A safe place for anxiety sufferers to share.

hedonist

Wishing you well as always, Rob. 

lastexitlondon

Thank you all my friends 

Purple Fairy Tree

I've found this really helpful - 10 min meditation for stress 
https://youtu.be/z6X5oEIg6Ak

Fifthelement

Sending love and light to all in this thread who need it, especially you Rob.  @lastexitlondon

lastexitlondon

Ive nothing else to try. Nowhere else to go.
Alone in myself.

Fifthelement

@lastexitlondon

I'm here if you want to talk Rob.

If you want to talk to someone closer to home via telephone or chat:

https://www.samaritans.org/how-we-can-help/contact-samaritan/

lastexitlondon

I Just  dont have anything  left. Im in such a poor state . I need a way out.  I dont want to moan and expose myself on a public forum. I have said so much and been open but i just have come to a point where im clinging on to my kids in my head . I want this to stop so much

lastexitlondon

Im making  judgement and decisions  i cant trust anymore. Im now having  symptoms  i cant know are me-anxiety or vaccine. Or illness. I just want it all to stop. Facing this  sober makes me feel like i want out

Purple Fairy Tree

Rob I'm sure there are people/organisationa out there that can help you. It sounds like you are suffering a lot very intensely, most moments of the day which sounds really unpleasant. It also sounds like you dont have much control about how you feel which also cant feel good. It sounds like there are physical and psychological elements to your pain. I can recommend someone for you to speak to but it sounds like you need support with the physical side of what you are going through too.
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I wouldnt worry to much about what you have shared on here as people want to help give support. If it helps you that is the main thing. Please don't feel ashamed, particularly if it helps.  I often find writing things down helps to process it. It's difficult to know what to advise as I'm not medically trained. At some point I usually try to read up on what's going on, to understand it in context.  I'm going through some shit right now so I'm having to research what's going on and it is all there in black and white which is empowering.

Mental health, suffering, pain, it's all worth fighting for. I hate to see anyone suffer, and I'd hate to think I've caused that to anyone even unintentionally. You can PM me anytime and I'd be happy to listen or on here you can recieve more support from lots of people. It's good to not feel alone whatever you are going through.  Misery loves company etc.. please stay strong, things will improve, you'll get through this. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

You have a beautiful baby girl who is adorable, not everyone has that, you are very lucky. Kids/animals usually pick up on vibes. You should see how many times a day my dog wants to take me for a walk! X

Fifthelement

Great thoughts and advice WCD.  I, too, feel your pain and desperation Rob.  I wish more than anything that I could wave a magic wand and make things better for you. Please know that we are sending our thoughts your way 💕💕💕

lastexitlondon

I appreciate your  words  thank you 

brianlux

Going to the dentist... the horror.  Dentistry in the dark ages of the 1950 was a horrible experience for million of us baby boomers, so whenever I go for a cleaning or check up, I'm always nervous.  Even a simple cleaning is nerve wracking.  I go, and hope and pray to the Teeth Gods that nothing bad will come of it.  Yesterday, I got my teeth cleaned and xrayed (great!  More radiation!), and was informed I need three fillings.  On top of that, my regular dentist sold his practice and moved, so now I have this new guy who will be applying the torture inside my mouth.  Oh goodie... more anxiety.  :-( 

hedonist

Haven’t had a cavity since I quit drinking.

Purple Fairy Tree

Blimey @brianlux

lastexitlondon

West Coast Dreamgirl said:

Blimey @brianlux

Very english 
 Haha

brianlux

West Coast Dreamgirl said:

Blimey @brianlux

lastexitlondon said:

West Coast Dreamgirl said:

Blimey @brianlux

Very english 
 Haha

"Blimey!" I love that word!  It must be that 1/4 English side of me coming out!

So anyway, back to me complaining...     ...  This afternoon, my hip joint went out worse than it ever has.  I tried walking it off this afternoon.  Now all I can do is limp and tomorrow is supposed to be our hiking day. 

Well, but here's the thing- the body is a wonderful thing.  When you have one thing bothering you (in this case my teeth), the body whacks out something else (in this case hip) to get your mind off the other problem.  Pure genius!

Meanwhile, time to load up on Ibuprofen,

Purple Fairy Tree

Isn't it always the way.... I hope your Ibruprofen works. Sometimes life keeps throwing things at you. I'm sure it's designed to make you stronger, so one day nothing affects you! Xxx 

Fifthelement

brianlux said:

West Coast Dreamgirl said:

Blimey @brianlux

lastexitlondon said:

West Coast Dreamgirl said:

Blimey @brianlux

Very english 
 Haha

"Blimey!" I love that word!  It must be that 1/4 English side of me coming out!

So anyway, back to me complaining...     ...  This afternoon, my hip joint went out worse than it ever has.  I tried walking it off this afternoon.  Now all I can do is limp and tomorrow is supposed to be our hiking day. 

Well, but here's the thing- the body is a wonderful thing.  When you have one thing bothering you (in this case my teeth), the body whacks out something else (in this case hip) to get your mind off the other problem.  Pure genius!

Meanwhile, time to load up on Ibuprofen,

I call that the hierarchy of pain.  I so full of areas that are chronically in pain, that I’m not even aware how bad it is until someone touches me there.  It’s soooo much fun.

hedonist

Fifthelement said:

brianlux said:

West Coast Dreamgirl said:

Blimey @brianlux

lastexitlondon said:

West Coast Dreamgirl said:

Blimey @brianlux

Very english 
 Haha

"Blimey!" I love that word!  It must be that 1/4 English side of me coming out!

So anyway, back to me complaining...     ...  This afternoon, my hip joint went out worse than it ever has.  I tried walking it off this afternoon.  Now all I can do is limp and tomorrow is supposed to be our hiking day. 

Well, but here's the thing- the body is a wonderful thing.  When you have one thing bothering you (in this case my teeth), the body whacks out something else (in this case hip) to get your mind off the other problem.  Pure genius!

Meanwhile, time to load up on Ibuprofen,

I call that the hierarchy of pain.  I so full of areas that are chronically in pain, that I’m not even aware how bad it is until someone touches me there.  It’s soooo much fun.

Yup. We (and others here) get to live with that extra bit of fun! Especially when a certain ever-growing kitten decides to walk all over my torso’s organs 👿

brianlux

West Coast Dreamgirl said:

Isn't it always the way.... I hope your Ibruprofen works. Sometimes life keeps throwing things at you. I'm sure it's designed to make you stronger, so one day nothing affects you! Xxx 

Thanks for good thoughts.   Ibuprofen almost never lets me down but this time, 600 mg didn't touch the pain.  Almost no sleep last night, unrelenting stabbing pain in the hip.  Saw my GP this morning and he sent me to radiology for xrays.  I'm guessing its a pinched nerve but I guess you can't be too careful!

Fifthelement said:

brianlux said:

West Coast Dreamgirl said:

Blimey @brianlux

lastexitlondon said:

West Coast Dreamgirl said:

Blimey @brianlux

Very english 
 Haha

"Blimey!" I love that word!  It must be that 1/4 English side of me coming out!

So anyway, back to me complaining...     ...  This afternoon, my hip joint went out worse than it ever has.  I tried walking it off this afternoon.  Now all I can do is limp and tomorrow is supposed to be our hiking day. 

Well, but here's the thing- the body is a wonderful thing.  When you have one thing bothering you (in this case my teeth), the body whacks out something else (in this case hip) to get your mind off the other problem.  Pure genius!

Meanwhile, time to load up on Ibuprofen,

I call that the hierarchy of pain.  I so full of areas that are chronically in pain, that I’m not even aware how bad it is until someone touches me there.  It’s soooo much fun.

I''m sorry to hear that!  Chronic pain is a real challenge.  I hope you have times of relief, or at least lessening of the pain.

hedonist said:

Fifthelement said:

brianlux said:

West Coast Dreamgirl said:

Blimey @brianlux

lastexitlondon said:

West Coast Dreamgirl said:

Blimey @brianlux

Very english 
 Haha

"Blimey!" I love that word!  It must be that 1/4 English side of me coming out!

So anyway, back to me complaining...     ...  This afternoon, my hip joint went out worse than it ever has.  I tried walking it off this afternoon.  Now all I can do is limp and tomorrow is supposed to be our hiking day. 

Well, but here's the thing- the body is a wonderful thing.  When you have one thing bothering you (in this case my teeth), the body whacks out something else (in this case hip) to get your mind off the other problem.  Pure genius!

Meanwhile, time to load up on Ibuprofen,

I call that the hierarchy of pain.  I so full of areas that are chronically in pain, that I’m not even aware how bad it is until someone touches me there.  It’s soooo much fun.

Yup. We (and others here) get to live with that extra bit of fun! Especially when a certain ever-growing kitten decides to walk all over my torso’s organs 👿

Oh boy, you said it, I get it!  Gotta love them kitties, despite the ouch but that does sounds rather uncomfortable!

Dear sweet Annie jumped up in my lap a little while ago and I looked at her and said, "I love you, sweet kitty, but the extra weight isn't quite what I need right now.  Why don't you go see what mom is up to."  C. was very accommodating by rattling the treat bag out in the kitchen.  Zoom!  Off goes kitty!

lastexitlondon

What a day. Indian variant here now  causing  panic. .
Spent 3 hrs(which is very low) in hospital  today.  Its the last place on earth i would be in a pandemic.  Last resort
 My dr sent me.  Im apparently ok. Im not. 
I try to trust. Thats not possible . Life  is short and im making it miserable  for  myself and  all who are stupid enough  to love me.

Purple Fairy Tree

lastexitlondon said:

What a day. Indian variant here now  causing  panic. .
Spent 3 hrs(which is very low) in hospital  today.  Its the last place on earth i would be in a pandemic.  Last resort
 My dr sent me.  Im apparently ok. Im not. 
I try to trust. Thats not possible . Life  is short and im making it miserable  for  myself and  all who are stupid enough  to love me.

Well, it sounds to me like you are being way to hard on yourself. Be kind to yourself please, you wouldn't treat someone else like that so have just a little bit of self compassion. Sorry to hear you are in hospital. I hope everybody's wearing face masks.  Keep us posted with updates. Sending happy vibes and positivity! 

lastexitlondon

Fucking  fear. I often ask myself why .
I was so close but now so far away

benjs

To everyone feeling confused, concerned, or in pain - hang in there. 

Feel free any time to reach out, whether we've spoken or not. These are rough times we should help each other through.

Sincerely, a person in the same position.

Fifthelement

Sending hugs to all who need them, especially @lastextlondon and @benjs   Hang in there ((((hugs))))

lastexitlondon

Fuck i cant take anymore 

lastexitlondon

Ive been doing therapy  7 weeks now and i can't do the  things  she is saying  .  Some common grounding  and  mindfulness  but im not able

JPPJ84

lastexitlondon said:

Ive been doing therapy  7 weeks now and i can't do the  things  she is saying  .  Some common grounding  and  mindfulness  but im not able

Little steps, Rob. Don’t expect to simply change your ways completely after a few weeks. Great to hear you’re doing therapy! 

lastexitlondon

Im going to have to stop using the internet at all. I only use this and you tube but its all too much. 

lastexitlondon

One of the worst weeks i can remember monday  to monday. Stayed mostly medicated out of the game. Today i went and picked flowers and veg
 But i cant rid myself of solid fear. I have symptoms again  . Dr says im ok. But it cant sink in