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  • wolfbear
    wolfbear Posts: 3,965
    hippiemom wrote:
    There won't be any news for a while yet. I'm going for a CT scan next Friday, then I'll see the scrawny little bitch (my doctor, that is) the following Tuesday, so hopefully I'll know more by then.
    :D on the doctor. Keep us posted. Love ya. :)
    "I'd rather be with an animal." "Those that can be trusted can change their mind." "The in between is mine." "If I don't lose control, explore and not explode, a preternatural other plane with the power to maintain." "Yeh this is living." "Life is what you make it."
  • kenny olav
    kenny olav Posts: 3,319
    h-mom, it sucks to hear this. i'm wishing all the best for ya! we are all here for you.
  • Heatherj43
    Heatherj43 Posts: 1,254
    WTF!! S.O a B.!! Pardon my language, but that is my first thoughts. I guess I thought it was all over.
    You know my thoughts are with you. Love to you. We all love you very much around here and I hope you feel it and that it helps in some way.
    Save room for dessert!
  • brokenarrow
    brokenarrow Posts: 478
    Hippiemom,
    I'm not here often, but I've read your words. I'm so sorry to read about what your going through...I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers and send positive vibes your way.

    Stay strong, by the looks of it you are very loved!!
    (((((((((((((((((((((((((((hippiemom))))))))))))))))))))))))))

    love,
    brokenarrow>
  • El_Kabong
    El_Kabong Posts: 4,141
    wow, laura...i'm sorry to hear this. i know your spirits too strong to let this be anything but a bump in the road for you!
    standin above the crowd
    he had a voice that was strong and loud and
    i swallowed his facade cos i'm so
    eager to identify with
    someone above the crowd
    someone who seemed to feel the same
    someone prepared to lead the way
  • Blanche
    Blanche Posts: 247
    Hi hippiemom!

    Keep up the fight.

    We're with you.
  • Restless Soul
    Restless Soul Posts: 805
    I'm thinking of you Laura. You will beat this I'm sure of it. ((((hugs)))
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  • melodious
    melodious Posts: 1,719
    I don't know if you have seen this before; maybe info will help...anyway...my healing thoughts are with you....


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    a derivitive of nature.
    nature is god
    god is love
    love is light
  • gue_barium
    gue_barium Posts: 5,515
    We've known each other for for a few years now and this past year with the cancer has been something. I'll always be here for you, Laura. You've always been here for me, too.
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  • Last Exodus
    Last Exodus Posts: 782
    Oh that sucks.......: (
  • Last Exodus
    Last Exodus Posts: 782
    HM -

    You can beat it........Stay tough
  • disconnected
    disconnected Posts: 2,875
    Hey mom!
    My thoughts and prayers are with you!
  • SPALMA
    SPALMA Posts: 2,279
    Thinking about you hippiemom. Hope you are well.
    "I don't want to hear any splatty tongues!"
    J.M., Jr. High Band Teacher

    I raise my Freak Flag High!!
  • cincybearcat
    cincybearcat Posts: 16,836
    Hippiemom...stay positive. Good thoughts headed your way.

    Stuff like this really shows how strong someone is and I'm certain that you'll be as strong as they come.
    hippiemom = goodness
  • hippiemom
    hippiemom Posts: 3,326
    Thanks so much, everyone. I keep coming back and reading this thread over and over to lift my spirits. I'm taking this a lot harder than I did the first time. After everything I went through over the past year, here I am, right back at square one ... it just feels like it was all a huge waste of time and energy. Not to mention this is probably the end of my vacation plans (a vacation that I feel I very much need), because I'm going to need all my vacation days for treatment again. And more of going to work sick all the time. And the numbers for people whose cancer recurs in the first year are not encouraging, to put it mildly. Just all of it ... it's depressing :(

    I need to snap out of this depression bullshit and get pissed off again, it works better for me. So just keep telling me how awesome I am, haha ... maybe I'll start to believe it and act accordingly.
    "Nothing in the world is more dangerous than sincere ignorance and conscientious stupidity." ~ MLK, 1963
  • cincybearcat
    cincybearcat Posts: 16,836
    hippiemom wrote:
    Thanks so much, everyone. I keep coming back and reading this thread over and over to lift my spirits. I'm taking this a lot harder than I did the first time. After everything I went through over the past year, here I am, right back at square one ... it just feels like it was all a huge waste of time and energy. Not to mention this is probably the end of my vacation plans (a vacation that I feel I very much need), because I'm going to need all my vacation days for treatment again. And more of going to work sick all the time. And the numbers for people whose cancer recurs in the first year are not encouraging, to put it mildly. Just all of it ... it's depressing :(

    I need to snap out of this depression bullshit and get pissed off again, it works better for me. So just keep telling me how awesome I am, haha ... maybe I'll start to believe it and act accordingly.


    Something my mom would say to you, even if you don't believe in a God it always seemed to lighten the load on me from time to time:

    God wouldn't give you any more than you can handle.

    I'm not a very religious person but it seems to be a comforting thought. I fonly you weren't such a strong person!!!!!! Perhaps you are helping to lighten the load on someone else that might not be able to handle it.

    I hope your daughter is handling this as best as she can.
    hippiemom = goodness
  • norm
    norm Posts: 31,146
    hippiemom wrote:
    Thanks so much, everyone. I keep coming back and reading this thread over and over to lift my spirits. I'm taking this a lot harder than I did the first time. After everything I went through over the past year, here I am, right back at square one ... it just feels like it was all a huge waste of time and energy. Not to mention this is probably the end of my vacation plans (a vacation that I feel I very much need), because I'm going to need all my vacation days for treatment again. And more of going to work sick all the time. And the numbers for people whose cancer recurs in the first year are not encouraging, to put it mildly. Just all of it ... it's depressing :(

    I need to snap out of this depression bullshit and get pissed off again, it works better for me. So just keep telling me how awesome I am, haha ... maybe I'll start to believe it and act accordingly.

    Laura, I'm thinking about you all the time. I wish I could help you out of the funk you're in right now. If you wanna yell at someone, yell at me. I won't mind. ;):)
  • hippiemom
    hippiemom Posts: 3,326
    cutback wrote:
    Laura, I'm thinking about you all the time. I wish I could help you out of the funk you're in right now. If you wanna yell at someone, yell at me. I won't mind. ;):)
    My problem is I don't want to yell at anyone, I just want to sit here and mope. Not good.

    Thanks for the offer, but if I feel like yelling at someone, CorporateWhore is here all the time :D
    "Nothing in the world is more dangerous than sincere ignorance and conscientious stupidity." ~ MLK, 1963
  • norm
    norm Posts: 31,146
    hippiemom wrote:
    My problem is I don't want to yell at anyone, I just want to sit here and mope. Not good.

    No that's not good. I believe this feeling will pass because although I've never met you from all I've read from you on here, soon you're gonna get pissed and fight this. :)
    hippiemom wrote:
    Thanks for the offer, but if I feel like yelling at someone, CorporateWhore is here all the time :D

    or my new favorite, jammastae. That guy's a kick. :D
  • tooferz
    tooferz Posts: 135
    hippiemom wrote:
    Thanks so much, everyone. I keep coming back and reading this thread over and over to lift my spirits. I'm taking this a lot harder than I did the first time. After everything I went through over the past year, here I am, right back at square one ... it just feels like it was all a huge waste of time and energy. Not to mention this is probably the end of my vacation plans (a vacation that I feel I very much need), because I'm going to need all my vacation days for treatment again. And more of going to work sick all the time. And the numbers for people whose cancer recurs in the first year are not encouraging, to put it mildly. Just all of it ... it's depressing :(

    I need to snap out of this depression bullshit and get pissed off again, it works better for me. So just keep telling me how awesome I am, haha ... maybe I'll start to believe it and act accordingly.
    you ARE awesome! i sit here in awe of you and your generosity, compassion and intelligence. you jumped right in for the little girl with cancer and offered to shave your head after you just got hair back. you always get your point across intelligently and politely even if your opinion differs radically. you almost always have a kind word for everyone. so see...you really are the bomb diggity.

    it IS harder to hear the 2nd time. it's just as you said...it feels as if it were all a waste of time and you did all that hard work for nil. you still don't have all your energy back from the first time...and you're just too damn tired to want to do it again. it's just such a daunting road ahead and you don't feel up to it.

    as was for the numbers...screw em. they told me 4 yrs ago 6-18 months was average life expectancy. HA...showed them didn't i? current stats put me at a 16% chance of surviving this year but screw a bunch of THAT noise. i don't much feel like i wanna die this year nor do i have the time. i got things to do, kids and grandkids to love, torment n tease and a lot of tequila to drink.

    these words of wisdom from my ca counselor helped me put things in perspective when i was facing yet another recurrence - "if you have one leg in the past and one leg in the future, you are pissing on today". it's hard when you're in the throes of testing and worrying....but try to keep it in mind. you are wasting valuable 'well' time moping around right now waiting on results. so get off yer depressed, yet generous, compassionate and intelligent ass, and get busy fighting. :)

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