A safe place for anxiety sufferers to share.

brianlux

lastexitlondon said:

Sorry to reignite this thread. 
Im stuck in a lonely place, whilst my 5 year old and partner had covid and are now recovered i failed to get covid out of the way. But i did get something  else. Suspected  labyrinthitus. 7 days so far laying in my room. They are now a lot more  free in thier  movements and are able  to relax a bit amd go out and about. Im so fucking gutted and my brain says this is going to be forever and my life is set to be stuck. The  meds haven't  worked. Ive had 3 months  of globus syndrome  also i dont believe  it to be that. 
Fuck man.  This  life keeps dipping to new lows. 
I know  so many  suffer with a lot worse so im not saying  why me. Just that i cant  take anymore

Never a need to apologize here, Rob.  Anxiety is ongoing for many of us who struggle with it.  With the hard days come, if it helps to write/talk about it, go for it.  You'll get nothing but empathy and support here, bud.

lastexitlondon

Thanks friends 

HughFreakingDillon

I honestly think if I can get better, anyone can, Rob. I'm the best I've been in years. I restarted my meds after another failed attempt in the spring (GI symptoms). I eased into more this time, as my doctor had originally told me to but I ignored ("I was fine last time, he's an idiot"). Well, turns how he was right for once. Wish I had done this months ago. 

I wish you peace Rob. Just keep thinking "all the things I thought I had, I don't have, so I likely don't have this". The symptoms I was having during my anxiety the last several months have all gone. It was all because of my broken brain. And I knew it, but didn't know it, ya know? I'm sure it's the same with you. 

I saw a quote once, and I knew it to be true. Paraphrasing, but "the people who worry about sickness the most, get sick the least". 

lastexitlondon

Great quote. Many thanks my friend

hedonist

As I was recently told, keep your chin up. SO much easier said than done but it’s well worth the effort, Rob.

lastexitlondon

Thank you hedo. I Will aim for it

brianlux

One of the things that drives my anxiety is aggressive dog barking.  Don't get me wrong- I don't hate dogs. Although I'm definitely more of a cat person, I've had 4 dogs at various times in my life, and loved them all.  But  when I hear aggressive, loud barking at night, it shoots my anxiety up big time, and lately there's been a lot of it.  It's really bad for my head and not good for my overall health either.   It's still warm around here so it sucks that I have to close the windows, turn on fans, and then feel trapped and agitated.  
Must hang in there.  Winter will be better.  

23scidoo

brianlux said:

One of the things that drives my anxiety is aggressive dog barking.  Don't get me wrong- I don't hate dogs. Although I'm definitely more of a cat person, I've had 4 dogs at various times in my life, and loved them all.  But  when I hear aggressive, loud barking at night, it shoots my anxiety up big time, and lately there's been a lot of it.  It's really bad for my head and not good for my overall health either.   It's still warm around here so it sucks that I have to close the windows, turn on fans, and then feel trapped and agitated.  
Must hang in there.  Winter will be better.  

I don't know there @brianlux, but in Europe, winter looks scary here..

brianlux

23scidoo said:

brianlux said:

One of the things that drives my anxiety is aggressive dog barking.  Don't get me wrong- I don't hate dogs. Although I'm definitely more of a cat person, I've had 4 dogs at various times in my life, and loved them all.  But  when I hear aggressive, loud barking at night, it shoots my anxiety up big time, and lately there's been a lot of it.  It's really bad for my head and not good for my overall health either.   It's still warm around here so it sucks that I have to close the windows, turn on fans, and then feel trapped and agitated.  
Must hang in there.  Winter will be better.  

I don't know there @brianlux, but in Europe, winter looks scary here..

It's hard to predict weather long-term of course, but hopefully you will have a good winter.  I hope it goes well for you!

Feeling tired and discouraged today.  Been losing too much sleep to barking dogs and the added anxiety.  When this happens, I just want to move, but I know there is no quiet place on earth to go to.  I'm not in a hurry to be dead, but at least it will be quiet then.

Purple Fairy Tree

Earplugs?

Lerxst1992

Loud fan and/or air filter? Perhaps a PJ boot?

a5pj

Do something about it if you can. Write a note to put on the barking dogs owners door, talk to them about it, they may not know their dogs are barking. Noise laws, especially at night.

I've found anxiety hates action. But if you sit and dwell anxiety loves it.

HughFreakingDillon

a5pj said:

Do something about it if you can. Write a note to put on the barking dogs owners door, talk to them about it, they may not know their dogs are barking. Noise laws, especially at night.

I've found anxiety hates action. But if you sit and dwell anxiety loves it.

wow. amazing quote. I love that. it's so effing true. 

a5pj

HughFreakingDillon said:

a5pj said:

Do something about it if you can. Write a note to put on the barking dogs owners door, talk to them about it, they may not know their dogs are barking. Noise laws, especially at night.

I've found anxiety hates action. But if you sit and dwell anxiety loves it.

wow. amazing quote. I love that. it's so effing true. 

Heard it from Jon Stewart during one of his interviews, I take no credit. But it's one of those sayings that just clicked for me.

brianlux

Thanks for good ideas, all. 
Our neighborhood is a convolution of up and down and twisting roads.  I haven't been able to locate the main offenders.  When winter comes, I will be able to keep the windows closed without being too warm.  I do use a fan which helps. 
Part of the problem is that, when home, I feel like a prisoner in my own home.  Other than our daily walk on the walking trail which is a short drive from here, or once in a while when we go to the park by the river in Coloma, I never spend time outside.  My yard is a stranger to me other than what I see out the window.  It feels dangerous out there to me.  I know, weird, huh?

I like Stewart's quote as well.  The action I take for now is to keep busy and keep my mind off my troubles.  That sounds kind of lame to me, but it gets me through the hardest days.  The other action I take is to look for another place to live.  Getting away from noise in this world is iffy at best, but it can't hurt to try.

Thanks for listing.  You folks are great.  I appreciate you.

Purple Fairy Tree

I appreciate you too @brianlux

brianlux

West Coast Dreamgirl said:

I appreciate you too @brianlux

Thank you, Dreamgirl.  I appreciate you as well.

lastexitlondon

Ive gotten to an all time low. Im sick and tired and physically  ill with no answers.
Ive got a load of tee shirts i just unearthed all womens or kids . Very small unworn or worn  once. Anyone have kids they  want a tee shirt for i would like to give a few away to people who have helped me. And have listened when nobody else would. I cant be bothered working  out what  they are worth  and all that shit. 
Im very grateful to my friends here. I re read hedos message to me at her darkest time she told me keep my chin up. I feel i let her down by not being able to be strong in the face of illness myself like she and my dad were. 
If i had one bit of advice its live whilst you can. Use all your  limbs  amd move freely whilst you can.

GlowGirl

lastexitlondon said:

Ive gotten to an all time low. Im sick and tired and physically  ill with no answers.
Ive got a load of tee shirts i just unearthed all womens or kids . Very small unworn or worn  once. Anyone have kids they  want a tee shirt for i would like to give a few away to people who have helped me. And have listened when nobody else would. I cant be bothered working  out what  they are worth  and all that shit. 
Im very grateful to my friends here. I re read hedos message to me at her darkest time she told me keep my chin up. I feel i let her down by not being able to be strong in the face of illness myself like she and my dad were. 
If i had one bit of advice its live whilst you can. Use all your  limbs  amd move freely whilst you can.

Rob, I can’t even pretend to know what you are going through. However, from what I have seen here you are able to persevere. You have been doing it. Setbacks come, but you get through them. You are right that Hedo was so brave and caring of others even when she was going through the worst thing imaginable. But you are brave as well. She knew that. Now you need to know that. Be well. 

Fifthelement

GlowGirl said:

lastexitlondon said:

Ive gotten to an all time low. Im sick and tired and physically  ill with no answers.
Ive got a load of tee shirts i just unearthed all womens or kids . Very small unworn or worn  once. Anyone have kids they  want a tee shirt for i would like to give a few away to people who have helped me. And have listened when nobody else would. I cant be bothered working  out what  they are worth  and all that shit. 
Im very grateful to my friends here. I re read hedos message to me at her darkest time she told me keep my chin up. I feel i let her down by not being able to be strong in the face of illness myself like she and my dad were. 
If i had one bit of advice its live whilst you can. Use all your  limbs  amd move freely whilst you can.

Rob, I can’t even pretend to know what you are going through. However, from what I have seen here you are able to persevere. You have been doing it. Setbacks come, but you get through them. You are right that Hedo was so brave and caring of others even when she was going through the worst thing imaginable. But you are brave as well. She knew that. Now you need to know that. Be well. 

Couldn’t have said it better myself.  Hold on to the thread Rob, the currents will shift.  S xx