you are everything
you are nothing
you are my breath
the hand that chokes
the whispers i hear
are delusions i wrought
you are
everything
everything now
that im not.
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
id see it in your eyes
if there was anything to see
a vacant stare looks back at me
as if i wasnt there
i wonder if theres anything
inside that skull so hard
or if all that youre thinking
if youre thinking at all
has been programmed from the start
of a life already chosen
subdued and meaningless
to stand upon the sidelines
be a spectator, not a thief
of the existence laid out before you
to learn to live again
to be what it is that you want
to say anything without a care
so while youre standing there
dreaming of what i do not know
close you fingers make a fist
and tell them where to go
youre gonna do it your way
there is no other way
tell them they can walk beside you
or get the fuck out of the way
cause you wont do what they want
you dont hear the words they say
they dont know you and they never will
so dont forget to remind them
youre gonna do it your way
cause there is no other way
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
in socks she spins across the floor
looking to obliviate her surrounds
half empty wine glass in her hand
she remembers when it was half full
yeah she knows regrets are just lessons not yet learned.
but still the hurtings begun
she doesnt need a reason to think he aint ever coming back
she can hear the thunder far off
the music in her head not words unsaid
is what truly breaks her heart
in socks she spins across the floor
crying out his name
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
tis only booze that gives me courage
to say what it is i think
but tis cause of booze i cant
so i step away and think
what it is i want to say
'bout what it is i feel
and should i wait til morning
to gauge my honesty
theres so many words eating me
that i think you need to hear
but then i pause and wonder
how much i can afford for you to hear
you never seem to wonder
where it is i am
you never ask the questions
i think you need to ask
i sit and ponder many things
but mostly youre in my thoughts
and theres never any doubt what id do
given the opportunity..
.. and so i make myself small
try to conserve my energy
and hope what it is i feel for you
doesnt kill me in the end.
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
Nothing like standing naked to the world. With your thoughts,Your emotions running wild.And sober isn't easy,But it's a start in the right direction. Nice Poem.
she closed the door behind her as he smiled at her entrance. she managed a weary smile in return.
so why am i here?
he held her gave and sighed.
i want you here
and what about what i want?
and what is it you want?
she crossed the room to the bed in 3 tentative steps. reaching out she took his hand in hers and perchd herself on the white linen.
i dont want to share you... thats what i want
he opened his mouth to say something, but the look on her face silenced him.
this situation isnt new to me. but that doesnt mean i can handle it any better. and im not prepared to do it again, so you need to sort yourself out or lose my number cause it doesnt matter how i feel about you i will walk away if you cant give me what i need.
shed swear she could see his brain ticking over. his brow was furrowed and his eyes had that far away look he got when he was thinking of her.
and i need to know that you need me in your life... that im not just there for distraction
are you kidding me? ive been right with you since that first night.
but not wholly. there was distance there.. i could feel it.
sure i was weary. considering what youd just been through do you blame me? was i suppose to scoop you up in my arms and deliver you from all the badnes? is that what you wanted from me?
i want you to help me forget. i tried to do it alone but i cant. i want someone i love to help me
she couldnt suppress the smile forming on her lips. and answering the question before she spoke it he reached out touching her face with his fingers.
i do love you. i ahve since i left.. well before i left
and thats why you left?
he nodded.
youre an idiot you know that?
yeah i know it
she stood up and walked over to the window. the sky had closed in and she could see the threat of rain. she hoped it would rain. he watched her waiting for an answer, though he hadnt asked a question, not specifically anyway. after a few minutes she turned to face him.
i want you to move to LA. if we have any chance we need to be in the same city
can you wait til i get discharged?
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
his voice scratches as he sings
stretched across his broken heart
something goin' on inside
but they all dont see it
his deep sad is what they like
yeah they see that alright
falling down trying to get up
he takes his leave
through the back door
heavy metal in his hand
seen from behind walking
his head down, his mind dark
rests a while, his back against a decaying fence
life comes down to moments they say
and this is one of them
his body expels a heavy sigh
as a dark night descends upon his soul
his voice scratches as he sings
stretched across his broken heart
something goin' on inside
but they all dont see it
his deep sad is what they like
yeah they see that alright
falling down trying to get up
he takes his leave
through the back door
heavy metal in his hand
seen from behind walking
his head down, his mind dark
rests a while, his back against a decaying fence
life comes down to moments they say
and this is one of them
his body expels a heavy sigh
as a dark night descends upon his soul
Damn!That's good. :thumbup:
thank you.
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
it had been several months since he had made the move and still he was like a visitor in her home. she tried not to watch him and when the silences got too heavy she instinctly reached out and laid her hand against his skin. he would always smile and draw her into his arms. and for a while theyd stay entangled until more often than not hed doze off. in the beginning hed wake up with a start and once managed to split her lip with his bony elbow. the level of remorse he showed at hurting her made her heart ache. it was as if it was the worst thing he could ever do to her. and she knew that wasnt true. it was just an accident she reassured him. for a time after that incident hed been more attentive to her yet a bit more cautious as well and more than once she wished hed split her lip more often, accidently of course if the result was an overwhelming guilt that semi shocked him into being more alive. yet even with his melancholia his presence in the house gave her peace.
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
what would you do if i reached out and held
your life in my hands as you do mine
what would you do if i squeezed oh so gently
til the life that you knew turned to dust
what would you do if your strength was your weakness
and i used it so i could survive
what would you do if i buried you quietly
in a grave of your own ineptitude
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hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
what would you do if i reached and held
your life in my hands as you do mine
what would you do if i squeezed oh so gently
til the life that you knew turned to dust
what would you do if your strength was your weakness
and i used it so i could survive
what would you do if i buried you quietly
in a grave of your own ineptitude
I can relate.
Someone has done that to me.
And I am no longer myself.The
life has just been sucked out,
until numbness is all I feel.
she gathers it up
and buries it all deep beneath her skin
she forces it down
and chokes on it all desperate to fit in
at night she screams
and marks herself; too far gone to find relief
she looks from heights
and at quantities and wonders how quietly it could all end
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
you are out of your mind she said... he just smiled stepping back into nothingness, his arms raised in mimed crucifixion. he disappeared from view and she rushed to the railing. she saw him splash into the river and she saw him sink under the water. and she waited....
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
you are out of your mind she said... he just smiled stepping back into nothingness, his arms raised in mimed crucifixion. he disappeared from view and she rushed to the railing. she saw him splash into the river and she saw him sink under the water. and she waited....
you are out of your mind she said... he just smiled stepping back into nothingness, his arms raised in mimed crucifixion. he disappeared from view and she rushed to the railing. she saw him splash into the river and she saw him sink under the water. and she waited....
so huge & few lines
gifted catefrances
a convo im having with a friend atm inspired these lines.
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
you are out of your mind she said... he just smiled stepping back into nothingness, his arms raised in mimed crucifixion. he disappeared from view and she rushed to the railing. she saw him splash into the river and she saw him sink under the water. and she waited....
so huge & few lines
gifted catefrances
a convo im having with a friend atm inspired these lines.
well it worked... as always
many times you leave me (and others) speechless
you're a writer, catefrances
he surfaced with the biggest grin on his face. he called to her then kicked his legs out so that he floated. the current was slow and she watched as he stroked backwards with a long languid motion. she called back, youre still crazy... but she laughed and clapped. and then picking up the bag hed dropped at her feet, she ran down to the riverbank to meet him.
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
shes said enough
its time to go
to slip back into herself
she likes it there
its dark and safe
its where she thinks shes in control
but she knows as time slides past
her thoughts become lies
and that's when youll see her again
standing on a cliff screaming into the wind
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
she listens to new music and wishes he was here, if only for a short time. its his music and she will always associate it with him. she smiles at a memory she thought long dead. she knows hed love it, just as she cant get enough of it. pop those headphones over her ears, hit repeat and she disappears into a present past that should remain gone forever. she swore shed never look back but this one indulgence today while his music wrapped itself around her brain she'll allow. and then she'll turn her attention back to another and smile for what she has now.
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
he said stay with me...
she said I cant.
he held his hand out anyway.
she lowered her head and turned away.
there was nothing else that she could say.
he stepped towards her.
she stopped and turned...
told him to leave her be.
and so he let her walk away
wondering what went wrong
yet knowing letting her in
was probably his one mistake.
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
she wanders through her hometown
a landscape she once knew
but now cant seem to place
nothing looks the same
nothing is right
and all her old hangouts are boarded up and vacant
the absence haunts her like ghosts unseen
but somehow felt too close
the old footbridge is missing some planks
the gaps big enough for her to disappear through
...and she thinks about it.
she remembers long hot summers when the world was theirs
and the plans he made spun her dizzy
she smiles at the memory
cause that all he is now...
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
she opens her eyes as the sun peaks over the roofs
her eyeballs ache and she wonders of its from not enough sleep
or cause she went to sleep crying
throwing her legs over the side of the bed she leans forward
resting her elbows on her legs she glances behind her
his form still dead to the world, oblivious
she hears a bird in the distance
and wishes she could fly
making her way down the hall pulling her robe over her bare shoulders
she almost trips over the cat
she swears and lashes out with her foot, the tabby is too quick
it walks away from her disappearing around a corner
she pees with the door open, a habit hes force upon her
she reaches out for some paper and sighs
once again he hasn't replaced the empty roll
not my fucking job he told her last time she brought it up
well what is your fucking job she asked
he answered her with a backhander that left her sprawling on the floor
ever the gentleman he helped her up...
... when she pulled away she left a chunk of hair in his fist.
itd be so easy to leave she tells herself
but goes nowhere
she hears him call her name
tired she kicks the door shut hoping itll save her from whats to come
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
Comments
you are nothing
you are my breath
the hand that chokes
the whispers i hear
are delusions i wrought
you are
everything
everything now
that im not.
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
gracias
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
if there was anything to see
a vacant stare looks back at me
as if i wasnt there
i wonder if theres anything
inside that skull so hard
or if all that youre thinking
if youre thinking at all
has been programmed from the start
of a life already chosen
subdued and meaningless
to stand upon the sidelines
be a spectator, not a thief
of the existence laid out before you
to learn to live again
to be what it is that you want
to say anything without a care
so while youre standing there
dreaming of what i do not know
close you fingers make a fist
and tell them where to go
youre gonna do it your way
there is no other way
tell them they can walk beside you
or get the fuck out of the way
cause you wont do what they want
you dont hear the words they say
they dont know you and they never will
so dont forget to remind them
youre gonna do it your way
cause there is no other way
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
but i dont believe her
ive seen that look she gets in her eye
she likes it all just a little too much
candy says she can walk away anytime
but she sits there making no move
she gives me that smile that says
she likes it all just a little too much
candy says shes in control
even though she knows shes not
she needs the cash and what it can buy her
and we all can just go to hell
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
looking to obliviate her surrounds
half empty wine glass in her hand
she remembers when it was half full
yeah she knows regrets are just lessons not yet learned.
but still the hurtings begun
she doesnt need a reason to think he aint ever coming back
she can hear the thunder far off
the music in her head not words unsaid
is what truly breaks her heart
in socks she spins across the floor
crying out his name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
i kissed thurston moore last night.
thought you didnt do musicians?
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
to say what it is i think
but tis cause of booze i cant
so i step away and think
what it is i want to say
'bout what it is i feel
and should i wait til morning
to gauge my honesty
theres so many words eating me
that i think you need to hear
but then i pause and wonder
how much i can afford for you to hear
you never seem to wonder
where it is i am
you never ask the questions
i think you need to ask
i sit and ponder many things
but mostly youre in my thoughts
and theres never any doubt what id do
given the opportunity..
.. and so i make myself small
try to conserve my energy
and hope what it is i feel for you
doesnt kill me in the end.
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
so why am i here?
he held her gave and sighed.
i want you here
and what about what i want?
and what is it you want?
she crossed the room to the bed in 3 tentative steps. reaching out she took his hand in hers and perchd herself on the white linen.
i dont want to share you... thats what i want
he opened his mouth to say something, but the look on her face silenced him.
this situation isnt new to me. but that doesnt mean i can handle it any better. and im not prepared to do it again, so you need to sort yourself out or lose my number cause it doesnt matter how i feel about you i will walk away if you cant give me what i need.
shed swear she could see his brain ticking over. his brow was furrowed and his eyes had that far away look he got when he was thinking of her.
and i need to know that you need me in your life... that im not just there for distraction
are you kidding me? ive been right with you since that first night.
but not wholly. there was distance there.. i could feel it.
sure i was weary. considering what youd just been through do you blame me? was i suppose to scoop you up in my arms and deliver you from all the badnes? is that what you wanted from me?
i want you to help me forget. i tried to do it alone but i cant. i want someone i love to help me
she couldnt suppress the smile forming on her lips. and answering the question before she spoke it he reached out touching her face with his fingers.
i do love you. i ahve since i left.. well before i left
and thats why you left?
he nodded.
youre an idiot you know that?
yeah i know it
she stood up and walked over to the window. the sky had closed in and she could see the threat of rain. she hoped it would rain. he watched her waiting for an answer, though he hadnt asked a question, not specifically anyway. after a few minutes she turned to face him.
i want you to move to LA. if we have any chance we need to be in the same city
can you wait til i get discharged?
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
Damn!That's good. :thumbup:
thank you.
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
your life in my hands as you do mine
what would you do if i squeezed oh so gently
til the life that you knew turned to dust
what would you do if your strength was your weakness
and i used it so i could survive
what would you do if i buried you quietly
in a grave of your own ineptitude
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
I can relate.
Someone has done that to me.
And I am no longer myself.The
life has just been sucked out,
until numbness is all I feel.
and buries it all deep beneath her skin
she forces it down
and chokes on it all desperate to fit in
at night she screams
and marks herself; too far gone to find relief
she looks from heights
and at quantities and wonders how quietly it could all end
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
gifted catefrances
"Hear me, my chiefs!
I am tired; my heart is
sick and sad. From where
the sun stands I will fight
no more forever."
Chief Joseph - Nez Perce
a convo im having with a friend atm inspired these lines.
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
many times you leave me (and others) speechless
you're a writer, catefrances
"Hear me, my chiefs!
I am tired; my heart is
sick and sad. From where
the sun stands I will fight
no more forever."
Chief Joseph - Nez Perce
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
its time to go
to slip back into herself
she likes it there
its dark and safe
its where she thinks shes in control
but she knows as time slides past
her thoughts become lies
and that's when youll see her again
standing on a cliff screaming into the wind
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
she said I cant.
he held his hand out anyway.
she lowered her head and turned away.
there was nothing else that she could say.
he stepped towards her.
she stopped and turned...
told him to leave her be.
and so he let her walk away
wondering what went wrong
yet knowing letting her in
was probably his one mistake.
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
a landscape she once knew
but now cant seem to place
nothing looks the same
nothing is right
and all her old hangouts are boarded up and vacant
the absence haunts her like ghosts unseen
but somehow felt too close
the old footbridge is missing some planks
the gaps big enough for her to disappear through
...and she thinks about it.
she remembers long hot summers when the world was theirs
and the plans he made spun her dizzy
she smiles at the memory
cause that all he is now...
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
I don't know where I begin
or where I end
thought I knew
but then I lost my way
im dancing by myself today
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
her eyeballs ache and she wonders of its from not enough sleep
or cause she went to sleep crying
throwing her legs over the side of the bed she leans forward
resting her elbows on her legs she glances behind her
his form still dead to the world, oblivious
she hears a bird in the distance
and wishes she could fly
making her way down the hall pulling her robe over her bare shoulders
she almost trips over the cat
she swears and lashes out with her foot, the tabby is too quick
it walks away from her disappearing around a corner
she pees with the door open, a habit hes force upon her
she reaches out for some paper and sighs
once again he hasn't replaced the empty roll
not my fucking job he told her last time she brought it up
well what is your fucking job she asked
he answered her with a backhander that left her sprawling on the floor
ever the gentleman he helped her up...
... when she pulled away she left a chunk of hair in his fist.
itd be so easy to leave she tells herself
but goes nowhere
she hears him call her name
tired she kicks the door shut hoping itll save her from whats to come
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say