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lastexitlondon · January 2018

Good luck brian the pressure of getting it right is hard but no matter how it goes its for you dad and i know the emotions will be strong. Wishing you strength my friend.Thoughts_Arrive said:

How are you doing, Rob?

My dr increased my meds and promised me i would get better. Im still convinced more than ever this is degenerative and i won't last long. My children came over for the night which was wonderful but also so nerve racking because of my state. So i got drunk. Which didn't make it go away. Im fumbling through each 10 mins thats all. Thank you for caring my friends.

Thoughts_Arrive · January 2018

Glad to hear from you.
Fingers crossed the medication works.
Some medications can take weeks to months to kick in so don't feel despair if no difference right away. I am only allowed 1 alcoholic beverage per week due to my medication. Any more may make the drug less effective. I hope you can stay away from alcohol. Have you tried other strategies when you feel overwhelmed? Breathing exercises or meditation?

Brian, I wish you all the best this weekend.
Stare that wave of fear and say bring it on!

stuckinline · January 2018

brianlux said:

Rob, I'm so glad you got through the shut down OK. That shut down WAS a bummer! Keep hanging in there with us!

And Rob and others who felt like posting your names, thanks! I totally understand people not wanting to post their name so no problem there, but I also love it when people do. I'm pretty sure you've all ready guessed mine, lol!

My wife and I head for Medford, Oregon for my father's memorial tomorrow (Sunday) morning which means a) not likely too have internet access since I only have this computer at home, b) having to sleep somewhere away from home which is a MAJOR anxiety producer for me (the worst, really) and, c) being scheduled to play my guitar at the memorial and wanting to honor my father by getting it right which is hard to do with old arthritic hands. I'm a complete nervous wreck and will be SO relieved when I get home Tuesday.

Brian, sending good vibes to you, I'm sure you'll do just fine.
Sometimes just being there is more important than getting it 'right'.
Just remember how many times our favorite band has f***ed up.

I have trouble sleeping when I'm away from home, so I completely understand your anxiety.

brianlux · January 2018

Thanks so much for the encouragements, my friends! I hope you all do well this week too. I'll be out of touch until Tuesday night but will catch up with you all them.

Be well, friends!

Brian

RogueStoner · January 2018

I wonder how long it will take for my body to join my mind and give up its will to live.

lastexitlondon · February 2018

RS do you have a partner or a family member that can help to comfort you? I know exactly where you are at with this. Ive reached a point of no return not left my room 2 days. Taking meds that aren't working. I don't know who i even am. I feel your pain and hope you have someone near by to be with you at least.

brianlux · February 2018

RogueStoner said:

I wonder how long it will take for my body to join my mind and give up its will to live.

lastexitlondon said:

RS do you have a partner or a family member that can help to comfort you? I know exactly where you are at with this. Ive reached a point of no return not left my room 2 days. Taking meds that aren't working. I don't know who i even am. I feel your pain and hope you have someone near by to be with you at least.

Stay with us, friends!

It took me a long time to learn how to hack rather than pack (thank you, Henry Rollins). Still, I stummble and then have to grit my teeht and hold on for dear life. I won't kid anyone by saying it's easy. It's been hard, it is hard. It's hard for those of us who are highly sensitive or are vulnerable or were never given all the tools or have chemical imbalances, but as you grow in years and the wisdom that comes with time, you get better at hanging in there and finding time for peace and happiness and you learn ways around the traps and snares. This is not just me- I've seen others learn how as well, including others here. Keep at it as best you can.

I'm sending out good thoughts to you both and everyone here in pain.

lastexitlondon · February 2018

I long for peace. I can't remember who i was anymore. If i get anywhere near peace i would be the happiest man alive. Its been many years of upset leading to this last 4 months of utter despair and worst of all confusion beyond anything ive ever known. Thank you Brian for your positive and kind wishes.

Thoughts_Arrive · February 2018

lastexitlondon said:

RS do you have a partner or a family member that can help to comfort you? I know exactly where you are at with this. Ive reached a point of no return not left my room 2 days. Taking meds that aren't working. I don't know who i even am. I feel your pain and hope you have someone near by to be with you at least.

How long have you been on the meds?
If only recently, give it time.

lastexitlondon · February 2018

5 weeks. 4 at 10mg and 1 at 20mg.
The odd valium thrown in. This is not anxiety in my eyes. Totally different to the last 16 years

lastexitlondon · February 2018

Ive been on and off lots of ssri over the years.

Thoughts_Arrive · February 2018

Don't know what to say. Hoping you find the right drug.
Maybe another class of drug other than SSRI?

lastexitlondon · February 2018

Thank you. I guess its just my time is up.

lastexitlondon · February 2018

They say music sets the sick ones free

HughFreakingDillon · February 2018

I'm quitting alcohol (and probably weed too) for all of February as a test. Not sure about the weed though. I don't smoke that much, but everytime I smoke it I want to have a beer or a drink, so I don't need the extra temptation. I'm sure it is having a negative effect on my anxiety, and my physical symptoms which then exacerbate my anxiety, which then exacerbates my physical symptoms, and on and on it goes.

I have often thought of quitting booze altogether, not because of a problem issue, but because the reading I've done on it basically considers it a poison, which basically, it is. getting drunk is the response to your brain being mildly poisoned. which is fucking ludicrous if you think about it. the stuff we do for fun.

February is going to be one boring but well-rested month. What's it like to wake up the next day and remember what happened in the tv show you watched? LOL

lastexitlondon · February 2018

I don't remember without alcohol. But more power to you my friend . You can do it. I did 6 weeks. I found it pointless and yes boring. I ate tonnes of chocolate. As for weed i gave up 20 years ago but god knows i loved it. And have thought about starting again. HFD good luck. Update us here .

lastexitlondon · February 2018

I have been doing this for 16 years now . So many illnesses that were not illness so much fear and worry. So many places . Events . Gigs. Wasted to this . I have so much experience but no wisdom. So many opportunities none taken. All wasted . My advice is worthless . Because if it was worth anything i would be able to use it for myself. Strange disease it is I have strange indeed

lastexitlondon · February 2018

Life wasted

HughFreakingDillon · February 2018

lastexitlondon said:

Life wasted

you can't say it was wasted until it's at its end. you are still young, you will prosper again. I know it's been a long ride so it obviously seems like this will be it for the rest. but it doesn't have to be. try to remain positive with anything you have left.

been reading about the paleo diet lately. I listen to a lot of Joe Rogan. He might be out of his mind. But he seems very knowledgable in everything he talks about. The claims by paleo proponents sounds pretty lofty (and the detractors are numerous). But hey, might be worth a shot, right?

elvistheking44 · February 2018

HughFreakingDillon said:

I'm quitting alcohol (and probably weed too) for all of February as a test. Not sure about the weed though. I don't smoke that much, but everytime I smoke it I want to have a beer or a drink, so I don't need the extra temptation. I'm sure it is having a negative effect on my anxiety, and my physical symptoms which then exacerbate my anxiety, which then exacerbates my physical symptoms, and on and on it goes.

I have often thought of quitting booze altogether, not because of a problem issue, but because the reading I've done on it basically considers it a poison, which basically, it is. getting drunk is the response to your brain being mildly poisoned. which is fucking ludicrous if you think about it. the stuff we do for fun.

February is going to be one boring but well-rested month. What's it like to wake up the next day and remember what happened in the tv show you watched? LOL

I cut my alcohol intake back about 75% in January. It's getting to the point where I have no real desire to have a drink. I love the energy I have and the lack of hangovers, or even just a headache the next day. It's done wonders. Im hoping this path leads me to a complete exit of alcohol all together at some point down the road.....

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