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  • SxDx1982
    SxDx1982 Posts: 124
    Thanks everyone. Thank you so much. I didn't expect 5 pages of messages. You guys rock.

    I've decided to go to the doctor's tomorrow. I don't care how much it costs. I'll borrow money from friends if I have to. I can't wait two or three months for a doctor's appointment, I'm scared that I might hurt myself if I don't get help soon.
    I'm still out here waiting
    Watching reruns of my life
  • conman
    conman Posts: 7,493
    SxDx1982 wrote:
    Thanks everyone. Thank you so much. I didn't expect 5 pages of messages. You guys rock.

    I've decided to go to the doctor's tomorrow. I don't care how much it costs. I'll borrow money from friends if I have to. I can't wait two or three months for a doctor's appointment, I'm scared that I might hurt myself if I don't get help soon.
    :thumbup: good to hear, hang in there my friend
  • DS1119
    DS1119 Posts: 33,497
    SxDx1982 wrote:
    Thanks everyone. Thank you so much. I didn't expect 5 pages of messages. You guys rock.

    I've decided to go to the doctor's tomorrow. I don't care how much it costs. I'll borrow money from friends if I have to. I can't wait two or three months for a doctor's appointment, I'm scared that I might hurt myself if I don't get help soon.


    :thumbup: :clap:
  • DURP
    DURP OhighO Posts: 2,180
    SxDx1982 wrote:
    Thanks everyone. Thank you so much. I didn't expect 5 pages of messages. You guys rock.

    I've decided to go to the doctor's tomorrow. I don't care how much it costs. I'll borrow money from friends if I have to. I can't wait two or three months for a doctor's appointment, I'm scared that I might hurt myself if I don't get help soon.

    Nice :D
    My butt itches!
  • PJ_Soul
    PJ_Soul Vancouver, BC Posts: 50,650
    SxDx1982 wrote:
    Thanks everyone. Thank you so much. I didn't expect 5 pages of messages. You guys rock.

    I've decided to go to the doctor's tomorrow. I don't care how much it costs. I'll borrow money from friends if I have to. I can't wait two or three months for a doctor's appointment, I'm scared that I might hurt myself if I don't get help soon.
    Excellent, good for you. Please please don't hurt yourself. If you ever feel like it turn to someone close to you, or, if you can't do that, come here. Good luck (don't forget to write a list of what you want to say to the doc - it can really help to have a good visit where the doc knows everything he needs to; it's easy to forget important stuff in the examination room). <3
    With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be careful. Strive to be happy. ~ Desiderata
  • samjam
    samjam New York Posts: 9,283
    Staying strong is so hard in times where you feel like this, but it's imperative that you do. I really do know how you feel, and it's one of the worst feelings in the world. Find the things that do make you happy (for me, music was incredibly, incredibly important in helping) and keep that in mind. Good on ya for getting help, that's a big step. I truly wish you the best!
    "Sometimes you find yourself having to put all your faith in no faith."
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  • dimitrispearljam
    dimitrispearljam Posts: 139,724
    SxDx1982 wrote:
    Thanks everyone. Thank you so much. I didn't expect 5 pages of messages. You guys rock.

    I've decided to go to the doctor's tomorrow. I don't care how much it costs. I'll borrow money from friends if I have to. I can't wait two or three months for a doctor's appointment, I'm scared that I might hurt myself if I don't get help soon.
    you will be fine....great news you see a doctor..
    thanks for have the guts to share..sometimes is the hardest thing....
    wish i can meet you some day and shake your hand...
    "...Dimitri...He talks to me...'.."The Ghost of Greece..".
    "..That's One Happy Fuckin Ghost.."
    “..That came up on the Pillow Case...This is for the Greek, With Our Apologies.....”
  • Loulou
    Loulou Adelaide Posts: 6,247
    SxDx1982 wrote:
    Thanks everyone. Thank you so much. I didn't expect 5 pages of messages. You guys rock.

    I've decided to go to the doctor's tomorrow. I don't care how much it costs. I'll borrow money from friends if I have to. I can't wait two or three months for a doctor's appointment, I'm scared that I might hurt myself if I don't get help soon.
    The very best of luck with everything mate, good for you. ;)
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  • STAYSEA
    STAYSEA Posts: 3,814
    SxDx1982 wrote:
    I hate to complain because things could be so much worse. It's just that depression's kicking my ass lately. I'm scared because I feel like I'm going over the edge. I know I'm a fuck-up, I can't keep a job, and regardless of the fact that I'm pretty smart, I can't focus on studying anything either. I've also resorted to cutting myself and abusing prescription drugs again. I used to do that a lot when I was younger. I wish there was a drug that would make this all go away. I've tried several anti-depressants and they only made me feel worse.

    I am so fucked it is beyond comprehension. I know I should be doing something with my life, but I can't. And when I try to do something creative, my mind goes blank. I feel so old and I'm "only" 29. Is there really no hope for me? Am I destined to feel like this for the rest of my life? I feel like I'm drowning.

    I know this has something to do with the fact that I was bullied for 9 years, and that I've always been "different". I can't relate to normal people. I can't work 9 to 5. I don't want to have kids. I don't want a house and a white picket fence. Or maybe I do, but I would probably paint graffiti on that damn thing. :roll:

    Anyway, I'm not looking for sympathy, I just needed to get this out of my system. My friends have their own lives and own problems and I don't want them to worry about me any more than they already do. :|

    People are here to help u! Call the local crisis center. Think about you worry for 24 hrs! then call family and friends. If this doesn't help. Go to a clinic. We have all (most) been there. I've died 5 times, don't give up!!!!

    Please. People love you. Just tell some one you are sad, they don't care? Go to the next person. PM me if you need emergancy help? (my spelling is fukd) There is always a PEARL JAM concert to see. That helps me?
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  • STAYSEA
    STAYSEA Posts: 3,814
    People are here to help u! Call the local crisis center. Think about you worry for 24 hrs! then call family and friends. If this doesn't help. Go to a clinic. We have all (most) been there. I've died 5 times, don't give up!!!!

    Please. People love you. Just tell some one you are sad, they don't care? Go to the next person. PM me if you need emergancy help? (my spelling is fukd) There is always a PEARL JAM concert to see. That helps me


    I have been through decades of therapy,
    This method works!!!!!

    Think for 24 hours! if you can't make it funny. talk to me! I've heard it all!
    "Don't it make you smile?.. Don't it make you smile?, I miss you already..
    the sun it won't shine for days."

    I would have been dead! Pearl Jam brings me back , and Flight of the Conchords :lol:

    Do Not GIVE UP !!! When you survive? It pisses people off? 24 hours please!
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  • Pamela0222
    Pamela0222 Posts: 1,544
    SxDx1982 wrote:
    Thanks everyone. Thank you so much. I didn't expect 5 pages of messages. You guys rock.

    I've decided to go to the doctor's tomorrow. I don't care how much it costs. I'll borrow money from friends if I have to. I can't wait two or three months for a doctor's appointment, I'm scared that I might hurt myself if I don't get help soon.

    THIS made me smile!! Be REALLY and I mean REALLY proud of yourself!!! :clap:
    The thing I like most about time is that it's not real. It's all in the head. Sure, it's a useful trick to use if you want to meet someone at a specific place in the universe and have tea or coffee- but that's all it is- a trick. There is no such thing as the past. It exists only in the memory. There is no such thing as the future. It exists only in our imagination. If our watches were truly accurate, the only thing they would ever say is "Now". That's what time it is. It's "Now". - Damien Echols
  • STAYSEA
    STAYSEA Posts: 3,814
    We all take the Pills
    Go to the doctor
    Do not be ashamed.
    They worked all their life
    to help you!

    My therapist.
    Says" the only thing normal is a setting, on a washing machine"

    My sister has a dryer with a normal setting.
    I must tell?

    Nothing is normal?
    Be Yourself!!!
    Doesn't matter if it is good enough? for someone else?
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  • STAYSEA
    STAYSEA Posts: 3,814
    ANYONE PM me!
    I HAVE been through everything.
    I've heard it all.
    I can really help!

    If you r too sad? PM me I can maybe help

    I spent thousands on therapy. I have hints.
    My brother had skin cancer, so he is only awake at night. I always answer.
    I have nutin else. But to help
    Do not go where I have been! It suks.

    Call me
    PM WHENEVER!!!!
    I'm crisis control.
    unless you are already drugged , go to hospital!
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  • STAYSEA
    STAYSEA Posts: 3,814
    If you end your self?
    Your family never gets over it!
    And they have to pay $$$$$$

    It's so selfish

    Please think about your problem for at least 24 hours.
    If your mind is the same.. Seek us.

    My friend's brother killed himself last month,
    They are ...... , just guess.
    I even gave some money. his ashes were in Arizona ? They live in west palm! My Friend will never get over the lose of his brother. The whole family cries! He (my friend) asked me for help? He put his bro in rehab 6 times this year. I said to him, You can't save him, if he doesn't want help"
    You can not save a Fish from Drowning!

    I won't eat my advice. It's the truth. Only those that want help will seek it.

    But his Brother is DEAD. HELP IS OUT THERE!!!!!!
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  • Byrnzie
    Byrnzie Posts: 21,037
    SxDx1982 wrote:
    Thanks everyone. Thank you so much. I didn't expect 5 pages of messages. You guys rock.

    I've decided to go to the doctor's tomorrow. I don't care how much it costs. I'll borrow money from friends if I have to. I can't wait two or three months for a doctor's appointment, I'm scared that I might hurt myself if I don't get help soon.

    I have a friend who used to cut her arms to shreds all the time. She now works as a counselor and gives advice to people about this kind of thing, and advice about addiction e.t.c.
    She's a cool girl. If you want I'll put you in touch with her and you can have a chat?
  • STAYSEA
    STAYSEA Posts: 3,814
    Bump!
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  • Byrnzie
    Byrnzie Posts: 21,037
    STAYSEA wrote:
    Bump!

    Ouch!
  • Who Princess
    Who Princess out here in the fields Posts: 7,305
    SxDx1982 wrote:
    Thanks everyone. Thank you so much. I didn't expect 5 pages of messages. You guys rock.

    I've decided to go to the doctor's tomorrow. I don't care how much it costs. I'll borrow money from friends if I have to. I can't wait two or three months for a doctor's appointment, I'm scared that I might hurt myself if I don't get help soon.
    I'm so glad to read this. Please take care of yourself.
    "The stars are all connected to the brain."
  • STAYSEA
    STAYSEA Posts: 3,814
    Bump!
    No one should suffer!
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  • PJ_Soul
    PJ_Soul Vancouver, BC Posts: 50,650
    Everyone here is awesome. :)
    With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be careful. Strive to be happy. ~ Desiderata

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