I'm sorry the system is failing you Rob. I know. It's hard. I've had two psychiatrists. One laughed me out of our first meeting ("crazy people don't know they're crazy-you're fine! LOL) and the second was nice enough but he was honest that his caseload was simply too high to take on a patient like me for the long haul. I wasn't bad off enough for him.
Hfd. I swear i had that crazy people shit as well. They are cunts. I think people like us should do those exact jobs
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While I'm here. the guy.(he had interviewed me earlier for 1hr face to face and if you know me. Im not ready for f2f) We got on well and he was kind enough. Had a meeting with the team then rang me with the conclusion . After i explained that he added fear and made it all a lot worse. I added this could have been a man that had nothing left and topped himself at the thought he could now be a bad father. I said pass this on to the "team". Your actions have a massive re- action . You could have caused a very bad situation with a man who is at the end and cherishes his children
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I'm sorry the system is failing you Rob. I know. It's hard. I've had two psychiatrists. One laughed me out of our first meeting ("crazy people don't know they're crazy-you're fine! LOL) and the second was nice enough but he was honest that his caseload was simply too high to take on a patient like me for the long haul. I wasn't bad off enough for him.
Hfd. I swear i had that crazy people shit as well. They are cunts. I think people like us should do those exact jobs
I was floored by his dismissiveness. after what I told him was going through my head. just not supposed to worry about it. you don't act on it. what he didn't get was that, sure, while I was worried I'd act on it, it wasn't just that. even if I never did, the anxiety and self-loathing the thoughts themselves were causing was ruining my life.
Luckily I read enough online to kind of self-therapist myself. But that's the only thing I've ever been able to handle on my own like that.
Divorce can be a good thing, but don't ever go into it thinking you will soon find a better relationship. Better to go into it thinking about whether being alone is ultimately better than staying in the marriage.
Absolutely. It's about how hard marriage is and how much work is needed. Takes 2, and being the only one wanting a relationship...
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I'm sorry the system is failing you Rob. I know. It's hard. I've had two psychiatrists. One laughed me out of our first meeting ("crazy people don't know they're crazy-you're fine! LOL) and the second was nice enough but he was honest that his caseload was simply too high to take on a patient like me for the long haul. I wasn't bad off enough for him.
Hfd. I swear i had that crazy people shit as well. They are cunts. I think people like us should do those exact jobs
I was floored by his dismissiveness. after what I told him was going through my head. just not supposed to worry about it. you don't act on it. what he didn't get was that, sure, while I was worried I'd act on it, it wasn't just that. even if I never did, the anxiety and self-loathing the thoughts themselves were causing was ruining my life.
Luckily I read enough online to kind of self-therapist myself. But that's the only thing I've ever been able to handle on my own like that.
Not too dismiss any issues or how much the mental health system sucks. But psychiatrists and therapists are very different, extremely different from school and medical systems. There are numbers to call to get to the right service, but it takes time and most are underpaid, understaffed and undertrained. That's just how it is, sucks. Social Workers are great resources, know the system, and can get you to the right place. Don't view them as the people chasing you down, they are trying to help. From experience and where I work. Schools have some of the best Social Workers and people who can get you what you need. Even if you're a parent, call the school. And if they can't help they probably know who can.
I have a therapist, but would get laughed out of a psychiatrist's office probably as well. But it's a tremendous help for anxiety and depression.
Wouldn't it be funny if the world ended in 2010, with lots of fire?
well this was many years ago, and it was a referral directly from my doctor. Doc #2 was for SURE a psychiatrist (who said I'd probably benefit more from a psychologist). Douche #1 I'm not sure.
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the innocence of young children always brought me back to a good place too Rob. but now I have teenagers. lol
Volunteer to work with young children after work. I coach little league, and it has been an incredibly rewarding experience. I'll likely continue to do so (or work with young children in some other capacity) long after my son moves on from the program.
My dream is to open a School of Rock location, but the upfront cost is ridonk.
Sorry to reignite this thread. Im stuck in a lonely place, whilst my 5 year old and partner had covid and are now recovered i failed to get covid out of the way. But i did get something else. Suspected labyrinthitus. 7 days so far laying in my room. They are now a lot more free in thier movements and are able to relax a bit amd go out and about. Im so fucking gutted and my brain says this is going to be forever and my life is set to be stuck. The meds haven't worked. Ive had 3 months of globus syndrome also i dont believe it to be that. Fuck man. This life keeps dipping to new lows. I know so many suffer with a lot worse so im not saying why me. Just that i cant take anymore
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Yeah spoke got some pillls that dont work and had a blood test because i insisted. I feel like its the end for me. Sounds dramatic i know but im alone in my head.
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Sorry to reignite this thread. Im stuck in a lonely place, whilst my 5 year old and partner had covid and are now recovered i failed to get covid out of the way. But i did get something else. Suspected labyrinthitus. 7 days so far laying in my room. They are now a lot more free in thier movements and are able to relax a bit amd go out and about. Im so fucking gutted and my brain says this is going to be forever and my life is set to be stuck. The meds haven't worked. Ive had 3 months of globus syndrome also i dont believe it to be that. Fuck man. This life keeps dipping to new lows. I know so many suffer with a lot worse so im not saying why me. Just that i cant take anymore
Never a need to apologize here, Rob. Anxiety is ongoing for many of us who struggle with it. With the hard days come, if it helps to write/talk about it, go for it. You'll get nothing but empathy and support here, bud.
“The fear of death follows from the fear of life. A man [or woman] who lives fully is prepared to die at any time.”
I honestly think if I can get better, anyone can, Rob. I'm the best I've been in years. I restarted my meds after another failed attempt in the spring (GI symptoms). I eased into more this time, as my doctor had originally told me to but I ignored ("I was fine last time, he's an idiot"). Well, turns how he was right for once. Wish I had done this months ago.
I wish you peace Rob. Just keep thinking "all the things I thought I had, I don't have, so I likely don't have this". The symptoms I was having during my anxiety the last several months have all gone. It was all because of my broken brain. And I knew it, but didn't know it, ya know? I'm sure it's the same with you.
I saw a quote once, and I knew it to be true. Paraphrasing, but "the people who worry about sickness the most, get sick the least".
One of the things that drives my anxiety is aggressive dog barking. Don't get me wrong- I don't hate dogs. Although I'm definitely more of a cat person, I've had 4 dogs at various times in my life, and loved them all. But when I hear aggressive, loud barking at night, it shoots my anxiety up big time, and lately there's been a lot of it. It's really bad for my head and not good for my overall health either. It's still warm around here so it sucks that I have to close the windows, turn on fans, and then feel trapped and agitated. Must hang in there. Winter will be better.
“The fear of death follows from the fear of life. A man [or woman] who lives fully is prepared to die at any time.”
One of the things that drives my anxiety is aggressive dog barking. Don't get me wrong- I don't hate dogs. Although I'm definitely more of a cat person, I've had 4 dogs at various times in my life, and loved them all. But when I hear aggressive, loud barking at night, it shoots my anxiety up big time, and lately there's been a lot of it. It's really bad for my head and not good for my overall health either. It's still warm around here so it sucks that I have to close the windows, turn on fans, and then feel trapped and agitated. Must hang in there. Winter will be better.
I don't know there @brianlux, but in Europe, winter looks scary here..
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One of the things that drives my anxiety is aggressive dog barking. Don't get me wrong- I don't hate dogs. Although I'm definitely more of a cat person, I've had 4 dogs at various times in my life, and loved them all. But when I hear aggressive, loud barking at night, it shoots my anxiety up big time, and lately there's been a lot of it. It's really bad for my head and not good for my overall health either. It's still warm around here so it sucks that I have to close the windows, turn on fans, and then feel trapped and agitated. Must hang in there. Winter will be better.
I don't know there @brianlux, but in Europe, winter looks scary here..
It's hard to predict weather long-term of course, but hopefully you will have a good winter. I hope it goes well for you!
Feeling tired and discouraged today. Been losing too much sleep to barking dogs and the added anxiety. When this happens, I just want to move, but I know there is no quiet place on earth to go to. I'm not in a hurry to be dead, but at least it will be quiet then.
“The fear of death follows from the fear of life. A man [or woman] who lives fully is prepared to die at any time.”
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WELL FUCK THEM.i will never ask for help again
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We got on well and he was kind enough.
Had a meeting with the team then rang me with the conclusion . After i explained that he added fear and made it all a lot worse. I added this could have been a man that had nothing left and topped himself at the thought he could now be a bad father.
I said pass this on to the "team".
Your actions have a massive re- action . You could have caused a very bad situation with a man who is at the end and cherishes his children
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Luckily I read enough online to kind of self-therapist myself. But that's the only thing I've ever been able to handle on my own like that.
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But psychiatrists and therapists are very different, extremely different from school and medical systems. There are numbers to call to get to the right service, but it takes time and most are underpaid, understaffed and undertrained. That's just how it is, sucks.
Social Workers are great resources, know the system, and can get you to the right place. Don't view them as the people chasing you down, they are trying to help.
From experience and where I work. Schools have some of the best Social Workers and people who can get you what you need. Even if you're a parent, call the school. And if they can't help they probably know who can.
I have a therapist, but would get laughed out of a psychiatrist's office probably as well. But it's a tremendous help for anxiety and depression.
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My dream is to open a School of Rock location, but the upfront cost is ridonk.
Im stuck in a lonely place, whilst my 5 year old and partner had covid and are now recovered i failed to get covid out of the way. But i did get something else. Suspected labyrinthitus. 7 days so far laying in my room. They are now a lot more free in thier movements and are able to relax a bit amd go out and about. Im so fucking gutted and my brain says this is going to be forever and my life is set to be stuck. The meds haven't worked. Ive had 3 months of globus syndrome also i dont believe it to be that.
Fuck man. This life keeps dipping to new lows.
I know so many suffer with a lot worse so im not saying why me. Just that i cant take anymore
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Never a need to apologize here, Rob. Anxiety is ongoing for many of us who struggle with it. With the hard days come, if it helps to write/talk about it, go for it. You'll get nothing but empathy and support here, bud.
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I wish you peace Rob. Just keep thinking "all the things I thought I had, I don't have, so I likely don't have this". The symptoms I was having during my anxiety the last several months have all gone. It was all because of my broken brain. And I knew it, but didn't know it, ya know? I'm sure it's the same with you.
I saw a quote once, and I knew it to be true. Paraphrasing, but "the people who worry about sickness the most, get sick the least".
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Must hang in there. Winter will be better.
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