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  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,915
    I agree with all you are saying. I do colouring in a book every morning for about 2 hours àlso. All great advice. Ive been cooking meals all of the above for last couple years. 


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  • hedonist
    hedonist Posts: 24,524
    evsgjamm said:
    Thx for the photo. The dirt looks like it smells good. 
    I don't know man... I will always hold out for brighter moods, learning and embracing self love (that's the biggest), real smiles, open conversations, busy days, great meals and even better sleeps. Those are my wishes being sent into your brain and heart forever and ever.
    That was beautifully put...and I think applies to us all as well :)

    Rob, as always, good energy and best of thoughts to you. 
  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,915
    edited January 2020
    Life is short.  So fuckin short.  Yet people like me waste it. 
    Ive been in thought and i have thought that im not equipped  for life anymore. The  shell i once had many years ago has gone.
    My son is 21 and he has called  me in tears today. He suffers as do my daughters.
    He is training to be an electrician. He has been sent under some floor and crawled through some asbestos. I cannot cope with this.  Hearing  him so panicked and upset. As i was and am. 
    As a builder when i was  young i had to do jobs where  people tried to force the young worker(me) to do work where  it was. My heart  is aching with distress for i recall  my constant fear not knowing if and when it will get me. I have no strength for any of lifes troubles.im lost


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  • Thoughts_Arrive
    Thoughts_Arrive Melbourne, Australia Posts: 15,165
    Asbestos is what scared me away from any trade career
    Adelaide 17/11/2009, Melbourne 20/11/2009, Sydney 22/11/2009, Melbourne (Big Day Out Festival) 24/01/2014
  • deadendp
    deadendp Northeast Ohio Posts: 10,434
    I grew up in an old farm house with asbestos in flooring and in walls. So far, we have all made it okay. 
    2014: Cincinnati
    2016: Lexington and Wrigley 1
  • stuckinline
    stuckinline Posts: 3,406
    lastexitlondon, please hang in there and know that we are here for you.
    I enjoyed your sunrise/sunset photos!
  • Matts3221
    Matts3221 Posts: 658

    LastExit

    Happy to log on today and see the progress being made , glad you have activities you are working on that bring some light to your days.

    I have been well and just a few low level panic attacks but nothing bad , being keeping up with the Gym and for me that really works just 40-60 mins or running 2-4 times a week depending on work.

    As always thinking of you and everyone on the board who is going thru hard times right now or feeling down. I know it does not work well for everyone but I started just a few days ago writing a "grateful list" includes my wife , family , friends even though they all live far away for the most part now , ect ect.

    I keep it by my desk and if I am upset or just having a hard time I take a look at it. Just a suggestion.


    Love to you all.

  • Fifthelement
    Fifthelement Lotusland Posts: 6,965
    Just checking in on everyone.  Hope you are all in a good place or at least a stable place where you’re managing to hold on.  Sending love and light to all who need it along with a reminder to be grateful for the small things.



    Semi-frozen fountain in front of our legislature building.
    "What the CANUCK happened?!? - Esquimalt Barber Shop
  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,915
    Im still getting stuck in my bed for days in a row. Still  sober and hating everything  about it. 
    I want to return the love and  say i had a realisation like matts family and loved ones go through  hell with you and some can't  stay the road and its not their fault i have the pain of watching  my older children in pain and its unbearable.  I am grateful for my mum and my partner and in the past my ex wife. I had  a long talk with my partner about my ex wife and how  my illness ruined her at a time when she had lost her mum and we had lost a son. 
    To anyone who is physically  capable . Get out there  and be in the light ,be it a garden ,a gig, a walk in all weather.  Love is often not appreciated.  Until its too late.


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  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,915
    Fifthelement said:
    Just checking in on everyone.  Hope you are all in a good place or at least a stable place where you’re managing to hold on.  Sending love and light to all who need it along with a reminder to be grateful for the small things.



    Semi-frozen fountain in front of our legislature building.
    Where is this beauty


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  • hedonist
    hedonist Posts: 24,524
    lastexitlondon said:
    Im still getting stuck in my bed for days in a row. Still  sober and hating everything  about it. 
    I want to return the love and  say i had a realisation like matts family and loved ones go through  hell with you and some can't  stay the road and its not their fault i have the pain of watching  my older children in pain and its unbearable.  I am grateful for my mum and my partner and in the past my ex wife. I had  a long talk with my partner about my ex wife and how  my illness ruined her at a time when she had lost her mum and we had lost a son. 
    To anyone who is physically  capable . Get out there  and be in the light ,be it a garden ,a gig, a walk in all weather.  Love is often not appreciated.  Until its too late.
    The last part, Rob - YOU do this too. Whatever it takes :)

    (and Fifth, that’s gorgeous)
  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,915
    Oh i do . I do i promise. I wonder  why i cant  get better. 


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  • Thoughts_Arrive
    Thoughts_Arrive Melbourne, Australia Posts: 15,165
    I hope everyone is well.
    Thanks to those of you who think of us.
    I'm doing fine. I saw my psychologist last week and it was all good from me. Didn't have anything bad to say. It's been a good month except for Christmas and New year's.
    Keeping busy with art and being social has helped. Plus I think the medication has started to work after 6 weeks on it.

    Still wishing I had a romantic relationship though.
    I have so much love I want to give to someone special but she has not entered my life yet (or maybe she already has and I don't know it).
    Adelaide 17/11/2009, Melbourne 20/11/2009, Sydney 22/11/2009, Melbourne (Big Day Out Festival) 24/01/2014
  • Fifthelement
    Fifthelement Lotusland Posts: 6,965
    lastexitlondon said:
    Im still getting stuck in my bed for days in a row. Still  sober and hating everything  about it. 
    I want to return the love and  say i had a realisation like matts family and loved ones go through  hell with you and some can't  stay the road and its not their fault i have the pain of watching  my older children in pain and its unbearable.  I am grateful for my mum and my partner and in the past my ex wife. I had  a long talk with my partner about my ex wife and how  my illness ruined her at a time when she had lost her mum and we had lost a son. 
    To anyone who is physically  capable . Get out there  and be in the light ,be it a garden ,a gig, a walk in all weather.  Love is often not appreciated.  Until its too late.
    Rob, I’m sorry that you’re still in pain.  I know that won’t go away completely any time soon, but you’re able to count the great and small blessings in your life and that is truly something.  Same goes for you T_A.  The fact that each are trying as hard as you can to stay sober, to stay on meds, to create, to live, says that you haven’t given up on yourselves yet.  Yay!  We haven’t given up on you guys either.

    Rob, the picture was taken in front of the British Columbia legislature in Victoria, BC.
    "What the CANUCK happened?!? - Esquimalt Barber Shop
  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,915
    Which meds did you find helpful . T.A



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  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,915
    Canada  is a place i so nearly went to in 2006.
    It may be too late with the life im in now to go.  But its on my list if life changed


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  • Thoughts_Arrive
    Thoughts_Arrive Melbourne, Australia Posts: 15,165
    edited January 2020
    Thanks S. Too kind.
    Rob, I'm on Effexor.
    Lexapro was helpful for 4 or so years then stopped helping so I switched to Effexor
    Adelaide 17/11/2009, Melbourne 20/11/2009, Sydney 22/11/2009, Melbourne (Big Day Out Festival) 24/01/2014
  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,915
    Thoughts_Arrive said:
    Thanks S. Too kind.
    Rob, I'm on Effexor.
    And if you  dont mind what dose was helpful. Ive tried most and I've done some  research  that im sad with. 


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  • Thoughts_Arrive
    Thoughts_Arrive Melbourne, Australia Posts: 15,165
    lastexitlondon said:
    Thoughts_Arrive said:
    Thanks S. Too kind.
    Rob, I'm on Effexor.
    And if you  dont mind what dose was helpful. Ive tried most and I've done some  research  that im sad with. 
    Every dose and drug works differently for everyone so what works for me might not work for you or might work better than it does for me.
    I was on 30mg of Lexapro.
    I'm on 150mg of Effexor after trying 75mg.
    Adelaide 17/11/2009, Melbourne 20/11/2009, Sydney 22/11/2009, Melbourne (Big Day Out Festival) 24/01/2014
  • Matts3221
    Matts3221 Posts: 658

    Not that any illness is the same but in case I have not said before.

    200mg of Zoloft a day

    3mg of Clonozopam (sp) a day ( 1mg in the AM , at lunch and after Dinner )

    Rob glad to hear that you know there is hope , I put this board down as something I am grateful for , if I am down someone will pick me back up and I love being able to just give the love to those who are having a hard time.


    Thought

    I promise love yourself for all you are and you will find someone. Dating apps can be hard because some are mean on them but for the most part they are nice , I met my now wife via OK Cupid in 2011 ( no mobile app then still logging on to my computer )


    Have a great day everyone

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