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  • njnancy
    njnancy Posts: 5,096
    Thank you for the understanding & kindness @HughFreakingDillon & @Fifthelement .

    I can mask it most of the time,  we all wear lots of masks to pretend we're fine (f'ed up, insecure, needy & emotional) but kindness when I show vulnerability  feels so  good.

    Glad you got on medication HFD, it helps. I finally found what worked for a long time, this is just a monster that needs an ass kicking, along with those who caused   destruction & damage. But I'm going with healing thoughts tonight,  dwelling on it is  self defeating . 

    Thank you. 🤗❤
  • hedonist
    hedonist Posts: 24,524
    Keep on with the healing thoughts.  We all need them sometimes ;)
  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,904
    edited September 2019
    In our hearts . All of us here are caring people.  Emotional  caring  people. 
    The way the world is we suffer most. 
    Im so done with suffering. Nancy you  are strong . So strong and an inspiration to me also mickey  and hedo  all manage   To confront this with no substance  is to me heroic.
    Post edited by lastexitlondon on


    this song is meant to be called i got shit,itshould be called i got shit tickets-hartford 06 -
  • Fifthelement
    Fifthelement Lotusland Posts: 6,965
    Fifthelement said:
    @njnancy sending warm, healing thoughts your way.  Hold on. . . One day at a time.  I hear your exhaustion and wish I could help you carry this burden.  I just want you to know, and anyone else who needs to hear it, that we are here for you.  We wish you healing and zither strength to stand up and to keep living to the best of your ability everyday.

    ((((Hugs))))
    Wtf is zither strength?  Lol. Damn you autocorrect! *waves fist futilely towards the heavens*
    "What the CANUCK happened?!? - Esquimalt Barber Shop
  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,904
    I will take some zither strength  for sure


    this song is meant to be called i got shit,itshould be called i got shit tickets-hartford 06 -
  • Fifthelement
    Fifthelement Lotusland Posts: 6,965
    lastexitlondon said:
    I will take some zither strength  for sure


    A zither for you Rob ❤️
    "What the CANUCK happened?!? - Esquimalt Barber Shop
  • mickeyrat
    mickeyrat Posts: 44,454
    lastexitlondon said:
    In our hearts . All of us here are caring people.  Emotional  caring  people. 
    The way the world is we suffer most. 
    Im so done with suffering. Nancy you  are strong . So strong and an inspiration to me also mickey  and hedo  all manage   To confront this with no substance  is to me heroic.
    appreciate that but I have only dealt with situational anxiety. nothing clinical or chronic.
    I come here to offer what ever support I can.
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  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,904
    Fifthelement said:
    lastexitlondon said:
    I will take some zither strength  for sure


    A zither for you Rob ❤️
    Wow how even would one approach  playing that. Amazing


    this song is meant to be called i got shit,itshould be called i got shit tickets-hartford 06 -
  • mickeyrat
    mickeyrat Posts: 44,454
    edited September 2019
    seems very similar to a dulcimer.



    Post edited by mickeyrat on
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    Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
    you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
    memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
    another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
  • hedonist
    hedonist Posts: 24,524
    mickeyrat said:
    lastexitlondon said:
    In our hearts . All of us here are caring people.  Emotional  caring  people. 
    The way the world is we suffer most. 
    Im so done with suffering. Nancy you  are strong . So strong and an inspiration to me also mickey  and hedo  all manage   To confront this with no substance  is to me heroic.
    appreciate that but I have only dealt with situational anxiety. nothing clinical or chronic.
    I come here to offer what ever support I can.
    Same here.

    Desecrating this thread (or the people within it) is tantamount to kicking someone when they're down.
  • njnancy
    njnancy Posts: 5,096
    Fifthelement said:
    Fifthelement said:
    @njnancy sending warm, healing thoughts your way.  Hold on. . . One day at a time.  I hear your exhaustion and wish I could help you carry this burden.  I just want you to know, and anyone else who needs to hear it, that we are here for you.  We wish you healing and zither strength to stand up and to keep living to the best of your ability everyday.

    ((((Hugs))))
    Wtf is zither strength?  Lol. Damn you autocorrect! *waves fist futilely towards the heavens*
    Damn, I thought it was some PJ special thing,  like the flying meatball thingamajig. 

    I was waiting for some zither strength to arrive on a mandolin wind. 

    I'm thankful for the standard strength though,  anything helps. 
  • hedonist
    hedonist Posts: 24,524
    njnancy said:
    Fifthelement said:
    Fifthelement said:
    @njnancy sending warm, healing thoughts your way.  Hold on. . . One day at a time.  I hear your exhaustion and wish I could help you carry this burden.  I just want you to know, and anyone else who needs to hear it, that we are here for you.  We wish you healing and zither strength to stand up and to keep living to the best of your ability everyday.

    ((((Hugs))))
    Wtf is zither strength?  Lol. Damn you autocorrect! *waves fist futilely towards the heavens*
    Damn, I thought it was some PJ special thing,  like the flying meatball thingamajig. 

    I was waiting for some zither strength to arrive on a mandolin wind. 

    I'm thankful for the standard strength though,  anything helps. 
    Reminded me of this beauty.  Good for a smile :)

    https://youtu.be/3xlo1NvEdAw
  • brianlux
    brianlux Moving through All Kinds of Terrain. Posts: 43,664
    I've been avoiding this thread because I've been avoiding dealing with anxiety and depression.  Sometimes when it gets really bad it's just too much to think about so I try to avoid it.  That's a bit like jumping in a pool and hoping not to get wet.  Fat chance. 

    One of the things that makes anxiety such a mofo is the way one's anxiety affects the lives of loved ones and friends.  I know it's hard on my wife at times.  I feel guilty as hell for that but it's not like anxiety is a choice for me.  I try to stuff it as much as possible but a lot of the times it just shows.  I don't always "fake it till you make it" very well. 

    This evening, I tried to explain to my wife what's going on in my head and probably said things I should not have said.  I told her that if it wasn't for her and other people I'm close to, I would likely kill myself in a way that left no doubt about the result. I told that no way did that mean I am going to kill myself (I'm not), but that if all the people I care about in this world disappeared or were whisked away by aliens, I definitely would.  Those words did not help.  So now I feel like shit.

    So much of the time lately, life seems like an on-going hell with just brief periods of reprieve.  I don't want it to be that way.  Life goes by so fast as it is and there is so much to do, so much to experience, and so little time.  To have a lot of that time eaten up by anxiety is a damn shame.  I wish I could just enjoy what's left.  And just as much or more, I wish my tortured mind didn't affect those I love.  That's just wrong, wrong, wrong.
    "It's a sad and beautiful world"
    -Roberto Benigni

  • rgambs
    rgambs Posts: 13,576
    Zither strength shall henceforth be known as the strength you get from the support and successes of other anxiety sufferers!
    It has been decreed.
    Monkey Driven, Call this Living?
  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,904
    brianlux said:
    I've been avoiding this thread because I've been avoiding dealing with anxiety and depression.  Sometimes when it gets really bad it's just too much to think about so I try to avoid it.  That's a bit like jumping in a pool and hoping not to get wet.  Fat chance. 

    One of the things that makes anxiety such a mofo is the way one's anxiety affects the lives of loved ones and friends.  I know it's hard on my wife at times.  I feel guilty as hell for that but it's not like anxiety is a choice for me.  I try to stuff it as much as possible but a lot of the times it just shows.  I don't always "fake it till you make it" very well. 

    This evening, I tried to explain to my wife what's going on in my head and probably said things I should not have said.  I told her that if it wasn't for her and other people I'm close to, I would likely kill myself in a way that left no doubt about the result. I told that no way did that mean I am going to kill myself (I'm not), but that if all the people I care about in this world disappeared or were whisked away by aliens, I definitely would.  Those words did not help.  So now I feel like shit.

    So much of the time lately, life seems like an on-going hell with just brief periods of reprieve.  I don't want it to be that way.  Life goes by so fast as it is and there is so much to do, so much to experience, and so little time.  To have a lot of that time eaten up by anxiety is a damn shame.  I wish I could just enjoy what's left.  And just as much or more, I wish my tortured mind didn't affect those I love.  That's just wrong, wrong, wrong.
    The effect i have on my family is not ok . 
    I too want nothing more than to not be a problem to anyone. Thats what drives my thoughts of ending it


    this song is meant to be called i got shit,itshould be called i got shit tickets-hartford 06 -
  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,904
    As hard as it is i must try to stop drinking and smoking  weed. None of it is helpful  to my symptoms and im now addicted  to doing both. Slipping deeper into addiction . Shame. And  disgust for myself and my need to search for relief. It never  comes.


    this song is meant to be called i got shit,itshould be called i got shit tickets-hartford 06 -
  • Fifthelement
    Fifthelement Lotusland Posts: 6,965
    @brianlux @lastexitlondon  et al

    i hear what you guys are saying about fearing that you’re hurting or are a burden to your family(s).  However,I want to remind you, actually all of us, to not be so hard on yourself.   When we’re anxious and/or depressed our thoughts are often outsized and we’re harder on ourselves than we should be  It can become part of the justification cycle when things are bad.

    All any of us can do is try to live one day at a time and to push ourselves, gently, beyond our fear, anxiety and depression.  We don’t need to be perfect.  Give yourself credit for the good days, and forgive yourself on the days that aren’t so good.  Always keep fighting.
    "What the CANUCK happened?!? - Esquimalt Barber Shop
  • brianlux
    brianlux Moving through All Kinds of Terrain. Posts: 43,664
    Fifthelement said:
    @brianlux @lastexitlondon  et al

    i hear what you guys are saying about fearing that you’re hurting or are a burden to your family(s).  However,I want to remind you, actually all of us, to not be so hard on yourself.   When we’re anxious and/or depressed our thoughts are often outsized and we’re harder on ourselves than we should be  It can become part of the justification cycle when things are bad.

    All any of us can do is try to live one day at a time and to push ourselves, gently, beyond our fear, anxiety and depression.  We don’t need to be perfect.  Give yourself credit for the good days, and forgive yourself on the days that aren’t so good.  Always keep fighting.
    Kind and wise words, Fifth, thank you.
    "It's a sad and beautiful world"
    -Roberto Benigni

  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,904
    God i want to scream . I cant get passed  symptoms that fuck me up .  I wish for some peace


    this song is meant to be called i got shit,itshould be called i got shit tickets-hartford 06 -
  • Thoughts_Arrive
    Thoughts_Arrive Melbourne, Australia Posts: 15,165
    And I can't get over people not liking me. Everytime I post something on Facebook I get no comments or likes. Plus the fact hardly anyone on Facebook wished me a happy birthday recently makes me think if I am very much disliked. 
    Adelaide 17/11/2009, Melbourne 20/11/2009, Sydney 22/11/2009, Melbourne (Big Day Out Festival) 24/01/2014

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