I am depressed as f***.

SD48277

SxDx1982 wrote:

Thanks everyone. Thank you so much. I didn't expect 5 pages of messages. You guys rock.

I've decided to go to the doctor's tomorrow. I don't care how much it costs. I'll borrow money from friends if I have to. I can't wait two or three months for a doctor's appointment, I'm scared that I might hurt myself if I don't get help soon.

:thumbup:

STAYSEA

STAYSEA wrote:

ANYONE PM me!
I HAVE been through everything.
I've heard it all.
I can really help!

If you r too sad? PM me I can maybe help

I spent thousands on therapy. I have hints.
My brother had skin cancer, so he is only awake at night. I always answer.
I have nutin else. But to help
Do not go where I have been! It suks.

Call me
PM WHENEVER!!!!
I'm crisis control.
unless you are already drugged , go to hospital!

I can't always help. but I will always try.

chadwick

Byrnzie wrote:

I saw them play in London in about 2002. They're funny fuckers - used to have their own themed-restaurant in Helsinki too.

you are a world traveler bigtime, dude. this is something we all should aspire to do.

Claireack

Just thought I'd pop in and wish you well. Hang on in there.

javis el errante

bump

SxDx1982

Hi everyone. I thought I'd drop by and let you know that I'm still alive. The doc prescribed me anti-depressants, I've been taking them for a few days now. No effect so far.. except that I'm too tired to even type. He did say that they take a while before they start to work.

mickeyrat

SxDx1982 wrote:

Hi everyone. I thought I'd drop by and let you know that I'm still alive. The doc prescribed me anti-depressants, I've been taking them for a few days now. No effect so far.. except that I'm too tired to even type. He did say that they take a while before they start to work.

depending on type of med, I think about 2 weeks to get built up in your system before you'll feel the best effect.

In the meantime, you're awesome for taking this positive step to take care of yourself. Some kind of action toward a better place is always a good thing.

jopetto75

Depression sucks I battle with it everyday I am just now reading this thread, great job people thats what it's about. Help and to care about others it can be such a a positive thing better than any drug when u know you got someone out there who cares. It seems I can breath again I hate being single if I don't find a girl soon I am going to go insane. It's like I am not a big enough ass Iv'e come to learn that most if not all woman enjoy or like to be treated like shit. I don't get it so thats my issue or battle right now. I am loosing my house just lost my job and I don't know where to go except to see Vedder, thats all I know. Cause of music I can breath, so as the days wear on and I go with no one I know I must go in with my head held high as hard as it is sometimes.
Music is my best friend it lets me know I am ok.
Thanks to the people who care you have no idea what it means and can do for a person!

Sawyer

you're existing...youre here....and some times that's good enough...keep up the fight

Hugh Freaking Dillon

I have been taking anti depressants for a LONG time. I will NEVER go off them. But they do take a while to work, once you find the right ones for you, and even then, sometimes you can still have down times. Believe me, it too shall pass.

It always does. Trust me.

I just got through a 2 week of tough times even on meds. So stay strong.

PJ_Soul

The Amorian wrote:

I have been taking anti depressants for a LONG time. I will NEVER go off them. But they do take a while to work, once you find the right ones for you, and even then, sometimes you can still have down times. Believe me, it too shall pass.

It always does. Trust me.

I just got through a 2 week of tough times even on meds. So stay strong.

(What happened to Hugh Freaking Dillon??

PKTrekGirl

I know I'm a bit late to this thread...but I only saw it tonight. I don't come into this forum every day, so stuff gets by me.

I know what depression is like - I've struggled with it my whole life, and it can be really a tough thing. And sometimes, it comes at odd times, too. Sometimes, when things are going really badly, it's like I block it all out and am able to keep going. Sort of like on autopilot. And then at other times, when things are going really well, I find myself depressed for no reason.

It's very odd - it's like sometimes it has to do with what's going on, and other times, it just happens for no reason. Or maybe it's some sort of delayed reaction to bad stuff that happened earlier, but which I didn't deal with properly. Who knows?

I have never cut myself though, or anything like that. And I think that if you are struggling with that, it might be a good idea to go and see a doctor. You have to find a release valve for all of this - one that doesn't hurt you.

Also, do you think that any of it has to do with the seasons? I see you are from Finland, and I know it's like Alaska there - we are starting to get a lot of light now...but we just came off of about 4 months of a lot of darkness, and it is still pretty cold here, so we are still indoors a lot, even thought it's lighter. Maybe concentrating on getting some sunlight might help? Just an idea, because I know how the darkness can be on some people. I actually like the dark winters...but some people get S.A.D.....maybe that might be a factor for you?

I really hope that you are feeling better...I know that there are a few people around here who struggle with various issues...and while it might not make you feel better to know that, at least you can know that talking about it here is 'safe'...and that you will find people who care about your well-being.

Please take care of yourself, get plenty of rest, get some sunshine and exercise. Exercise has always helped me, believe it or not. Exercise and Wellbutrin are the only things that have ever really helped me. All the other medications have made me sick to my stomach, dizzy, etc. But Welllbutrin has seemed to work. I think different meds effect people differently though, and sometimes it takes a long time to find one that works for you. Lots of trial and error.

And music - don't forget the music. That has always helped me too. Pearl Jam works best (it really does - I'm not just saying that!), but find some bands that you like - get interested in discovering some new music. That helps me - to stay interested and engaged in my music hobby.

Good luck!!!

Sugar-Magnolia

SxDx1982 wrote:

Hi everyone. I thought I'd drop by and let you know that I'm still alive. The doc prescribed me anti-depressants, I've been taking them for a few days now. No effect so far.. except that I'm too tired to even type. He did say that they take a while before they start to work.

Nice to hear from you :wave:

Thoughts_Arrive

Feeling depressed and angry today.
My parents always put me down.
Was discussing them my intention to try a new career "haha you doing that" "you won't never succeed".
My whole life they, especially my mum have put me down.
"you'll never finish university" "you're stupid" "you're not smart".
"you're ugly" "your mouth looks like an arse"

Constantly hearing negative things since a child I as an adult have low self esteem and don't believe I can achieve anything.

Fuck life, kill me.

eMMI

SxDx1982 wrote:

Hi everyone. I thought I'd drop by and let you know that I'm still alive. The doc prescribed me anti-depressants, I've been taking them for a few days now. No effect so far.. except that I'm too tired to even type. He did say that they take a while before they start to work.

I've some friends who have gone through depression, I know a little bit of what it's like.

I'm so glad to hear you've taken the first steps towards feeling better, the only way is up now. It's difficult and yes, the meds will take a little while to work, but please don't be discouraged by this!

Like you already know, this place is very good for venting and support. I'm sure even those of us who don't post much and read more will be sending you encouraging vibes.

Jatka samaa rataa, auringon lämpö ja valo auttavat varmasti!

green mountain man

Thoughts_Arrive wrote:

Feeling depressed and angry today.
My parents always put me down.
Was discussing them my intention to try a new career "haha you doing that" "you won't never succeed".
My whole life they, especially my mum have put me down.
"you'll never finish university" "you're stupid" "you're not smart".
"you're ugly" "your mouth looks like an arse"

Constantly hearing negative things since a child I as an adult have low self esteem and don't believe I can achieve anything.

Fuck life, kill me.

The best way out is always through.... Robert Frost

Keep steadily before you the fact that all true success depends at last upon yourself...Theodore Hunger

Great spirits have always encountered opposition from mediocre minds... Albert Einstein

You miss 100% of the shots that you do not take... Wayne Gretzsky

Self trust is the secret of success... Ralph Waldo Emerson

SD48277

Thoughts_Arrive wrote:

Feeling depressed and angry today.
My parents always put me down.
Was discussing them my intention to try a new career "haha you doing that" "you won't never succeed".
My whole life they, especially my mum have put me down.
"you'll never finish university" "you're stupid" "you're not smart".
"you're ugly" "your mouth looks like an arse"

Constantly hearing negative things since a child I as an adult have low self esteem and don't believe I can achieve anything.

Fuck life, kill me.

Don't listen to them.
You seem pretty awesome to me.

Hugh Freaking Dillon

Thoughts_Arrive wrote:

Feeling depressed and angry today.
My parents always put me down.
Was discussing them my intention to try a new career "haha you doing that" "you won't never succeed".
My whole life they, especially my mum have put me down.
"you'll never finish university" "you're stupid" "you're not smart".
"you're ugly" "your mouth looks like an arse"

Constantly hearing negative things since a child I as an adult have low self esteem and don't believe I can achieve anything.

Fuck life, kill me.

do you still live with and/or depend on them? if not, I say it's time for emancipation.

are you an only child? do you have any uncles/aunts you can go live with? this situation sounds horribly abusive.

Hugh Freaking Dillon

green mountain man wrote:

Great spirits have always encountered opposition from mediocre minds... Albert Einstein

what an awesome quote. thanks for sharing it.

ogey38

I was wondering how the OP is doing today. Hope the day was at the very least bearable and the meds are starting to kick in....keep the faith, my friend.