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jhager79 said:Thank you @Fifthelement ,taking it hour by hour and day by day. Has not been easy and I've been leaning on some strong people who have been done this road before. They have been placed into my life for a reason and I'm truly grateful for that."What the CANUCK happened?!? - Esquimalt Barber Shop0
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I just don't know what more i can do.
Im trying to keep busy but its not working. Im so lost. Health anxiety is fucking awful. Its at a level i believe im dying of illness every second of every day. It not only ruins my life but those around me. I see how mental people like me become homeless and addicted to anything that will pause this for even an hour
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lastexitlondon said:I just don't know what more i can do.
Im trying to keep busy but its not working. Im so lost. Health anxiety is fucking awful. Its at a level i believe im dying of illness every second of every day. It not only ruins my life but those around me. I see how mental people like me become homeless and addicted to anything that will pause this for even an hour"What the CANUCK happened?!? - Esquimalt Barber Shop0 -
Fifthelement said:lastexitlondon said:I just don't know what more i can do.
Im trying to keep busy but its not working. Im so lost. Health anxiety is fucking awful. Its at a level i believe im dying of illness every second of every day. It not only ruins my life but those around me. I see how mental people like me become homeless and addicted to anything that will pause this for even an hour
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So i haven't been here for a bit. I just had the call . My dad has a month or so left. Its a long long story our relationship. I want to say so much . Im alone. So much happened the last 10 years in our relationship. And i thought many times i might lose him. I lost him many times emotionally and prepared so many times. But im ill prepared and im an outcast now for speaking the actual truth. He was an alcoholic. 10 years sober but it turns out his liver remembered . So many things i need help working out. My siblings are there with him when he found out. Not me. His new wife and my half sister hate me because i spoke up for my full brother who they mistreated. I lost my relationship so my younger brother could have his relationship with dad. I was always close but from afar to dad as the eldest.
He left when i was 8 and bro was 6. To have to more kids with this lady he had been cheating with since my mum was young. Horrible. But i love my 2 siblings from that marriage. They are full brother and sister to me. But i had to call out bad behaviour towards chris my full bro. And from then on half sis and step mum won't speak to me. My dad did bad things to my mum and us by proxy. From alcoholism. Not anyones fault but horrible. Chris didn't want to know my dad. I always spent my life trying. Trying trying to get dad to notice me and us. I never gave up. Now chris is there with him and im here miles away alone. They all recieved the news together. But not me. Sorry this is long
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I’m so sorry, Rob. I wish I knew the “right” thing to say, but know I wish you well — as always.0
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hedonist said:I’m so sorry, Rob. I wish I knew the “right” thing to say, but know I wish you well — as always.
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lastexitlondon said:So i haven't been here for a bit. I just had the call . My dad has a month or so left. Its a long long story our relationship. I want to say so much . Im alone. So much happened the last 10 years in our relationship. And i thought many times i might lose him. I lost him many times emotionally and prepared so many times. But im ill prepared and im an outcast now for speaking the actual truth. He was an alcoholic. 10 years sober but it turns out his liver remembered . So many things i need help working out. My siblings are there with him when he found out. Not me. His new wife and my half sister hate me because i spoke up for my full brother who they mistreated. I lost my relationship so my younger brother could have his relationship with dad. I was always close but from afar to dad as the eldest.
He left when i was 8 and bro was 6. To have to more kids with this lady he had been cheating with since my mum was young. Horrible. But i love my 2 siblings from that marriage. They are full brother and sister to me. But i had to call out bad behaviour towards chris my full bro. And from then on half sis and step mum won't speak to me. My dad did bad things to my mum and us by proxy. From alcoholism. Not anyones fault but horrible. Chris didn't want to know my dad. I always spent my life trying. Trying trying to get dad to notice me and us. I never gave up. Now chris is there with him and im here miles away alone. They all recieved the news together. But not me. Sorry this is long
You made a sacrifice for your brother and you should be proud that you did that. In the end, we have to live with ourselves, and you can do that knowing you did the right thing, as much as you lost because of it.Hugh Freaking Dillon is currently out of the office, returning sometime in the fall0 -
❤ is all i can think. Show love . Feel love . Ive decided Im going no matter what . And i will be love thats all . After that its other peoples conscience. I cant control
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Thank you my dear friends.
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HughFreakingDillon said:lastexitlondon said:So i haven't been here for a bit. I just had the call . My dad has a month or so left. Its a long long story our relationship. I want to say so much . Im alone. So much happened the last 10 years in our relationship. And i thought many times i might lose him. I lost him many times emotionally and prepared so many times. But im ill prepared and im an outcast now for speaking the actual truth. He was an alcoholic. 10 years sober but it turns out his liver remembered . So many things i need help working out. My siblings are there with him when he found out. Not me. His new wife and my half sister hate me because i spoke up for my full brother who they mistreated. I lost my relationship so my younger brother could have his relationship with dad. I was always close but from afar to dad as the eldest.
He left when i was 8 and bro was 6. To have to more kids with this lady he had been cheating with since my mum was young. Horrible. But i love my 2 siblings from that marriage. They are full brother and sister to me. But i had to call out bad behaviour towards chris my full bro. And from then on half sis and step mum won't speak to me. My dad did bad things to my mum and us by proxy. From alcoholism. Not anyones fault but horrible. Chris didn't want to know my dad. I always spent my life trying. Trying trying to get dad to notice me and us. I never gave up. Now chris is there with him and im here miles away alone. They all recieved the news together. But not me. Sorry this is long
You made a sacrifice for your brother and you should be proud that you did that. In the end, we have to live with ourselves, and you can do that knowing you did the right thing, as much as you lost because of it.
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@lastexitlondon
Sending love your way Rob.
HFD has some great advice there. Saying goodbye is never easy. Do what’s best for yourself, what you can live with. (((Hugs)))"What the CANUCK happened?!? - Esquimalt Barber Shop0 -
I made it to dads. So many tears here and distress its 3 hrs away. I plan to come back next week if i can. Trying to make things "normal " with only weeks to go
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I fixed all the things that were wrong its what my dad wanted to go in peace. With us all friends .we had this picture.
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My sister took it. I wish my brother had a shirt on. But dad insisted we all went in the sea. It was about minus 50 in there.
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Way to go, Rob. I know that was difficult for you.
And nice pic! Your dad looks happy.0 -
Thank you
His wish was i apologise to my sister and make it right. So i did. And we were togther. Must be honest. Saying goodbye i thought i wont be back. I might get to. But holding his hand he couldn't let go. Killed me like nothing else has.
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Im sorry for your loss Rob :_(
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Good for you Rob. Glad you went."What the CANUCK happened?!? - Esquimalt Barber Shop0
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Really good on your Rob. I am sure this was hard and I honestly did not have advice on your last post as how could one ever understand a lifetime of family entanglement.
I hope this brought you , your father and your family some peace.0
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