My plan is to try anti depressents again sober. If i make it to January. I have help with substance and mental help planned and i dont know if i will make it or succeed but its my last try . Like i say if i last till then. This time of year and my frame of mind no way i can stop now.
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I had my appointment with my psychologist today. He asked me to put myself out there and go to as many events as possible in the next month. Alone or with someone. Main thing is I spend as little time at home as possible, to overcompensate with social activities.
He wants me to take risks meeting people.
And then he wants to see if that makes me feel better.
I saw my GP today too and unbeknownst to me, the psychiatrist I saw 2 weeks ago recommended an anti-anxiety drug as she observed that I was very anxious. I told my GP I don't want to take it. I don't feel I need it. I am always very anxious in appointments.
Anyways, I decided to go to my favourite cafe alone for coffee and lunch after my appointment. My psychologist wants me to not focus on being alone at places I go to, to not link it back to me.
So, I need to find places/events to go to in the next month. Gosh I wish I had more friends. My few friends are so busy that I cannot just call them and catch up at short notice. Not easy when people are busy with work, relationships, kids.
I think this is a huge step and could prove very fruitful for you. Of course going out on your own can feel really strange and if you are not use to it makes it feel like a risk. With that said I think it is great you went out to get some food by yourself , don't focus on friends whom are busy , as I get older you realize everyone is always busy and has stuff going on. Also great on you for getting in that exercise this past weekend , hope it helped I know it can be tough and can feel like a lost cause when you are doing it , I feel the real benefits comes the following day when you wake up.
Yes i drink. Im not on meds. I started using cannabis about 6 months ago . Ive had these symptoms 2.5 years i feel its worse now. But i need to try escape the horrible confusion. Nothing stops it only i care less when fucked up
you recently told me you follow drs orders with meds. like last week. I seem to recallbyou ssying they prescribed valium and it made you sleep alot the first few days and you stopped.
so which is it?
what do you have to lose by following drs orders to the letter? seriously. if, as you believe, this thing only you can sense or "know" about your brain is getting worse in your opinion, what do you have to lose?
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No the valium is to be taken occasionally and thats how i use it. Rarely. The dr hasnt prescribed anything anymore.As ive had so many ssri meds. But i asked if i could try again so that is the plan. And although ive had no results i will try them again. I have had long periods on them and its not changed it at all. Thats all im saying
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No the valium is to be taken occasionally and thats how i use it. Rarely. The dr hasnt prescribed anything anymore.As ive had so many ssri meds. But i asked if i could try again so that is the plan. And although ive had no results i will try them again. I have had long periods on them and its not changed it at all. Thats all im saying
stop drinking at least on them. essentially renders them ineffective to their intended purpose.
Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
I had my appointment with my psychologist today. He asked me to put myself out there and go to as many events as possible in the next month. Alone or with someone. Main thing is I spend as little time at home as possible, to overcompensate with social activities.
He wants me to take risks meeting people.
And then he wants to see if that makes me feel better.
I saw my GP today too and unbeknownst to me, the psychiatrist I saw 2 weeks ago recommended an anti-anxiety drug as she observed that I was very anxious. I told my GP I don't want to take it. I don't feel I need it. I am always very anxious in appointments.
Anyways, I decided to go to my favourite cafe alone for coffee and lunch after my appointment. My psychologist wants me to not focus on being alone at places I go to, to not link it back to me.
So, I need to find places/events to go to in the next month. Gosh I wish I had more friends. My few friends are so busy that I cannot just call them and catch up at short notice. Not easy when people are busy with work, relationships, kids.
I think this is a huge step and could prove very fruitful for you. Of course going out on your own can feel really strange and if you are not use to it makes it feel like a risk. With that said I think it is great you went out to get some food by yourself , don't focus on friends whom are busy , as I get older you realize everyone is always busy and has stuff going on. Also great on you for getting in that exercise this past weekend , hope it helped I know it can be tough and can feel like a lost cause when you are doing it , I feel the real benefits comes the following day when you wake up.
Thanks Matts.
I woke up today thinking what the hell to do in the next month. No idea other than catch up with 4 friends, see the new Star Wars film, and attend a Christmas party my art teacher is hosting. Not sure what else is on in my city.
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I had my appointment with my psychologist today. He asked me to put myself out there and go to as many events as possible in the next month. Alone or with someone. Main thing is I spend as little time at home as possible, to overcompensate with social activities.
He wants me to take risks meeting people.
And then he wants to see if that makes me feel better.
I saw my GP today too and unbeknownst to me, the psychiatrist I saw 2 weeks ago recommended an anti-anxiety drug as she observed that I was very anxious. I told my GP I don't want to take it. I don't feel I need it. I am always very anxious in appointments.
Anyways, I decided to go to my favourite cafe alone for coffee and lunch after my appointment. My psychologist wants me to not focus on being alone at places I go to, to not link it back to me.
So, I need to find places/events to go to in the next month. Gosh I wish I had more friends. My few friends are so busy that I cannot just call them and catch up at short notice. Not easy when people are busy with work, relationships, kids.
I think this is a huge step and could prove very fruitful for you. Of course going out on your own can feel really strange and if you are not use to it makes it feel like a risk. With that said I think it is great you went out to get some food by yourself , don't focus on friends whom are busy , as I get older you realize everyone is always busy and has stuff going on. Also great on you for getting in that exercise this past weekend , hope it helped I know it can be tough and can feel like a lost cause when you are doing it , I feel the real benefits comes the following day when you wake up.
Thanks Matts.
I woke up today thinking what the hell to do in the next month. No idea other than catch up with 4 friends, see the new Star Wars film, and attend a Christmas party my art teacher is hosting. Not sure what else is on in my city.
It is encouraging you have things to look forward to. Consider the possibility of volunteering for an organization to help those in need. Giving back may help to boost your self esteem.
Please, for your sake, just DO IT already. Volunteering has been suggested by many of us over the years as a way for you to step outside of yourself, to do something positive, to maybe interact...nothing to lose, so much to gain.
(and it might help boost your confidence in the process)
I was (still am, hits me in waves) mourning the loss of a very close friend. Without sharing details, I apologized and have been ghosted. Instead of continuing to give huge energy to the hurt, I started a new volunteer opportunity. Every two weeks, I step outside of myself and my grief to help those who really need it. It has helped in an enormous way.
I was (still am, hits me in waves) mourning the loss of a very close friend. Without sharing details, I apologized and have been ghosted. Instead of continuing to give huge energy to the hurt, I started a new volunteer opportunity. Every two weeks, I step outside of myself and my grief to help those who really need it. It has helped in an enormous way.
So sorry to hear. That must really hurt. I cannot imagine how I'd cope if I lost my best friend. I feared that might happen a couple of years ago when Iost my cool at him. The hard part is putting myself out there to volunteer. I'm glad to hear it has helped you.
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Hello everybody. Been checking in but not really posting. Got stuff to deal with but sending healing thoughts and energy to everyone. Glad you're trying to get some help Rob. You're a kind person who we all want to see be happy and healthy!! Keep fighting for yourself...you are worth it! And you as well TA. You need to get Mom out of your head and realize she has a problem...not you. And what everyone else said...get out off there and do something good. If alot of people is something you're not ready for maybe there's animal opportunities you could try. Comforting animals who will never say a mean word to you feels so peaceful. Plus I think most people who really care about animals are overall kinder nicer people. Hang in there everyone.
I really am pulling for you even though I don't know you. I thin that you come on and post is a good thing. Some people just slip away not talking to anyone. As much as you feel hopeless posting shows you still care.
Thoughts
Also doing some sort of volunteering is huge. To go to a soup kitchen can sometimes make you realize that others are struggling so hard and to give them a helping hand and see their thankfulness can put things in perspective for you. Not that your pain should be minimized at all ( we all have the right to feel hurt of sad ) but it just opens your eyes to certain things going on.
For me I have to say the gym has been huge ( all I do is jog on the treadmill ) for anyone feeing nervous about a gym I can tell you my fears are all gone , no one is looking at you or judging you they are there to just work on themselves. Being going 3-4 times a week for the past three weeks for about 45-60 mins at a time. May not work for everyone but I highly suggest it. That said I have been suggesting it to myself for 10 years and finally joined a month ago.
TA, most people don't give a fuck; they're too concerned with themselves.
Hell, when I go for physical therapy, my mindset is of the don't-give-a-fuck variety. We're all there for something, for improvement of some sort. All struggling, all in pain, all persevering and even triumphing. Who gives a shit if it gets awkward?
TA, most people don't give a fuck; they're too concerned with themselves.
Hell, when I go for physical therapy, my mindset is of the don't-give-a-fuck variety. We're all there for something, for improvement of some sort. All struggling, all in pain, all persevering and even triumphing. Who gives a shit if it gets awkward?
TA, most people don't give a fuck; they're too concerned with themselves.
Hell, when I go for physical therapy, my mindset is of the don't-give-a-fuck variety. We're all there for something, for improvement of some sort. All struggling, all in pain, all persevering and even triumphing. Who gives a shit if it gets awkward?
LIFE is awkward. We all are.
+1
You wanna see awkward? You should see me dance.
One of these days, Elaine. I’ll be doing “the kick” right there with you
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I have help with substance and mental help planned and i dont know if i will make it or succeed but its my last try . Like i say if i last till then. This time of year and my frame of mind no way i can stop now.
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I think this is a huge step and could prove very fruitful for you. Of course going out on your own can feel really strange and if you are not use to it makes it feel like a risk.
With that said I think it is great you went out to get some food by yourself , don't focus on friends whom are busy , as I get older you realize everyone is always busy and has stuff going on.
Also great on you for getting in that exercise this past weekend , hope it helped I know it can be tough and can feel like a lost cause when you are doing it , I feel the real benefits comes the following day when you wake up.
Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
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Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
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I went and asked because i cant take anymore
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(and it might help boost your confidence in the process)
Rob, my best thoughts to you.
I was (still am, hits me in waves) mourning the loss of a very close friend. Without sharing details, I apologized and have been ghosted. Instead of continuing to give huge energy to the hurt, I started a new volunteer opportunity. Every two weeks, I step outside of myself and my grief to help those who really need it. It has helped in an enormous way.
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Another bad night .
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I really am pulling for you even though I don't know you. I thin that you come on and post is a good thing. Some people just slip away not talking to anyone. As much as you feel hopeless posting shows you still care.
Thoughts
Also doing some sort of volunteering is huge. To go to a soup kitchen can sometimes make you realize that others are struggling so hard and to give them a helping hand and see their thankfulness can put things in perspective for you. Not that your pain should be minimized at all ( we all have the right to feel hurt of sad ) but it just opens your eyes to certain things going on.
For me I have to say the gym has been huge ( all I do is jog on the treadmill ) for anyone feeing nervous about a gym I can tell you my fears are all gone , no one is looking at you or judging you they are there to just work on themselves. Being going 3-4 times a week for the past three weeks for about 45-60 mins at a time. May not work for everyone but I highly suggest it. That said I have been suggesting it to myself for 10 years and finally joined a month ago.
Hell, when I go for physical therapy, my mindset is of the don't-give-a-fuck variety. We're all there for something, for improvement of some sort. All struggling, all in pain, all persevering and even triumphing. Who gives a shit if it gets awkward?
LIFE is awkward. We all are.
You wanna see awkward? You should see me dance.
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