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  • gimmesometruth27
    gimmesometruth27 St. Fuckin Louis Posts: 24,000
    catefrances wrote:
    he said stay with me...
    she said I cant.
    he held his hand out anyway.
    she lowered her head and turned away.
    there was nothing else that she could say.
    he stepped towards her.
    she stopped and turned...
    told him to leave her be.
    and so he let her walk away
    wondering what went wrong
    yet knowing letting her in
    was probably his one mistake.
    i really relate to this one. had a similar experience recently. thanks for sharing this.
    "You can tell the greatness of a man by what makes him angry."  - Lincoln

    "Well, you tell him that I don't talk to suckas."
  • catefrances
    catefrances Posts: 29,003
    for the first time, this year I totally forgot about your birthday. that thought made me smile. it meant id finally put you behind me.. hallefuckinlujah i say.. it took me long enough.
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • catefrances
    catefrances Posts: 29,003
    so anyways he said what the fuck are you doing back here? I shrugged my shoulders and told him I got bored.
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • chadwick
    chadwick up my ass Posts: 21,157
    welcome back, catester. i have missed your writings & wit
    for poetry through the ceiling. ISBN: 1 4241 8840 7

    "Hear me, my chiefs!
    I am tired; my heart is
    sick and sad. From where
    the sun stands I will fight
    no more forever."
    Chief Joseph - Nez Perce
  • catefrances
    catefrances Posts: 29,003
    edited May 2014
    so im staring put the window at the tree across the street.
    its leaves a deep burgundy, a carpet of green around its feet
    im staring out the window at the passing of the cars
    the grey sky above hiding all the stars....
    Post edited by catefrances on
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • catefrances
    catefrances Posts: 29,003
    he wonders how many hours he wasted drinking at the bar talking to strangers hed never see aagain.
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • catefrances
    catefrances Posts: 29,003
    he watches her from afar wondering when it is shell leave. its got past the point of if and every day he wakes with her beside him is one more day closer to when she will leave. the times she is truly present and those when she seems to disappear within herself are fairly even these days and he knows the next time she leaves, it will be forever
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • catefrances
    catefrances Posts: 29,003
    shes been out there for hours.. just sitting on the end of the dock, her legs dangling over the edge, swaying slowly to a tune only she can hear. she does this every day. it has become something she needs to do. he never asks her what she thinks of all those hours. he knows shell tell him if she needs to. sometimes she does. sometimes she calls to him to come lay by her side when she falls back against the old wood her father built the dock with. the setting sun has just touched the tops of the trees and he knows it wont be long til she stands, stretches her arms high above her head, spin on the spot and walk barefoot back to him.
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • catefrances
    catefrances Posts: 29,003
    rain falling
    on desire proven
    negates her every thought
    the endless durge
    swells her heart
    threatens to dislodge
    the careful steps shes taken
    to pretend itll be just fine
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • catefrances
    catefrances Posts: 29,003
    edited October 2014
    Cant always be right
    cant always be there
    cant always be the one to hold your hand

    sometimes ill be wrong
    sometimes ill be gone
    and sometimes the hand you want to hold
    will be the one to slap you down
    Post edited by catefrances on
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • hedonist
    hedonist Posts: 24,524
    I don't know what prompted your latest post, but it reminded me of this.

    (was one of my saving graces during a time when I needed it - and it got me through)

    A groan of tedium escapes me, startling the fearful.
    Is this a test?
    It has to be. Otherwise I can't go on.
    Draining patience. drain vitality.
    this paranoid, paralyzed vampire act's a little old.

    But I'm still right here, giving blood and keeping faith. And I'm still right here.
    But I'm still right here, giving blood and keeping faith. And I'm still right here.

    I'm gonna wait it out

    If there were no rewards to reap,
    no loving embrace to see me through this tedious path I've chosen here,
    I certainly would've walked away by now.

    I'm gonna wait it out

    If there were no desire to heal
    The damaged and broken met along this tedious path I've chosen here,
    I certainly would've walked away by now.

    I still may. And I still may.
    Be patient.

    I must keep reminding myself of this...

    If there were no rewards to reap,
    no loving embrace to see me through this tedious path I've chosen here,
    I certainly would've walked away by now.
    And I still may. And I still may. And I still may.

    I'm gonna wait it out.
    I'm gonna wait it out.
    Gonna wait it out.
    Gonna wait it out.
  • catefrances
    catefrances Posts: 29,003
    Its interesting you quote this song to me hedonist..... I used lateralus as my lullaby many many times..... I found it soothed me when I needed it. :)
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • hedonist
    hedonist Posts: 24,524
    edited October 2014
    That music is SO good for what ails you - or even when not ailing.

    It's just...perfect.

    I like your take on Lateralus, too.

    edit - enjoy your road tripping :)
  • catefrances
    catefrances Posts: 29,003
    edited October 2014
    She floats around him
    not totally disengaged
    nor present
    her head hums with a dissonance
    that never fully goes away and
    sometimes screams wrenching her mind apart
    why is she here?
    why is he here?
    what does he want from her?
    what does she need from him?
    the cold chills her bones
    freezing her heart to almost nothing
    what does he need from her?
    what does she want from him?
    Solace, the occasional absence
    that allows her soul to set right
    she hears his breathing
    and looks for her escape
    Post edited by catefrances on
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • catefrances
    catefrances Posts: 29,003
    calmly and quietly she slips away
    sneaks aboard the train
    hell turn around but
    she wont be there
    and he'll wonder
    where it is she's gone
    his thoughts will preoccupy him
    but not for as long as she'll be away
    and when she comes back
    he'll be sleeping
    and she'll truly be his dream girl
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • catefrances
    catefrances Posts: 29,003
    she all but throws herself in front of him
    the screaming deafening, but no one can hear
    its all in her head.
    she smiled when she left but she need not have bothered
    he didn't even notice shed gone... maybe he had
    how would she know? shes heard nothing from him
    it amazes her how easily he holds his silence
    she understands though.... shes got nothing to give him, nothing he wants anyway
    she knows he gets distracted by the pretty things and that she pays the cost
    sometimes it amuses her but mostly shes saddened
    shell let it go one day but that day is not today
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • catefrances
    catefrances Posts: 29,003
    she paints a smile across the sky
    and keeps her words inside
    she dances alone
    a dervish whirling
    trying to survive
    she wonders how
    he turned his back
    forgotten evrything
    she fights torecognise
    the love that didnt even exist

    how does this keep happening
    she wonders to herself
    she fights
    she kicks
    she screams within
    and drinks herself to numb

    she understands the trust she puts
    in those that dont deserve it
    but in the mirror she stares back at
    the person whose doubts
    who just cant fathom
    the lack of everything she craves
    goes absolutely totally without it
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • rollings
    rollings unknown Posts: 7,127
    catefrances said:

    in the mirror she stares back at
    the person whose doubts
    who just cant fathom
    the lack of everything she craves
    goes absolutely totally without it

    cool writing :thumbsup:
  • whispering hands
    whispering hands Under your skin Posts: 13,527
    I have missed your writing!
  • catefrances
    catefrances Posts: 29,003
    well then i shall see if cant do more of it. :)
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say

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