this one's for hippiemom

MookieBlaylock

be well.... all the best

steppenwolf

Hello Laura. I'm certain you're getting stronger every day. All the more reason to come to Cleveland and Detroit for the PJ shows and the motel rooms for you and me.


heehee.

BinGnarly

Hippiemom and my views don't exactly match up (shes pro choice im a pro lifer) but for someone battling cancer I'll give them all the support they want So Hippiemom heres to you get better very soon we want you back on this board with the rest of the Jamily.

looks like you are back on the board I just posted before I read through the seventeen pages. Welcome back to the board and I hope all is well for you and your loved ones.

IamMine

Hey!

I see you around more now...I hope that means you're feeling much better now!

When does chemo start?

hippiemom

IamMine wrote:

Hey!

I see you around more now...I hope that means you're feeling much better now!

When does chemo start?

I was supposed to have the surgery to install the port last Thursday and start chemo Tuesday, but I pushed everything back by two weeks, so the surgery is on the 30th now, and the chemo starts the Tuesday after that. I was all gung-ho about getting in there and starting right away, but I realized this week that I still need more time to recover from the last surgery. I can barely walk around as it is, I've got no business doing anything else for a little while.

angelica

hippiemom wrote:

I was supposed to have the surgery to install the port last Thursday and start chemo Tuesday, but I pushed everything back by two weeks, so the surgery is on the 30th now, and the chemo starts the Tuesday after that. I was all gung-ho about getting in there and starting right away, but I realized this week that I still need more time to recover from the last surgery. I can barely walk around as it is, I've got no business doing anything else for a little while.

I think it's awesome that you are listening to the cues your own body is sending, and making your decisions based on what is best for you, hippiemom. Happy healing...:)

hippiemom

angelica wrote:

I think it's awesome that you are listening to the cues your own body is sending, and making your decisions based on what is best for you, hippiemom. Happy healing...:)

Thank you

My family and friends are divided between the "Yes, you need more time" group, and the "Oh my god, no! You need to start NOW before it spreads more!" group. Fortunately, the people that matter most to me all agree with me, but it's getting tiresome hearing everyone weigh in with their opinions. There's only 3 or 4 people who I care to listen to anyway.

You are right, of course. My intuition has been dead on ever since I started feeling lousy a few months ago. I knew what was wrong before the doctors did, and my guesses have been better than theirs, so I'm going with my gut feelings from here on in.

angelica

hippiemom wrote:

Thank you

My family and friends are divided between the "Yes, you need more time" group, and the "Oh my god, no! You need to start NOW before it spreads more!" group. Fortunately, the people that matter most to me all agree with me, but it's getting tiresome hearing everyone weigh in with their opinions. There's only 3 or 4 people who I care to listen to anyway.

You are right, of course. My intuition has been dead on ever since I started feeling lousy a few months ago. I knew what was wrong before the doctors did, and my guesses have been better than theirs, so I'm going with my gut feelings from here on in.

Good for you. That's great that you sensed this out for yourself in the first place months ago. It's weird that we are our own bodies so we should have some awareness of what goes on in them, and yet somehow many North Americans have lost touch to a degree.

I've talked about my own psychiatric healing over and over. Admittedly, besides preventative stuff, I can't lay claim to physical healing, per se. I have a healthy respect for what I don't know. I have read a lot of books on the subject though through the years as I stumbled around trying to heal my own stuff. A general theme I noticed is that with self-healing, people learn to learn to connect with themselves or even deepen their self-connection to a degree that is not usual in our society.

I can understand people wanting you to jump in and do what it takes right away. At the same time, you are the only one with actual insight into your own personal situation and what it is telling you and I'm huge on encouraging that.

One of the meanings of doctoring is to adapt. It sounds like you recognise your role as the top doctor in your life, and more power to you with that.:)

pickupyourwill

hippiemom wrote:

I was supposed to have the surgery to install the port last Thursday and start chemo Tuesday, but I pushed everything back by two weeks, so the surgery is on the 30th now, and the chemo starts the Tuesday after that. I was all gung-ho about getting in there and starting right away, but I realized this week that I still need more time to recover from the last surgery. I can barely walk around as it is, I've got no business doing anything else for a little while.

:( hang in there, girl.

i'm prayin for ya.

you know the pearl jam concert will be some good medicine. keep on lookin forward to that.

~~peace and love~~

Restless Soul

hi Laura, sorry to hear about the chemo :( Your attitude is really inspiring though! Hang in there friend.

cornnifer

Sittin in a hospital bed
Sittin in a hospital bed
Sittin in a hospital bed
Sittin in a hospital bed

I, I want life
I want my life
I want my life
I want my life
It really sucks
It really sucks

Sittin in a hospital bed
Frustration goin through my head
Turn off the TV set
Take some drugs so I can forget

I, I want life
I want my life
I want my life
I want my life
It really sucks
It really sucks

I got knocked down but I'll get up
I got knocked down
(repeat)


For some reason I'm thinking of this Joey Ramone song. I especially like the last part.

hippiemom

cornnifer wrote:

Sittin in a hospital bed
Sittin in a hospital bed
Sittin in a hospital bed
Sittin in a hospital bed

I, I want life
I want my life
I want my life
I want my life
It really sucks
It really sucks

Sittin in a hospital bed
Frustration goin through my head
Turn off the TV set
Take some drugs so I can forget

I, I want life
I want my life
I want my life
I want my life
It really sucks
It really sucks

I got knocked down but I'll get up
I got knocked down
(repeat)


For some reason I'm thinking of this Joey Ramone song. I especially like the last part.

I love that he turned off the TV set, heehee. One of my fears going into the hospital was that I'd wind up with a roommate who'd have the fucking thing blaring away all day long ... luckily I got a private room and it didn't get turned on once. Every time the nursing shifts changed, the new nurse would come in and say "Oh, here, let me move this tv for you so you can reach it," and I'd say "No!!! Keep it away!" A couple hours of television and I'd have totally lost my will to live.

As for "take some drugs so I can forget," I sure wish they'd have found me some that worked! My doc said if she'd given the woman in the next room as much morphine as they were giving me, she'd stop breathing. Stop breathing?! I didn't even stop talking! I wasn't tired, wasn't slurring my words, didn't have the slightest trace of a buzz, nothing .... and the pain wasn't going away either. Figures, I'm the one in a million that's pretty much immune to the stuff. Just my luck.

Now I'm in a Ramones frame of mind

*wanders off to go find Rocket to Russia*

who's_pearljam?

hippiemom wrote:

Thank you

My family and friends are divided between the "Yes, you need more time" group, and the "Oh my god, no! You need to start NOW before it spreads more!" group. Fortunately, the people that matter most to me all agree with me, but it's getting tiresome hearing everyone weigh in with their opinions. There's only 3 or 4 people who I care to listen to anyway.

You are right, of course. My intuition has been dead on ever since I started feeling lousy a few months ago. I knew what was wrong before the doctors did, and my guesses have been better than theirs, so I'm going with my gut feelings from here on in.

You are SO right on, Hippiemom. Listen to your body and do it your way! :cool:
One of the hardest things for me after I was diagnosed and started treatment was endless phone calls and people coming over, telling me that I should put magnets on, or do cesium, or any one of a thousand cures. They heard that somebody had some unrelated illness and took this "amazing substance" that made them better. Then the books and bibles started coming in. I have boxes of them. Then the stories of how they knew someone that had cancer once and they went to so and so and did such and such.
It all came from people who meant well and wanted to help and to relate, but it was tiring to hear all the stories and to have people tell me that attitude will cure me!
I ended up with a gang of a few that were there for me, and respected the fact that I was going to do it my way. They helped me do research and make decisions and were there on the good and bad days alike.

I had to learn to teach the people around me how to treat me. That's a pretty common thing that happens. It's just as much a psychological disease for you and your friends and family as it is physical.
You seem to have the same attitude I did. I just wanted to be me and do it my way and live life, even though it was allegedly gonna be shortlived at the time. Still here though, like 5 years later, HA HA HA!

Yup,,, you be well, Go Hippiemom!


Love and healing to you,
Bob

Blanche

Have faith in your heart and you'll help your people to heal as much as yourself.

Heatherj43

hippiemom wrote:

I was supposed to have the surgery to install the port last Thursday and start chemo Tuesday, but I pushed everything back by two weeks, so the surgery is on the 30th now, and the chemo starts the Tuesday after that. I was all gung-ho about getting in there and starting right away, but I realized this week that I still need more time to recover from the last surgery. I can barely walk around as it is, I've got no business doing anything else for a little while.

Good for you...They are fricking nuts!!! I'd like to see them go through that surgery and be already to go through another one so quick!!! And to even think about chemo so soon after that last surgery seems ridiculous. Don't they think?? It seems to me that you will need strength and be well to go through it.

decides2dream

laura...i just want to say...how HAPPY i am that you are doing better, that you are making the right choices for YOU...and following your own mind and heart. i'd expect nothing less. i am also so pleased to read your words here again with ever increasing frequency...it always elevates me. such a compassionate spirit, with such logic and reasoning.

my heart is with you and i wish you the best through your ordeal.

hippiemom

I feel bad, so many people have sent me PMs and I've been horrible about returning them lately. I've been a bit preoccupied, as you might imagine, and I started my chemo. I think we may need to tinker with the dosage a bit, because let's just say I've had better weekends.

Anyway, I'm not up to answering many PMs, so I just want to thank everyone for all the nice messages and let you know I'm still alive and kicking and I'll be back when I can.

WindNoSail

You are fighting the good (yet hard) fight....hope all gets better soon.

Heatherj43

hippiemom wrote:

I feel bad, so many people have sent me PMs and I've been horrible about returning them lately. I've been a bit preoccupied, as you might imagine, and I started my chemo. I think we may need to tinker with the dosage a bit, because let's just say I've had better weekends.

Anyway, I'm not up to answering many PMs, so I just want to thank everyone for all the nice messages and let you know I'm still alive and kicking and I'll be back when I can.

Laura, don't worry about answering the PM's. I think many of us just want you to know we think of you and care. We don't need a reply.
Just get better and get through the chemo..you have enough to worry about!!
I so hate that you are feeling bad and having to go through this. :(
Love to you!!

Abuskedti

hippiemom wrote:

I feel bad, so many people have sent me PMs and I've been horrible about returning them lately. I've been a bit preoccupied, as you might imagine, and I started my chemo. I think we may need to tinker with the dosage a bit, because let's just say I've had better weekends.

Anyway, I'm not up to answering many PMs, so I just want to thank everyone for all the nice messages and let you know I'm still alive and kicking and I'll be back when I can.

We just want you to know we're thinking about you.