A safe place for anxiety sufferers to share.

GlowGirl

lastexitlondon said:

Its all closing in on me. One of my best friends  and tour buddy has  covid  a couple of streets up. Fuck all this 

I know it is a scary time. I hope your friend will be ok. As a few people above mentioned, people recover from it. I had it in March and fully recovered in about 10 days. I hope your friend will have the same outcome. Try to focus on that. All we can do it try to take all the precautions we can. As Matts suggested, maybe try to do something nice for your friend. That can help you feel better as well. I hope you both feel better soon.

brianlux

Tonight I'm as nervous as a long tailed cat in a room full of rocking chairs.  My wife is flying tomorrow to Alaska for two weeks (all kinds of reasons to be worried about that) and next Tuesday is... (need I say more?). 

Fifthelement

@lastexitlondon I add my good wishes that your friend makes a full and complete recovery.  @brianlux I understand your anxiety. You are not alone regarding Tuesday anxiety. Safe travels to your wife.

brianlux

Fifthelement said:

@lastexitlondon I add my good wishes that your friend makes a full and complete recovery.  @brianlux I understand your anxiety. You are not alone regarding Tuesday anxiety. Safe travels to your wife.

Thanks, Fifth!

Rob, buddy, hang in there. We're here for you!

lastexitlondon

Ive got myself is a right  mess. 
Long story, i got fixated on my health  in a way i never  found.  Food. Fucked up. 
Im weak and angry and tired  and i dont  know whats right  to do.  I feel like i know you friends. And i actually  was sitting crying  thinking  that i will never meet you all , i had the feeling i would love to but it made me sad.
I have addiction issues i am dangerous to myself in a way not suicide way but im trapped and as i have 4 kids 2 are out at work in this horrible pandemic it kills my soul and i burry it under substance. Cant get away from  hiding.

Fifthelement

@lastexitlondon I feel your fear and frustration Rob.  Sending you love and hugs.  I know it’s not much, but it’s what I’ve got to give.  ((((Hugs))))

lastexitlondon

Fifthelement said:

@lastexitlondon I feel your fear and frustration Rob.  Sending you love and hugs.  I know it’s not much, but it’s what I’ve got to give.  ((((Hugs))))

Thank you so much for caring. It does mean a lot

Matts3221

Rob:

             I think maybe 50 pages back I said one day we would go to a PJ show in your neck of the woods , that I would love to fly out and actual meet you and I do believe that will still happen. Maybe 2022 , 2023 , all I know is once this has pass and it will , I will be living life to the fullest , no longer putting off a trip for another year. Or not go to a show because whatever the band is will come back later that year. Keep the hope Rob , I don't have addiction issues , so I don't want to say anything there. My wife is 7 1/2 years clean off of opioids , I can just say that Zoom NA  meetings have been very helpful for her. You don't have to show you face or even talk if you don't want too. Sometimes just hearing others in the same boat can bring comfort. Just know I do think of you as a friend.

 @brianlux I think all of us are just waiting for Tuesday.  I have a lot of hope though I really do.

brianlux

Matts3221 said:

Rob:

             I think maybe 50 pages back I said one day we would go to a PJ show in your neck of the woods , that I would love to fly out and actual meet you and I do believe that will still happen. Maybe 2022 , 2023 , all I know is once this has pass and it will , I will be living life to the fullest , no longer putting off a trip for another year. Or not go to a show because whatever the band is will come back later that year. Keep the hope Rob , I don't have addiction issues , so I don't want to say anything there. My wife is 7 1/2 years clean off of opioids , I can just say that Zoom NA  meetings have been very helpful for her. You don't have to show you face or even talk if you don't want too. Sometimes just hearing others in the same boat can bring comfort. Just know I do think of you as a friend.

 @brianlux I think all of us are just waiting for Tuesday.  I have a lot of hope though I really do.

Yes, Matts, let's keep the hope going!

Rob, I hope your hanging in there.

what dreams

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Matts3221

So of course as an American I have been very anxiety ridden this whole election but last night took it too a new level.

Trump speaking from the white house was one of the scariest things I have ever seen in my life. The sad part is I knew he would say these things , however to actual hear them coming out of his mouth and literally  trying to have legal votes throw away because he is losing shook me to my core.

I started to shake , my wife took me upstairs. This morning I feel better I know the rule of law will stand , however the actions of this man will effect our country far past this election as many of his supports will believe anything that is coming out of his mouth.

I could not speak , I could not sleep ( at least not longer than an hour last night ) , eating has fallen off the scale the past couple of days. I know everyone around the world is most likely also having trouble with this behavior. I just needed a place to vent it and I hope this post did not make anyone else start to feel anxious.

Fifthelement

(((Hugs))) to you @Matts3221.  I hope that you’re doing better today.  I understand your anxiety and your fears.

Matts3221

Fifthelement said:

(((Hugs))) to you @Matts3221.  I hope that you’re doing better today.  I understand your anxiety and your fears.

Thank you! The election called just mins ago to Biden and I’m just crying on my couch in joy 

GlowGirl

Matts3221 said:

Fifthelement said:

(((Hugs))) to you @Matts3221.  I hope that you’re doing better today.  I understand your anxiety and your fears.

Thank you! The election called just mins ago to Biden and I’m just crying on my couch in joy 

Tears of joy are great. Many of us are feeling relief today. It’s like holding your breath for four years and finally getting to exhale. 

HughFreakingDillon

feel like america, and by extension, the planet, may have dodged a bullet getting that sack of shit out of the white house. who know what he would have done in a second term with no need to cater to anyone but himself and his party. 

mickeyrat

RogueStoner said:

Do those of you who keep journals ever go back and read them? I have a hard time doing that. Either it’s too painful or I feel stupid for being in the same situation over and over again. 

This is the start of a difficult season for me. Every year it’s the same. I’m fighting suicidal urges while trying to pretend to be in the holiday spirit. I can’t really talk to anyone. The people I trusted are dead. The rest I no longer trust. I had my first therapy appointment but the audio cut out for half of it. Not that it mattered. It’ll take a long time for me to open up again, even to a therapist. Maybe I’m beyond help. 

In addition to journaling, I started writing letters to certain people. I’ll never send them but it’s a way of getting closure I hope. At least I finally realized I need to do this for myself. None of the people I’m writing to are worth my time or my thoughts. I just have to get rid of this anger and resentment and move on. And be grateful for the friends that are worth keeping and truly care about me. 

why try to front holiday spirit? you don't feel it, fine. seems an awful lot of unnecessary work to do what exactly? Appease those around you? Fuck that noise.

lastexitlondon

I wrote journals and man so sad to read. Really knock the guts out of me. 

HughFreakingDillon

lastexitlondon said:

I wrote journals and man so sad to read. Really knock the guts out of me. 

do you play any instrument Rob? ever considered picking up a guitar or a uke and just letting it bleed?

lastexitlondon

Yes i play guitar a bit and bass a bit

HughFreakingDillon

lastexitlondon said:

Yes i play guitar a bit and bass a bit

ever write music?