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Fifthelement · January 2020

Matts3221 said:

Not that any illness is the same but in case I have not said before.
200mg of Zoloft a day
3mg of Clonozopam (sp) a day ( 1mg in the AM , at lunch and after Dinner )
Rob glad to hear that you know there is hope , I put this board down as something I am grateful for , if I am down someone will pick me back up and I love being able to just give the love to those who are having a hard time.

Thought
I promise love yourself for all you are and you will find someone. Dating apps can be hard because some are mean on them but for the most part they are nice , I met my now wife via OK Cupid in 2011 ( no mobile app then still logging on to my computer )

Have a great day everyone

Matts, that is fantastic advice. Sometimes the biggest challenge is learning to love yourself, to not give in to the negative thoughts floating around your head. Persevere! Believe you are worthy of love, because you are, and things will work out as they were meant to.

(((Hugs to all)))

Thoughts_Arrive · January 2020

Thank you S and Matts

njnancy · January 2020

Love to my fellow sufferers!

Rob, I take 2mg of clonazepam 3-4 times a day (panic disorder), 450 mg of bupropion once a day & 100 mg of Pristiq once a day (clinical depression) & adderall twice a day (ADHD) though I haven't taken it in a couple months, those I've been on for 20 years. I take Gabapentin 100mg 3x/day since the PTSD, it helps with the panicked dreams & free floating terror. I used to take Effexor & I think it is better than the anti depressants I'm on currently. I've tried them all, you have to see what works for you. They effect everyone differently. You'll find the right meds, it helps to be sober for several months to really have them work. Good luck. To all ...

I've thought of going to the hospital due to agoraphobia & just general feelings of fear & despair - Complex PTSD (C-PTSD) is tough. It just leaves you without your good parts. I dont know what to do cause this is years of fighting & then back sliding.

I'm alive, I ordered MSG tickets which i can't afford & will have a hell of a time getting up the courage to go (which is so not who i am, or was). But it's a goal, if i even get them, seems the odds are horrible there & great everywhere else. But it's right there --> so, yeah.

I am thinking of everyone, as much as I can. I'm in a real dark place. But I'm alive. ✌❤

hedonist · January 2020

I hope there's light ahead for you, Nancy. Good luck with MSG! I hear you on the courage/hurdle of attending.

We're glad you're alive

lastexitlondon · January 2020

Love to you nancy its all i can offer.
Im not going to take meds i didnt start again because wanted to be sober a while to see what my natural brain is.
Too many side effects. My head is never going to work and my health anxiety is bigger than me and the meds. I will die before i eat anymore pills. Whos to say they arent more dangerous than weed or booze. They shrink the brain and mine cant take any more damage

Thoughts_Arrive · January 2020

I decided to sell my property. Meeting with my real estate agent on Monday. I almost backed out on the promise I made with my best friend yesterday which annoyed him. I'm anxious about this. I purchased it almost 9 years ago and am regretting the thousands of dollars paying interest on the mortgage.

I made this hard decision because I need to move out for my sanity. The relationship between me and my parents is severely strained. My mum has not talked to me since Christmas. My dad is unfriendly towards me. I can't take it here anymore.

I'm frightened of moving out. I'm going to ask my best friend's fiance's best friend if I can move in with her. Otherwise I have to look for sharehouses online. I've had a look online and sadly all the houses in my budget are strictly female only. Then I need to find a job. I might defer my Honours studies until next year. I'm not sure my heart is in it.

I'm very sad that moving out means I won't be able to afford art classes anymore and won't be able to paint. I feel so defeated.

lastexitlondon · January 2020

You are winning. Finally making a move for YOU. Good on you. I would swap with you in a heartbeat.

Thoughts_Arrive · January 2020

I feel so overwhelmed that I feel sick in the stomach. My parents don't know I'm selling. They're going to go apeshit when they find out.

Thanks Rob. I hope you're feeling better.

JPPJ84 · January 2020

Why would not being able to go to art classes mean you can't paint anymore?! Pick up a brush and start, teach yourself, try new things, watch youtube tutorials. It's cool to have an art teacher from time to time but it really isn't compulsive. Just have fun with it and have a little faith in yourself

lastexitlondon · January 2020

Change is the scariest shit mate. Believe me. But without it you will never be what you need to be to be free..
As far as me. Im utterly fucked mate. Well and truly

Thoughts_Arrive · January 2020

JPPJ84 said:

Why would not being able to go to art classes mean you can't paint anymore?! Pick up a brush and start, teach yourself, try new things, watch youtube tutorials. It's cool to have an art teacher from time to time but it really isn't compulsive. Just have fun with it and have a little faith in yourself

I don't know how I'll be able to pay rent and afford art materials such as paint.

JPPJ84 · January 2020

Thoughts_Arrive said:

JPPJ84 said:

Why would not being able to go to art classes mean you can't paint anymore?! Pick up a brush and start, teach yourself, try new things, watch youtube tutorials. It's cool to have an art teacher from time to time but it really isn't compulsive. Just have fun with it and have a little faith in yourself

I don't know how I'll be able to pay rent and afford art materials such as paint.

you've already bought it, trust me, it lasts ages. by the time it's all used up, hopefully you'll have found a job

JPPJ84 · January 2020

lastexitlondon said:

Change is the scariest shit mate. Believe me. But without it you will never be what you need to be to be free..
As far as me. Im utterly fucked mate. Well and truly

No Rob, you're not. You've taken valuable steps during the last weeks, haven't you?! With stopping drinking and all. Don't give up.

lastexitlondon · January 2020

Im ill beyond any of the minor things.

Thoughts_Arrive · January 2020

I forgot to add, who knows if I'll have a space to paint or if the landlord/housemate will permit painting

Thoughts_Arrive · January 2020

JPPJ84 said:

Thoughts_Arrive said:

JPPJ84 said:

Why would not being able to go to art classes mean you can't paint anymore?! Pick up a brush and start, teach yourself, try new things, watch youtube tutorials. It's cool to have an art teacher from time to time but it really isn't compulsive. Just have fun with it and have a little faith in yourself

I don't know how I'll be able to pay rent and afford art materials such as paint.

you've already bought it, trust me, it lasts ages. by the time it's all used up, hopefully you'll have found a job

Oil tubes are only small (40ml). Even with a job I'll struggle to pay.

Thoughts_Arrive · January 2020

Rob, if you're still off the drinking then you're doing well. Keep fighting.

lastexitlondon · January 2020

I am

deadendp · January 2020

T_A, Just when you announce doing things you need to do to get the hell out of the toxic hell hole you live in, you are going back to negative self talk.

Stop.

Yes, your landlord will allow you to paint. Oil paints aren't that strong, but the mineral spirits to clean are. Do that out near the dumpster or switch to acrylic for a bit. Or! Use other materials you have.

Will you have the same amount of disposable income you have now? No. Do what you need to do to trim the budget. Your mental health begs for it. That may be free YouTube tutorials as suggested above.

deadendp · January 2020

Rob!

Keep hanging in there!

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