Away from Arlo, away from Dex. Away from this city, this hell, this earth.
I wanted to forget everything I'd learned since birth.
So I called up Shonen. He always has the goods. But, unfortunately (or was it fortunately??) he wasn't around. I didn't even bother to leave a message.
Tell me Anna what can I do for you? Were you waiting long? You seem cold, do you want some tea or something else?
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
He stared at me, wanted to say something and then took it back just nodding his head.
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
I wanted to leave and not talk about it. I should never have come here in the first place. What the hell was I thinking?
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
'you are kidding right. arlo has everything to do with this. you shouldn't be be sitting here with me.you should be with him. does he even know what happened. and we are over. you can't keep coming to me and expect me to right the wrongs. that's what you lover is for. and i am no longer your lover anna.'
davey let out a slow shallow sigh.
' do you understand that.'
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
Oh yeah right, and what and how do you suppose I would say? Hey hunny aslong as you are going out bring me some milk and oh by the way I was raped.
It is not that easy Davey. It isn't easy to say it to myself. How do I say it to another?
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
'no one said it was easy anna. but you make everything just that little bit harder.'
davey rested his hand on anna's cheek and looked into her eyes.
' give the guy a chance. he's good people. but you just seem to make a sport out of testing those closest to you. just learn to trust the man that loves you.'
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
I do. Davey I really do. I just don't want to ruin it. I am scared that,..... that,.... he might,....
I hung my head and didn't dare finish my sentence. Sure he was right. I knew I had to tell him, I just couldn't.
Fighting against the tears that were probable already showing I lefted my head and I only just whispered: I am affraid Davey. Is that so hard to grasp.
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
'no baby it's not. but you've got to give arlo a chance. he deserves that. and what kind of man do you think he is that he'd think a woman deserves to be violated the way you were.'
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
I don't think that. I am just scared that he will, "I paused for a second", leave.
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
I know. I went there and he wasn'r home. A wierdo which I presume is his brother walked passed me while I was sitting on the steps. I don't know why, but I ran off. He freaked me out.
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
I smiled and thought that he might be right. I guess.
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
the walk back to arlo's place was the longest of my life. i knew davey was right. i had to give arlo the chance he deserved. i couldn't do it alone despite what i thought.
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
I hoped that I would get the chance to speak to him alone. That Dex would not be there. I hoped that Arlo already knew so I didn't have to tell him myself. A fight about not telling him would be easier than coming clean by telling him what had happend. As I rang the doorbell I felt my self shaking. I didn't want to do this, but I had to.
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
arlo opened the door looking like you'd expect him to at such an early hour. bleary eyed and hair looking like a family of birds was nesting in it. he smiled when he saw me, though for what reason, i couldn't imagine. when he stepped towards me, i moved backwards. he sighed. and got defensive.
'why are you here so early anna. what's going on.'
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
I moved passed him and entered his house, I sat down on his couch not knowing how I should start a conversation like this. Should I just flat out say what was on my mind?
He was still standing in the door opening looking at me waiting for an answer.
Not now Arlo. Fix me a drink and I'll tell you later on. I can’t right now.
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
No I don't want to. I know I have to but I don't dare and say it out loud.
Not to you. I know I have to, I know.
I was dangerously close to losing myself. I knew I just could do it any other way than just say it as boldly as I could. Striped from any words that might make it easier to hear. Just the cold ugly fact.
I was raped!
I pushed his away and jumped over his coffee table to make it to the door, trying to get out before he could reply.
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
I must have fallen asleep because when I opened my eyes sunshine fell through the living room window. I looked up to see where Arlo was but he wasn't in the room. I decided not bother getting up from the couch. I vaguely could make out some noises from the kitchen so I just kept laying there waiting on what would happen next while staring at the ceiling.
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
arlo was talking on the phone. i couldn't make out what he was saying though. i got up and walked to the bathroom. sitting on the edge of the bath resting my head in my hands, i heard a soft knock on the door. without me answering, arlo opened the door and walked in. he knelt in front of me and took my hands in his. i tried to pull away but he wouldn't let me. i looked into his eyes and burst out crying. he pulled me to him and wrapped his arms around me.
'i want to kill him for what he did to me.'
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
I can understand that. Do you want to tell me what happened in short?
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
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I wanted to forget everything I'd learned since birth.
So I called up Shonen. He always has the goods. But, unfortunately (or was it fortunately??) he wasn't around. I didn't even bother to leave a message.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
'this was a mistake davey. i'm sorry. i shouldn't have come here.'
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
'anna wait. this is ridiculous.'
i looked at him.
'you obviously need to talk to someone. please tell me. beth told me what happened with vincent, but i want to hear it from you. where is arlo?'
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
I wanted to leave and not talk about it. I should never have come here in the first place. What the hell was I thinking?
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
davey let out a slow shallow sigh.
' do you understand that.'
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
It is not that easy Davey. It isn't easy to say it to myself. How do I say it to another?
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
davey rested his hand on anna's cheek and looked into her eyes.
' give the guy a chance. he's good people. but you just seem to make a sport out of testing those closest to you. just learn to trust the man that loves you.'
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
I hung my head and didn't dare finish my sentence. Sure he was right. I knew I had to tell him, I just couldn't.
Fighting against the tears that were probable already showing I lefted my head and I only just whispered: I am affraid Davey. Is that so hard to grasp.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
'why are you here so early anna. what's going on.'
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
He was still standing in the door opening looking at me waiting for an answer.
Not now Arlo. Fix me a drink and I'll tell you later on. I can’t right now.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
'anna?'
i didn't want to look at him.
'for god's sake anna, i thought we were past all this secrecy.'
he crouched down in front of me and put his hands on my legs.
'you're shaking baby. tell me what's going on.'
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
Not to you. I know I have to, I know.
I was dangerously close to losing myself. I knew I just could do it any other way than just say it as boldly as I could. Striped from any words that might make it easier to hear. Just the cold ugly fact.
I was raped!
I pushed his away and jumped over his coffee table to make it to the door, trying to get out before he could reply.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
'you've got to stop thinking that you can't come to me anna.'
he stroked my head, holding me close, not willing to let me get away.
'just tell me when you're ready baby. i'm not here to judge you. it wasn't your fault.'
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
'i want to kill him for what he did to me.'
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
'he came around looking for freya. she wasn't home so he thought he'd take his pound of flesh out of me.'
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
'i have to go now.'
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»