PJ fans in 12 step Recovery

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  • unifiedscene
    unifiedscene Posts: 462
    mickeyrat wrote:
    can you make it through today?

    I can make it through the next few months on pure stubborn pride. I'd be embarrassed to admit I'd slipped to my sponsor and friends, so I won't. Plus, I hate confrontation, so for the same reason I can't dump my gf, I can't go back out... I'd feel too guilty and ashamed at disappointing them. The real test will come when I move next summer... new town, new people, fresh start. I can ditch the gf without facing the fallout and just stop talking to the sponsor without having to explain it. I never got over my ex and feel the need to get some revenge on the female gender and rebuild my confidence. Talk about a resentment ;)
    she was underwhelmed, if that's a word
  • mickeyrat
    mickeyrat Posts: 44,480
    unifiedscene wrote:
    I can make it through the next few months on pure stubborn pride. I'd be embarrassed to admit I'd slipped to my sponsor and friends, so I won't. Plus, I hate confrontation, so for the same reason I can't dump my gf, I can't go back out... I'd feel too guilty and ashamed at disappointing them. The real test will come when I move next summer... new town, new people, fresh start. I can ditch the gf without facing the fallout and just stop talking to the sponsor without having to explain it. I never got over my ex and feel the need to get some revenge on the female gender and rebuild my confidence. Talk about a resentment ;)
    YEAH, not sure the revenge thing is helpful to YOU. Where are you moving to anyway?

    And one of this threads purposes was to provide a forum for shit like this. Here is truely anonymous. So no judgements really and IF someone does who gives a fuck?

    If you feel the need to dump , please do so. There are some cool people who do post here.
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  • unifiedscene
    unifiedscene Posts: 462
    mickeyrat wrote:
    YEAH, not sure the revenge thing is helpful to YOU. Where are you moving to anyway?

    And one of this threads purposes was tpprovide a forum for shit like this. Here is truely anonymous. So no judgements really and IF someone does who gives a fuck?

    If you feel the need to dump , please do so. There are some cool people who do post here.

    Cleveland. I'm from northwest Ohio, but am finishing grad school in Chicago now.
    she was underwhelmed, if that's a word
  • mickeyrat
    mickeyrat Posts: 44,480
    unifiedscene wrote:
    Cleveland. I'm from northwest Ohio, but am finishing grad school in Chicago now.
    well When ya get back in state let me know. I live in Columbus. Maybe we could hook up and hit a meeting. Bonus for you is some of the OLDEST meetings are in Cleveland. And yes I would be willing to drive up for that.
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    Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
    you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
    memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
    another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
  • unifiedscene
    unifiedscene Posts: 462
    mickeyrat wrote:
    well When ya get back in state let me know. I live in Columbus. Maybe we could hook up and hit a meeting. Bonus for you is some of the OLDEST meetings are in Cleveland. And yes I would be willing to drive up for that.

    I don't want old meetings... I want meetings with other young people my age, preferably beautiful, single, and female. There are no young professionals in Cleveland though, it's a dying city that every attractive single girl (like my ex) is trying to leave.

    But perhaps I will take you up on that when I move, if I've still got a shred of sanity or sobriety left.
    she was underwhelmed, if that's a word
  • mickeyrat
    mickeyrat Posts: 44,480
    unifiedscene wrote:
    I don't want old meetings... I want meetings with other young people my age, preferably beautiful, single, and female. There are no young professionals in Cleveland though, it's a dying city that every attractive single girl (like my ex) is trying to leave.

    But perhaps I will take you up on that when I move, if I've still got a shred of sanity or sobriety left.
    even if you don't have that shred left, lets do it anyway.
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    Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
    you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
    memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
    another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
  • mickeyrat
    mickeyrat Posts: 44,480
    Ok , First post in the new format. Not sure about this "change" yet.As always I'm resistant to change. I am interested to see how the two pits will "marry" after all is said and done.Theres been some new posts on the other pit since the change over.


    Peace
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    Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
    you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
    memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
    another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
  • mickeyrat
    mickeyrat Posts: 44,480
    Happy Sober Holidays everyone!!! Hope it's a safe one!
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    Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
    you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
    memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
    another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
  • melodious
    melodious Posts: 1,719
    Last week was a rough one...for certain...I managed to do a great deal of praying and letting go...

    "let go and let god"

    whew!!!! made it through...
    all insanity:
    a derivitive of nature.
    nature is god
    god is love
    love is light
  • melodious
    melodious Posts: 1,719
    Hi Everyone

    Sometimes, after we abstain from ingesting toxic waste, we wake up and find that there are so many feelings and circumstances that have caused us to make agreements which are not always real. We live our lives on these agreement as manifest toxins in our behaviors, our visions, and our perceptions of others. I come to talk about this because this past week, I have felt a lot of anger directed at a person who I am not quite certain to what their intention is. The evidence I see by talking one on one with this beautiful soul, is the person is caring.
    And yet, this same person who is caring has brandished poisons at a lot of people who might even be more sensitive than even you or I, who walk through the time of recovery.

    Love is a key factor. I wonder if love holds malicious acts upon or within. Does love hold protest, or do we accept the elements as they flow towards us. Do we jump in and make a stand for the meek or does making this stand take away our meekness? How do we support all sides? How do we stop malignancy?

    My question is if a person feels that he or she is qualified to help others, is such a person right to initiate psychic trauma through what a person claims to be protest. What happens when a person is exiled from a community and yet that person comes back with out no honor to the rules this person has made an agreement to join a respective club.?

    When I read the MT, I love how people can take a stand for perspective, but through what I am seeing, our perspectives change from moment to moment.

    I love this thread, and I am so happy that you are hear to read my woes....
    all insanity:
    a derivitive of nature.
    nature is god
    god is love
    love is light
  • hill.lang
    hill.lang Posts: 11
    What about life wastd? i AGREE THAT INSIDE JOB is helpfull, too. :P

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  • hill.lang
    hill.lang Posts: 11
    alcohol is a serious addiction... you should do what ever you can to manage it. Especially if you have kids... -H (p.s. feel free to contact me at <!-- e --><a href="mailto:hlangolf@berkeley.edu">hlangolf@berkeley.edu</a><!-- e -->... I may not have the answers, but I can offer support, and i'm not religious in any way... just a PJ fan)

    St. Petersburg, Florida (March 29, 1994) | Mountain View, California (October 01, 1994) | San Jose, California (November 04, 1995) | Oakland, California (November 14, 1997) | Sacramento, California (July 16, 1998) | Sacramento, California (October 30, 2000) | Mountain View, California (October 31, 2000) | San Francisco, California (July 15, 2006) | San Diego, California (October 09, 2009) | Quebec City (September 01, 2022) | Boston (September 15, 2024)

  • melodious
    melodious Posts: 1,719
    the drugs and booze were put to rest long ago; however recovery is life-long...

    thank you beautiful pearl jam community for letting me vent...

    i found the answer in my soul...

    it comes in the form of a love note I sent to my beloved ...

    Not with eye-service, as men-pleasers; but in the singleness of heart, fearing God. Whatsoever ye do, do it heartily, to the lord, and not unto men.- COL. iii. 22, 23

    TEACH me, my God and King.
    In all things Thee to see
    And what I do in anything,
    To do it as for Thee.
    G. HERBERT

    THERE is no action so slight nor so mean but it maybe done to a great purpose, and ennobled thereby; nor is any purpose great but that slight actions may help it, may be so done as to help it much, most especially, that chief of all purposes - the pleasing of God.
    J. RUSKIN

    EVERY duty, even the least duty, involves the whole principle of obedience. And little duties make the will dutiful, that is, supple and prompt to obey. Little obediences lead into great. The daily round of duty is full of probation and of discipline; it trains the will, heart and conscience. We need not to be prophets or apostles. The commonest life may be full of perfection. The duties of home are a discipline for the ministires of heaven.
    H.E. MANNING


    obedience is meekness...

    i have no religion but to learn to love...

    under all circumstances...

    peace and joy.

    God: Divine terms of course :)
    all insanity:
    a derivitive of nature.
    nature is god
    god is love
    love is light
  • mickeyrat
    mickeyrat Posts: 44,480
    3 years yesterday!!! Lately, Sleight of Hand has been hitting home for me.
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    Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
    you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
    memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
    another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
  • melodious
    melodious Posts: 1,719
    Three Dog Night's Song: Celebrate, Celebrate, Dance to the Music....

    Thanks again for this thread, MR, it's a blessing for me...

    Please encourage the MRS, to share some more of those prayers...

    Hungry in Clearlake... xox
    all insanity:
    a derivitive of nature.
    nature is god
    god is love
    love is light
  • dimitrispearljam
    dimitrispearljam Posts: 139,725
    don't feel like home, he's a little out.....

    Cept the look, the look...
    Oh, you know where, now I can't see, I just stare...
    I, I'm still alive
    "...Dimitri...He talks to me...'.."The Ghost of Greece..".
    "..That's One Happy Fuckin Ghost.."
    “..That came up on the Pillow Case...This is for the Greek, With Our Apologies.....”
  • verbtotrust4130
    verbtotrust4130 Posts: 52
    Do you see the way that tree bends? Does it inspire? Leaning out to catch the sun's rays, a lesson to be applied....
  • melodious
    melodious Posts: 1,719
    Sometimes, I wish I could and would settle for less than. I see people hook up with a common ground of getting "high". They are noisy and dramatic. Then I listen to the sound of my spirit God and rejoice that there is peace and we can all have it if we only listen to the rhythm of our souls.

    May this I am listening to a version of letting go and letting God...or the Higher power.

    peace.
    all insanity:
    a derivitive of nature.
    nature is god
    god is love
    love is light
  • mydogmookieblaylock
    mydogmookieblaylock Posts: 2,996
    my same old, same old friend
    until a quarter-to-ten
    i saw the strain creep in
    he seems distracted and i know just what is gonna happen next
    before his first step
    he's off again


    i've been sober for 46 days! You lose a lot of yourself when you start all over. i was a drunk bartender for the last ten years. In 96 my brother was shot and killed, i was a senior in high school. i went on a long roller coaster ride of drug an alcohol abuse. Quit burning trees last august. gave up xanex the year before. Now booze - i'm all out of self medication ---- off he goes..............
  • hollow bottle
    hollow bottle Posts: 183
    WE SHOULD START A 12 STEP GROUP TO BE PRESENT AT ALL SHOWS. ANYBODY INTERESTED?
    TDR

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