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Thank you all its my mums birthday so we went to her garden but i fuck things up. My older 3 kids went and i feel like everyone is contaminated and their breath is green smoke. These are my family yet i want to run away
My baby cant not go up to them amd be so close all i do is say come back rosie. Dont do that rosie. Its gonna fuck another kid up.
I kept busy but i just wanted to run home. Im home now i feel sick. I think im addicted to the weed now. I dont want to do any smoke . Drink. Pills . But i actually cannot. Im ashamed. Its 6.44pm and im trying to not smoke. Im laying down now. Im sorry to blabber on.
Its very kind of you all.
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lastexitlondon said:Thank you all its my mums birthday so we went to her garden but i fuck things up. My older 3 kids went and i feel like everyone is contaminated and their breath is green smoke. These are my family yet i want to run away
My baby cant not go up to them amd be so close all i do is say come back rosie. Dont do that rosie. Its gonna fuck another kid up.
I kept busy but i just wanted to run home. Im home now i feel sick. I think im addicted to the weed now. I dont want to do any smoke . Drink. Pills . But i actually cannot. Im ashamed. Its 6.44pm and im trying to not smoke. Im laying down now. Im sorry to blabber on.
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Holding you in my heart Rob. I understand the anxiety that comes with easing the lockdown. Keep communicating the best that you can. We’re here for you (((hugs)))."What the CANUCK happened?!? - Esquimalt Barber Shop0
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lack of sleep is a mood killer. happens to me like clockwork every sunday night. even when monday is a holiday. i've gone so far as to get up at 2am, smoke weed, and try to get to sleep that way. it sort of worked, but don't really feel good about doing that. i guess it's better than taking a pharmaceutical.Hugh Freaking Dillon is currently out of the office, returning sometime in the fall0
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Is anyone anxious about what life will be like when things do reopen? I was already in a depression and isolating before any of this began and now I feel so lost and alone that I don’t know if I’ll ever bounce back. I feel so awkward around other people now, like I’ve forgotten how to even hold a conversation anymore. I wonder if that will get better or worse. I absolutely hate going anywhere, always unsure if I’m following all the rules and being considerate enough. At home I feel so out of touch with everyone and everything in the outside world. I want to reconnect with all that made me happy. I guess I just gotta keep hanging on and being grateful for all the little things.0
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RogueStoner said:Is anyone anxious about what life will be like when things do reopen? I was already in a depression and isolating before any of this began and now I feel so lost and alone that I don’t know if I’ll ever bounce back. I feel so awkward around other people now, like I’ve forgotten how to even hold a conversation anymore. I wonder if that will get better or worse. I absolutely hate going anywhere, always unsure if I’m following all the rules and being considerate enough. At home I feel so out of touch with everyone and everything in the outside world. I want to reconnect with all that made me happy. I guess I just gotta keep hanging on and being grateful for all the little things.
Those who are desperately trying to hold on to “normal” by refusing to acknowledge what’s happening or insisting that “they” are right and everyone else is wrong, denying the science, denying reality and denying their own damned eyes, challenge me and my desire not to invoke bad karma against myself. It’s easier to stay in my own bubble than to deal with fools and naysayers.
anyway, that’s me venting. I just want you to know that I hear what you’re saying. Keep doing what you can to prevent yourself from falling deeper into the abyss. There is light and hope in the future. Sending you much love and light."What the CANUCK happened?!? - Esquimalt Barber Shop0 -
lastexitlondon said:Thank you all its my mums birthday so we went to her garden but i fuck things up. My older 3 kids went and i feel like everyone is contaminated and their breath is green smoke. These are my family yet i want to run away
My baby cant not go up to them amd be so close all i do is say come back rosie. Dont do that rosie. Its gonna fuck another kid up.
I kept busy but i just wanted to run home. Im home now i feel sick. I think im addicted to the weed now. I dont want to do any smoke . Drink. Pills . But i actually cannot. Im ashamed. Its 6.44pm and im trying to not smoke. Im laying down now. Im sorry to blabber on.
Its very kind of you all.
I get the feeling of wanting to run away from family. We had family in, fresh from Florida (hotspot, in case you don't know) and off multiple planes and out of multiple airports wanting to hug me. Oh, there will be none of that. AIR HUG!But, we were exiled to the front porch during the family dinner because we-- gasp-- wear masks. If they won't respect my mother-in-law and her health issues, we will. She's got enough going on in life without being exposed to a pandemic disease.
I think I recall Mickey talking to you about alcohol and people who don't drink going back to it temporarily . . . and @mickeyrat , if you could take this part over. I'm screwing it up. But something about possibly determining whether true addiction or not? Would it apply to marijuana use? My point is that you didn't smoke it for so long and now you feel that you are potentially addicted. Would Mickey's test (or AA if I do recall) tell you that perhaps that is something to steer clear of? No judgement here. I'm all for legalization, but I did see what happened with my sister and her POS husband with excessive pot use. It's a real thing, y'all. I'm hoping that Mickey can figure out what I was talking about and reinterpret it the way he meant.
I work out in the public, but an art gallery so it isn't like a big box store. People seem to cross their eyes when you respect the 6' rule. "Oh, don't worry about me," is what I hear. "Oh, I'm a 6 feet girl. Thanks for understanding my weirdness!" People just don't care and it stresses us out. Please don't move the things on the counter and hang around the plexiglass to my side.
Rosie is being raised in the middle of a global pandemic. I assure you that you aren't what will fuck up this child. There are bigger, scarier things in life than your dad wanting to keep you safe. You are doing a good job!
And anxiety about reopening, vaccinations and :gulp: the kiddos going back to school? Oh, hell yes. My daughter wants to go and her anxiety took her back to therapy during the lockdown. (It's been a very good thing for her to return.) Still, doing a career program requires attendance. Thankful that the governor mandated K-12 wear masks. He has been known to backpedal so there is always a possibility that it will be different tomorrow, but let's hope this sticks. It was our biggest concern.
If we could all just be on the same page and work together for the common good . . . the fact that we are being lead by a "president" I have zero faith in worries me to the core of my soul. It's a hot mess out there and it's not going to be better any time soon.
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RogueStoner said:Is anyone anxious about what life will be like when things do reopen? I was already in a depression and isolating before any of this began and now I feel so lost and alone that I don’t know if I’ll ever bounce back. I feel so awkward around other people now, like I’ve forgotten how to even hold a conversation anymore. I wonder if that will get better or worse. I absolutely hate going anywhere, always unsure if I’m following all the rules and being considerate enough. At home I feel so out of touch with everyone and everything in the outside world. I want to reconnect with all that made me happy. I guess I just gotta keep hanging on and being grateful for all the little things.
this song is meant to be called i got shit,itshould be called i got shit tickets-hartford 06 -0 -
I am an addict.
Of anything.
Love
Fear
Anything. I reckon i cant cope with this confusion and search for peace.
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lastexitlondon said:Thank you all its my mums birthday so we went to her garden but i fuck things up. My older 3 kids went and i feel like everyone is contaminated and their breath is green smoke. These are my family yet i want to run away
My baby cant not go up to them amd be so close all i do is say come back rosie. Dont do that rosie. Its gonna fuck another kid up.
I kept busy but i just wanted to run home. Im home now i feel sick. I think im addicted to the weed now. I dont want to do any smoke . Drink. Pills . But i actually cannot. Im ashamed. Its 6.44pm and im trying to not smoke. Im laying down now. Im sorry to blabber on.
Its very kind of you all.
There is for lack of a better words “less educated “ people whom either thru ignorance of science or just feeling over this are starting to carry on as if nothing is wrong. I drive home from work ever night just exhausted from the day and see people without masks going into restaurants , shopping malls or hanging out. In this world right now I can’t help but get upset.My family does not get together , the last time I went to my sisters it was outside for 30 mins and we kept at least 6 feet apart. You are doing the right thing and kids are more resilient than we give them credit for , more than even adults.
i get the weed part , there was a month I just had to stop because it just made things worse and I kept doing it for some reason. I think laying off of it is a good thing. I still use it but at night to get me to relax and fall asleep ( also someone else posted but I have been there with waking up at 2am just to smoke so I can fall back asleep ) and you are run down you are so stressed and tired , your brain is going to be misfiring or feeling hyper sensitive ( please know I’m dealing with this as well so I’m not preaching and I wish I could take my own advice )
try to remember how worried you were in March and we are now in Aug , you are here your loved ones are here. Try to take it one day at a time.Don’t know if it will help , I stared doing yoga and I do find a lot of benefits from it and find it relaxing.
I wish nothing but the best to you your family and friends and everyone else here on the board , we will make it thru this.
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Im on a slippery slope and heading for disaster.
I lost my allotment (garden plot) due to flood and now standing water 3 feet deep.
I had some bloods. I have a positive rheumatoid factor. But no other markers. And some negative antibody tests. I dont understand and best i dont i guess.
School creeps nearer. My daughter got screwed over with her exams now that might be fixed by the wank government. My beautiful 16 year old has come out as gay which im very proud of but she is so unwell now self harming.
My only son started a job and first day a kid stopped breathing and his co worker went home with fever and cough. Son then isolated left the job and has since had 2 neg corona tests.
Now in my twisted head i was going to run away and hide in my shed that is now 3 feet deep in shitty water.
The walls are closed in and im losing sanity.
The metallica song frayed ends of sanity keeps playing in my head.
Hear them calling me hahahah.
You all are so kind to me and i always feel like a family here.
I cant face a day anymore . The edges are blurred and i cant make out reality so much. Im in trouble and it only gets worse. I dont believe there is a way to stop this confusion thats taken my sanity
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Also my ex wife is gay. She told me exactly 2 mins after my daughter . Strange days.
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Sounds like you're really getting it from every angle at the moment man. Try to focus on improving just one aspect of what you listed. Can you control any of it?Dublin 2006
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That’s a lot going on Rob. It must feel quite overwhelming. I’m sorry that your feeling unmoored right now. I’m glad you’re reaching out though. That’s a positive. Can you think of a good thing that happened to you today? As always my friend, sending you love, light, and strength. You are loved!"What the CANUCK happened?!? - Esquimalt Barber Shop0
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A good thing for you today Rob, and I know it might not seem like it right now......you're here, and you're alive. The serenity prayer was invaluable to me in the early days of my recovery.
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference.Dublin 2006
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My son came by in his car with a mask on and brokedown. The hardest thing in the world is to see your son crying and cant go near him. I cant take anymore. Its ruining everyones life bit by bit. . The poor lad has done everything right and is broken to pieces. Thanks for your kindness . Im so sorry i cant cope at all. My son has phoned 4 times and online to the mental health services. They dont reply this country os fucked up bad from the core.
Lost totally lost all my kids are suffering so much.
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I haven't really ventured into this thread much before, but I feel I need to say something. To someone.. I'm feeling like shit. Has so done since the end of last week.
I have promised the person this is involving to not talk about it, so I am sorry for being vague. A promise is a promise. Even when feeling like I've been worth nothing.
I found out late last week that I have this whole summer been betrayed by this person in a very serious way. I have never in my 36 year old life felt this degraded. This being caused by this person treating themselves like shit, and not caring one bit about treating me like in the process.
To make it worse, last week when I was finally told about what has transpired it was not to ask forgiveness, or being sad for what they had done (to me, our relationship or themselves). Rather -- They have had every right to act like they had. I vaguely remember something being said about "I thought you would be okey with it, don't see why not" and "I was first not going to tell you at all".
What the person has done to themselves is giving me such anxiety, that I can't even focus on me -- and all the steps and choices this person actively took to betray and hurt me. From knowing myself, every instinct in my body would normally tell one to fuck off. But maybe it is the surreal nature of it all, or how I happen to feel about this person and/or the serious situation they have put themselves in that I can't find the anger. I'm just exhausted and sad. Sad for how they chose to treat me, and the ignorance shown when telling me- regarding both me and our relationship. But mostly sad for what they have done to themselves. It breaks my heart.
I haven't been able to sleep. At all. I feel nauseous. I cannot eat. I have thrown up. I can't get rid of the tears in my eyes so I'm working from home instead of the office. A friend said I should get some pills to get help sleeping. But I don't know. I feel like I have to help this person get out if this mess. I feel panic for their well-being. But with there being not much feelings of regret about what has taken/is taking place, and with my pleads to please reconsider this taken path seemingly falling on deaf ears - I feel helpless.
I don't know what to do. If I could be more specific everyone in here would have all agreed that I should just tell the person to fuck off for what they did. But yeah, I am not everyone looking at it from the outside. I just don't know what to do.
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Hey man. You know i think confronting this is so important. And go with your gut instinct. If its making you ill best to act sooner rather than later as relief of resolving it may make you feel so much better quickly
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Also im trying to get the idea of what happened. I can guess but inside you may have an idea of the best thing to do but i guess thats fuzzy because of anxious feelings
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Plus, S_C, you don’t have the responsibility to act as someone‘s psychologist or solve their problems for them. That’s not a mean sentiment, it’s just impossible. You can only be there for someone, listen and try to help them help themselves.I‘m sorry both of you are feeling so bad, I hope you can work through it, one step at a time.0
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