I have been taking anti depressants for a LONG time. I will NEVER go off them. But they do take a while to work, once you find the right ones for you, and even then, sometimes you can still have down times. Believe me, it too shall pass.
It always does. Trust me.
I just got through a 2 week of tough times even on meds. So stay strong.
(What happened to Hugh Freaking Dillon??
With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be careful. Strive to be happy. ~ Desiderata
I know I'm a bit late to this thread...but I only saw it tonight. I don't come into this forum every day, so stuff gets by me.
I know what depression is like - I've struggled with it my whole life, and it can be really a tough thing. And sometimes, it comes at odd times, too. Sometimes, when things are going really badly, it's like I block it all out and am able to keep going. Sort of like on autopilot. And then at other times, when things are going really well, I find myself depressed for no reason.
It's very odd - it's like sometimes it has to do with what's going on, and other times, it just happens for no reason. Or maybe it's some sort of delayed reaction to bad stuff that happened earlier, but which I didn't deal with properly. Who knows?
I have never cut myself though, or anything like that. And I think that if you are struggling with that, it might be a good idea to go and see a doctor. You have to find a release valve for all of this - one that doesn't hurt you.
Also, do you think that any of it has to do with the seasons? I see you are from Finland, and I know it's like Alaska there - we are starting to get a lot of light now...but we just came off of about 4 months of a lot of darkness, and it is still pretty cold here, so we are still indoors a lot, even thought it's lighter. Maybe concentrating on getting some sunlight might help? Just an idea, because I know how the darkness can be on some people. I actually like the dark winters...but some people get S.A.D.....maybe that might be a factor for you?
I really hope that you are feeling better...I know that there are a few people around here who struggle with various issues...and while it might not make you feel better to know that, at least you can know that talking about it here is 'safe'...and that you will find people who care about your well-being.
Please take care of yourself, get plenty of rest, get some sunshine and exercise. Exercise has always helped me, believe it or not. Exercise and Wellbutrin are the only things that have ever really helped me. All the other medications have made me sick to my stomach, dizzy, etc. But Welllbutrin has seemed to work. I think different meds effect people differently though, and sometimes it takes a long time to find one that works for you. Lots of trial and error.
And music - don't forget the music. That has always helped me too. Pearl Jam works best (it really does - I'm not just saying that!), but find some bands that you like - get interested in discovering some new music. That helps me - to stay interested and engaged in my music hobby.
Hi everyone. I thought I'd drop by and let you know that I'm still alive. The doc prescribed me anti-depressants, I've been taking them for a few days now. No effect so far.. except that I'm too tired to even type. He did say that they take a while before they start to work.
Nice to hear from you :wave:
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Feeling depressed and angry today.
My parents always put me down.
Was discussing them my intention to try a new career "haha you doing that" "you won't never succeed".
My whole life they, especially my mum have put me down.
"you'll never finish university" "you're stupid" "you're not smart".
"you're ugly" "your mouth looks like an arse"
Constantly hearing negative things since a child I as an adult have low self esteem and don't believe I can achieve anything.
Fuck life, kill me.
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Adelaide 17/11/2009, Melbourne 20/11/2009, Sydney 22/11/2009, Melbourne (Big Day Out Festival) 24/01/2014
Hi everyone. I thought I'd drop by and let you know that I'm still alive. The doc prescribed me anti-depressants, I've been taking them for a few days now. No effect so far.. except that I'm too tired to even type. He did say that they take a while before they start to work.
I've some friends who have gone through depression, I know a little bit of what it's like.
I'm so glad to hear you've taken the first steps towards feeling better, the only way is up now. It's difficult and yes, the meds will take a little while to work, but please don't be discouraged by this!
Like you already know, this place is very good for venting and support. I'm sure even those of us who don't post much and read more will be sending you encouraging vibes.
Jatka samaa rataa, auringon lämpö ja valo auttavat varmasti!
"Don't be faint-hearted, I have a solution! We shall go and commandeer some small craft, then drift at leisure until we happen upon another ideal place for our waterside supper with riparian entertainments."
Feeling depressed and angry today.
My parents always put me down.
Was discussing them my intention to try a new career "haha you doing that" "you won't never succeed".
My whole life they, especially my mum have put me down.
"you'll never finish university" "you're stupid" "you're not smart".
"you're ugly" "your mouth looks like an arse"
Constantly hearing negative things since a child I as an adult have low self esteem and don't believe I can achieve anything.
Fuck life, kill me.
The best way out is always through.... Robert Frost
Keep steadily before you the fact that all true success depends at last upon yourself...Theodore Hunger
Great spirits have always encountered opposition from mediocre minds... Albert Einstein
You miss 100% of the shots that you do not take... Wayne Gretzsky
Self trust is the secret of success... Ralph Waldo Emerson
Feeling depressed and angry today.
My parents always put me down.
Was discussing them my intention to try a new career "haha you doing that" "you won't never succeed".
My whole life they, especially my mum have put me down.
"you'll never finish university" "you're stupid" "you're not smart".
"you're ugly" "your mouth looks like an arse"
Constantly hearing negative things since a child I as an adult have low self esteem and don't believe I can achieve anything.
Fuck life, kill me.
Don't listen to them.
You seem pretty awesome to me.
Feeling depressed and angry today.
My parents always put me down.
Was discussing them my intention to try a new career "haha you doing that" "you won't never succeed".
My whole life they, especially my mum have put me down.
"you'll never finish university" "you're stupid" "you're not smart".
"you're ugly" "your mouth looks like an arse"
Constantly hearing negative things since a child I as an adult have low self esteem and don't believe I can achieve anything.
Fuck life, kill me.
do you still live with and/or depend on them? if not, I say it's time for emancipation.
are you an only child? do you have any uncles/aunts you can go live with? this situation sounds horribly abusive.
Gimli 1993
Fargo 2003
Winnipeg 2005
Winnipeg 2011
St. Paul 2014
I was wondering how the OP is doing today. Hope the day was at the very least bearable and the meds are starting to kick in....keep the faith, my friend.
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Alpine Valley Music Theatre - Sep 03, 2011
Alpine Valley Music Theatre - Sep 04, 2011
Wrigley Field - July 19, 2013 Lincoln, NE - Oct 9, 2014 Global Citizen's Festival, NYC - Sept 26, 2015
I think that the OP was able to share this, even with sort-of strangers like us ha got to be a positive thing, the honesty has got to help,
I don't mean to offend anyone, a lot of what I say should be taken with a grain of salt... that said for most of you I'm a stranger on a computer on the other side of the world, don't give me that sort of power!
Feeling depressed and angry today.
My parents always put me down.
Was discussing them my intention to try a new career "haha you doing that" "you won't never succeed".
My whole life they, especially my mum have put me down.
"you'll never finish university" "you're stupid" "you're not smart".
"you're ugly" "your mouth looks like an arse"
Constantly hearing negative things since a child I as an adult have low self esteem and don't believe I can achieve anything.
Fuck life, kill me.
The best way out is always through.... Robert Frost
Keep steadily before you the fact that all true success depends at last upon yourself...Theodore Hunger
Great spirits have always encountered opposition from mediocre minds... Albert Einstein
You miss 100% of the shots that you do not take... Wayne Gretzsky
Self trust is the secret of success... Ralph Waldo Emerson
Thank you
Adelaide 17/11/2009, Melbourne 20/11/2009, Sydney 22/11/2009, Melbourne (Big Day Out Festival) 24/01/2014
Feeling depressed and angry today.
My parents always put me down.
Was discussing them my intention to try a new career "haha you doing that" "you won't never succeed".
My whole life they, especially my mum have put me down.
"you'll never finish university" "you're stupid" "you're not smart".
"you're ugly" "your mouth looks like an arse"
Constantly hearing negative things since a child I as an adult have low self esteem and don't believe I can achieve anything.
Fuck life, kill me.
Don't listen to them.
You seem pretty awesome to me.
Thank you.
Awesome person in a cage. :(
Adelaide 17/11/2009, Melbourne 20/11/2009, Sydney 22/11/2009, Melbourne (Big Day Out Festival) 24/01/2014
Feeling depressed and angry today.
My parents always put me down.
Was discussing them my intention to try a new career "haha you doing that" "you won't never succeed".
My whole life they, especially my mum have put me down.
"you'll never finish university" "you're stupid" "you're not smart".
"you're ugly" "your mouth looks like an arse"
Constantly hearing negative things since a child I as an adult have low self esteem and don't believe I can achieve anything.
Fuck life, kill me.
do you still live with and/or depend on them? if not, I say it's time for emancipation.
are you an only child? do you have any uncles/aunts you can go live with? this situation sounds horribly abusive.
I cannot afford to move out, I earn a low income and have a mortgage.
I have two sisters, one to which I am estranged almost.
No other relatives in Australia.
It is very abusive, I dread when my mum drinks wine, she just becomes more abusive.
Thank god for Pearl Jam, Nirvana, Soundgarden and AIC.
Or I'd be a heroin addict.
Adelaide 17/11/2009, Melbourne 20/11/2009, Sydney 22/11/2009, Melbourne (Big Day Out Festival) 24/01/2014
Feeling depressed and angry today.
My parents always put me down.
Was discussing them my intention to try a new career "haha you doing that" "you won't never succeed".
My whole life they, especially my mum have put me down.
"you'll never finish university" "you're stupid" "you're not smart".
"you're ugly" "your mouth looks like an arse"
Constantly hearing negative things since a child I as an adult have low self esteem and don't believe I can achieve anything.
Fuck life, kill me.
I too am surprised because you are very creative and caring, good for you!
Fight to be your self and find positive people and goals you can achieve.
Don't play into your parents games, don't share your dreams with them,
they do no deserve to know. They have their own problems, most certainly your mother.
I am pretty tough on mothers who are mean but I am a super softy to a fault,
I believe in soft love.
Low self esteem....
it's not a given that we were put down by our parents
but often when that is the case it effects our outlook on life and love,
most definitely trust.
So much of who we are is buried deep, this in learned behavior from our parents.
My point is if they have been unjustly hard and cruel on you you may do this to yourself.
And you don't deserve that. Be your own best friend this you can do ...
do what you can to get on your own soon even if you must scrimp and get by with very little.
This alone makes one strong and brave.
Well, the meds gave me terrible migraines and fever (among other things) and I had to stop taking them. I guess the doctor will prescribe me something else, I have an appointment next Monday. I don't really want to try new meds but I guess I have to.
I'm so tired of trying to get "better". I don't feel like there's anything wrong with me. I just want to be able to function like a normal human being without having to take fuckin Xanax every time I get out of the house.
I'm still out here waiting
Watching reruns of my life
Well, the meds gave me terrible migraines and fever (among other things) and I had to stop taking them. I guess the doctor will prescribe me something else, I have an appointment next Monday. I don't really want to try new meds but I guess I have to.
I'm so tired of trying to get "better". I don't feel like there's anything wrong with me. I just want to be able to function like a normal human being without having to take fuckin Xanax every time I get out of the house.
My fear of going psychologists, being prescribed pills.
I would want to avoid them.
Keep fighting bro.
Adelaide 17/11/2009, Melbourne 20/11/2009, Sydney 22/11/2009, Melbourne (Big Day Out Festival) 24/01/2014
Well, the meds gave me terrible migraines and fever (among other things) and I had to stop taking them. I guess the doctor will prescribe me something else, I have an appointment next Monday. I don't really want to try new meds but I guess I have to.
My fear of going psychologists, being prescribed pills.
I would want to avoid them.
Keep fighting bro.
You may not like the idea, but sometimes medication is what you really do need. Therapy and the like will/can of course also help, but sometimes some people just have to have the meds too.
But then, you might be those who only need the medication for a certain amount of time. Hang in there, both of you - the good times are a-coming!
I'm so tired of trying to get "better". I don't feel like there's anything wrong with me. I just want to be able to function like a normal human being without having to take fuckin Xanax every time I get out of the house.
It's hard, but you need to keep trying, you deserve to be happy. If you are depressed, there's certainly something not right, but you're not in the wrong or a worse person because of it. Depression is an illness, and you can overcome it.
"Don't be faint-hearted, I have a solution! We shall go and commandeer some small craft, then drift at leisure until we happen upon another ideal place for our waterside supper with riparian entertainments."
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I know what depression is like - I've struggled with it my whole life, and it can be really a tough thing. And sometimes, it comes at odd times, too. Sometimes, when things are going really badly, it's like I block it all out and am able to keep going. Sort of like on autopilot. And then at other times, when things are going really well, I find myself depressed for no reason.
It's very odd - it's like sometimes it has to do with what's going on, and other times, it just happens for no reason. Or maybe it's some sort of delayed reaction to bad stuff that happened earlier, but which I didn't deal with properly. Who knows?
I have never cut myself though, or anything like that. And I think that if you are struggling with that, it might be a good idea to go and see a doctor. You have to find a release valve for all of this - one that doesn't hurt you.
Also, do you think that any of it has to do with the seasons? I see you are from Finland, and I know it's like Alaska there - we are starting to get a lot of light now...but we just came off of about 4 months of a lot of darkness, and it is still pretty cold here, so we are still indoors a lot, even thought it's lighter. Maybe concentrating on getting some sunlight might help? Just an idea, because I know how the darkness can be on some people. I actually like the dark winters...but some people get S.A.D.....maybe that might be a factor for you?
I really hope that you are feeling better...I know that there are a few people around here who struggle with various issues...and while it might not make you feel better to know that, at least you can know that talking about it here is 'safe'...and that you will find people who care about your well-being.
Please take care of yourself, get plenty of rest, get some sunshine and exercise. Exercise has always helped me, believe it or not. Exercise and Wellbutrin are the only things that have ever really helped me. All the other medications have made me sick to my stomach, dizzy, etc. But Welllbutrin has seemed to work. I think different meds effect people differently though, and sometimes it takes a long time to find one that works for you. Lots of trial and error.
And music - don't forget the music. That has always helped me too. Pearl Jam works best (it really does - I'm not just saying that!), but find some bands that you like - get interested in discovering some new music. That helps me - to stay interested and engaged in my music hobby.
Good luck!!!
Nice to hear from you :wave:
*Ed Solo: Detroit 06-26-2011, Chicago 06-29-2011*
My parents always put me down.
Was discussing them my intention to try a new career "haha you doing that" "you won't never succeed".
My whole life they, especially my mum have put me down.
"you'll never finish university" "you're stupid" "you're not smart".
"you're ugly" "your mouth looks like an arse"
Constantly hearing negative things since a child I as an adult have low self esteem and don't believe I can achieve anything.
Fuck life, kill me.
I've some friends who have gone through depression, I know a little bit of what it's like.
I'm so glad to hear you've taken the first steps towards feeling better, the only way is up now. It's difficult and yes, the meds will take a little while to work, but please don't be discouraged by this!
Like you already know, this place is very good for venting and support. I'm sure even those of us who don't post much and read more will be sending you encouraging vibes.
Jatka samaa rataa, auringon lämpö ja valo auttavat varmasti!
Keep steadily before you the fact that all true success depends at last upon yourself...Theodore Hunger
Great spirits have always encountered opposition from mediocre minds... Albert Einstein
You miss 100% of the shots that you do not take... Wayne Gretzsky
Self trust is the secret of success... Ralph Waldo Emerson
Don't listen to them.
You seem pretty awesome to me.
do you still live with and/or depend on them? if not, I say it's time for emancipation.
are you an only child? do you have any uncles/aunts you can go live with? this situation sounds horribly abusive.
Fargo 2003
Winnipeg 2005
Winnipeg 2011
St. Paul 2014
what an awesome quote. thanks for sharing it.
Fargo 2003
Winnipeg 2005
Winnipeg 2011
St. Paul 2014
Alpine Valley Music Theatre - Sep 03, 2011
Alpine Valley Music Theatre - Sep 04, 2011
Wrigley Field - July 19, 2013
Lincoln, NE - Oct 9, 2014
Global Citizen's Festival, NYC - Sept 26, 2015
Thank you
Thank you.
Awesome person in a cage. :(
I cannot afford to move out, I earn a low income and have a mortgage.
I have two sisters, one to which I am estranged almost.
No other relatives in Australia.
It is very abusive, I dread when my mum drinks wine, she just becomes more abusive.
Thank god for Pearl Jam, Nirvana, Soundgarden and AIC.
Or I'd be a heroin addict.
Fight to be your self and find positive people and goals you can achieve.
Don't play into your parents games, don't share your dreams with them,
they do no deserve to know. They have their own problems, most certainly your mother.
I am pretty tough on mothers who are mean but I am a super softy to a fault,
I believe in soft love.
Low self esteem....
it's not a given that we were put down by our parents
but often when that is the case it effects our outlook on life and love,
most definitely trust.
So much of who we are is buried deep, this in learned behavior from our parents.
My point is if they have been unjustly hard and cruel on you you may do this to yourself.
And you don't deserve that. Be your own best friend this you can do ...
do what you can to get on your own soon even if you must scrimp and get by with very little.
This alone makes one strong and brave.
Your life... you make it now
"If I had this guy's voice, you could all kiss my ass."
Well, the meds gave me terrible migraines and fever (among other things) and I had to stop taking them. I guess the doctor will prescribe me something else, I have an appointment next Monday. I don't really want to try new meds but I guess I have to.
I'm so tired of trying to get "better". I don't feel like there's anything wrong with me. I just want to be able to function like a normal human being without having to take fuckin Xanax every time I get out of the house.
Watching reruns of my life
My fear of going psychologists, being prescribed pills.
I would want to avoid them.
Keep fighting bro.
You may not like the idea, but sometimes medication is what you really do need. Therapy and the like will/can of course also help, but sometimes some people just have to have the meds too.
But then, you might be those who only need the medication for a certain amount of time.
It's hard, but you need to keep trying, you deserve to be happy. If you are depressed, there's certainly something not right, but you're not in the wrong or a worse person because of it. Depression is an illness, and you can overcome it.
Both of you hang on in there!