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RogueStoner

brianlux said:

RogueStoner said:

Natashapearljamfan said:

Natashapearljamfan said:

lastexitlondon said:

Ok i will try again today. I have half bottle of rum staring at me. But i promise i will for today leave it there

I'm thinking of you and know that you can be strong for you....is the run hidden out of view, sometimes that helps. 
We are all here for you, lastexit, and we believe in you.

Sleep sounds like a good option. Is your partner there? Can you get a hug? 

This may sound weird, but when I had my panic attack yesterday, that's the first thing I did...went to my friends close by and collected hugs. It really did help. There's something about the pressure that actually relieves anxiety. I got the idea from Temple Grandin and her work with cows (just go with it, lol) and I believe is also the theory behind things like weighted blankets to calm autistic children. What I'm trying to say is hugs help. Humans help (not all, but enough). I'm glad you're reaching out. It takes courage. 
And since I got this yesterday, I'm passing it forward to those who need it today....

That's SO cool that you point that out, RS!  I remember reading about (and seeing in the movie) how Temple Grandin used that pressure device for cows but forgot that she used it on herself but never made the connection with hugs.  Nice! 

Thanks! So cool that you knew my reference!

lastexitlondon

Making that first step for the hundredth time. 
Desperately trying but sinking in a world of symptoms. 
If i can just push some more again but i can't seem to. Even getting a hair cut ended before i could leave the house i look like barry gibb ffs. Just couldn't do it. Meant to try swimming again. Just couldn't leave my flat.

brianlux

lastexitlondon said:

Making that first step for the hundredth time. 
Desperately trying but sinking in a world of symptoms. 
If i can just push some more again but i can't seem to. Even getting a hair cut ended before i could leave the house i look like barry gibb ffs. Just couldn't do it. Meant to try swimming again. Just couldn't leave my flat.

Give yourself points for every first step, and every time trying, lastexit.  Giving yourself credit for your efforts is OK!  (Sometimes I have to remind myself to do that.)

lastexitlondon

Its the ability to praise ones self and to be kind to ones self that im so bad at. Its part of my group at the moment. Its alien so its new and seems ridiculous how i can't manage it

Shyner

When anxiety isn't present in me It's those times i wait for eternally

lastexitlondon

Same my friend. Im fucking sinking so low . Another family member has terminal cancer just found out. He is old but it fucks me up completely.i can't cope

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brianlux said:

lastexitlondon said:

Making that first step for the hundredth time. 
Desperately trying but sinking in a world of symptoms. 
If i can just push some more again but i can't seem to. Even getting a hair cut ended before i could leave the house i look like barry gibb ffs. Just couldn't do it. Meant to try swimming again. Just couldn't leave my flat.

Give yourself points for every first step, and every time trying, lastexit.  Giving yourself credit for your efforts is OK!  (Sometimes I have to remind myself to do that.)

I agree with Brian. You got out of bed, give yourself a point. You took a shower, give yourself a point. As difficult as it may be, try to focus on what you did do, instead of what you didn't/couldn't do. No one ever said life is easy. 

Give yourself points for starting this thread!

guacamolejoe

brianlux said:

lastexitlondon said:

Making that first step for the hundredth time. 
Desperately trying but sinking in a world of symptoms. 
If i can just push some more again but i can't seem to. Even getting a hair cut ended before i could leave the house i look like barry gibb ffs. Just couldn't do it. Meant to try swimming again. Just couldn't leave my flat.

Give yourself points for every first step, and every time trying, lastexit.  Giving yourself credit for your efforts is OK!  (Sometimes I have to remind myself to do that.)

There are some days I'm only able talk myself into accomplishing "one" thing that day. Some days, that's enough to continue to move on. 

lastexitlondon

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brianlux said:

lastexitlondon said:

Making that first step for the hundredth time. 
Desperately trying but sinking in a world of symptoms. 
If i can just push some more again but i can't seem to. Even getting a hair cut ended before i could leave the house i look like barry gibb ffs. Just couldn't do it. Meant to try swimming again. Just couldn't leave my flat.

Give yourself points for every first step, and every time trying, lastexit.  Giving yourself credit for your efforts is OK!  (Sometimes I have to remind myself to do that.)

I agree with Brian. You got out of bed, give yourself a point. You took a shower, give yourself a point. As difficult as it may be, try to focus on what you did do, instead of what you didn't/couldn't do. No one ever said life is easy. 

Give yourself points for starting this thread!

You are the good side of this board. Im grateful to come here.

lastexitlondon

guacamolejoe said:

brianlux said:

lastexitlondon said:

Making that first step for the hundredth time. 
Desperately trying but sinking in a world of symptoms. 
If i can just push some more again but i can't seem to. Even getting a hair cut ended before i could leave the house i look like barry gibb ffs. Just couldn't do it. Meant to try swimming again. Just couldn't leave my flat.

Give yourself points for every first step, and every time trying, lastexit.  Giving yourself credit for your efforts is OK!  (Sometimes I have to remind myself to do that.)

There are some days I'm only able talk myself into accomplishing "one" thing that day. Some days, that's enough to continue to move on. 

Keep going joe. Don't know where im going i just keep on rowing .keep on rowing along

brianlux

We all struggle so with this malady.  Yet here we are, pushing on.  That's inspiration to me. 

lastexitlondon

Me too . To know you are not alone is a big feeling of solidarity. To know that somewhere the other side of the world in my night its your day yet its still the same. Its a big but small world. I go between thinking ."im not here for a long time . Im here for a good time" and i must preserve my health and stay alive. 
"Trying to find an approach ,and a way to live" springs to mind. It makes much more sence.....to live.....in the present tense.
But fuck me thats the challenge

lastexitlondon

Surrounded by people but alone. Familiar?

Thoughts_Arrive

lastexitlondon said:

Surrounded by people but alone. Familiar?

Yep. When I was socialising more with so called "friends" I was there but in spirit I wasn't.
Hanging around people I have little to nothing in common with because as part of growing up people tend to do that.
Rather be alone than with people I can't relate to.

lastexitlondon

Im fuckin struggling i don't think there is any more help i can get. 

Natashapearljamfan

lastexitlondon said:

Im fuckin struggling i don't think there is any more help i can get. 

Hang in there, I know it's so hard but try to believe in yourself that you can get through this. Even if you have to tell yourself over and over you'll start believing it. Have you heard of fake it until you make it? 
Remember one step at a time. You've done well over the last day to interact with the out side world. I've seen lots of positive posts you have written on the rumor thread could you try focusing on the happy PJ shows you've been to? I'm sending you a big hug. 

RogueStoner

lastexitlondon said:

Im fuckin struggling i don't think there is any more help i can get. 

I'm struggling too, living in a tense and difficult environment, having to make difficult decisions, dealing with extremely painful thoughts, feelings, memories, concerns about the future. I'm barely functioning some days but life must go on. Some days I feel so alone too. And some days, when I don't think I can take it anymore, my true friends reach out and remind me I'm not alone. I guess the silver lining in all this is that having to struggle as I have, I appreciate things so much more...every smile, every laugh, every hug. I appreciate things others may take for granted. Those little moments add up to keep me going. I hope you can find some pleasant moments to keep you going as well.

lastexitlondon

Thank you. Yes i am trying to lost positive stuff on the porch and lost dogs. I come here to say the down or low stuff. I also write it down . Sometimes that helps. Im not sleeping well. Our new baby is 3 months and all of a sudden turned into a screamer. 

lastexitlondon

I like this thread because we can be honest and often we are feeling similar. Different reasons but same outcome. My baby and other children are my beacon of hope but also a big part in feeling inadequate and a let down to them. So many factors.
Now i feel like my partner has had too much of this . The baby is stressful at the moment so we are all tired.

RogueStoner

The baby may be reacting to your anxiety. That's always been the case for me, although I didn't recognize it until recently. I always found it funny that I'm so tightly wound sometimes but a baby's cry never bothered me. I was always able to tune it out and tune into the baby deeper and what he or she needed. Do all you can to calm your inner self, especially while holding your precious baby. Put on music, maintain skin to skin contact, close your eyes, take slow deep breaths, then look at your baby and just immerse yourself in that moment. And don't forget to smell, babies smell so good. That in itself used to calm me. 

Thoughts_Arrive

Lack of sleep can only exacerbate anxiety. Don't be too hard on yourself.

lastexitlondon

I love baby smell

SmallestOceans

Happy thanksgiving everybody. Love and light to everyone. And f*ck anxiety. It has no bearings today and shall not pass.

brianlux

Hugs, high fives, chugs on the shoulder or what ever helps you here, my friends.  Happy (or at least as pleasant as possible!) Thanksgiving, all.

(I know you folks in Great Britain don't  do Thanksgiving so I should add, have a great Thursday!)  

RogueStoner

^^^ Thank you. Same to you, Oceans and Brian. 

Looks like I'll be hanging out in here today since the day hasn't started out well. This used to be my favorite holiday. Now it's just a stressful day of watching family fight and greed take over with the early shopping.

brianlux

RogueStoner said:

^^^ Thank you. Same to you, Oceans and Brian. 

Looks like I'll be hanging out in here today since the day hasn't started out well. This used to be my favorite holiday. Now it's just a stressful day of watching family fight and greed take over with the early shopping.

I'm sorry to hear that, RS.  I'l be away from here for most of the day but will be thinking of you, wishing you the best today. 

Tomorrow will be a challenge at work.  In our line of business (used books), a busy day is always welcome in this age of failing bookstores.  But to have it happen all at once (Black Friday), is always stressful.  I will definitely be lighting up after work tomorrow

lastexitlondon

brianlux said:

Hugs, high fives, chugs on the shoulder or what ever helps you here, my friends.  Happy (or at least as pleasant as possible!) Thanksgiving, all.

(I know you folks in Great Britain don't  do Thanksgiving so I should add, have a great Thursday!)  

True its just Thursday night here. Happy Thursday everyone. And RS. I hope you can find peace somehow or somewhere this Thursday

RogueStoner

Thanks guys, I appreciate it. I'm not joining the rest of the family for dinner. There's too high a chance I'll tell a couple of people what I really think of them. Instead, I'm doing a friend a favor...an "unexpected" pop in to save her from unpleasant conversations. I'm great at veering off track.

lastexitlondon

Whatever gets you through the night is alright as the song says