A safe place for anxiety sufferers to share.

kce8 · February 2018

Good luck to all of you!

This thread is as wonderful as all you people here! Nothing is wasted or too late, you need to believe in that!
I know how it is to feel lost... life can be so dark sometimes. It's a fight to get out of it. But you will, because you deserve to. But you have to go on. Focus on the little good things in life!
I think every single one of you can be so deeply proud of yourself for what you've already been gone through and still didn't give up! Each single one of you managed to go on! You are a being here for each other!

Damnit! I am proud of you!

lastexitlondon · February 2018

Very kind words. Love to everyone here

Thoughts_Arrive · February 2018

lastexitlondon said:

I have been doing this for 16 years now . So many illnesses that were not illness so much fear and worry. So many places . Events . Gigs. Wasted to this . I have so much experience but no wisdom. So many opportunities none taken. All wasted . My advice is worthless . Because if it was worth anything i would be able to use it for myself. Strange disease it is I have strange indeed

I'm often better at giving advice than practicing the advice I give. I think we're all like that.
As for alcohol, I don't miss it, don't desire it. I was never a big drinker, just social.
Sick of being asked by people when there is alcohol about why I don't drink.

lastexitlondon · February 2018

England is very much like Australia drinking culture is normal. When it shouldn't be.

mickeyrat · February 2018

Thoughts_Arrive said:

lastexitlondon said:

I have been doing this for 16 years now . So many illnesses that were not illness so much fear and worry. So many places . Events . Gigs. Wasted to this . I have so much experience but no wisdom. So many opportunities none taken. All wasted . My advice is worthless . Because if it was worth anything i would be able to use it for myself. Strange disease it is I have strange indeed

I'm often better at giving advice than practicing the advice I give. I think we're all like that.
As for alcohol, I don't miss it, don't desire it. I was never a big drinker, just social.
Sick of being asked by people when there is alcohol about why I don't drink.

reply, that means theres more for you......

RogueStoner · February 2018

I’m hanging on but my fingers are slipping. I’m just so tired. I have no energy or desire to do anything. Some days I don’t have the strength to speak or fake a smile, eat or even smoke weed. Other days I can function but the mental confusion scares me. And seeing what I see and feeling what I feel doesn’t make it any easier. So I avoid people, thinking I’m protecting them and myself, but the isolation makes me feel worse.

Someone asked if I have someone to talk to. No, not about this. I’ve learned the hard way not to open up to, or trust, anyone, not even family. Once I am deemed “crazy”, it discredits me in every way. Like I have nothing else to offer. The few people I feel I can talk to, don’t need to be bothered by this shit. I’m grateful for this thread and all of you. At least I know I’m not alone in this struggle.

The worst part is that I know I can’t just rely on meds. There is no magic cure or treatment. I have to help myself. I tell myself I need to just suck it up and move forward. But how do I do that when I’m like this? I want to live, not just exist. I have to fight my way through this somehow. Right now, I’m just fighting to stay alive until this phase passes.

My greatest nemesis is my own mind.

lastexitlondon · February 2018

So true i explained it to my mum that ive slipped over the cliff and i 2 fingers gripping the loose earth above that can't hold my weight. Im afraid very afraid that this is not a phase this time. Keep posting here . Anything you need to say or vent or even just type is welcome and may help one of us as well. Keep breathing.

HughFreakingDillon · February 2018

Thoughts_Arrive said:

lastexitlondon said:

I have been doing this for 16 years now . So many illnesses that were not illness so much fear and worry. So many places . Events . Gigs. Wasted to this . I have so much experience but no wisdom. So many opportunities none taken. All wasted . My advice is worthless . Because if it was worth anything i would be able to use it for myself. Strange disease it is I have strange indeed

I'm often better at giving advice than practicing the advice I give. I think we're all like that.
As for alcohol, I don't miss it, don't desire it. I was never a big drinker, just social.
Sick of being asked by people when there is alcohol about why I don't drink.

you know, i've been guilty of this. a former band member, who was a chronic weed smoker (he couldn't function without it), never had a beer at practice. ever. he doesn't touch alcohol. i asked him a few times, and he'd simply say he just didn't want it. i usually don't badger people about it, but i guess in this instance it intrigued me that he smoked so much weed but didn't like booze. but maybe it was something he didn't want to share, and i shouldn't have pressed. he probably gets it all the time.

Thoughts_Arrive · February 2018

mickeyrat said:

Thoughts_Arrive said:

lastexitlondon said:

I have been doing this for 16 years now . So many illnesses that were not illness so much fear and worry. So many places . Events . Gigs. Wasted to this . I have so much experience but no wisdom. So many opportunities none taken. All wasted . My advice is worthless . Because if it was worth anything i would be able to use it for myself. Strange disease it is I have strange indeed

I'm often better at giving advice than practicing the advice I give. I think we're all like that.
As for alcohol, I don't miss it, don't desire it. I was never a big drinker, just social.
Sick of being asked by people when there is alcohol about why I don't drink.

reply, that means theres more for you......

haha, I like that.

Thoughts_Arrive · February 2018

lastexitlondon said:

England is very much like Australia drinking culture is normal. When it shouldn't be.

I hate it. It's stupid. Why can't we socialise without booze. Upsets me.

Thoughts_Arrive · February 2018

HughFreakingDillon said:

Thoughts_Arrive said:

lastexitlondon said:

I have been doing this for 16 years now . So many illnesses that were not illness so much fear and worry. So many places . Events . Gigs. Wasted to this . I have so much experience but no wisdom. So many opportunities none taken. All wasted . My advice is worthless . Because if it was worth anything i would be able to use it for myself. Strange disease it is I have strange indeed

I'm often better at giving advice than practicing the advice I give. I think we're all like that.
As for alcohol, I don't miss it, don't desire it. I was never a big drinker, just social.
Sick of being asked by people when there is alcohol about why I don't drink.

you know, i've been guilty of this. a former band member, who was a chronic weed smoker (he couldn't function without it), never had a beer at practice. ever. he doesn't touch alcohol. i asked him a few times, and he'd simply say he just didn't want it. i usually don't badger people about it, but i guess in this instance it intrigued me that he smoked so much weed but didn't like booze. but maybe it was something he didn't want to share, and i shouldn't have pressed. he probably gets it all the time.

Yep I hate the badgering. From office after work drinks to birthdays to Christmas's and New Years.
Why shouldn't the badgering be the other way around "why are you drinking?"
I got invited to my sister's friend's Christmas party last year and I knew it would happen (the badgering). I just tried to not let it get to me.

Thoughts_Arrive · February 2018

RogueStoner said:

I’m hanging on but my fingers are slipping. I’m just so tired. I have no energy or desire to do anything. Some days I don’t have the strength to speak or fake a smile, eat or even smoke weed. Other days I can function but the mental confusion scares me. And seeing what I see and feeling what I feel doesn’t make it any easier. So I avoid people, thinking I’m protecting them and myself, but the isolation makes me feel worse.

Someone asked if I have someone to talk to. No, not about this. I’ve learned the hard way not to open up to, or trust, anyone, not even family. Once I am deemed “crazy”, it discredits me in every way. Like I have nothing else to offer. The few people I feel I can talk to, don’t need to be bothered by this shit. I’m grateful for this thread and all of you. At least I know I’m not alone in this struggle.

The worst part is that I know I can’t just rely on meds. There is no magic cure or treatment. I have to help myself. I tell myself I need to just suck it up and move forward. But how do I do that when I’m like this? I want to live, not just exist. I have to fight my way through this somehow. Right now, I’m just fighting to stay alive until this phase passes.

My greatest nemesis is my own mind.

Yeah I keep it from many people.
My niece asked me about my mental health this week. I felt like I had to open up to make it something that shouldn't be stigmatised. I just worry how she sees me. My parents do not know. I don't want them to.

Hang in there dude. I feel like I exist most days :(

brianlux · February 2018

HughFreakingDillon said:

I'm quitting alcohol (and probably weed too) for all of February as a test. Not sure about the weed though. I don't smoke that much, but everytime I smoke it I want to have a beer or a drink, so I don't need the extra temptation. I'm sure it is having a negative effect on my anxiety, and my physical symptoms which then exacerbate my anxiety, which then exacerbates my physical symptoms, and on and on it goes.

I have often thought of quitting booze altogether, not because of a problem issue, but because the reading I've done on it basically considers it a poison, which basically, it is. getting drunk is the response to your brain being mildly poisoned. which is fucking ludicrous if you think about it. the stuff we do for fun.

February is going to be one boring but well-rested month. What's it like to wake up the next day and remember what happened in the tv show you watched? LOL

I thinks that's a great idea, HFD. Let us know how it goes!

I've quit one or the other (booze and weed) or both a number of times, sometimes for a matter of weeks, sometimes a matter of months, a few time about a year or so. The important thing to me is to know my limits when drinking or smoking and know when my body needs a break. The other thing I would recommend as you/ when you age is to seldom if ever do either in excess. The less I use, the less I need for a nice little buzz.

Thoughts_Arrive · February 2018

I'm feel depressed last two days.

HughFreakingDillon · February 2018

Thoughts_Arrive said:

HughFreakingDillon said:

Thoughts_Arrive said:

lastexitlondon said:

I have been doing this for 16 years now . So many illnesses that were not illness so much fear and worry. So many places . Events . Gigs. Wasted to this . I have so much experience but no wisdom. So many opportunities none taken. All wasted . My advice is worthless . Because if it was worth anything i would be able to use it for myself. Strange disease it is I have strange indeed

I'm often better at giving advice than practicing the advice I give. I think we're all like that.
As for alcohol, I don't miss it, don't desire it. I was never a big drinker, just social.
Sick of being asked by people when there is alcohol about why I don't drink.

you know, i've been guilty of this. a former band member, who was a chronic weed smoker (he couldn't function without it), never had a beer at practice. ever. he doesn't touch alcohol. i asked him a few times, and he'd simply say he just didn't want it. i usually don't badger people about it, but i guess in this instance it intrigued me that he smoked so much weed but didn't like booze. but maybe it was something he didn't want to share, and i shouldn't have pressed. he probably gets it all the time.

Yep I hate the badgering. From office after work drinks to birthdays to Christmas's and New Years.
Why shouldn't the badgering be the other way around "why are you drinking?"
I got invited to my sister's friend's Christmas party last year and I knew it would happen (the badgering). I just tried to not let it get to me.

i have also been on the receiving end of it, and i now know what it's like. because i'm known as a guy who likes a beer or a whiskey at pretty much any occasion, when i say 'no thanks' the look on people's faces is like the devil just appeared in the room. and then i get the 'no, really, what do you want to drink?". and i have to say 'i'm serious, nothing, i'm good'. so i get it.

Thoughts_Arrive · February 2018

HughFreakingDillon said:

Thoughts_Arrive said:

HughFreakingDillon said:

Thoughts_Arrive said:

lastexitlondon said:

I have been doing this for 16 years now . So many illnesses that were not illness so much fear and worry. So many places . Events . Gigs. Wasted to this . I have so much experience but no wisdom. So many opportunities none taken. All wasted . My advice is worthless . Because if it was worth anything i would be able to use it for myself. Strange disease it is I have strange indeed

I'm often better at giving advice than practicing the advice I give. I think we're all like that.
As for alcohol, I don't miss it, don't desire it. I was never a big drinker, just social.
Sick of being asked by people when there is alcohol about why I don't drink.

you know, i've been guilty of this. a former band member, who was a chronic weed smoker (he couldn't function without it), never had a beer at practice. ever. he doesn't touch alcohol. i asked him a few times, and he'd simply say he just didn't want it. i usually don't badger people about it, but i guess in this instance it intrigued me that he smoked so much weed but didn't like booze. but maybe it was something he didn't want to share, and i shouldn't have pressed. he probably gets it all the time.

Yep I hate the badgering. From office after work drinks to birthdays to Christmas's and New Years.
Why shouldn't the badgering be the other way around "why are you drinking?"
I got invited to my sister's friend's Christmas party last year and I knew it would happen (the badgering). I just tried to not let it get to me.

i have also been on the receiving end of it, and i now know what it's like. because i'm known as a guy who likes a beer or a whiskey at pretty much any occasion, when i say 'no thanks' the look on people's faces is like the devil just appeared in the room. and then i get the 'no, really, what do you want to drink?". and i have to say 'i'm serious, nothing, i'm good'. so i get it.

At a place I was working at, I got fed up that I told the entire office that I don't drink due to medical reasons (I didn't dare say I was on antidepressants) hoping that would make them stop badgering me. Sadly it didn't.

brianlux · February 2018

If I were badgered by ANYONE trying to get me to drink more, I would tell them to go pound sand. If it happened at a work place, that might be more difficult, but I would distance myself as much as possible. Whether you drink (or smoke or snort or whatever) or not is nobody's effin business but your own.

Thoughts_Arrive · February 2018

brianlux said:

If I were badgered by ANYONE trying to get me to drink more, I would tell them to go pound sand. If it happened at a work place, that might be more difficult, but I would distance myself as much as possible. Whether you drink (or smoke or snort or whatever) or not is nobody's effin business but your own.

The office was so small we were all crammed in there so I was surrounded by people giving me a hard time.
I got distanced by getting fired for "not fitting into the team".

lastexitlondon · February 2018

I know im meant to be patient but these tablets are doing nothing for my memory . The dr was sure but its ridiculous. Ive no hope.

HughFreakingDillon · February 2018

brianlux said:

If I were badgered by ANYONE trying to get me to drink more, I would tell them to go pound sand. If it happened at a work place, that might be more difficult, but I would distance myself as much as possible. Whether you drink (or smoke or snort or whatever) or not is nobody's effin business but your own.

it really is herd behaviour. it's people feeling insecure that someone isn't fitting into their mold, in this case, that someone is able to have just a good a time without being out of it, or that maybe that one person drinking might bring the rest down. peer pressure exists even at the adult level, and it really is odd.

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