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  • JPPJ84
    JPPJ84 Hamburg, Germany Posts: 3,464
    Hang in there Rob :smile:
  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,915
    Thanks for being here


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  • JPPJ84
    JPPJ84 Hamburg, Germany Posts: 3,464
    edited January 2020
    Anytime 😊
    btw I‘ll fly to London today (going to Cardiff), I‘ll wave from the plane ;)
  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,915
    Oh sure. I will wave at all  planes i see today  and hope it makes  it to you


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  • JPPJ84
    JPPJ84 Hamburg, Germany Posts: 3,464
    lastexitlondon said:
    Oh sure. I will wave at all  planes i see today  and hope it makes  it to you
    that’s your day‘s work covered then :lol: 
  • rollings
    rollings unknown Posts: 7,127
    edited January 2020
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  • rollings
    rollings unknown Posts: 7,127
    lastexitlondon said:
    Some psychologist  had me breathing  in soil through my left leg into my pelvis. Asked how it felt and then told me to breathe soil out of my  right leg ? I went there and told her i have bad confusion. Yeah imagine  me!!
    Then underground cave water into my pelvis. Ffs breathing water through a leg really?
    I read 1/2 your post and now I have mud in my pants

    it's ok

    thanks then
  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,915
    Yeah  imagine  the state of my pants. With 5 stages of breathing. The last one was fire!!! Now fire breathing is an art but through your pelvis.  Wow.


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  • rollings
    rollings unknown Posts: 7,127
    I imagine that would be a quick breath and out.

    All done fire pelvis

  • rollings
    rollings unknown Posts: 7,127
    Look I'm a fire tee-pee real quick. 

    Out my pant leg. show's over.com
  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,915
    rollings said:
    Look I'm a fire tee-pee real quick. 

    Out my pant leg. show's over.com
    Like an sti


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  • mickeyrat
    mickeyrat Posts: 44,540
    rollings said:
    Look I'm a fire tee-pee real quick. 

    Out my pant leg. show's over.com
    channeling mr chadwick I see.... just need a what thr frig and we're set...
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  • Matts3221
    Matts3221 Posts: 658

    Rob being thinking of you and glad things are going well. Same with TA.

    After a horrible week with the change in meds , my doctor just put me back on my old script and it has been good since then.

    Also I love seeing that someone dragged out to the gym , it is so helpful with your mental wellbeing , even if the day you go you feel like shit or don't think it helped. The next morning when you wake up you can always feel it in your brain that you accomplished something the prior day.

  • rollings
    rollings unknown Posts: 7,127
    mickeyrat said:
    rollings said:
    Look I'm a fire tee-pee real quick. 

    Out my pant leg. show's over.com
    channeling mr chadwick I see.... just need a what thr frig and we're set...
    He got some of his material from me
  • what dreams
    what dreams Posts: 1,761
    For the past two weeks, I've had this thought running through my stressed out brain: All I want is to lie still on the floor. I'm carrying so much tension in my shoulders and hips and toes and every body part in between. So tonight I just did it. I got out of my rut and stopped. For a full hour, I put my yoga mat down -- first time in about six months -- and I just lied there. I moved some, stretched a few things, but mostly just paid attention to my body connected to the ground. I feel so much more relaxed.  
  • what dreams
    what dreams Posts: 1,761
    lastexitlondon said:
    True. Ive always had  a vice so find it very very hard to invent myself.  I have healthy things i try. So i will do that.  Im unravelling fast though its how to stop the inevitable. 
    I really took what -what dreams-said on board the other day about not ruining people around me with my constant down talk and obsessions  with symptoms.  It really does kill love. And it will ruin all relationships  and one may not notice until its too late. But from that day im holding it in. Its bursting but i do not want to lose anymore people. I look back and can see who felt that  way and could not take anymore of me.
    So thank you WD for the insight  and HFD i believe you said a similar  thing. 
    Knowing and trying  is important  to me
    It sounds like the doctor was trying to do guided imagery with you. I've run through audio versions of that kind of thing:  breathe in light, breathe out darkness, etc. I've never heard anything like what you describe though. That is straight out of central casting.
    Glad you're working on some other outlets. To be fair to you, the constant down talk is not good for you, either, not just the people you love. I'm sure you're noticing a lot of different things now that you're not drinking/smoking the way you were. I can tell you that I used to be a chronic pot smoker who at one time added the alcohol on top, for about a decade. I was forced through life circumstance, not by choice, to stop smoking pot, as I moved to a new town and didn't have a dealer anymore (not for long, anyway)  :-). However, it turned out to be a great thing because I didn't understand how much the pot was masking my unhappiness until I took that break. Don't feel like a failure or a fake if you quit the group. It's not for everybody. Keep trying to figure out what works for you. It's a never ending process with this illness. Every time life hits us with a new challenge, we have to adjust our coping mechanisms. 
  • hedonist
    hedonist Posts: 24,524
    what dreams said:
    For the past two weeks, I've had this thought running through my stressed out brain: All I want is to lie still on the floor. I'm carrying so much tension in my shoulders and hips and toes and every body part in between. So tonight I just did it. I got out of my rut and stopped. For a full hour, I put my yoga mat down -- first time in about six months -- and I just lied there. I moved some, stretched a few things, but mostly just paid attention to my body connected to the ground. I feel so much more relaxed.  
    This is great; good on you!
  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,915
    I smoked pot age 16-18 then never again for 21 years.
    Started  again 9 months or so ago. Stopped a month ago.
    Started again 3 days ago. 
    Its not good but better than alcohol at the moment  nothing is not going to happen. 
    Yeah the guided breathing  i have tried . Its nice enough. And the mindfulness body scan
     Can ground a person sometimes. 
    Keep trying  thats  all i will do until i crash again which is a daily affair.
    Whatever underlaying  thing  im dealing with i cannot fix with any amount of talking or breathing  so i make an hourly choice as to what i do.
    Far from a good place . I am going down  another bad path but i by now can't  change it.


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  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,915
    edited February 2020
    That group i attend is odd as fuck. Nobody is sober even for one day. Im the only one and they are all just hiding and making excuses. 
    I cant really deal with it. Yesterday the guy who said i was an inspiration  because i get up . (As i am now) with my 2 year old at 4 a.m . Was crying  to me about me playing with my daughter. Although  he is obvs in pain it just annoyed me a bit. 
    If i am an inspiration  what does he mean. He drinks litres of cider every day and is never sober  . Nothing has changed. 
    I see my kids  as my life and my job to educate  and nurture them. Is that not normal?
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  • deadendp
    deadendp Northeast Ohio Posts: 10,434
    lastexitlondon said:
    That group i attend is odd as fuck. Nobody is sober even for one day. Im the only one and they are all just hiding and making excuses. 
    I cant really deal with it. Yesterday the guy who said i was an inspiration  because i get up . (As i am now) with my 2 year old at 4 a.m . Was crying  to me about me playing with my daughter. Although  he is obvs in pain it just annoyed me a bit. 
    If i am an inspiration  what does he mean. He drinks litres of cider every day and is never sober  . Nothing has changed. 
    I see my kids  as my life and my job to educate  and nurture them. Is that not normal?
    That is normal, but some people in the throes of addiction can't provide basic care to their children. I've seen that with my sister and one of my brothers. It is rather heartwrenching to see kids emancipate or take custody of a sibling because of such parental failure. 

    Good on you for taking the 4 AM shift. It gives you a time when everything is still and quiet and just you two. A special time to bond. 

    So, yes, an inspiration to that gentleman because you aren't ignoring parenting or just phoning it in, but participating when many don't or can't.  
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