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OffSheGoes35

HughFreakingDillon said:

better than usual, actually. I have hope. 

Thank you for sharing that, HFD. That's a big deal. 

OffSheGoes35

lastexitlondon said:

Im ashamed to post here  as i don't  want  to bring  anyone down.so many times i have wanted to but i realise how many people see this and i cant expose myself 

When I feel nervous about giving too many details on here, I just try writing a summary. No one wants you to feel uncomfortable though. As for feeling ashamed, we all have our hard times too, so I think we can understand.

lastexitlondon

HughFreakingDillon said:

better than usual, actually. I have hope. 

Great . Keep it going my friend 

lastexitlondon

OffSheGoes35 said:

lastexitlondon said:

Im ashamed to post here  as i don't  want  to bring  anyone down.so many times i have wanted to but i realise how many people see this and i cant expose myself 

When I feel nervous about giving too many details on here, I just try writing a summary. No one wants you to feel uncomfortable though. As for feeling ashamed, we all have our hard times too, so I think we can understand.

Thanks for the kindness. 
I just have reached such place of fear and sorrow nothing  works and im turning to the  wrong path fast. 
My dad has liver cancer and i have a strange relationship.  I always wanted to be in his life but never quite understood  why i couldn't  be. Now im living a nightmare even  having nightmare s. 
I feel everyone  has had enough of me. None more than myself. I wish i could go to sleep forever. I am way more ill than i know.

OffSheGoes35

lastexitlondon said:

OffSheGoes35 said:

lastexitlondon said:

Im ashamed to post here  as i don't  want  to bring  anyone down.so many times i have wanted to but i realise how many people see this and i cant expose myself 

When I feel nervous about giving too many details on here, I just try writing a summary. No one wants you to feel uncomfortable though. As for feeling ashamed, we all have our hard times too, so I think we can understand.

Thanks for the kindness. 
I just have reached such place of fear and sorrow nothing  works and im turning to the  wrong path fast. 
My dad has liver cancer and i have a strange relationship.  I always wanted to be in his life but never quite understood  why i couldn't  be. Now im living a nightmare even  having nightmare s. 
I feel everyone  has had enough of me. None more than myself. I wish i could go to sleep forever. I am way more ill than i know.

You have all of my kindness right now. I wish I could take this all away for you.

You are facing one of my biggest emotional worst case scenarios.I don't know how to have a relationship with my dad, we've hurt each other so much over the years. There's very little trust. and I think we would have to start from scratch. 

What element of this situation is making it hardest for you? 

Edit: Sorry if that question is too personal. Sometimes it helps just to talk about it, maybe you'll say something that you weren't even aware you were thinking. 

Fifthelement

Hugs and strength to all who need it right now. I’m wishing you strength and resilience to deal with whatever it is your facing right now. You are not alone.  Reach out . . . someone, somewhere is waiting to lend an ear.

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West Coast Dreamgirl said:

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lastexitlondon

Well my dear friends its  bad news. 
My dad has been told today its  terminal and chemo may prolong it a bit
 Life is short  and im wasting mine. Guilty  and lost  and pathetic is how i feel. 
His wife doesnt  like me i want  to be with him.  I must find  courage and walk through fire once again.  All i can do is get drunk and hide. Illness is surrounding me. 
Love to all  of you my friends.  
Be sound. 

JPPJ84

lastexitlondon said:

Well my dear friends its  bad news. 
My dad has been told today its  terminal and chemo may prolong it a bit
 Life is short  and im wasting mine. Guilty  and lost  and pathetic is how i feel. 
His wife doesnt  like me i want  to be with him.  I must find  courage and walk through fire once again.  All i can do is get drunk and hide. Illness is surrounding me. 
Love to all  of you my friends.  
Be sound. 

Or you can put the bottle aside, go out there and spend time with your dad! Who cares what his wife thinks, you’re his son and for your dad’s sake the two of you should try and at least be civil with each other. 

You have a choice, Rob. 

hedonist

lastexitlondon said:

Well my dear friends its  bad news. 
My dad has been told today its  terminal and chemo may prolong it a bit
 Life is short  and im wasting mine. Guilty  and lost  and pathetic is how i feel. 
His wife doesnt  like me i want  to be with him.  I must find  courage and walk through fire once again.  All i can do is get drunk and hide. Illness is surrounding me. 
Love to all  of you my friends.  
Be sound. 

I’m so sorry, Rob.

The best you can do? Get drunk and tune everything out? You know that’s just a bandaid. Be strong as you can for him, for your family, for yourself.

You’re have more mettle than you believe. 

HughFreakingDillon

hedonist said:

lastexitlondon said:

Well my dear friends its  bad news. 
My dad has been told today its  terminal and chemo may prolong it a bit
 Life is short  and im wasting mine. Guilty  and lost  and pathetic is how i feel. 
His wife doesnt  like me i want  to be with him.  I must find  courage and walk through fire once again.  All i can do is get drunk and hide. Illness is surrounding me. 
Love to all  of you my friends.  
Be sound. 

I’m so sorry, Rob.

The best you can do? Get drunk and tune everything out? You know that’s just a bandaid. Be strong as you can for him, for your family, for yourself.

You’re have more mettle than you believe. 

agree with this. you'll be full of regret if you stay away because of his wife. I understand the urge to medicate to ease these situations, but it won't help. you will honestly help yourself if you choose to be there for him. 

OffSheGoes35

lastexitlondon said:

Well my dear friends its  bad news. 
My dad has been told today its  terminal and chemo may prolong it a bit
 Life is short  and im wasting mine. Guilty  and lost  and pathetic is how i feel. 
His wife doesnt  like me i want  to be with him.  I must find  courage and walk through fire once again.  All i can do is get drunk and hide. Illness is surrounding me. 
Love to all  of you my friends.  
Be sound. 

Love to you, Rob. 

lastexitlondon

Love to you all. My friends 

OffSheGoes35

Please, be really kind to yourself. Now is not the time to be harsh.

Purple Fairy Tree

This-

hedonist

Anxiety is through the bloody roof right now. The next hour will change my life.

I will prevail. 

JPPJ84

hedonist said:

Anxiety is through the bloody roof right now. The next hour will change my life.

I will prevail. 

Whatever it is you’re going through right now, yes you will!! 🤞🏻

hedonist

JPPJ84 said:

hedonist said:

Anxiety is through the bloody roof right now. The next hour will change my life.

I will prevail. 

Whatever it is you’re going through right now, yes you will!! 🤞🏻

Thank you.  I WILL

lastexitlondon

Best of love and light hedo