PJ fans in 12 step Recovery

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  • Hobbes
    Hobbes Pacific Northwest Posts: 6,438
    12 years today.
  • hedonist
    hedonist Posts: 24,524
    Keep rocking it, Tiger :hug:


  • mickeyrat
    mickeyrat Posts: 44,579
    Hobbes said:
    12 years today.
    awesome.

    I sometimes look around and wonder where did all the time go and how did I get here?
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  • Ernie Vedder
    Ernie Vedder Redlands, CA Posts: 2,269
    Hobbes said:
    12 years today.
    Nice!!!
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  • njnancy
    njnancy Posts: 5,096
    Congratulations Hobbes - so have you learned how to play with your marbles yet - I still don't have the wisdom to know the difference so my marbles are continually re-adjusting.

    Seriously - 12 years is amazing - inspirational.

    More people are posting in here - I need to come here more often than football season (for the degenerate pool). I have cycles - long absences then nearly daily posting. 

    To those who are struggling - it's worth it so go to a meeting and share. It's hard to get sober - fucking hard and to even attempt it is a triumph.  Just don't give up, and don't let anyone make you feel like you are less than - everyone has their own journey and a lot of people never even find their way to the beginning of sobriety. 

    Life will never be perfect, but you will have a life - I am pulling for all the newbies.

    And anyone whose anniversary I missed - congratulations - you are a miracle. 

    Love you all and believe in you all.
  • Ernie Vedder
    Ernie Vedder Redlands, CA Posts: 2,269

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  • mickeyrat
    mickeyrat Posts: 44,579
    prayers please for my family. Younger second cousin died last night in Minnesota , believed to be OD. The May family.  He was in his early 30's
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    Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
    you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
    memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
    another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
  • njnancy
    njnancy Posts: 5,096
    mickeyrat said:
    prayers please for my family. Younger second cousin died last night in Minnesota , believed to be OD. The May family.  He was in his early 30's
    I am so sorry. Whatever the cause of your second cousin's death, it is a tragedy. Prayers for all of you. 
  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,917
    Sad news mickeyrat.  Thoughts are with you. Sending love


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  • hedonist
    hedonist Posts: 24,524
    Sorry for the young loss to your family, mickey.
  • Ernie Vedder
    Ernie Vedder Redlands, CA Posts: 2,269
    Prayers sent
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  • Ernie Vedder
    Ernie Vedder Redlands, CA Posts: 2,269
    Just hit 21 months. 
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  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,917
    Great achievement.  Well done


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  • njnancy
    njnancy Posts: 5,096
    Ernie Vedder said:
    Just hit 21 months. 
    Awesome!!!! You are a miracle!
  • njnancy
    njnancy Posts: 5,096
    edited November 2018
    22 years today. But in a shit mood. Need to find gratitude. 
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  • Hobbes
    Hobbes Pacific Northwest Posts: 6,438
    njnancy said:
    22 years today. But in a shit mood. Need to find gratitude. 
    Congrats! You are an inspiration.
  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,917
    22 years is absolutely  moving.  I wish one day I can be free like you.  An inspiration  to us all


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  • njnancy
    njnancy Posts: 5,096
    Thank you @Hobbes & @lastexitlondon - we are all inspirations to someone. 

    And never stop believing in yourself, your higher power; whatever gets you to that next sober day or WANTING to have a sober day.

    We aren't promised perfect lives with sobriety, but we are promised freedom from addiction, one day at a time

    We are all miracles and can never take it for granted. 

    Love to all my Recovery Friends!!  :heart:
  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,917
    I'm really in a bad place I'm in awe of all of you


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  • njnancy
    njnancy Posts: 5,096
    lastexitlondon said:
    I'm really in a bad place I'm in awe of all of you
    We are no different from you. Or I will just speak for myself; I shouldn't take on the mantle of speaking for everyone. 

    I was relatively young when I got sober. But it cost me many things and I made some really bad decisions in my extremely early sobriety that have had life changing negative effects. I had to walk away from my career in which I was thriving and would have had incredible opportunities, both professionally and monetarily. I have had to face mental health issues that emerged suddenly and increased my drinking. I got divorced and met my son's father who would domestically abuse me, make me a single mom and then brainwash my son and put me through social service and legal hell. I have PTSD from these past couple years even though my son is home for about a year. 

    I lost my father, had a miscarriage, lost my brother and my sister, went bankrupt - all in sobriety. Some in my first year. And it took me 3 years, once I started to consider that I had a problem, to actually get sober. I knew I had a problem years before that but life on the outside looked fine. People in the program and in my life didn't believe that I would get sober. I was the 'loser'. My husband, my drinking buddy, left me after I didn't get sober within a year. It was hell. I attempted suicide. I went to rehab 5 times. And I am able to have 22 years sober today somehow. So don't be in awe. Be encouraged. I am you. I know what you feel like. You want to want to stop drinking. You know it is making your life suck. You wake up and hate yourself as you struggle to remember the shitty stuff you did or curse yourself for getting smashed when you promised yourself that you'd only have a couple. You drink alone. Maybe you hide your bottles. It is a shitty existence. But you know you have a problem and that is the first spark of hope. You are me. I am you.

    I am in a bad place today, really bad, but if I were not sober it would be worse. I believe in you. I'll believe in you until you start to believe in yourself. People did that for me. And you will do that for someone one day. Hang on.

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