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  • Thoughts_Arrive
    Thoughts_Arrive Melbourne, Australia Posts: 15,165
    The woman, the mum.
    I wish my friend was attracted to me because I am to her but she has a on again off again boyfriend
    Adelaide 17/11/2009, Melbourne 20/11/2009, Sydney 22/11/2009, Melbourne (Big Day Out Festival) 24/01/2014
  • Glorified KC
    Glorified KC KCMO Native Posts: 2,814
    I'm going to try to hold onto this image for today.


    I wish I was a sacrifice, but somehow still lived on.
  • Thoughts_Arrive
    Thoughts_Arrive Melbourne, Australia Posts: 15,165
    edited February 2020
    It's 4:23am and I cannot fall asleep and need to get up at 7am as I have 4 important meetings with potential Honours supervisors. My anxiety is high and I am struggling to cope.

    It's not feeling right about this lady and her daughter. I just don't think it's the best move.
    I'll look for another sharehouse during mid year break.

    My dad had complications in hospital last night and he'll be housebound for 6 weeks or as long as he can have surgery and will be needing to use a catheter until surgery.
    I cannot leave my father right now. I just can't. I can't move out with him not well. I need to be here incase he needs to be driven to hospital.

    Back to the sharehouse,
    She bullshited that she texted me that her daughter won't be there as she's so keen to get me in. I know it. I don't like being lied to. I'm not comfortable unless I see if we could live together. What if she's unfriendly towards me? What if I get a bad vibe?
    She's selling her house and moving in one year's time so wtf is the point as I will need to move again and pay for a removalist again. Something just doesn't feel right.

    I'm going to move out in the middle of the year as:

    A) my dad will hopefully be better
    B ) I'll have more time to move

    If I don't find somewhere this year then I'll be working full time hopefully next year and have more freedom to chose where to move to.

    My friends won't be happy with me.
    You all won't be happy with me.
    But I feel this is for the best for THIS YEAR and THIS YEAR only.
    Adelaide 17/11/2009, Melbourne 20/11/2009, Sydney 22/11/2009, Melbourne (Big Day Out Festival) 24/01/2014
  • HughFreakingDillon
    HughFreakingDillon Winnipeg Posts: 39,538
    if this is truly a decision you honestly feel you have to make, and not another excuse to stay where you are comfortable and miserable, your friends will understand. i'm really not sure why they'd care so much in the first place, unless all you do is bitch about your circumstances when you are with them and refuse to change them. 
    By The Time They Figure Out What Went Wrong, We'll Be Sitting On A Beach, Earning Twenty Percent.




  • Thoughts_Arrive
    Thoughts_Arrive Melbourne, Australia Posts: 15,165
    I've asked another friend about the rent amount and other rent details for a girl he knows that is looking for a housemate. He let me know the other day but I dismissed it because of the place I don't feel comfortable with. I'm going to try to move out within 2 weeks. But my dad will probably need me so fuck I don't know. I can try in July to move out when I am on break from uni. 

    I try not to complain about my parents to friends as I'm mindful of not burdening them.

    Adelaide 17/11/2009, Melbourne 20/11/2009, Sydney 22/11/2009, Melbourne (Big Day Out Festival) 24/01/2014
  • Thoughts_Arrive
    Thoughts_Arrive Melbourne, Australia Posts: 15,165
    My mum is speaking and nicely to me lately.
    If shit gets bad I'll just crash at my sister's place until I can find a place

    Adelaide 17/11/2009, Melbourne 20/11/2009, Sydney 22/11/2009, Melbourne (Big Day Out Festival) 24/01/2014
  • Thoughts_Arrive
    Thoughts_Arrive Melbourne, Australia Posts: 15,165
    I didn't mention, this lady suffers depression and tonight she seemed flat. She told me her daughter spoke of feeling like suiciding.
    That has also been playing on my mind.
    I don't think 3 people living with mental health issues is a good idea. I don't need that environment.
    Adelaide 17/11/2009, Melbourne 20/11/2009, Sydney 22/11/2009, Melbourne (Big Day Out Festival) 24/01/2014
  • Thoughts_Arrive
    Thoughts_Arrive Melbourne, Australia Posts: 15,165
    I feel like everyone is pushing me to move into this place and it's stressing me out and causing me anxiety to the point I have not been able to fall asleep
    Adelaide 17/11/2009, Melbourne 20/11/2009, Sydney 22/11/2009, Melbourne (Big Day Out Festival) 24/01/2014
  • Thoughts_Arrive
    Thoughts_Arrive Melbourne, Australia Posts: 15,165
     First her daughter is so opposed to me ending up in her throwing a tantrum at her mum, then she doesn't care wtf? Then her mum tells me her daughter is not keen on any housemates male or female. I'm confused.
    Adelaide 17/11/2009, Melbourne 20/11/2009, Sydney 22/11/2009, Melbourne (Big Day Out Festival) 24/01/2014
  • Thoughts_Arrive
    Thoughts_Arrive Melbourne, Australia Posts: 15,165
    She purchased this house only in October last year and wants to move already and can't remember how much she paid?
    Something doesn't seem right or she's very unstable in life.

    Adelaide 17/11/2009, Melbourne 20/11/2009, Sydney 22/11/2009, Melbourne (Big Day Out Festival) 24/01/2014
  • Thoughts_Arrive
    Thoughts_Arrive Melbourne, Australia Posts: 15,165
    edited February 2020
    And the thing is, 3 weeks ago she said I can move in only to call me later in the same day saying her daughter is angry a guy is moving in. She said I can move in without consulting her daughter? My friends and sister thought that's stupid of her. The lady apologised for that.

    I might be paranoid here but what if her daughter accuses me of peeping at her in the shower or worse. Their previous male housemate peeped on her. At times it will be me and her daughter alone while her mum is at work. My word against hers and mud sticks even if found not guilty. And I don't need that shit destroying my life.
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    Adelaide 17/11/2009, Melbourne 20/11/2009, Sydney 22/11/2009, Melbourne (Big Day Out Festival) 24/01/2014
  • Thoughts_Arrive
    Thoughts_Arrive Melbourne, Australia Posts: 15,165
    edited February 2020
    In less than one hour I have to be up to get ready to go to university and I'll be there all day. Hope I can function without any sleep.
    Adelaide 17/11/2009, Melbourne 20/11/2009, Sydney 22/11/2009, Melbourne (Big Day Out Festival) 24/01/2014
  • Thoughts_Arrive
    Thoughts_Arrive Melbourne, Australia Posts: 15,165
    I'm going to try see a counselor at university today. I'm struggling with all of this.

    Adelaide 17/11/2009, Melbourne 20/11/2009, Sydney 22/11/2009, Melbourne (Big Day Out Festival) 24/01/2014
  • HughFreakingDillon
    HughFreakingDillon Winnipeg Posts: 39,538
    with regards to moving out, that mother/daughter combo sounds like a REALLY bad idea. stay away. all you're going to get there is drama. 
    By The Time They Figure Out What Went Wrong, We'll Be Sitting On A Beach, Earning Twenty Percent.




  • hedonist
    hedonist Posts: 24,524
    Find a different place. Just stick with your plan to move out soon - if that’s what you truly want. 

    I could be mistaken, but it kind of sounds like you’re talking yourself out of it altogether. 
  • Thoughts_Arrive
    Thoughts_Arrive Melbourne, Australia Posts: 15,165
    Plus the daughter has friends over on weekends with loud music and a lot of drinking. I need peoplemy age who are students or over partying.
    Adelaide 17/11/2009, Melbourne 20/11/2009, Sydney 22/11/2009, Melbourne (Big Day Out Festival) 24/01/2014
  • Thoughts_Arrive
    Thoughts_Arrive Melbourne, Australia Posts: 15,165
    hedonist said:
    Find a different place. Just stick with your plan to move out soon - if that’s what you truly want. 

    I could be mistaken, but it kind of sounds like you’re talking yourself out of it altogether. 
    For the week or so because of my dad.
    I don't want to move out in the middle of the semester as I have too much work. How will I have time? Honours year for psychology is hard. People don't understand
    Adelaide 17/11/2009, Melbourne 20/11/2009, Sydney 22/11/2009, Melbourne (Big Day Out Festival) 24/01/2014
  • Thoughts_Arrive
    Thoughts_Arrive Melbourne, Australia Posts: 15,165
    It's a make or break year. It's what determines if you can go on to do Master's or PhD. If I don't do well I can kiss my dream career good bye
    Adelaide 17/11/2009, Melbourne 20/11/2009, Sydney 22/11/2009, Melbourne (Big Day Out Festival) 24/01/2014
  • Thoughts_Arrive
    Thoughts_Arrive Melbourne, Australia Posts: 15,165
    Please understand people
    Adelaide 17/11/2009, Melbourne 20/11/2009, Sydney 22/11/2009, Melbourne (Big Day Out Festival) 24/01/2014
  • Thoughts_Arrive
    Thoughts_Arrive Melbourne, Australia Posts: 15,165
    I feel like smashing my phone in frustration right now
    Adelaide 17/11/2009, Melbourne 20/11/2009, Sydney 22/11/2009, Melbourne (Big Day Out Festival) 24/01/2014

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