This is my chance, this is my life
And my opening hour
This is my choice, this is my voice
There may be no tomorrow
This is my plea, this is my need
This is my time for standing free
This is my step, this is my depth
In a world demanding of me
But it's okay.......
John, you are a symbol of strength for us all. You can, and you will, march on -- we all love you for it!
Good afternoon, ...Perfect song...End of story..This was the only song I had time for this morning. It really lifted my spirits This song is so powerful and meaningful. I've got to keep things very focused in order to make it through this. Stress is high and sleep is low. Last night we had no sleep due to her pain issues. The doctors say to just continue cleaning the area and taking the antibiotics as directed. She's at high risk for infection so again thank you for everything and please keep us in your thoughts.
Keep fighting the infection and pain that comes along with it (for both of you). Believe it or not, you help inspire many of us with the stories of love and struggle as you and Shawna fight for her health.
Hang tough John, you can do it. Let our spirits & love hold you up. Its ok to break down, weep, scream & shake your fist at fate. Just get it out, vent all you want & we will listen & then carry on as best you can.
Hugs today & always
Kelly
Thank you so much Kelly,
Your words are so thoughtful and uplifting. I got your pm (support) I just have literally barely been keeping up with what's on our plate. All I can say is that it really means the world that you would take the time to write something so beautiful and inspirational.
I have been extremely depressed lately and reading your letter and all of the other supportive posts have been what has kept me going. I have faith that it is all going to work out I just want everything to get better NOW. If you know what I mean. Shawna doesn't look well tonight, she's been sleeping most of the day and I just don't know what to think anymore. All I do know is this is scaring the hell out of me. I don't know how she would do with another infection if it occurs.
Being that I am the one having to stick a Q-tip with hydro. peroxide near an inch into her belly to clean the wound 2x daily is pretty nuts. I'm already used to it by now but I just don't want anything bad to happen. There are what seems like hundreds of thoughts going through my mind at any given time and it is really busy and hard. All I do is worry and I think I'm just used to the 3-4 hour sleep schedule that started 14 months ago. I've been having some health problems which I think are due to stress that will be put on the back burner until everything calms down.
I wish for only good health,love,hugs, strength and peace for you and all who have given from there hearts. Without you all I would have not gotten this far. I know I keep saying that but nobody really knows how hard its been and hard it continues to be. I used to be a very different person than I am now. We are not well off by any means what so ever. We worked our butts off working on average 12-14 hour days to get to where we are at. Our home is a manufactured house that has slowly been built from the inside out with love and devotion. I am so worried that things will continue to worsen. Damn, I just want her to be out of pain. She told me that it feels like it did right after her surgery. I don't know how she has made it trough all of this pain. I've had a total of 11 surgeries myself but I would of folded over the last two that she has had.
Anyways, Thank you for listening. I/we are eternally grateful for our tight bonds and friendships that have developed over time. We will make it throughl I just hope relief is around the corner.
I wish I lived somewhere close to you guys so I could help.
It kills to know all the struggles you're having and only be able to give emotional support. :(
Hang in there John, things have to get better soon.
Believe me when I say you seem closer to us right now than people we've known all of our lives. Your support is more helpful and heart warming than you could ever imagine.
Thank you for being here for us,
John, Shawna and the boy's
much love guys..ill be at the shows,and i hope pj play a song for Shawna
We hope you have the time of your life. Oh....and a great story or two when you get back home. If there is ever a place for crazy stories to be made it is at a PJ concert.
Keep fighting the infection and pain that comes along with it (for both of you). Believe it or not, you help inspire many of us with the stories of love and struggle as you and Shawna fight for her health.
Thank you my friend, As long as I've got my family and we can sustain through this roller coaster of continuous heartache. We'll be okay. Since you live in AZ. If you know anyone in the Rim Country who could use some landscaping work done on their property pass it on. Once we get back on track we'd be willing to travel and take care of your place in return and then some. We're at our worst financially and the hole is going to get deeper before seeing the light again. This has been a very humbling experience and I wouldn't wish this five years of surgeries on anyone. Although it has done amazing things for our family. Including growth, gratitude and especially love. We are so thankful for what we have and who we have become.
I love my wife and kids so dearly and I will do whatever it takes to make it. Please know that I am at wits end and I hope that people do not take some of my comments wrong. I have been having a break down for quite a while now.I am just so appreciative of our jamily. You all have brought the best out of me and continue to give me strength.
With no sleep last night due to Shawna's pain levels and the fact that I've got around 5 hours of business work to get caught up on including 2 proposals which include 35 photos and 3 other major projects (taxes for a 8am appointment, plumbing issue etc. It is going to be another long night. Thank you for your support.
Please keep us in your thoughts. Please keep sending the messages. Please pray for us, send good vibes whatever that will keep the positivity coming in. This by far will be the hardest few months of our lives.It's is getting really hard not having the family out here. My wife's mother said she was going to come up and cook and clean the first week after Shawna's last surgery. I guess life got to busy because we have only heard from her twice since the surgery. We understand though people who have not gone through this really have no idea of how much is involved.
I've only told one person about this and he has been extremely good to us since the very beginning. For never have meeting him he is one of my best friends and inspirations in life right now. Mind as well tell you one last thing before I jump off of here. I've been having some type of medical stuff myself going on for quite a while. It will continue to be put off until my wife is doing a whole heck of a lot better.
I've been seeing double, getting dizzy spells, anxiety, insomnia, My extreme nerve damage that I got from my second surgery is getting worse. Eye and face twitches, spasms and my left hip area swells out around two or more inches by the end of the day. Their is some other crap going on to I just don't have the time. Yes, I'm taking it as easy as I can with my back and so forth. Everything just seems to be impossible right now without sacrificing and losing sleep. I hope the amount of coffee I am drinking doesn't do to much harm. "YouTube Dave Grohl...POTS.... . Please don't get me wrong. I'm not looking for pity probably to late at this point. :roll: . I just beg of you as a JAMILY to keep us in your thoughts. I will not give up..I just need your positivity and motivation. I'm thinking this is just to much to ask. On the other hand it's amazing how long you all have stuck by our sides. I'm lucky if I hear from my brothers besides about the surgeries or E.R. visits.
Tonight's been a rough night so Thank you so much for putting up with me and my venting. 38 years on this planet and I am very lucky to have the love of you good people.
Still humbled,
John, Shawna and the boy's
Humbled and thankful
John
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Woke up this AM thinking this was going to be a better day for your family John!
(And damn, Dave's Fresh POTS video on youtube is hilarious, had never seen that before. I passed the guy who laughs at Dave throughout, Josh Homme, at a bar in SoCal last year with my PJ Zombie shirt on and he said 'Nice Shirt' -- If I had seen this video then I would have known what to say back -- "Fresh POTS!")
Woke up this AM thinking this was going to be a better day for your family John!
(And damn, Dave's Fresh POTS video on youtube is hilarious, had never seen that before. I passed the guy who laughs at Dave throughout, Josh Homme, at a bar in SoCal last year with my PJ Zombie shirt on and he said 'Nice Shirt' -- If I had seen this video then I would have known what to say back -- "Fresh POTS!")
That's so funny man. FRESH POTS...FRESH POTS..
I don't know what to say about Shawna except for she is having a really rough time still.For the whole part of her recovery so far the pain has been centralized in the stomach but for the last two day's her lower back has been at a pain level of around an 8. It was so bad last night that I had to stay up all night long doing the ice pack thing 20 min. on 20 min. off. Relief is far in between these past few weeks. The surgeon did say that it would be six months before she could start physical therapy. I just don't know what to think anymore. Playing catch up on bills is very slow but coming along. To lighten up the atmosphere we've been having a really sweet neighbor girl over to play with our boy's just about everyday. Mostly outside on the trampoline even shooting hoops. Anything to keep the beast at bay (depression) for Shawna and I. It's definitely going to be a PJ day. Thanks again for checking in with us. It's wonderful to see that people care. All the people that we've known in our small town have basically deserted us at least seven months ago. So having these posts that are full of support and happiness is helping in a big way to get us by. Hope you and yours have a great day today.
Just checking in after being gone for about two weeks. I lit a candle and said a prayer for you and Shawna while I was in Manchester Cathedral a few days back. I wish I could do more for you guys.
Just checking in after being gone for about two weeks. I lit a candle and said a prayer for you and Shawna while I was in Manchester Cathedral a few days back. I wish I could do more for you guys.
Good evening,
Wow!! Thank you so much. The fact that you think of us and would do that for Shawna and I means so much. She's having a really hard day/night with pain issues. I told her about your message and it really lifted her spirits. Her staying positive right now will do nothing but help her with the recovery and long road ahead. Thank you....
We really appreciate it buddy more than you know. You are so wonderful to us. It makes for not such a lonely road. It's amazing to feel the positivity. We need it. Have a good night.
I hope that each day brings a moment of happiness that can carry you through the trials that are so testing you. Both of you are pretty amazing; sending much love from Oz
xox
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Just checking in after being gone for about two weeks. I lit a candle and said a prayer for you and Shawna while I was in Manchester Cathedral a few days back. I wish I could do more for you guys.
This is beautiful
A prayer a day
Takes so little time
And means so much
Hi friends, thinking of you every day
This is the best thing that anyone can do for us. We are very stressed out and on Monday I have an appointment with my doctor. We think that there might be some either pretty serious nervous system issues going on with me. Or it's just stress. Either which way. We're pretty freaked out. I notified all of my direct family yesterday about my symptoms just in case they worsen any time soon. I'm probably just freaking out with stress but we always steer towards the safe side. Thank you for your support it means the world to us right now.
I hope that each day brings a moment of happiness that can carry you through the trials that are so testing you. Both of you are pretty amazing; sending much love from Oz
xox
Thanks for your thoughts and support. We're very lucky.
Just checking in after being gone for about two weeks. I lit a candle and said a prayer for you and Shawna while I was in Manchester Cathedral a few days back. I wish I could do more for you guys.
This is beautiful
A prayer a day
Takes so little time
And means so much
Hi friends, thinking of you every day
You've been a blessing to us. Thanks for always being here for us. You really have no idea how much positivity comes from this. It's our strength and drive for the day's that lie ahead.
A little love and some good vibes headed your way on this hot and humid Sunday morning.
Hope today finds you all the better than yesterday.
Hugs,
Peace,
jo
peace,
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"Some people hear their own inner voices with great clearness and they live by what they hear. Such people become crazy, or they become legends." ~ One Stab ~
Hang in there guys. Keep fighting the fight! Stay positive in this battle. Throw all negative feelings out, we're all praying and thinking about you guys! Your PJ familys here for u guys!!!!
John, I really hope you got good news from the Doctor today.
No wonder your health is being compromised given all the stress and pressure you're under. :(
You and Shawna are in my thoughts always.
XO K.
It's a bright new day.
I hope there's bright new news
peace,
jo
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Thank you so much Kelly,
Your words are so thoughtful and uplifting. I got your pm (support) I just have literally barely been keeping up with what's on our plate. All I can say is that it really means the world that you would take the time to write something so beautiful and inspirational.
I have been extremely depressed lately and reading your letter and all of the other supportive posts have been what has kept me going. I have faith that it is all going to work out I just want everything to get better NOW. If you know what I mean. Shawna doesn't look well tonight, she's been sleeping most of the day and I just don't know what to think anymore. All I do know is this is scaring the hell out of me. I don't know how she would do with another infection if it occurs.
Being that I am the one having to stick a Q-tip with hydro. peroxide near an inch into her belly to clean the wound 2x daily is pretty nuts. I'm already used to it by now but I just don't want anything bad to happen. There are what seems like hundreds of thoughts going through my mind at any given time and it is really busy and hard. All I do is worry and I think I'm just used to the 3-4 hour sleep schedule that started 14 months ago. I've been having some health problems which I think are due to stress that will be put on the back burner until everything calms down.
I wish for only good health,love,hugs, strength and peace for you and all who have given from there hearts. Without you all I would have not gotten this far. I know I keep saying that but nobody really knows how hard its been and hard it continues to be. I used to be a very different person than I am now. We are not well off by any means what so ever. We worked our butts off working on average 12-14 hour days to get to where we are at. Our home is a manufactured house that has slowly been built from the inside out with love and devotion. I am so worried that things will continue to worsen. Damn, I just want her to be out of pain. She told me that it feels like it did right after her surgery. I don't know how she has made it trough all of this pain. I've had a total of 11 surgeries myself but I would of folded over the last two that she has had.
Anyways, Thank you for listening. I/we are eternally grateful for our tight bonds and friendships that have developed over time. We will make it throughl I just hope relief is around the corner.
Your friends,
John and Shawna
Believe me when I say you seem closer to us right now than people we've known all of our lives. Your support is more helpful and heart warming than you could ever imagine.
Thank you for being here for us,
John, Shawna and the boy's
We hope you have the time of your life. Oh....and a great story or two when you get back home. If there is ever a place for crazy stories to be made it is at a PJ concert.
Peace our friend,
John and Shawna
Thank you my friend, As long as I've got my family and we can sustain through this roller coaster of continuous heartache. We'll be okay. Since you live in AZ. If you know anyone in the Rim Country who could use some landscaping work done on their property pass it on. Once we get back on track we'd be willing to travel and take care of your place in return and then some. We're at our worst financially and the hole is going to get deeper before seeing the light again. This has been a very humbling experience and I wouldn't wish this five years of surgeries on anyone. Although it has done amazing things for our family. Including growth, gratitude and especially love. We are so thankful for what we have and who we have become.
I love my wife and kids so dearly and I will do whatever it takes to make it. Please know that I am at wits end and I hope that people do not take some of my comments wrong. I have been having a break down for quite a while now.I am just so appreciative of our jamily. You all have brought the best out of me and continue to give me strength.
With no sleep last night due to Shawna's pain levels and the fact that I've got around 5 hours of business work to get caught up on including 2 proposals which include 35 photos and 3 other major projects (taxes for a 8am appointment, plumbing issue etc. It is going to be another long night. Thank you for your support.
Please keep us in your thoughts. Please keep sending the messages. Please pray for us, send good vibes whatever that will keep the positivity coming in. This by far will be the hardest few months of our lives.It's is getting really hard not having the family out here. My wife's mother said she was going to come up and cook and clean the first week after Shawna's last surgery. I guess life got to busy because we have only heard from her twice since the surgery. We understand though people who have not gone through this really have no idea of how much is involved.
I've only told one person about this and he has been extremely good to us since the very beginning. For never have meeting him he is one of my best friends and inspirations in life right now. Mind as well tell you one last thing before I jump off of here. I've been having some type of medical stuff myself going on for quite a while. It will continue to be put off until my wife is doing a whole heck of a lot better.
I've been seeing double, getting dizzy spells, anxiety, insomnia, My extreme nerve damage that I got from my second surgery is getting worse. Eye and face twitches, spasms and my left hip area swells out around two or more inches by the end of the day. Their is some other crap going on to I just don't have the time. Yes, I'm taking it as easy as I can with my back and so forth. Everything just seems to be impossible right now without sacrificing and losing sleep. I hope the amount of coffee I am drinking doesn't do to much harm. "YouTube Dave Grohl...POTS....
Tonight's been a rough night so Thank you so much for putting up with me and my venting. 38 years on this planet and I am very lucky to have the love of you good people.
Still humbled,
John, Shawna and the boy's
Humbled and thankful
John
(And damn, Dave's Fresh POTS video on youtube is hilarious, had never seen that before. I passed the guy who laughs at Dave throughout, Josh Homme, at a bar in SoCal last year with my PJ Zombie shirt on and he said 'Nice Shirt' -- If I had seen this video then I would have known what to say back -- "Fresh POTS!")
That's so funny man. FRESH POTS...FRESH POTS..
I don't know what to say about Shawna except for she is having a really rough time still.For the whole part of her recovery so far the pain has been centralized in the stomach but for the last two day's her lower back has been at a pain level of around an 8. It was so bad last night that I had to stay up all night long doing the ice pack thing 20 min. on 20 min. off. Relief is far in between these past few weeks. The surgeon did say that it would be six months before she could start physical therapy. I just don't know what to think anymore. Playing catch up on bills is very slow but coming along. To lighten up the atmosphere we've been having a really sweet neighbor girl over to play with our boy's just about everyday. Mostly outside on the trampoline even shooting hoops. Anything to keep the beast at bay (depression) for Shawna and I. It's definitely going to be a PJ day. Thanks again for checking in with us. It's wonderful to see that people care. All the people that we've known in our small town have basically deserted us at least seven months ago. So having these posts that are full of support and happiness is helping in a big way to get us by. Hope you and yours have a great day today.
Matt
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Good evening,
Wow!! Thank you so much. The fact that you think of us and would do that for Shawna and I means so much. She's having a really hard day/night with pain issues. I told her about your message and it really lifted her spirits. Her staying positive right now will do nothing but help her with the recovery and long road ahead. Thank you....
Humbled,
John and Shawna
We really appreciate it buddy more than you know. You are so wonderful to us. It makes for not such a lonely road. It's amazing to feel the positivity. We need it. Have a good night.
John and Shawna
This has been my fav video of the month. Amazing and powerful energy. Thanks...
We've missed you hope your travels have been good to you. All of our love right back to you. You mean so much to us.
Your Friends,
John and Shawna
xox
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A prayer a day
Takes so little time
And means so much
Hi friends, thinking of you every day
This is the best thing that anyone can do for us. We are very stressed out and on Monday I have an appointment with my doctor. We think that there might be some either pretty serious nervous system issues going on with me. Or it's just stress. Either which way. We're pretty freaked out. I notified all of my direct family yesterday about my symptoms just in case they worsen any time soon. I'm probably just freaking out with stress but we always steer towards the safe side. Thank you for your support it means the world to us right now.
John and Shawna
Thanks for your thoughts and support. We're very lucky.
You've been a blessing to us. Thanks for always being here for us. You really have no idea how much positivity comes from this. It's our strength and drive for the day's that lie ahead.
Your friends,
John and Shawna
Hope today finds you all the better than yesterday.
Hugs,
Peace,
jo
jo
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"How I choose to feel is how I am." ~ EV/MMc
"Some people hear their own inner voices with great clearness and they live by what they hear. Such people become crazy, or they become legends." ~ One Stab ~
No wonder your health is being compromised given all the stress and pressure you're under. :(
You and Shawna are in my thoughts always.
XO K.
I hope there's bright new news
jo
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"How I choose to feel is how I am." ~ EV/MMc
"Some people hear their own inner voices with great clearness and they live by what they hear. Such people become crazy, or they become legends." ~ One Stab ~