A safe place for anxiety sufferers to share.

GlowGirl · October 2020

lastexitlondon said:

Its all closing in on me. One of my best friends and tour buddy has covid a couple of streets up. Fuck all this

I know it is a scary time. I hope your friend will be ok. As a few people above mentioned, people recover from it. I had it in March and fully recovered in about 10 days. I hope your friend will have the same outcome. Try to focus on that. All we can do it try to take all the precautions we can. As Matts suggested, maybe try to do something nice for your friend. That can help you feel better as well. I hope you both feel better soon.

brianlux · October 2020

Tonight I'm as nervous as a long tailed cat in a room full of rocking chairs. My wife is flying tomorrow to Alaska for two weeks (all kinds of reasons to be worried about that) and next Tuesday is... (need I say more?).

Fifthelement · October 2020

@lastexitlondon I add my good wishes that your friend makes a full and complete recovery. @brianlux I understand your anxiety. You are not alone regarding Tuesday anxiety. Safe travels to your wife.

brianlux · October 2020

Fifthelement said:

@lastexitlondon I add my good wishes that your friend makes a full and complete recovery. @brianlux I understand your anxiety. You are not alone regarding Tuesday anxiety. Safe travels to your wife.

Thanks, Fifth!

Rob, buddy, hang in there. We're here for you!

lastexitlondon · October 2020

Ive got myself is a right mess.
Long story, i got fixated on my health in a way i never found. Food. Fucked up.
Im weak and angry and tired and i dont know whats right to do. I feel like i know you friends. And i actually was sitting crying thinking that i will never meet you all , i had the feeling i would love to but it made me sad.
I have addiction issues i am dangerous to myself in a way not suicide way but im trapped and as i have 4 kids 2 are out at work in this horrible pandemic it kills my soul and i burry it under substance. Cant get away from hiding.

Fifthelement · October 2020

@lastexitlondon I feel your fear and frustration Rob. Sending you love and hugs. I know it’s not much, but it’s what I’ve got to give. ((((Hugs))))

lastexitlondon · October 2020

Fifthelement said:

@lastexitlondon I feel your fear and frustration Rob. Sending you love and hugs. I know it’s not much, but it’s what I’ve got to give. ((((Hugs))))

Thank you so much for caring. It does mean a lot

Matts3221 · October 2020

Rob:

I think maybe 50 pages back I said one day we would go to a PJ show in your neck of the woods , that I would love to fly out and actual meet you and I do believe that will still happen. Maybe 2022 , 2023 , all I know is once this has pass and it will , I will be living life to the fullest , no longer putting off a trip for another year. Or not go to a show because whatever the band is will come back later that year. Keep the hope Rob , I don't have addiction issues , so I don't want to say anything there. My wife is 7 1/2 years clean off of opioids , I can just say that Zoom NA meetings have been very helpful for her. You don't have to show you face or even talk if you don't want too. Sometimes just hearing others in the same boat can bring comfort. Just know I do think of you as a friend.

@brianlux I think all of us are just waiting for Tuesday. I have a lot of hope though I really do.

brianlux · October 2020

Matts3221 said:

Rob:
I think maybe 50 pages back I said one day we would go to a PJ show in your neck of the woods , that I would love to fly out and actual meet you and I do believe that will still happen. Maybe 2022 , 2023 , all I know is once this has pass and it will , I will be living life to the fullest , no longer putting off a trip for another year. Or not go to a show because whatever the band is will come back later that year. Keep the hope Rob , I don't have addiction issues , so I don't want to say anything there. My wife is 7 1/2 years clean off of opioids , I can just say that Zoom NA meetings have been very helpful for her. You don't have to show you face or even talk if you don't want too. Sometimes just hearing others in the same boat can bring comfort. Just know I do think of you as a friend.

@brianlux I think all of us are just waiting for Tuesday. I have a lot of hope though I really do.

Yes, Matts, let's keep the hope going!

Rob, I hope your hanging in there.

what dreams · October 2020

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Matts3221 · November 2020

So of course as an American I have been very anxiety ridden this whole election but last night took it too a new level.

Trump speaking from the white house was one of the scariest things I have ever seen in my life. The sad part is I knew he would say these things , however to actual hear them coming out of his mouth and literally trying to have legal votes throw away because he is losing shook me to my core.

I started to shake , my wife took me upstairs. This morning I feel better I know the rule of law will stand , however the actions of this man will effect our country far past this election as many of his supports will believe anything that is coming out of his mouth.

I could not speak , I could not sleep ( at least not longer than an hour last night ) , eating has fallen off the scale the past couple of days. I know everyone around the world is most likely also having trouble with this behavior. I just needed a place to vent it and I hope this post did not make anyone else start to feel anxious.

Fifthelement · November 2020

(((Hugs))) to you @Matts3221. I hope that you’re doing better today. I understand your anxiety and your fears.

Matts3221 · November 2020

Fifthelement said:

(((Hugs))) to you @Matts3221. I hope that you’re doing better today. I understand your anxiety and your fears.

Thank you! The election called just mins ago to Biden and I’m just crying on my couch in joy

GlowGirl · November 2020

Matts3221 said:

Fifthelement said:

(((Hugs))) to you @Matts3221. I hope that you’re doing better today. I understand your anxiety and your fears.

Thank you! The election called just mins ago to Biden and I’m just crying on my couch in joy

Tears of joy are great. Many of us are feeling relief today. It’s like holding your breath for four years and finally getting to exhale.

HughFreakingDillon · November 2020

feel like america, and by extension, the planet, may have dodged a bullet getting that sack of shit out of the white house. who know what he would have done in a second term with no need to cater to anyone but himself and his party.

mickeyrat · November 2020

RogueStoner said:

Do those of you who keep journals ever go back and read them? I have a hard time doing that. Either it’s too painful or I feel stupid for being in the same situation over and over again.

This is the start of a difficult season for me. Every year it’s the same. I’m fighting suicidal urges while trying to pretend to be in the holiday spirit. I can’t really talk to anyone. The people I trusted are dead. The rest I no longer trust. I had my first therapy appointment but the audio cut out for half of it. Not that it mattered. It’ll take a long time for me to open up again, even to a therapist. Maybe I’m beyond help.

In addition to journaling, I started writing letters to certain people. I’ll never send them but it’s a way of getting closure I hope. At least I finally realized I need to do this for myself. None of the people I’m writing to are worth my time or my thoughts. I just have to get rid of this anger and resentment and move on. And be grateful for the friends that are worth keeping and truly care about me.

why try to front holiday spirit? you don't feel it, fine. seems an awful lot of unnecessary work to do what exactly? Appease those around you? Fuck that noise.

lastexitlondon · November 2020

I wrote journals and man so sad to read. Really knock the guts out of me.

HughFreakingDillon · November 2020

lastexitlondon said:

I wrote journals and man so sad to read. Really knock the guts out of me.

do you play any instrument Rob? ever considered picking up a guitar or a uke and just letting it bleed?

lastexitlondon · November 2020

Yes i play guitar a bit and bass a bit

HughFreakingDillon · November 2020

lastexitlondon said:

Yes i play guitar a bit and bass a bit

ever write music?

HughFreakingDillon · November 2020

you journal, so you have material for lyrics.....put it together with some music. could be intensely therapeutic. at least i find it sometimes to be.

lastexitlondon · November 2020

I never did do that

hedonist · November 2020

I cannot see my travails paired with music. I think I’d start laughing

lastexitlondon · November 2020

Ive fucking gone under. I woke at 2am. So i watched a pod cast it had tony hawks on so I though safe. They then went on to talk about head injuries i thought maybe i should stop as i have symptoms and i have health anxiety over brain disorders.
I googled some shit i havent done that in years now i can't breathe and i need help.

23scidoo · November 2020

lastexitlondon said:

Ive fucking gone under. I woke at 2am. So i watched a pod cast it had tony hawks on so I though safe. They then went on to talk about head injuries i thought maybe i should stop as i have symptoms and i have health anxiety over brain disorders.
I googled some shit i havent done that in years now i can't breathe and i need help.

Put your mask on and go for walk R., take some fresh air..

OffSheGoes35 · November 2020

Also you might download the Plum Village app, it has Thich Nhat Hanh videos on it. He is the most soothing person to listen to on earth.

lastexitlondon · November 2020

Thank you i walked and called my dr. I cant carry on like this

Fifthelement · November 2020

Rob, I hope that you had a better day after talking to your doctor.

lastexitlondon · January 2021

Sorry to bring this page back up. But so many are in turmoil that I'm wearing it.
I feel the pain and the massive fear. I heard 1 person every 6 mins dying of covid in USA. My heart cant take it im serious I know we care but fuck man

Matts3221 · January 2021

I know saying deep breaths is such a generic thing to say but deep breaths , hold them for 5 seconds and let them out.

It is scary in the US right now , with that said vaccines are happening ( I know three people so far in the healthcare field who have gotten it and other than a slightly sore arm like the flu shoot for 1-3 days nothing else )

My mom is getting her first shot this week , we swore in a new president today.

None of this is going to fix everything but I feel more hope than I did a few months ago , they have ( at least in the US ) telling us how bad winter was going to be , that it would be our darkest days. So I knew it was coming and I know next month here in the US is going to worst than this month but again I have hope.

I can see light at the end of the tunnel. Everyone in my family is going to get the vaccine so once the summer rolls around we can at least all hang out as a family , I will take that over the past 10 months.

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