they sure did have different mothers. johnny's mum killed herself, hence their growing up and now living together. so just how solid those building blocks were was open to interpretation. they were almost the same age as well, with hamish being older by just two months. so their father had some explaining to do. not that he ever did.
that night hamish went to sleep thinking about anna.
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
Rise and shine, sunshine, the day has kicked off and you need to get with it.
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
Oh come on Hamish my I have the coffee ready, all you need to do is drink it.
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
i was outside when hamish showed up, with johnny looking his usuual sheepish self two steps behind. i was beyond thrilled to see him. to see anyone from 'the outside'. controlling myself better than i thought i could, i strolled towards him with a grin on my face. i wrapped my arms around him as he did the same and kissed his cheek. i didn't want to let go.
'oh my lordy it is good to see you hamish.'
i looked over to johnny. he was hard to read sometimes. i reached out to him pulling him into our hug.
'good to see you too johnny. how have you been?'
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
I've been alright. And how have you been holding out here in this asylum of yours. Did you think the city was to good for an artist like you? He smiled as to make clear he was only joking.
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
Hamish took my hand and dragged me along to the back of the car. He smiled as if he was about to let me in on a conspiracy. He opened up the trunk and showed me my gear.
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
i looked up see security walking towards us. they must have thought i was planning an escape or something. it was great being watched all the time. i walked away from the car to show i had no intention of going anywhere. i heard the trunk close and then felt someone's hand in mine. it was hamish. of course. i put my other hand up in surrender.
'relax i wasn't going anywhere.'
ignoring security i turned to hamish.
'i think after today it'd be better if you stayed away.'
i pulled my hand from his and went over to johnny.
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
Again I did what I was best at; dropping a bomb on someone and then walk of before they could reply.
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
I did not have the chance to reply, as someone from the staff walked down the stairs and asked me a question.
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
Johnny thought he'd do the more practical thing. He got Anna's stuff out of the trunk and walked over to the reception to ask what he should do with the stuff.
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
the receptionist didn't know what she should do. fortunately david was in the office at the time. he asked johnny if he was here for anna. when johnny said he was, david told him to leave it and he'd take care of it. the receptionist looked at david like he'd lost his mind. not knowing what else to do, johnny retreated back outside.
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
When he got outside he just sat down in the car and listened to the CD player, seeing that Hamish and Anna were nowhere to be found.
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
touching me was not something hamish should have done. his hand on my back made shivers run through my body. when i moved away, he moved with me. would it be so bad to fall. yeah it would. i can't be thinking about hamish in any other way but as a friend. i missed davey. or was it that i just missed men. i took hamish's hand in mine so he couldn't touch me. a stray bit of hair fell across his eyes and purely on reflex, i reached up and pushed it back over behind his ear. he leaned his head into my hand. i pulled my hand away.
'i can't deal with some things right now hamish. and one of those is being around you.'
talk about a wounded puppy. i didn't want to hurt him, but i had to have things clear in my head.
'it's not just you though. i don't want you to think i don't appreciate you. i do. but being by myself since davey left, is not really the best thing i could have done. i miss him. or i miss having a man, i don't know. but what i do know is that i don't want to end up doing anything i'm going to regret later. you need to give me space. can you understand that?'
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
He could not find anything to say or was still searching for something he could reply with. I didn't wait around to find out, I jumped of a small wall on to the sand that led to the lake. Hamish followed still a little uneasy with what I said.
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
as i stood staring out into the distance with my hands shoved deep into my pockets, hamish, not sure what he could say, if anything, picked up rocks and tried to skip them across the lake. i must have zoned out, i do that a lot, cause when hamish did speak, i had to ask him to repeat what he said.
' do you know why i introduced you to davey?'
shit i could feel a confession coming on.
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
whatever he was going to say, i knew it was going to hurt one of us. i didn't want to do this here.
'before you tell me hamish, you better think about what it's going to do to us. i don't want you laying some guilt trip on me. i'm here for me not you. i can't have you swimming around in my head if i want to get out of here. if it can wait, please let it.'
i started walking back towards the main building.
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
I saw Johnny sitting in the car and went over to him. He stepped out of the car and told me about my painting matirial right away. He wasn't sure if he had done the right thing, bringing it in.
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
The toilets were a place where you could get so quiet alone thinking time, not to comfy, but hey I was ready to do anything to get some peace and quiet.
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
In about two hours time I had to speak with David again, I had to come up with something good to answer his questions.
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
i sat in the chair, biting my thumbnail. david just watched me. he sighed waiting for me to say something. i didn't know what to say. maybe i could tell him that. i opened my mouth to talk but david beat me to it.
' i have your paints. we'll have to discuss whether you should have them or not.'
of course what he meant was HE would have to decide whether i was being a good enough girl to warrant such a privilege. fucking bullshit rules and mindgames.
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
Comments
that night hamish went to sleep thinking about anna.
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
hamish pulled the blanket back over his head and tried to ignore his unusually bouyant brother.
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
'oh my lordy it is good to see you hamish.'
i looked over to johnny. he was hard to read sometimes. i reached out to him pulling him into our hug.
'good to see you too johnny. how have you been?'
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
i looked up see security walking towards us. they must have thought i was planning an escape or something. it was great being watched all the time. i walked away from the car to show i had no intention of going anywhere. i heard the trunk close and then felt someone's hand in mine. it was hamish. of course. i put my other hand up in surrender.
'relax i wasn't going anywhere.'
ignoring security i turned to hamish.
'i think after today it'd be better if you stayed away.'
i pulled my hand from his and went over to johnny.
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
'that's not fair anna. you can't keep pushing people away.'
i stared at him in defiance.
'you need someone on your side'
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
i looked at hamish and johnny.
'no no way.'
i walked away towards the woods.
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
'are you sure you want to? anna tends to lead you to disaster.'
but even as he said it, he started after her. johnny stayed where he was.
'anna!'
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
'i can't deal with some things right now hamish. and one of those is being around you.'
talk about a wounded puppy. i didn't want to hurt him, but i had to have things clear in my head.
'it's not just you though. i don't want you to think i don't appreciate you. i do. but being by myself since davey left, is not really the best thing i could have done. i miss him. or i miss having a man, i don't know. but what i do know is that i don't want to end up doing anything i'm going to regret later. you need to give me space. can you understand that?'
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
He could not find anything to say or was still searching for something he could reply with. I didn't wait around to find out, I jumped of a small wall on to the sand that led to the lake. Hamish followed still a little uneasy with what I said.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
' do you know why i introduced you to davey?'
shit i could feel a confession coming on.
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
'before you tell me hamish, you better think about what it's going to do to us. i don't want you laying some guilt trip on me. i'm here for me not you. i can't have you swimming around in my head if i want to get out of here. if it can wait, please let it.'
i started walking back towards the main building.
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
'thank you. take him home johnny.'
with that i walked into the building. i saw david, but i ignored him and went to hide in the toilets.
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
' i have your paints. we'll have to discuss whether you should have them or not.'
of course what he meant was HE would have to decide whether i was being a good enough girl to warrant such a privilege. fucking bullshit rules and mindgames.
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
FUCK THE GRACE,THE WOMEN AND CHILDREN KILL,
AT AN EVEN PACE,
FUCK YOUR MOTHER,
FUCK YOUR DAD, YOURE FUCKING DEAD,
YOUVE ALL BEEN HAD.
A whisper and a chill
adv2005
"Why do I bother?"
The 11th Commandment.
"Whatever"
PETITION TO STOP THE BAN OF SMOKING IN BARS IN THE UNITED STATES....Anyone?