A safe place for anxiety sufferers to share.

lastexitlondon

So many adverts and tv commercials. 
TALK TO SOMEONE  
DONT SUFFER IN SILENCE 

 WELL FUCK THEM.i will never  ask for help again
   

lastexitlondon

HughFreakingDillon said:

I'm sorry the system is failing you Rob. I know. It's hard. I've had two psychiatrists. One laughed me out of our first meeting ("crazy people don't know they're crazy-you're fine! LOL) and the second was nice enough but he was honest that his caseload was simply too high to take on a patient like me for the long haul. I wasn't bad off enough for him. 

Hfd. I swear i had that  crazy people shit  as well. They are cunts.  I think people like us should do those  exact jobs

lastexitlondon

Im glad i have somewhere  to write this down
 Thanks 

lastexitlondon

While I'm here. the guy.(he had interviewed me earlier for 1hr face to face and if you know me. Im not ready for f2f)
We got on well  and he was kind  enough. 
 Had a meeting  with the  team then rang me with the  conclusion . After i explained  that he added fear and made it all a lot worse. I added this could have been a man that had nothing  left and topped himself  at the thought  he could now be a bad father. 
I said pass this on to the "team".
Your  actions have a massive  re- action . You  could have caused  a very bad situation  with a man who is at the  end and cherishes his children 

HughFreakingDillon

lastexitlondon said:

HughFreakingDillon said:

I'm sorry the system is failing you Rob. I know. It's hard. I've had two psychiatrists. One laughed me out of our first meeting ("crazy people don't know they're crazy-you're fine! LOL) and the second was nice enough but he was honest that his caseload was simply too high to take on a patient like me for the long haul. I wasn't bad off enough for him. 

Hfd. I swear i had that  crazy people shit  as well. They are cunts.  I think people like us should do those  exact jobs

I was floored by his dismissiveness. after what I told him was going through my head. just not supposed to worry about it. you don't act on it. what he didn't get was that, sure, while I was worried I'd act on it, it wasn't just that. even if I never did, the anxiety and self-loathing the thoughts themselves were causing was ruining my life. 

Luckily I read enough online to kind of self-therapist myself. But that's the only thing I've ever been able to handle on my own like that. 

a5pj

OffSheGoes35 said:

Divorce can be a good thing, but don't ever go into it thinking you will soon find a better relationship. Better to go into it thinking about whether being alone is ultimately better than staying in the marriage. 

Absolutely. It's about how hard marriage is and how much work is needed. Takes 2, and being the only one wanting a relationship...

a5pj

HughFreakingDillon said:

lastexitlondon said:

HughFreakingDillon said:

I'm sorry the system is failing you Rob. I know. It's hard. I've had two psychiatrists. One laughed me out of our first meeting ("crazy people don't know they're crazy-you're fine! LOL) and the second was nice enough but he was honest that his caseload was simply too high to take on a patient like me for the long haul. I wasn't bad off enough for him. 

Hfd. I swear i had that  crazy people shit  as well. They are cunts.  I think people like us should do those  exact jobs

I was floored by his dismissiveness. after what I told him was going through my head. just not supposed to worry about it. you don't act on it. what he didn't get was that, sure, while I was worried I'd act on it, it wasn't just that. even if I never did, the anxiety and self-loathing the thoughts themselves were causing was ruining my life. 

Luckily I read enough online to kind of self-therapist myself. But that's the only thing I've ever been able to handle on my own like that. 

Not too dismiss any issues or how much the mental health system sucks. 
But psychiatrists and therapists are very different, extremely different from school and medical systems. There are numbers to call to get to the right service, but it takes time and most are underpaid, understaffed and undertrained. That's just how it is, sucks.
Social Workers are great resources, know the system, and can get you to the right place. Don't view them as the people chasing you down, they are trying to help.
From experience and where I work. Schools have some of the best Social Workers and people who can get you what you need. Even if you're a parent, call the school. And if they can't help they probably know who can.

I have a therapist, but would get laughed out of a psychiatrist's office probably as well. But it's a tremendous help for anxiety and depression.

HughFreakingDillon

well this was many years ago, and it was a referral directly from my doctor. Doc #2 was for SURE a psychiatrist (who said I'd probably benefit more from a psychologist). Douche #1 I'm not sure. 

West Coast Dreamgirl

Perhaps the supermoon from a few days ago is still messing with people.

lastexitlondon

listening  to hyde park night 2 

lastexitlondon

lastexitlondon

My daughter  looked to the sky and clouds  at night tonight and said dad lets make shapes from  the  clouds. She is 5.  Wonderful  . And then  we saw  mars. And Jupiter? Maybe.  But  i guess that was grounding 

West Coast Dreamgirl

She sounds like a gem Rob

HughFreakingDillon

the innocence of young children always brought me back to a good place too Rob. but now I have teenagers. lol

dankind

HughFreakingDillon said:

the innocence of young children always brought me back to a good place too Rob. but now I have teenagers. lol

Volunteer to work with young children after work. I coach little league, and it has been an incredibly rewarding experience. I'll likely continue to do so (or work with young children in some other capacity) long after my son moves on from the program.

My dream is to open a School of Rock location, but the upfront cost is ridonk.

West Coast Dreamgirl

Yeah it's not the same when the kids grow up!

lastexitlondon

Sorry to reignite this thread. 
Im stuck in a lonely place, whilst my 5 year old and partner had covid and are now recovered i failed to get covid out of the way. But i did get something  else. Suspected  labyrinthitus. 7 days so far laying in my room. They are now a lot more  free in thier  movements and are able  to relax a bit amd go out and about. Im so fucking gutted and my brain says this is going to be forever and my life is set to be stuck. The  meds haven't  worked. Ive had 3 months  of globus syndrome  also i dont believe  it to be that. 
Fuck man.  This  life keeps dipping to new lows. 
I know  so many  suffer with a lot worse so im not saying  why me. Just that i cant  take anymore

lastexitlondon

Walking  my daughter  to school  was our thing.  Now im basically unable. Gutted and pissed off

West Coast Dreamgirl

You'll get better Rob, have you called the Dr?

lastexitlondon

Yeah spoke got some pillls that dont work and had a blood test because  i insisted. I feel  like its the end for me. Sounds dramatic i know  but im alone in my head. 

brianlux

lastexitlondon said:

Sorry to reignite this thread. 
Im stuck in a lonely place, whilst my 5 year old and partner had covid and are now recovered i failed to get covid out of the way. But i did get something  else. Suspected  labyrinthitus. 7 days so far laying in my room. They are now a lot more  free in thier  movements and are able  to relax a bit amd go out and about. Im so fucking gutted and my brain says this is going to be forever and my life is set to be stuck. The  meds haven't  worked. Ive had 3 months  of globus syndrome  also i dont believe  it to be that. 
Fuck man.  This  life keeps dipping to new lows. 
I know  so many  suffer with a lot worse so im not saying  why me. Just that i cant  take anymore

Never a need to apologize here, Rob.  Anxiety is ongoing for many of us who struggle with it.  With the hard days come, if it helps to write/talk about it, go for it.  You'll get nothing but empathy and support here, bud.

lastexitlondon

Thanks friends 

HughFreakingDillon

I honestly think if I can get better, anyone can, Rob. I'm the best I've been in years. I restarted my meds after another failed attempt in the spring (GI symptoms). I eased into more this time, as my doctor had originally told me to but I ignored ("I was fine last time, he's an idiot"). Well, turns how he was right for once. Wish I had done this months ago. 

I wish you peace Rob. Just keep thinking "all the things I thought I had, I don't have, so I likely don't have this". The symptoms I was having during my anxiety the last several months have all gone. It was all because of my broken brain. And I knew it, but didn't know it, ya know? I'm sure it's the same with you. 

I saw a quote once, and I knew it to be true. Paraphrasing, but "the people who worry about sickness the most, get sick the least". 

lastexitlondon

Great quote. Many thanks my friend

hedonist

As I was recently told, keep your chin up. SO much easier said than done but it’s well worth the effort, Rob.

lastexitlondon

Thank you hedo. I Will aim for it

brianlux

One of the things that drives my anxiety is aggressive dog barking.  Don't get me wrong- I don't hate dogs. Although I'm definitely more of a cat person, I've had 4 dogs at various times in my life, and loved them all.  But  when I hear aggressive, loud barking at night, it shoots my anxiety up big time, and lately there's been a lot of it.  It's really bad for my head and not good for my overall health either.   It's still warm around here so it sucks that I have to close the windows, turn on fans, and then feel trapped and agitated.  
Must hang in there.  Winter will be better.  

23scidoo

brianlux said:

One of the things that drives my anxiety is aggressive dog barking.  Don't get me wrong- I don't hate dogs. Although I'm definitely more of a cat person, I've had 4 dogs at various times in my life, and loved them all.  But  when I hear aggressive, loud barking at night, it shoots my anxiety up big time, and lately there's been a lot of it.  It's really bad for my head and not good for my overall health either.   It's still warm around here so it sucks that I have to close the windows, turn on fans, and then feel trapped and agitated.  
Must hang in there.  Winter will be better.  

I don't know there @brianlux, but in Europe, winter looks scary here..

brianlux

23scidoo said:

brianlux said:

One of the things that drives my anxiety is aggressive dog barking.  Don't get me wrong- I don't hate dogs. Although I'm definitely more of a cat person, I've had 4 dogs at various times in my life, and loved them all.  But  when I hear aggressive, loud barking at night, it shoots my anxiety up big time, and lately there's been a lot of it.  It's really bad for my head and not good for my overall health either.   It's still warm around here so it sucks that I have to close the windows, turn on fans, and then feel trapped and agitated.  
Must hang in there.  Winter will be better.  

I don't know there @brianlux, but in Europe, winter looks scary here..

It's hard to predict weather long-term of course, but hopefully you will have a good winter.  I hope it goes well for you!

Feeling tired and discouraged today.  Been losing too much sleep to barking dogs and the added anxiety.  When this happens, I just want to move, but I know there is no quiet place on earth to go to.  I'm not in a hurry to be dead, but at least it will be quiet then.

West Coast Dreamgirl

Earplugs?