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  • Damn it, I have been feeling ANGRY this week. Angry and depressed. I keep trying to quit smoking, like it is the next piece of the puzzle but I'm just not ready it seems because when I start out with quitting I turn into a monster who I just can't afford to be. Not with my sobriety and not around my family.

    I dunno how to approach this one. I like smoking, it feels like I need that vice after quitting the booze and drugs over recent years, but it impacts on my quality of life and my mental state. I end up in a kind of emotional limbo and that isn't good for my sobriety.
    we're all going to the same place...
  • mickeyrat
    mickeyrat Posts: 44,324
    Damn it, I have been feeling ANGRY this week. Angry and depressed. I keep trying to quit smoking, like it is the next piece of the puzzle but I'm just not ready it seems because when I start out with quitting I turn into a monster who I just can't afford to be. Not with my sobriety and not around my family.

    I dunno how to approach this one. I like smoking, it feels like I need that vice after quitting the booze and drugs over recent years, but it impacts on my quality of life and my mental state. I end up in a kind of emotional limbo and that isn't good for my sobriety.
    well, you could begin by at least cutting back on the amount you smoke.
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  • mickeyrat wrote:
    Damn it, I have been feeling ANGRY this week. Angry and depressed. I keep trying to quit smoking, like it is the next piece of the puzzle but I'm just not ready it seems because when I start out with quitting I turn into a monster who I just can't afford to be. Not with my sobriety and not around my family.

    I dunno how to approach this one. I like smoking, it feels like I need that vice after quitting the booze and drugs over recent years, but it impacts on my quality of life and my mental state. I end up in a kind of emotional limbo and that isn't good for my sobriety.
    well, you could begin by at least cutting back on the amount you smoke.

    That sounds like progress, I'm not happy with anything short of perfection! ;)
    we're all going to the same place...
  • mickeyrat
    mickeyrat Posts: 44,324
    Just a quick note to say, feel free to PM. I would encourage anyone to post in here, but I do understand if even with the anonymity the board names provide how some may not be comfortable.

    It is a day at a time deal. And while I'm not there yet, I'm confident that when I wake tomorrow , I will have been given 5 yrs of continous sobriety. My word, where does the time go? Seems just like yesterday that that fateful decision to ask for help was made. The past 5 yrs have been full of ups and downs. That just tells me I'm no different than anyone else that walks this earth. But what a ride its been to date!!

    For those still struggling with whatever drives them , there IS hope. It IS possible to live, actually live, free of drugs and alcohol. AND be happy to boot!!


    Peace to you all.
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    Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
    you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
    memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
    another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
  • mickeyrat
    mickeyrat Posts: 44,324
    A tad early but , Happy Easter!!!

    Remember, if the family gathering proves to be too much. Get your behind to a meeting if ones available to you!!
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    Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
    you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
    memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
    another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
  • i shit and i stink
    i shit and i stink Posts: 1,122
    edited June 2011
    Got through a tough patch recently. I was rocked by a few things in the family and other pressure.
    Made me realise:

    1.
    I should enjoy sobriety as much as I can. If I'm living sober, I should be really living.

    2.
    I need other people.
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    we're all going to the same place...
  • Since I came into the fellowship, I've noticed that AA is everywhere in popular culture. It seems that every other film I watch has someone in recovery. And half the books I read too... from 'Slaughterhouse 5' to Grisham's 'The Associate', which I just finished. I guess recovery just makes for a good story.
    we're all going to the same place...
  • This thread got buried!
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    BUMP
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  • mickeyrat
    mickeyrat Posts: 44,324
    Well,

    I just spent the weekend at a sober campout. was a good time with a lot of meetings. Plus hiking, spending time with my honey, getting to know her son better. was a good time.

    Soon I will be moving in with her and her kids. Have a plan in place between the two of us. Whats expected of me in relation to her kids, house etc...We're on the same page, so I'm hopeful, as is she(also in recovery , almost 10 years now), that things will work out.


    This time there was much needed as there have been some management changes at work. Higher level changes , so things SEEM dicey right now. Patience will allow it all to unfold. I dont fear for my job, but it does give me pause and wonder whats next for me. In addition to that , we have our storewide inventory in 24 days. Always a stressful time. But I'm experienced so I believe I can roll with it.

    All of this has driven me to pray more often and give thanks when its due. Not a bad thing!!


    All in all I'm living, actually LIVING, a pretty good life.

    Peace.
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    Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
    you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
    memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
    another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
  • Markiemark70
    Markiemark70 Posts: 103
    Hey All, I came over here from the Porch looking for the discussion with Tim and found this thread. Great discussion.I had no idea there were so many friends of Bill W. here.

    I myself have been clean and sober for 14 years. I have an NA homegroup and a sponsor. Pearl Jam is one of the few things from my using days that I still enjoy, although I enjoy it differently in recovery than I did when I was high.

    There are a lot of songs that have a recovery theme to me: Inside Job, Off He Goes, Sometimes, Present Tense, All Those Yesterdays and the list goes on. Anyways wish everyone another 24, I'll pop in from time to time to keep the discussion active.
  • Fifthelement
    Fifthelement Lotusland Posts: 6,965
    mickeyrat wrote:
    Well,

    I just spent the weekend at a sober campout. was a good time with a lot of meetings. Plus hiking, spending time with my honey, getting to know her son better. was a good time.

    Soon I will be moving in with her and her kids. Have a plan in place between the two of us. Whats expected of me in relation to her kids, house etc...We're on the same page, so I'm hopeful, as is she(also in recovery , almost 10 years now), that things will work out.


    This time there was much needed as there have been some management changes at work. Higher level changes , so things SEEM dicey right now. Patience will allow it all to unfold. I dont fear for my job, but it does give me pause and wonder whats next for me. In addition to that , we have our storewide inventory in 24 days. Always a stressful time. But I'm experienced so I believe I can roll with it.

    All of this has driven me to pray more often and give thanks when its due. Not a bad thing!!


    All in all I'm living, actually LIVING, a pretty good life.

    Peace.

    Glad to read that things are going well for you Mickey. I wish you continued success as you embark on this new journey :)
    "What the CANUCK happened?!? - Esquimalt Barber Shop
  • mickeyrat
    mickeyrat Posts: 44,324
    Hey All, I came over here from the Porch looking for the discussion with Tim and found this thread. Great discussion.I had no idea there were so many friends of Bill W. here.

    I myself have been clean and sober for 14 years. I have an NA homegroup and a sponsor. Pearl Jam is one of the few things from my using days that I still enjoy, although I enjoy it differently in recovery than I did when I was high.

    There are a lot of songs that have a recovery theme to me: Inside Job, Off He Goes, Sometimes, Present Tense, All Those Yesterdays and the list goes on. Anyways wish everyone another 24, I'll pop in from time to time to keep the discussion active.
    Rock on!!! Welcome!!
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    Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
    you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
    memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
    another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
  • locked
    locked Boston Posts: 4,048
    Another great blog from my friend Ellie about people who are " one the fence" about whether they have a drinking problem:
    Feel free to sign up for her posts or pass this one along to someone who might relate?
    http://feedproxy.google.com/~r/onecraft ... dium=email
    "This here's a REQUEST!"
    EV intro to Chloe Dancer / Crown of Thorns
    10/25/13 Hartford
  • mickeyrat
    mickeyrat Posts: 44,324
    pulled from The Big Book, related to step nine, but seems appropriate to what I'm experiencing at present.

    "Reminding ourselves that we decided to go to any length to find a spiritual experince , we ask that we be given the strength to do the right thing, no matter what the personal consequences may be. We may lose our postion or reputation or face jail(doesnt apply here) , but we are willing. We have to be.We must not shrink at anything."

    Alocholics Anonymous pg 79 *used without permission
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    Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
    you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
    memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
    another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
  • Dr. Dan
    Dr. Dan Posts: 11
    Any sober people going to PJ20? I am headed there solo. It would be nice to hang with some fellows.
    Go Terps!
  • mickeyrat
    mickeyrat Posts: 44,324
    DK214851 wrote:
    Any sober people going to PJ20? I am headed there solo. It would be nice to hang with some fellows.
    where any two or three are gathered, they can call themselves a group.......

    WE make 2. 3 , if you count Mikey on stage.
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    Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
    you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
    memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
    another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
  • Oh, I forgot to mention:

    Inside Job AA Group in Wroclaw, Poland celebrated one year last week :)
    And so did two of our founder members at the same meeting.

    Good days
    we're all going to the same place...
  • mickeyrat
    mickeyrat Posts: 44,324
    Oh, I forgot to mention:

    Inside Job AA Group in Wroclaw, Poland celebrated one year last week :)
    And so did two of our founder members at the same meeting.

    Good days
    :thumbup: :thumbup: :thumbup: :clap:
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    Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
    you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
    memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
    another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
  • mickeyrat
    mickeyrat Posts: 44,324
    76 years and 2 days ago a man followed the suggestions of a fellow alcoholic. Alcoholics Anonymous was born.
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    Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
    you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
    memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
    another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
  • Dr. Dan
    Dr. Dan Posts: 11
    mickeyrat wrote:
    DK214851 wrote:
    Any sober people going to PJ20? I am headed there solo. It would be nice to hang with some fellows.
    where any two or three are gathered, they can call themselves a group.......

    WE make 2. 3 , if you count Mikey on stage.


    Sweet. 2 or 3 is good, because as we all know sometimes " one's a crowd."
    Go Terps!