Well my dear friends its bad news. My dad has been told today its terminal and chemo may prolong it a bit Life is short and im wasting mine. Guilty and lost and pathetic is how i feel. His wife doesnt like me i want to be with him. I must find courage and walk through fire once again. All i can do is get drunk and hide. Illness is surrounding me. Love to all of you my friends. Be sound.
I’m so sorry, Rob.
The best you can do? Get drunk and tune everything out? You know that’s just a bandaid. Be strong as you can for him, for your family, for yourself.
Well my dear friends its bad news. My dad has been told today its terminal and chemo may prolong it a bit Life is short and im wasting mine. Guilty and lost and pathetic is how i feel. His wife doesnt like me i want to be with him. I must find courage and walk through fire once again. All i can do is get drunk and hide. Illness is surrounding me. Love to all of you my friends. Be sound.
I’m so sorry, Rob.
The best you can do? Get drunk and tune everything out? You know that’s just a bandaid. Be strong as you can for him, for your family, for yourself.
You’re have more mettle than you believe.
agree with this. you'll be full of regret if you stay away because of his wife. I understand the urge to medicate to ease these situations, but it won't help. you will honestly help yourself if you choose to be there for him.
Well my dear friends its bad news. My dad has been told today its terminal and chemo may prolong it a bit Life is short and im wasting mine. Guilty and lost and pathetic is how i feel. His wife doesnt like me i want to be with him. I must find courage and walk through fire once again. All i can do is get drunk and hide. Illness is surrounding me. Love to all of you my friends. Be sound.
3 am . So low and afraid no meds. Or anything help. I cannot be
Hi Rob, my advice to you would be to find an online support group that is specifically for family members of terminally ill patients. Maybe they have a group on Reddit? It helps so much to "be around" people who are going through the same thing you are. You don't feel as alone. I hope you feel better today. ❤️
3 am . So low and afraid no meds. Or anything help. I cannot be
Hi Rob, my advice to you would be to find an online support group that is specifically for family members of terminally ill patients. Maybe they have a group on Reddit? It helps so much to "be around" people who are going through the same thing you are. You don't feel as alone. I hope you feel better today. ❤️
I would also suggest your local hospital online for support groups. When my father was diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer. I found a support group for kids who’s parents are passing and my mom found one for spouses.
im sure they do them online Zia zoom and the such right now. Above is correct sometimes talking to those who are going thru the same thing can be very helpful.
that is not me or anyone else saying done share your feelings here because you total can but this may put you in touch with people whom have a better understanding of what you are currently going thru.
Im not sure its my dad thats done me. My daughter is ill again and i cant cope. With my step son at college. Its coming. I feel imminent danger. I have so many symptoms that make me believe im dying . I took some meds and knocked myself out for the last 24 hrs . I didn't want it to end. Now im awake and its horrendous its never going to end until i die. Its everything. I hate myself so fucking much but im full of love it makes no sence why i suffer beyond whats copeable . I really am lost. The dr is not an option nobody can get help here anymore its all gone so far down hill. Lost and alone and desperate. But i know thats wrong and selfish so many are coping with much more better than me. Guilt is heavy
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This site is all i visit now. I took advice of a board member and stopped even you tube. I have no outlet or anything. I havent drank for 2 days because i was abusing it and ii feels dirty and wrong. But at the same time i loved it for a small while. I cant keep doing this to these people. I want to run and hide and die in a bush.
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@lastexitlondon I bet you're a really great dad and you sound like you're being really hard on yourself. I don't think it's right to compare yourself to others as everyone is different including circumstances. I really enjoyed listening to Louise Hay meditations (on youtube) a while back, that seemed to help me. It sounds like you may benefit from further healthy outlets (not necessarily online) to deal with so many things going on around you. You're not alone and reaching out is always good. If there's anything I can do to try and help let me know xxx
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The best you can do? Get drunk and tune everything out? You know that’s just a bandaid. Be strong as you can for him, for your family, for yourself.
You’re have more mettle than you believe.
Cheers,
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im sure they do them online Zia zoom and the such right now. Above is correct sometimes talking to those who are going thru the same thing can be very helpful.
that is not me or anyone else saying done share your feelings here because you total can but this may put you in touch with people whom have a better understanding of what you are currently going thru.
My daughter is ill again and i cant cope. With my step son at college. Its coming. I feel imminent danger. I have so many symptoms that make me believe im dying . I took some meds and knocked myself out for the last 24 hrs . I didn't want it to end. Now im awake and its horrendous its never going to end until i die. Its everything. I hate myself so fucking much but im full of love it makes no sence why i suffer beyond whats copeable . I really am lost. The dr is not an option nobody can get help here anymore its all gone so far down hill.
Lost and alone and desperate.
But i know thats wrong and selfish so many are coping with much more better than me. Guilt is heavy
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I cant keep doing this to these people.
I want to run and hide and die in a bush.
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