arlo's face fell. a woman had never said that to him and it hurt. it didn't matter that he knew anna needed some leeway. and that what she had gone through was incomprehensible to him. to have your lover say they couldn't stand to have you touch them....well....there really was no comeback for that. he could see that anna was getting irritable.
'i don't belong here.'
he couldn't let her go. not when she was like this.
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
I dare not let you go Anna, but I can't keep you with me if you don't want to. I wish you would stay.
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
'so you can do what arlo? look at me knowing what he did to me. feel sorry for me. try to save me from hurting myself. WHAT IS IT YOU THINK YOU CAN DO?'
arlo hesitated. i looked him. in disgust. with disgust. i didn't know whether it was for him or me.
'yeah i thought so.'
as i stood up i felt his hand on my leg. he held it behind my knee. i stopped not daring to say or do anything. i heard arlo breathe out and speak.....
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
Nothing that I could do or say could make it better. I know that. I just want to be around you and do whatever little thing there is that I can do for you. Yes I am scared that there is a chance you might hurt yourself, but I am even more scared that you will distance yourself from me to an extent that there is no turning it around. I dare not think of losing you Anna.
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
What the fuck? I just told you I don't want to do without you. How do you link that with my sister? I love you Anna. My sister and the relationship we had has nothing to do with my feelings for you. To think that it has is plain silly.
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
'so that first night when you told me sascha killed herself right when i was coming, that wasn't some power trip. shit arlo i'm not fool. i know you did it so i'd remember. and i'm not your sister. i just get the feeling that cause you couldn't save her that you think somehow you can save me.'
then i did a double take.
'what did you say? you love me?'
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
Yes I love you. And no I do not do so because of some guilt I might carry. Are you telling me that I can't love you because of your problems and the fact that they don't match well with my history?
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
He didn't reply and the look on his face told me that he didn't understand what I had just said.
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
I walked back to my place. I wanted to go to bed and sleep the rest of the day. What I really wanted was to sleep the rest of my life, but I knew that wasn't going to happen.
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
as my foot touched the bottom step i heard someone call my name. i turned to see detective farrell close his car door and approach me. i sighed. he was not someone i wanted to talk to.
'anna, you got a minute?'
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
before detective farrell could answer, i tore up the steps and through the front door. i heard him call my name. taking the stairs two at a time, i paid him no attention. reaching my door i banged on it calling freya's name while i tried to get my key into the lock. bursting through the door i found the place empty. i stalked up the hall opening every door angrily. freya wasn't here. i spun around and saw a man standing just inside my door.
'get the fuck out of my house. i didn't invite you in.'
as i advanced on him, detective farrell didn't move. when i tried to push him backwards out the door, he grabbed my arms and held me. i tried to get loose but he held tight. i started to cry and lost the will to fight as my legs collapsed from underneath me. he came with me as i ended up on the floor.
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
As I lay there on the floor with him knelling beside me I didn't know what to do. I didn't want to be alone right now. Yet I didn't want him to stay. Plainly saying what I wanted apparently didn't help.
I tried to get myself together and act calmly which of course I wasn't. Maybe he would leave if he thought that there was nothing for him here.
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
As I lay there on the floor with him kneeling beside me I didn't know what to do. I didn't want to be alone right now. Yet I didn't want him to stay. Plainly saying what I wanted apparently didn't help.
I tried to get myself together and act calmly which of course I wasn't. Maybe he would leave if he thought that there was nothing for him here.
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
i continued into the kitchen. picking up a bottle and holding it in my hand made me stop. what was i doing? this was just bullshit. i swung around and hurled the bottle against the wall. it hit a painting dead centre and shattered, spraying alcohol and glass everywhere. and tearing a hole in the canvas. i screamed and swept everything that was on the bench, onto the floor. it was then that detective farrell appeared at the door. he seemed not to want to come any closer.
'you feel better now?'
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
Not yet but a few more things destoryed and I'll be getting there.
I opened up my fridge to see if I had anything non alcoholic.
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
He spoke softly so I couldn't hear him through the closed door. Smart ass, two can play that game. After that thought there came a calm over me. I opened the balcony door in my kitchen and stepped into the pale sunlight.
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
i watched as people went about their morning routines going to work. walking the dog. ferrying their kids to school. i was still angry at freya, but i could understand why she supported vincent. it pains me to admit that she loves that son of a bitch and that she's under the impression that she needs him. i guess she's just as fucked up as i am. i imagine that she told him that she was pregnant and he convinced her that the best thing was for them to be together for the baby and how he wwas so so sorry and this changes everything and that he promises he won't ever hit her again. why do woman fall for that line of bullshit? i turned around to find, yet again, detective farrell standing in the doorway.
'i'm not gonna jump if that's what you're worried about'
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
I guess I made it sound too hostile. He didn't speak, but his look said more than he could have said.
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
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arlo's face fell. a woman had never said that to him and it hurt. it didn't matter that he knew anna needed some leeway. and that what she had gone through was incomprehensible to him. to have your lover say they couldn't stand to have you touch them....well....there really was no comeback for that. he could see that anna was getting irritable.
'i don't belong here.'
he couldn't let her go. not when she was like this.
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
arlo hesitated. i looked him. in disgust. with disgust. i didn't know whether it was for him or me.
'yeah i thought so.'
as i stood up i felt his hand on my leg. he held it behind my knee. i stopped not daring to say or do anything. i heard arlo breathe out and speak.....
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
'tell me you being with me has nothing at all whatsoever to do with your sister.'
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
then i did a double take.
'what did you say? you love me?'
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
'goodbye arlo.'
before he could stop me or before i changed my mind, i walked out of the bathroom.
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
'anna, you got a minute?'
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
Does that make a difference?
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
'i thought you should know, your brother in law made bail.'
i swung around so fast that i had to grab the railing to stop myself from falling.
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
'well? who would bail that son of a bitch out?'
and then it hit me.
'freya'
no. that couldn't be right. could it? why would she do that, how could she do that to me. he had to be mistaken. i shook my head.
'you're wrong. she wouldn't do that.'
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
before detective farrell could answer, i tore up the steps and through the front door. i heard him call my name. taking the stairs two at a time, i paid him no attention. reaching my door i banged on it calling freya's name while i tried to get my key into the lock. bursting through the door i found the place empty. i stalked up the hall opening every door angrily. freya wasn't here. i spun around and saw a man standing just inside my door.
'get the fuck out of my house. i didn't invite you in.'
as i advanced on him, detective farrell didn't move. when i tried to push him backwards out the door, he grabbed my arms and held me. i tried to get loose but he held tight. i started to cry and lost the will to fight as my legs collapsed from underneath me. he came with me as i ended up on the floor.
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
I tried to get myself together and act calmly which of course I wasn't. Maybe he would leave if he thought that there was nothing for him here.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
I tried to get myself together and act calmly which of course I wasn't. Maybe he would leave if he thought that there was nothing for him here.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
'you don't have to stay detective. i'm fine.'
i walked towards the kitchen.
'you want a drink? god knows i could do with one right about now.'
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
'you feel better now?'
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
I opened up my fridge to see if I had anything non alcoholic.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
'what are you still doing here detective?'
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
'i'm not gonna jump if that's what you're worried about'
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»