has OCD (and a bunch of other stuff) that leads to anxiety, and it's flaring pretty badly right now as graduation (I hope!) approaches. He is substance-free and has been off all meds, by choice, for eight years or so. {Someone mentioned Lexapro up-thread; that was a nightmare for us, but the kid has multiple neuro issues, so a med for problem A will make problem B worse, etc.} But, he's struggling a lot right now, to the point where he has said he might need meds.

I have more than my share of anxiety -- some I come by honestly, the rest I got from my kid -- and depression that has been pretty severe over the past few years. I've worked hard -- literally, if you check out the "shape up" thread, I work out 18+ hours a week for my mental health more than for my physical health -- and, with my kids semi-launched, I've been able to bring the depression under control and make slow but steady progress in tackling the anxiety. But when my kid goes off a cliff, he often takes me with him.

If anyone feels comfortable sharing, I would like to know your thoughts about marijuana as a treatment for anxiety and OCD. I've read research that suggests that CBD might be the miracle chemical that addresses both my kid's anxiety and his seizures. On the other hand, we've tried enough medications over the years to know that there is no miracle cure-all, and most meds don't help everyone with a particular disorder.   

And, courage to everyone posting here. There are more of us there than it seems.

Thoughts_Arrive

Hey lastexitlondon,
How are ya man?

lastexitlondon

Hi im getting words confused and muddled things are bad. I spoke to my dr and my phycologist and both said its not dementia. Me im so fuckin sure im loosing my mind im petrified

lastexitlondon

Thanks for caring all of you. Love 
Rob

lastexitlondon

Sorry i haven't been able to be on here im just so scared i may be loosing my cognitive functions

Natashapearljamfan

lastexitlondon said:

Sorry i haven't been able to be on here im just so scared i may be loosing my cognitive functions


I'm sending you best wishes, lastexit. I'm hoping this shall pass very soon. I'm sending you a big hug too. Do you have an strategies to try and distract yourself from your thoughts? 

Thoughts_Arrive

Glad to hear back from ya. Hang in there man. Come here anytime to seek support.

brianlux

Good to hear from you lastexit.  Wait for that next ray of sunshine, quiet moment, super thrill, great song, or what ever gets you through!

Annafalk

One day on the way to work, I watched some really good stand up comedy, it actually got my mood up for hours.
 I hope everyone will have a stress free, good day today. Take care and love of yourselves and the ones around you! 

lastexitlondon

Im loosing my grip . Ive tried everything . I speak weekly to my dr and im loosing my mind . 
Im so desperate . I think i want to survive but im feelinh like i can't last another day. I wish this was all over.

Fifthelement

I'm so sorry to hear that you are@lastexitlondon.  If you are feeling the need to end things than I urge you to seek help.  You are not alone.  You are loved.  You are worthy and worth saving.

United Kingdom Suicide Hotlines

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Thoughts_Arrive

Fifthelement said:

I'm so sorry to hear that you are@lastexitlondon.  If you are feeling the need to end things than I urge you to seek help.  You are not alone.  You are loved.  You are worthy and worth saving.

United Kingdom Suicide Hotlines

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Samaritans UK & ROI 
National 
Contact by: Face to Face  - Phone  - Letter:  - E-mail: 
Hotline: +44 (0) 8457 90 90 90 (UK - local rate)
Hotline: +44 (0) 8457 90 91 92 (UK minicom)
Hotline: 1850 60 90 90 (ROI - local rate)
Hotline: 1850 60 90 91 (ROI minicom)
Website: samaritans.org
E-mail Helpline: jo@samaritans.org
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This!
Lastexit, please hang in there.
Your purpose on this planet is important and your job here is not yet done. Sunny skies will come in time. Believe in that.

lastexitlondon

Big love to all of you and it means the world at this time. Im going back to my dr today.

RogueStoner

Wondering how everyone survived the holidays?

I was doing so great that last week...cheerful and happy and so relaxed despite all the last minute stuff. Had a great Christmas Eve dinner with my family...until the grinch showed up (my mother). The visit went so well that my dumb ass went and texted her that we had such a nice time with her and Merry Christmas. And BOOM! Christmas went to shit. Time of death...9:25. 
She texted back with a list of what's wrong with me and the same advice she gave me as a kid. If someone is being an asshole, it's always MY fault. I fucking lost it. Told her to fuck off and burn in hell for teaching me that and setting me up for a lifetime of abuse. And then I blocked her in every way possible. She is now dead to me forever. And good riddance! I coped with a bottle of Fireball. Passed out by noon on Christmas, so overall, it went well. 

curmudgeoness

RogueStoner said:

Wondering how everyone survived the holidays?

I was doing so great that last week...cheerful and happy and so relaxed despite all the last minute stuff. Had a great Christmas Eve dinner with my family...until the grinch showed up (my mother). The visit went so well that my dumb ass went and texted her that we had such a nice time with her and Merry Christmas. And BOOM! Christmas went to shit. Time of death...9:25. 
She texted back with a list of what's wrong with me and the same advice she gave me as a kid. If someone is being an asshole, it's always MY fault. I fucking lost it. Told her to fuck off and burn in hell for teaching me that and setting me up for a lifetime of abuse. And then I blocked her in every way possible. She is now dead to me forever. And good riddance! I coped with a bottle of Fireball. Passed out by noon on Christmas, so overall, it went well. 

Good for you. Seriously. I found that taking that step was an essential part of shedding my baggage, feeling better about myself, and making positive changes in my life. I hope you can move forward and be kind to yourself.  

Shyner

My anxiety has peaked
I'm searching for a way out
No need to reply
I want this
No compromise b#####s

lastexitlondon

Hold on if you can

Thoughts_Arrive

RogueStoner said:

Wondering how everyone survived the holidays?

I was doing so great that last week...cheerful and happy and so relaxed despite all the last minute stuff. Had a great Christmas Eve dinner with my family...until the grinch showed up (my mother). The visit went so well that my dumb ass went and texted her that we had such a nice time with her and Merry Christmas. And BOOM! Christmas went to shit. Time of death...9:25. 
She texted back with a list of what's wrong with me and the same advice she gave me as a kid. If someone is being an asshole, it's always MY fault. I fucking lost it. Told her to fuck off and burn in hell for teaching me that and setting me up for a lifetime of abuse. And then I blocked her in every way possible. She is now dead to me forever. And good riddance! I coped with a bottle of Fireball. Passed out by noon on Christmas, so overall, it went well. 

Sounds like my estranged sister. My life has been better since she's gone out of my life.

lastexitlondon

Im completely petrified i can even sleep because when i do i wake so distressed by my confusion i cant go on because im petrified i have a neurological problem that spells the end of my sanity. Im sorry to post symptoms and i won't anymore as i can't read about them myself. Im jusr reaching out because im so alone

RogueStoner

@lastexitlondon you are not alone. And your brain chemistry is just fucking with you. I know that doesn't make it any easier to deal with. It's not fair. I'm in my dark place too so I can't offer any help except to tell you that you aren't alone in this struggle. 

mickeyrat

lastexitlondon said:

Im completely petrified i can even sleep because when i do i wake so distressed by my confusion i cant go on because im petrified i have a neurological problem that spells the end of my sanity. Im sorry to post symptoms and i won't anymore as i can't read about them myself. Im jusr reaching out because im so alone

fwiw you are posting clear and lucid statements. from this laymans seat, your cognitive abilities arent impaired.

lastexitlondon

Thank you both i visited my dr and he prescribed new meds which  im reluctant to try. Also said i should not stop drinking totally because i have now given up everything and its left me isolated and with no enjoyment in life. Very depressed. My official diagnosis is of severe anxiety . Depression. And obsessive behaviour. 
Im still abstaining from alcohol for now. Its been 4.5 weeks i think

mickeyrat

lastexitlondon said:

Thank you both i visited my dr and he prescribed new meds which  im reluctant to try. Also said i should not stop drinking totally because i have now given up everything and its left me isolated and with no enjoyment in life. Very depressed. My official diagnosis is of severe anxiety . Depression. And obsessive behaviour. 
Im still abstaining from alcohol for now. Its been 4.5 weeks i think

smart move imo on abstaining from the drink. to help combat at least some of the isolation, which isnt good for you on several levels, is to at least try some aa meetings? and or seek out some other support groups that may be in your area?

all you have lost is perhaps a bit of your time.

brianlux

lastexitlondon said:

Thank you both i visited my dr and he prescribed new meds which  im reluctant to try. Also said i should not stop drinking totally because i have now given up everything and its left me isolated and with no enjoyment in life. Very depressed. My official diagnosis is of severe anxiety . Depression. And obsessive behaviour. 
Im still abstaining from alcohol for now. Its been 4.5 weeks i think

Sounds like you're doing the right things, lastexit.  I'm sure it's not been easy so kudos for giving it your best.

Thoughts_Arrive

brianlux said:

lastexitlondon said:

Thank you both i visited my dr and he prescribed new meds which  im reluctant to try. Also said i should not stop drinking totally because i have now given up everything and its left me isolated and with no enjoyment in life. Very depressed. My official diagnosis is of severe anxiety . Depression. And obsessive behaviour. 
Im still abstaining from alcohol for now. Its been 4.5 weeks i think

Sounds like you're doing the right things, lastexit.  I'm sure it's not been easy so kudos for giving it your best.

+1

lastexitlondon

Many thanks. Im now looking at this perscription wondering do i try medication again for what feels like the 100th time. And sit and wait for side effects to scare the shit out of me. Or do i sit it out for some more weeks. I wake so fuckin confused and distressed every single time i sleep. But my dt explained quite well about the brain. But i still don't believe him. ..... health anxiety hey!