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  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,958
    Truth


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  • i_lov_it
    i_lov_it Perth, Western Australia Posts: 4,007
    edited April 2018
    HughFreakingDillon said:
    obviously she wasn't committed to your relationship. I will never understand how some people can start a new relationship before ending the first one. I mean, I get it in a sense,  you want to make sure New Relationship is worth it, but even if it isn't, just trying it out means Current Relationship ISN'T worth keeping. 

    cut the person loose and let them have their dignity and sanity while you continue your search. It's not a fucking job where you interview while still working. 

    I dated a girl for 5 years. Lived together for 2. she was fucking some guy the last month or two before we broke up. Were we already doomed? Yes, but that's no excuse. you don't sleep with someone while you are still sleeping with me. that's disgusting. 

    it fucked me up for a long time. And I didn't even like her for a long time before we split. we didn't get along, but I thought we still had mutual respect and trust. turns out we didn't. 


    Yeah her not committed to the Relationship is a big understatement...especially now that I'm out of the relationship with her it's so obvious...
    Looking back at it now it was like I was a distant second or even third...
    The thing is I just can't believe I allowed myself to be treated that way...and I know PJ_Soul said don't be hard on yourself but that's easier said then done...

    Also hearing your story HFD very well said and I am so sorry you had to go through with that...it's just such Bullshit what some People do...
    Well after what she did it's not hard to see why there isn't any trust there...


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  • i_lov_it
    i_lov_it Perth, Western Australia Posts: 4,007
    edited April 2018

    Hey HFD your words are so true...I mean why are you with me when you get a Guy from class a Birthday Present on the day of his Birthday but mine came a week later...the same guy who she says is 'important' to her and that she 'likes'...the same Guy she was messaging while we were trying to have romantic time together...the same Guy she was sharing her Lunch with...the same Guy she was talking to on the Phone about important stuff about her Exam instead of me...

    Do you think I'm in denial???...am I ignoring the Red Flags???...

    I can mention more on here about her...like drinking with Strange guys at a Pub to 5am and I know have no idea where She is not to mention I wasn't invited...I know right!!!

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  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,958
    What the fuck to do when all has failed. Im stuck with symptoms my dr won't see it. 


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  • SmallestOceans
    SmallestOceans Posts: 13,542
    Vibes to all that are hurting right now. Hang in there, keep going.
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  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,958
    SmallestOceans said:
    Vibes to all that are hurting right now. Hang in there, keep going.
    Thank you. I will see you in poland if its the last thing i ever do. 


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  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,958
    Although i wake again today wishing i could end it all in a way that wouldn't hurt anyone. Im at a point ive not been where now i actually cannot function.


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  • i_lov_it
    i_lov_it Perth, Western Australia Posts: 4,007
    lastexitlondon said:
    Although i wake again today wishing i could end it all in a way that wouldn't hurt anyone. Im at a point ive not been where now i actually cannot function.
    Just keep pushing through man...the fact that you did wake up and are managing to come on here and talk about your feelings is still a positive thing...so sending lots of Good Positive thoughts :)
  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,958
    Im sorry i always say the same thing and its waring . It runs people down. This is the only place i type words. 


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  • Thoughts_Arrive
    Thoughts_Arrive Melbourne, Australia Posts: 15,165
    lastexitlondon said:
    Im sorry i always say the same thing and its waring . It runs people down. This is the only place i type words. 
    don't be. 
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  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,958
    Wtf is wrong with me. I ended up at dr suicidal yesterday 
     I did a mini mental test for dementia. Passed with 100%.
    Now the problem is even more compounded. I believe i have the start of it. But dr says nobody with dementia passes the test!. 
     Im losing everything. Even my beloved partner is so frustrated with me. Its all too much and i can only see death the only way out. Ive had valium but it lasts 1 hr before i come round . I can't understand how its NOT dementia. I know i said at the start of this thread not to talk symptoms. Sorry i won't do that anymore


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  • ConorKavanagh
    ConorKavanagh Ireland Posts: 1,148
    SmallestOceans said:
    If you put the necessary effort in, right.
    Yes. Exactly. You have to reeally want something, and be prepared to go through hell to come out the other side. It took me the longest time to realise that. I had nowhere else to go, so I finally "got with the programme", so to speak. That doesn't mean my life is a walk in the park either.
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  • Meltdown99
    Meltdown99 None Of Your Business... Posts: 10,739
    If you put the effort in anxiety is easily controlled and can be beaten ... and believe it or not it can also be done pharmaceuticals...
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  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,958
    Effort is not always enough. It implies that laziness is causing persistent anxiety.


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  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,958
    You can excersise all day keep healthy and eat well and still have anxiety. Many athletes or sports people have committed suicide. If you are lucky and something clicks for you that is great and a wonderful life changer. 


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  • HughFreakingDillon
    HughFreakingDillon Winnipeg Posts: 39,758
    lastexitlondon said:
    Effort is not always enough. It implies that laziness is causing persistent anxiety.
    I see what you mean by taking it that way, but it's really not meant that way. the effort is extremely difficult when your hurdles are mental. but it can be done. have I done it yet? no, but I'm confident I could if I put the effort in. I don't. I should. But I don't. it's fucking hard. it's so easy to just wish it away and bury yourself in something else in the moment (comfort food, alcohol, drugs, etc) to pass the time, but BING, there it is, anxiety like a fucking alarm clock waiting for you in the morning. 

    if I just went for a walk every day, it might help. 
    if I just did some yoga every day, it might help. 
    if I just ate better every day, it might help. 
    if I just didn't go to the LC and drank water instead, it might help. 

    but I don't, because being miserable is "easier". 

    mental therapy is no different than physical. some people with injuries go to physio, put in the work, the hard fucking painful work, and in a few months or even years they benefit from it. 

    you can't "will" away mental anguish any more than physical anguish. but you CAN will yourself to do something about it. 

    easier said than done? yep. cause I have yet to fucking do it too. and i've been suffering for years. 
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  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,958
    Well the difference is i walk every single day.
     I go to the laundrette every couple days. I ride my bike a couple times a week. I cook a meal every night. So also ive been to every single councillor ive been sent to every session. Group therapy. Dr surgery . Tried all meds.  The is no lack of effort in the slightest here.


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  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,958
    I simply am not in the catagory of doing nothing or just laying still. Im on the move all day everyday o have an 8 month old baby that takes up lots of time. Its just not true in my case ti say if i only did this or that


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  • HughFreakingDillon
    HughFreakingDillon Winnipeg Posts: 39,758
    lastexitlondon said:
    I simply am not in the catagory of doing nothing or just laying still. Im on the move all day everyday o have an 8 month old baby that takes up lots of time. Its just not true in my case ti say if i only did this or that
    meltdown and I were talking about anxiety. 
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  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,958
    So am i


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