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  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 15,026
    So many adverts and tv commercials. 
    TALK TO SOMEONE  
    DONT SUFFER IN SILENCE 

     WELL FUCK THEM.i will never  ask for help again
       


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  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 15,026
    edited August 2022
    HughFreakingDillon said:
    I'm sorry the system is failing you Rob. I know. It's hard. I've had two psychiatrists. One laughed me out of our first meeting ("crazy people don't know they're crazy-you're fine! LOL) and the second was nice enough but he was honest that his caseload was simply too high to take on a patient like me for the long haul. I wasn't bad off enough for him. 
    Hfd. I swear i had that  crazy people shit  as well. They are cunts.  I think people like us should do those  exact jobs
    Post edited by lastexitlondon on


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  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 15,026
    Im glad i have somewhere  to write this down
     Thanks 


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  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 15,026
    While I'm here. the guy.(he had interviewed me earlier for 1hr face to face and if you know me. Im not ready for f2f)
    We got on well  and he was kind  enough. 
     Had a meeting  with the  team then rang me with the  conclusion . After i explained  that he added fear and made it all a lot worse. I added this could have been a man that had nothing  left and topped himself  at the thought  he could now be a bad father. 
    I said pass this on to the "team".
    Your  actions have a massive  re- action . You  could have caused  a very bad situation  with a man who is at the  end and cherishes his children 


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  • HughFreakingDillon
    HughFreakingDillon Winnipeg Posts: 40,026
    lastexitlondon said:
    HughFreakingDillon said:
    I'm sorry the system is failing you Rob. I know. It's hard. I've had two psychiatrists. One laughed me out of our first meeting ("crazy people don't know they're crazy-you're fine! LOL) and the second was nice enough but he was honest that his caseload was simply too high to take on a patient like me for the long haul. I wasn't bad off enough for him. 
    Hfd. I swear i had that  crazy people shit  as well. They are cunts.  I think people like us should do those  exact jobs
    I was floored by his dismissiveness. after what I told him was going through my head. just not supposed to worry about it. you don't act on it. what he didn't get was that, sure, while I was worried I'd act on it, it wasn't just that. even if I never did, the anxiety and self-loathing the thoughts themselves were causing was ruining my life. 

    Luckily I read enough online to kind of self-therapist myself. But that's the only thing I've ever been able to handle on my own like that. 
    Your boos mean nothing to me, for I have seen what makes you cheer



  • a5pj
    a5pj Hershey PA Posts: 3,977
    OffSheGoes35 said:
    Divorce can be a good thing, but don't ever go into it thinking you will soon find a better relationship. Better to go into it thinking about whether being alone is ultimately better than staying in the marriage. 
    Absolutely. It's about how hard marriage is and how much work is needed. Takes 2, and being the only one wanting a relationship...
    Wouldn't it be funny if the world ended in 2010, with lots of fire?



  • a5pj
    a5pj Hershey PA Posts: 3,977
    HughFreakingDillon said:
    lastexitlondon said:
    HughFreakingDillon said:
    I'm sorry the system is failing you Rob. I know. It's hard. I've had two psychiatrists. One laughed me out of our first meeting ("crazy people don't know they're crazy-you're fine! LOL) and the second was nice enough but he was honest that his caseload was simply too high to take on a patient like me for the long haul. I wasn't bad off enough for him. 
    Hfd. I swear i had that  crazy people shit  as well. They are cunts.  I think people like us should do those  exact jobs
    I was floored by his dismissiveness. after what I told him was going through my head. just not supposed to worry about it. you don't act on it. what he didn't get was that, sure, while I was worried I'd act on it, it wasn't just that. even if I never did, the anxiety and self-loathing the thoughts themselves were causing was ruining my life. 

    Luckily I read enough online to kind of self-therapist myself. But that's the only thing I've ever been able to handle on my own like that. 
    Not too dismiss any issues or how much the mental health system sucks. 
    But psychiatrists and therapists are very different, extremely different from school and medical systems. There are numbers to call to get to the right service, but it takes time and most are underpaid, understaffed and undertrained. That's just how it is, sucks.
    Social Workers are great resources, know the system, and can get you to the right place. Don't view them as the people chasing you down, they are trying to help.
    From experience and where I work. Schools have some of the best Social Workers and people who can get you what you need. Even if you're a parent, call the school. And if they can't help they probably know who can.

    I have a therapist, but would get laughed out of a psychiatrist's office probably as well. But it's a tremendous help for anxiety and depression.
    Wouldn't it be funny if the world ended in 2010, with lots of fire?



  • HughFreakingDillon
    HughFreakingDillon Winnipeg Posts: 40,026
    well this was many years ago, and it was a referral directly from my doctor. Doc #2 was for SURE a psychiatrist (who said I'd probably benefit more from a psychologist). Douche #1 I'm not sure. 
    Your boos mean nothing to me, for I have seen what makes you cheer



  • Purple Fairy Tree
    Purple Fairy Tree Posts: 2,055
    edited August 2022
    Perhaps the supermoon from a few days ago is still messing with people.
    Post edited by Purple Fairy Tree on
  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 15,026
    listening  to hyde park night 2 


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  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 15,026



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  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 15,026
    My daughter  looked to the sky and clouds  at night tonight and said dad lets make shapes from  the  clouds. She is 5.  Wonderful  . And then  we saw  mars. And Jupiter? Maybe.  But  i guess that was grounding 


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  • Purple Fairy Tree
    Purple Fairy Tree Posts: 2,055
    She sounds like a gem Rob :)
  • HughFreakingDillon
    HughFreakingDillon Winnipeg Posts: 40,026
    the innocence of young children always brought me back to a good place too Rob. but now I have teenagers. lol
    Your boos mean nothing to me, for I have seen what makes you cheer



  • dankind
    dankind Posts: 20,841
    HughFreakingDillon said:
    the innocence of young children always brought me back to a good place too Rob. but now I have teenagers. lol
    Volunteer to work with young children after work. I coach little league, and it has been an incredibly rewarding experience. I'll likely continue to do so (or work with young children in some other capacity) long after my son moves on from the program.

    My dream is to open a School of Rock location, but the upfront cost is ridonk.
    I SAW PEARL JAM
  • Purple Fairy Tree
    Purple Fairy Tree Posts: 2,055
    edited August 2022
    Yeah it's not the same when the kids grow up!
  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 15,026
    Sorry to reignite this thread. 
    Im stuck in a lonely place, whilst my 5 year old and partner had covid and are now recovered i failed to get covid out of the way. But i did get something  else. Suspected  labyrinthitus. 7 days so far laying in my room. They are now a lot more  free in thier  movements and are able  to relax a bit amd go out and about. Im so fucking gutted and my brain says this is going to be forever and my life is set to be stuck. The  meds haven't  worked. Ive had 3 months  of globus syndrome  also i dont believe  it to be that. 
    Fuck man.  This  life keeps dipping to new lows. 
    I know  so many  suffer with a lot worse so im not saying  why me. Just that i cant  take anymore


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  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 15,026
    Walking  my daughter  to school  was our thing.  Now im basically unable. Gutted and pissed off


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  • Purple Fairy Tree
    Purple Fairy Tree Posts: 2,055
    You'll get better Rob, have you called the Dr?
  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 15,026
    Yeah spoke got some pillls that dont work and had a blood test because  i insisted. I feel  like its the end for me. Sounds dramatic i know  but im alone in my head. 


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