A safe place for anxiety sufferers to share.

JPPJ84

Sorry

a5pj

Sorry for reading and not posting in this thread more.

lastexitlondon

Really  in a deep  dark  hole..

lastexitlondon

Its fucking ridiculous that  when im in the  worst  place  i want to survive but the moment i get reassurance or some  medical freedom i feel like now  i could  end it all. 
I just cant  understand or do this  anymore. Wednesday  if all is ok and i still here im going  to go out of my comfort zone to go to my dear friend  donna s funeral . Donna showed me love and kindness  at many pj and glen shows.  I don't  go anywhere  but for her i  want to.  She was younger  than me. A mother  and a beautiful  woman.  If its the last thing  i do i will go.
Slante Donna.  Big love

deadendp

lastexitlondon said:

Its fucking ridiculous that  when im in the  worst  place  i want to survive but the moment i get reassurance or some  medical freedom i feel like now  i could  end it all. 
I just cant  understand or do this  anymore. Wednesday  if all is ok and i still here im going  to go out of my comfort zone to go to my dear friend  donna s funeral . Donna showed me love and kindness  at many pj and glen shows.  I don't  go anywhere  but for her i  want to.  She was younger  than me. A mother  and a beautiful  woman.  If its the last thing  i do i will go.
Slante Donna.  Big love

❤

Fifthelement

lastexitlondon said:

Its fucking ridiculous that  when im in the  worst  place  i want to survive but the moment i get reassurance or some  medical freedom i feel like now  i could  end it all. 
I just cant  understand or do this  anymore. Wednesday  if all is ok and i still here im going  to go out of my comfort zone to go to my dear friend  donna s funeral . Donna showed me love and kindness  at many pj and glen shows.  I don't  go anywhere  but for her i  want to.  She was younger  than me. A mother  and a beautiful  woman.  If its the last thing  i do i will go.
Slante Donna.  Big love

Sending love your way @l@lastexitlondon Donna sounds like an amazing person.  Condolences to her family and friends.  May she rest in peace. 

Purple Fairy Tree

Sorry for your loss @lastexitlondon xxx

lastexitlondon

I think some people on the forum knew donna. I hadn't  seen her for a while. Last time was at pj at the  02.   Time is short and life is cruel. 

lastexitlondon

so today we said  goodbye  to a pearl jam fan. 
There must have been 200 plus people in tge most beautiful  chapel in the most beautiful  countryside  ive ever seen. 
When the  coffin  came in light  years  played and only about 10 of us there knew what  that  meant. But it shook me to my soul.  I felt every  one of eds words  and to hear it in a church  was so surreal. Ive listened to that song so many  times  when somebody dies. But to hear it now was so profound.  
So many people  came together  and it made me think.  We spend our lives feeling alone and in fear. But when we die so many l
People come.  Its weird.  Why dont  they when you are alive.

hedonist

My condolences to you and to her family, Rob. I know it was difficult for you — and you did it.  Hold those memories with her dearly, and be proud of pushing yourself. 

lastexitlondon

Thank you  for your  kindness. 
Ive lost the  damn plot

a5pj

jhager79

Sorry for your loss Rob.
Let's start showing the people in our lives how much we value, love and appreciate them every chance we get. It's not always easy but some of us are getting to the age where we start losing more of the people who meant the most to us growing up, be it friends, teachers, parents of friends, our parents etc. Let's not wait until we are at the funeral home to show how much we love someone. 

NEweather

jhager79 said:

Sorry for your loss Rob.
Let's start showing the people in our lives how much we value, love and appreciate them every chance we get. It's not always easy but some of us are getting to the age where we start losing more of the people who meant the most to us growing up, be it friends, teachers, parents of friends, our parents etc. Let's not wait until we are at the funeral home to show how much we love someone. 

       This. + I'm sorry for your loss too @lastexitlondon
  
    My honey has stage 4 prostate cancer, and it has spread.  Maybe i get what you mean, a bit-Rob, when you say  Ive lost the plot.  Trying to be strong for him, but it is hard. Started that one treatment, that lowers the testosterone yesterday, to try and slow it-  
 We actually had a laugh, later- cuz the nurse said he might have " menopausal-type" symptoms/ effects, ( which i know isn't funny) but smhow we thought it was funny for a bit, just cuz we hadnt heard ANYTHING like that, yet been around stuff like that- in a way, the humor was an ok thing... Love you all...
             

hedonist

NEweather said:

jhager79 said:

Sorry for your loss Rob.
Let's start showing the people in our lives how much we value, love and appreciate them every chance we get. It's not always easy but some of us are getting to the age where we start losing more of the people who meant the most to us growing up, be it friends, teachers, parents of friends, our parents etc. Let's not wait until we are at the funeral home to show how much we love someone. 

       This. + I'm sorry for your loss too @lastexitlondon
  
    My honey has stage 4 prostate cancer, and it has spread.  Maybe i get what you mean, a bit-Rob, when you say  Ive lost the plot.  Trying to be strong for him, but it is hard. Started that one treatment, that lowers the testosterone yesterday, to try and slow it-  
 We actually had a laugh, later- cuz the nurse said he might have " menopausal-type" symptoms/ effects, ( which i know isn't funny) but smhow we thought it was funny for a bit, just cuz we hadnt heard ANYTHING like that, yet been around stuff like that- in a way, the humor was an ok thing... Love you all...
             

My best wishes to you both. Being on either end of that is so difficult. Take that humor wherever you find it!

NEweather

Thanks so much-

Fifthelement

jhager79 said:

Sorry for your loss Rob.
Let's start showing the people in our lives how much we value, love and appreciate them every chance we get. It's not always easy but some of us are getting to the age where we start losing more of the people who meant the most to us growing up, be it friends, teachers, parents of friends, our parents etc. Let's not wait until we are at the funeral home to show how much we love someone. 

((((Hugs)))) Nice to see you here @jhager79

NEweather said:

jhager79 said:

Sorry for your loss Rob.
Let's start showing the people in our lives how much we value, love and appreciate them every chance we get. It's not always easy but some of us are getting to the age where we start losing more of the people who meant the most to us growing up, be it friends, teachers, parents of friends, our parents etc. Let's not wait until we are at the funeral home to show how much we love someone. 

       This. + I'm sorry for your loss too @lastexitlondon
  
    My honey has stage 4 prostate cancer, and it has spread.  Maybe i get what you mean, a bit-Rob, when you say  Ive lost the plot.  Trying to be strong for him, but it is hard. Started that one treatment, that lowers the testosterone yesterday, to try and slow it-  
 We actually had a laugh, later- cuz the nurse said he might have " menopausal-type" symptoms/ effects, ( which i know isn't funny) but smhow we thought it was funny for a bit, just cuz we hadnt heard ANYTHING like that, yet been around stuff like that- in a way, the humor was an ok thing... Love you all...
             

Sending hugs and healing vibes to both you and your hubby.

Find the things that make you laugh and that give you a moment of joy. Make jokes, laugh at the absurdity of life.   These are the moments that give us comfort on our dark days. ❤️❤️❤️

jhager79

Thank you @Fifthelement ,taking it hour by hour and day by day. Has not been easy and I've been leaning on some strong people who have been done this road before. They have been placed into my life for a reason and I'm truly grateful for that.

GlowGirl

jhager79 said:

Sorry for your loss Rob.
Let's start showing the people in our lives how much we value, love and appreciate them every chance we get. It's not always easy but some of us are getting to the age where we start losing more of the people who meant the most to us growing up, be it friends, teachers, parents of friends, our parents etc. Let's not wait until we are at the funeral home to show how much we love someone. 

I am glad to see you have posted again. How are you feeling?

jhager79

GlowGirl said:

jhager79 said:

Sorry for your loss Rob.
Let's start showing the people in our lives how much we value, love and appreciate them every chance we get. It's not always easy but some of us are getting to the age where we start losing more of the people who meant the most to us growing up, be it friends, teachers, parents of friends, our parents etc. Let's not wait until we are at the funeral home to show how much we love someone. 

I am glad to see you have posted again. How are you feeling?

Today's a good day. Feeling better than yesterday but I'm being cautious and not stepping out of my comfort zone.