I read somewhere that sex is the
dull heartbeat of country towns. I grew up in a country town on the other side
of the mountains and i think thats true. A town my uncle went to war from but never returned to. His
name permanently etched in the decaying stone of a cenotaph. My brother also
left from this town to go to war; but his war was more personal and so far he
hasn’t returned. The family hopes he will one day, I hope he doesn’t. I
haven’t. well that’s not entirely true. I come back every now and again to lick
my wounds but I always leave at the first opportunity. Stealing in and out like
a thief in the night. My mother thinks im ashamed of where I grew up, that I
was a country bumpkin. That’s not true.. at least I don’t think it is. Ive
never not told people exactly where im from. Ive no reason to be ashamed of
that mountain town where in winter a pall of smoke from thousands of coal and
wood fueled fireplaces collects within what seems like touching distance from
the ground, choking everything til spring comes.
That’s how the town survived,
coal mining. Coal mining and grazing. It was the last big town you met before
dropping down onto the western plains. Travelers driving through on their way
to someplace else, stopped to refuel or grab a bite to eat. It was so frigid in
winter we often slept communally. In summer the threat of bushfires was
omnipresent and the crack of fire consuming the tall gums fascinated me.
Growing up my brothers, sisters
and I ran far afield like all the other kids in town. Wed get ‘lost’ in the
bush but always find our way home just as the sun dipped below the ridge. That
was our unofficial curfew… and we knew it. Like clockwork mum would have dinner
on the table and 45 minutes later our father would walk through the door, shuck
his boots in the laundry, drop his dirty work clothes in the washer, wrap
himself in the robe that always hung behind the door. He’d kiss mum’s cheek,
pat her on the bum and then disappear down the hall. Minutes later we’d hear
his voice rise above the rush of water as he washed the days grime from his
body. He’d reappear just as we were rinsing off our plates. Mum would place his
dinner in front of him, he’d always thank her and she’d always smile. My eldest
brother Tom would fetch a beer out of the fridge and popping the top place it
on the table like some sort of ritual offering to the man who kept us fed and
clothed and somewhat on the road to redemption, though mum had more of an
influence on us about that that the old man did. But she’d always defer to him,
as head of the household.
My father was an affable man,
quick with encouragement and a hug, yet equally as quick to dish out any
discipline when any of us got out of line. Much to mums credit and fortunately
for us, she didn’t always avail him of our exploits. Even when he found out some
of the larger transgressions from his mates down the pub, hed it briefly,
the offender would apologise and thatd be the end of it. It was only when he
caught us in the act that we’d have to watch out....
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hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
i knew this guy once... at least i thought i knew him, which of course meant i didnt know him at all. he didnt talk much and a lot of the time i thought he didnt want me around... he never said he didnt, but he was dismissive when i asked him if he did. with hindsight i figured he just didnt want confrontation. of course that just left me wondering what was going on and why he couldnt actually tell me what id long suspected. i was a reasonable person but only as far as you were willing to be 'real' with me. i too disliked confrontation(who doesnt?), but i was a big fan of knowing what was going on and what you actually thought and yeah that more often than not leads to confrontation, but i wasnt going to fault you for telling the truth. ive never been a 'quiet' person in that you always knew my opinion on any given subject... maybe that made me seem like a 'bunny boiler', but truth be told (yes please!) i was far from that. i just didnt have time... at least i didnt think i had time.. a by-product of my anxiety. turns out i had oodles of times, i just was in so much of a hurry(for what i do not know) ,i couldnt slow down and i couldnt manage my time(still cant).
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
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I read somewhere that sex is the dull heartbeat of country towns. I grew up in a country town on the other side of the mountains and i think thats true. A town my uncle went to war from but never returned to. His name permanently etched in the decaying stone of a cenotaph. My brother also left from this town to go to war; but his war was more personal and so far he hasn’t returned. The family hopes he will one day, I hope he doesn’t. I haven’t. well that’s not entirely true. I come back every now and again to lick my wounds but I always leave at the first opportunity. Stealing in and out like a thief in the night. My mother thinks im ashamed of where I grew up, that I was a country bumpkin. That’s not true.. at least I don’t think it is. Ive never not told people exactly where im from. Ive no reason to be ashamed of that mountain town where in winter a pall of smoke from thousands of coal and wood fueled fireplaces collects within what seems like touching distance from the ground, choking everything til spring comes.
That’s how the town survived, coal mining. Coal mining and grazing. It was the last big town you met before dropping down onto the western plains. Travelers driving through on their way to someplace else, stopped to refuel or grab a bite to eat. It was so frigid in winter we often slept communally. In summer the threat of bushfires was omnipresent and the crack of fire consuming the tall gums fascinated me.
Growing up my brothers, sisters and I ran far afield like all the other kids in town. Wed get ‘lost’ in the bush but always find our way home just as the sun dipped below the ridge. That was our unofficial curfew… and we knew it. Like clockwork mum would have dinner on the table and 45 minutes later our father would walk through the door, shuck his boots in the laundry, drop his dirty work clothes in the washer, wrap himself in the robe that always hung behind the door. He’d kiss mum’s cheek, pat her on the bum and then disappear down the hall. Minutes later we’d hear his voice rise above the rush of water as he washed the days grime from his body. He’d reappear just as we were rinsing off our plates. Mum would place his dinner in front of him, he’d always thank her and she’d always smile. My eldest brother Tom would fetch a beer out of the fridge and popping the top place it on the table like some sort of ritual offering to the man who kept us fed and clothed and somewhat on the road to redemption, though mum had more of an influence on us about that that the old man did. But she’d always defer to him, as head of the household.
My father was an affable man, quick with encouragement and a hug, yet equally as quick to dish out any discipline when any of us got out of line. Much to mums credit and fortunately for us, she didn’t always avail him of our exploits. Even when he found out some of the larger transgressions from his mates down the pub, hed it briefly, the offender would apologise and thatd be the end of it. It was only when he caught us in the act that we’d have to watch out....
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say