« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
'i don't want to talk at all arlo. but if you'd rather talk about nudes than being one. then fine by me. i like painting nudes because it's when we're most vulnerable. there's nothing to hide behind. plus the naked body is a beautiful thing. don't you think?'
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
arlo stepped towards me and pushed the cardigan off my shoulders. he took my hand in his and kissed it's palm. as he started to unwrap the bandage, i tried to pull my hand away. but arlo held fast. he dropped the bloody bandage to the floor and kissed my wrist. it hurt a little but i could live with it.
he continued kissing up my arm. when he got to my neck, he spoke.
'tell me anna. why do you hurt yourself like that?'
he didn't stop kissing me and he expected me to be able to answer.
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
I wanted him to shut up. I didn't afraid that he might stop. For a few seconds I wasn't able to say anything, I didn't know if I wanted to answer him. Did I trust him? I should have answered that question with no. I should have told myself to shut up.
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
i wanted this man. and i really wanted to feel his skin against mine. did he need to know why i did what i did? i don't know. maybe? it occurred to me that i might not get what i wanted if he didn't get what he wanted. shit they call that consideration don't they? or compromise? i don't really know. all i know is this is new to me. i always took what i wanted. davey never asked for anything in return.
'it helps me cope'
there i said it.
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
He move to my back and kissed me between my shoulder blades moving down my spine.
You are gonna have to do better than that Anna.
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
i closed my eyes as i felt his lips through the cotton of my dress. as i unzipped my dress and let it fall, i turned so that arlo's lips kissed me just below my belly button. he looked up at me.
'why do you want to know arlo?'
i leant down and with my hands holding his face i kissed his lips. as he squeezed my butt i realised that right now i would have told this man anything he wanted to know. though that didn't mean i was going to make it easy.
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
we continued this conversation while we explored each other's bodies. generally i wasn't one for talking. but talking during sex. now that was completely foreign to me. telling me his sister killed herself just as i reached orgasm is not something i ever want to repeat. when i rolled away from him and told him i didn't think it was fair to tell me that piece of news right then, he shrugged and said he didn't think it was fair of me to be so demanding of people i supposedly love and give nothing in return. he said that if i was going to stop talking to him and offer nothing, then tell him so he could leave now and avoid all the angst.
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
Damn it what was this. Why didn't I just react. I didn't dare afraid that the wrong word would cross my lips. I just lay there perfectly still not able to speak, again.
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
That is not a yes or no question Arlo. How can I answer that now. I don't really know if I feel comfortable with the assumption you just made. All I know is that I want you to stay. So yes on that last part, for the rest I don't know for certain what you ask of me.
God I was rambling, what had I just said? Not too much I hoped.
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
arlo propped himself up on his elbow, his head resting on his hand.
'sure it's a yes or no question. but what i want from you anna, is honesty. i don't want to wake up next to you one morning and come to the realisation that we've wasted our time. i could forgive you almost anything but if you're not honest with me and yourself, well then i may as well thank you for the great sex and walk out the door now. i can't go through another relationship based on deception. i did that with sascha.'
with that little speech out of the way, arlo excused himself and disappeared into the bathroom.
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
I didn't knew what to make of him. This hadn't worked out as I had expacted. Why did this guy get to me, I didn't even know him a few hours ago. Some drinks and a nice smile later and I am this weak. And who was Sascha? Some ex-lover who gave him a hard time.
Does Davey think of me that way? Was our relationship based on deception by me? Damn it this is not what I need right now.
I got out of bed and walked on to the balcony. Maybe it was better if Arlo left, I can't handle his brainpicking right now.
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
i didn't even hear him approach,but his arms around me felt real good. this was going to be challenge for me, that's for sure. and he wasn't even afraid of walking around with no clothes on. if that had've been davey, he would have at least wrapped a robe around himself. turning around and kissing his chest, i stated the obvious.
'you know you're naked, right?'
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
Well we will get to see just how cold it is then. He smiled and sat down next to me.
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
as i finished the joint, i thought of how different arlo and davey were. arlo was willing to share details of his life that i didn't even have to ask about. he volunteered the information. i know why he did it of course, but that is something davey never did. i guess i'm a little to blame there. it's not like i ever volunteered information about my life. god i'm an idiot. sascha is arlo's sister. hello? fuck i'm spacey sometimes. though to be fair, i was rather distracted when arlo told me about her. so if i wanted to keep arlo in my life, which i did,(well at least i think i did) then the price was openness and honesty. i could give that a go. might even be a nice change. and besides it'd give me something new to talk about with dr. mcintyre. i sat watching the moon for a while before i went back inside. i was hoping arlo would be asleep, but he wasn't. he smiled as i walked into the room.
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
I'm gonna have some tea before sleeping, do you drink tea?
He just nodded that he did while digging through the mound of records that was next to my bed.
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
******
sitting opposite beth at dizzie's hearing what gerard thought about my not wanting to involve the police about vincent, i realised all i could think about was arlo. i did hear her talking, but what she said, i couldn't tell you.
the last guy who was that upfront with me had been david. and that's only cause as my counsellor, it was his job. i know davey let be do whatever the hell i wanted and he rarely called me on any of my shit. i'm not blaming him for anything. i guess what i'm really doing is wondering how far i could push arlo and get away with it. he said he could forgive me just about anything. should i test whether he was being honest with me? or should i actually learn to trust someone and take them at their word? beth jolted me out of my private musings.
'anna! you're not even listening to me. have you heard a single word i've said? what, or should i say who, are you thinking about?'
i looked at her.
'and you can wipe that stupid grin off your face.'
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
Oh a sorry I was dreaming away sorry. What were you saying?
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
Yes Arlo is his name. What to say? I don't know, he's just great really. I'm not sure but i don't recall ever feeling this way.
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
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'you really want to talk about this now?'
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
'i don't want to talk at all arlo. but if you'd rather talk about nudes than being one. then fine by me. i like painting nudes because it's when we're most vulnerable. there's nothing to hide behind. plus the naked body is a beautiful thing. don't you think?'
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
he continued kissing up my arm. when he got to my neck, he spoke.
'tell me anna. why do you hurt yourself like that?'
he didn't stop kissing me and he expected me to be able to answer.
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
'it helps me cope'
there i said it.
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You are gonna have to do better than that Anna.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
'why do you want to know arlo?'
i leant down and with my hands holding his face i kissed his lips. as he squeezed my butt i realised that right now i would have told this man anything he wanted to know. though that didn't mean i was going to make it easy.
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
'so tell me anna. do you want me to stay?'
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
God I was rambling, what had I just said? Not too much I hoped.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
'sure it's a yes or no question. but what i want from you anna, is honesty. i don't want to wake up next to you one morning and come to the realisation that we've wasted our time. i could forgive you almost anything but if you're not honest with me and yourself, well then i may as well thank you for the great sex and walk out the door now. i can't go through another relationship based on deception. i did that with sascha.'
with that little speech out of the way, arlo excused himself and disappeared into the bathroom.
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
Does Davey think of me that way? Was our relationship based on deception by me? Damn it this is not what I need right now.
I got out of bed and walked on to the balcony. Maybe it was better if Arlo left, I can't handle his brainpicking right now.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
'you know you're naked, right?'
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
i had to stop there. i didn't want to mention davey.
'..... well it's kinda cold out here, that's all.'
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
'no thanks. i don't smoke.'
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
a shiver ran through him.
'you know you're right. it is a bit cold out here.'
arlo stood up and took my hand.
'come inside with me.'
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
He just nodded that he did while digging through the mound of records that was next to my bed.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
sitting opposite beth at dizzie's hearing what gerard thought about my not wanting to involve the police about vincent, i realised all i could think about was arlo. i did hear her talking, but what she said, i couldn't tell you.
the last guy who was that upfront with me had been david. and that's only cause as my counsellor, it was his job. i know davey let be do whatever the hell i wanted and he rarely called me on any of my shit. i'm not blaming him for anything. i guess what i'm really doing is wondering how far i could push arlo and get away with it. he said he could forgive me just about anything. should i test whether he was being honest with me? or should i actually learn to trust someone and take them at their word? beth jolted me out of my private musings.
'anna! you're not even listening to me. have you heard a single word i've said? what, or should i say who, are you thinking about?'
i looked at her.
'and you can wipe that stupid grin off your face.'
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»