PJ fans in 12 step Recovery

lastexitlondon

Before  I was hung upon  all types of Neuro diseases.  I had symptoms  that I believed were something. 
But as a physc would say I lost a child 14 years ago when all this got worse. Then left family. 
Had a baby with a new partner and the memory and confusion  went really bad. So.its all linked in their  eyes. 
Here I sit at 3 a.m wishing I wasn't around anymore. It's a sad place

mickeyrat

lastexitlondon said:

Before  I was hung upon  all types of Neuro diseases.  I had symptoms  that I believed were something. 
But as a physc would say I lost a child 14 years ago when all this got worse. Then left family. 
Had a baby with a new partner and the memory and confusion  went really bad. So.its all linked in their  eyes. 
Here I sit at 3 a.m wishing I wasn't around anymore. It's a sad place

but then who would post those sunrise/sunset pics  from where you are?

aside from your importance as a parent, your actions here are helping to enhance our lives  by sharing those beautiful moments.

lastexitlondon

Thank you Mickey its a really horrible time and I'm sure you have been here. 

hedonist

I'm not in a program, but today marks six months without alcohol for me.

Best choice I (n)ever made.

I do miss it, but I can't - and won't ever - go back.


lastexit, I don't have much to offer except to say continue to hang in there.  I hope you find the path that's best for you achieving some peace of mind.

njnancy

hedonist said:

I'm not in a program, but today marks six months without alcohol for me.

Best choice I (n)ever made.

I do miss it, but I can't - and won't ever - go back.


lastexit, I don't have much to offer except to say continue to hang in there.  I hope you find the path that's best for you achieving some peace of mind.

Congratulations!! That is an amazing accomplishment - 6 months is huge. I hope your desire for alcohol gets less with more time and maybe you'll check out a meeting one day - you don't have to speak, you can just listen. 

Hang in there - you are a miracle!!! 

hedonist

Thanks, Nancy.  The emotions attached to this are surprising, but not really unwelcome.

njnancy

hedonist said:

Thanks, Nancy.  The emotions attached to this are surprising, but not really unwelcome.

One day, one hour, one second at a time. If your day gets messed up, just start over. (I give great advice for a person who is so messed up )   I'm proud of you. But I'll leave you to your emotions. 

mickeyrat

njnancy said:

hedonist said:

Thanks, Nancy.  The emotions attached to this are surprising, but not really unwelcome.

One day, one hour, one second at a time. If your day gets messed up, just start over. (I give great advice for a person who is so messed up )   I'm proud of you. But I'll leave you to your emotions. 

thats the do as I say not as I do for advice.

mickeyrat

hedonist, you were always welcome here to begin with. always kind and encouraging.

more so now that we get to return the kindness.

and there are any number of ways to get and stay sober. From my standpoint, whatever works, go with it.

hedonist

Thanks, mickey...I appreciate it so much.

I didn't feel unwelcome, just wasn't ready to bare and share that here.  I'm glad I did.

Hobbes

Hedo

Proud of you!

njnancy

mickeyrat said:

njnancy said:

hedonist said:

Thanks, Nancy.  The emotions attached to this are surprising, but not really unwelcome.

One day, one hour, one second at a time. If your day gets messed up, just start over. (I give great advice for a person who is so messed up )   I'm proud of you. But I'll leave you to your emotions. 

thats the do as I say not as I do for advice.

 No, that's the admission that I make mistakes and am flawed. As we all are. But I know how to stay sober so I try to help. 

mickeyrat

hedonist said:

Thanks, mickey...I appreciate it so much.

I didn't feel unwelcome, just wasn't ready to bare and share that here.  I'm glad I did.

if you ever chose to share what was behind this decision, either here or privately, you'd find an interested wiling ear in me.

I find power and hope in such stories.

mickeyrat

Recently found and reached out to my high school best friend.

Spoke with him yesterday. Glad to know he is on a sober path via a christian 12 step deal.  What I could glean through public records from the recentish past didnt look good.

Turns out he lives super close. Like walking distance close. Life sure is strange......

hedonist

I went to my first AA meeting today.  Much swirling in my head, to process.

Right now, I'm still finding my footing on this new path, figuring out shit. I'm not sure if meetings are the right fit for me or if I'll give it another shot.  I like that that particular road is there though, should I choose to take it. 

mickeyrat

hedonist said:

I went to my first AA meeting today.  Much swirling in my head, to process.

Right now, I'm still finding my footing on this new path, figuring out shit. I'm not sure if meetings are the right fit for me or if I'll give it another shot.  I like that that particular road is there though, should I choose to take it. 

so, no pressure, but try many meetings.  different formats. Initially I'd recommend speaker or lead meetings. This is where one person shares their story. Just sit and listen. see where you identify. If it suits you , branch out to discussion meetings and literature meetings.  Again, just sit and listen. see where you identify.

njnancy

hedonist said:

I went to my first AA meeting today.  Much swirling in my head, to process.

Right now, I'm still finding my footing on this new path, figuring out shit. I'm not sure if meetings are the right fit for me or if I'll give it another shot.  I like that that particular road is there though, should I choose to take it. 

I'm glad that you are happy you have choices. They are big steps to take and it is overwhelming. 

Thanks for letting us know. It's not easy to open up but I'm glad you did and I'm here to support you in any way you need.

Fifthelement

Sending my heartfelt wishes for continued sobriety for so many of you.  To those struggling, keep going!  You can do it.

mickeyrat

Curious,in general about the meeting you went to? What type, size, etc.....

hedonist

Thank you, all 

mickey, there were about a dozen people - and such a range (based solely on the physical).  Only a few people spoke, and while I didn't necessarily relate personally, I was aware of the commonality amidst our differences.

Funny, a few hours after I got home, was absolutely WIPED.  Not just physically - my liver is sick and "normal" activity can be taxing - but moreso emotionally.

Thoughts, and processing them, can be so fucking exhausting!

It's wonderful to have this thread for those who need a haven now and then.

mickeyrat

like cancer, alcoholism and drug addiction dont give a shit who you are, where you are from, how you grew up, how much is in your bank account, where you live, what you look like, who you pray to, or dont pray to.

The great leveler.

mickeyrat

hedonist said:

Thank you, all 

mickey, there were about a dozen people - and such a range (based solely on the physical).  Only a few people spoke, and while I didn't necessarily relate personally, I was aware of the commonality amidst our differences.

Funny, a few hours after I got home, was absolutely WIPED.  Not just physically - my liver is sick and "normal" activity can be taxing - but moreso emotionally.

Thoughts, and processing them, can be so fucking exhausting!

It's wonderful to have this thread for those who need a haven now and then.

ok. would still suggest a variety of different meetings. locations, days etc....

you may land with folks you are drawn to. or not.

HughFreakingDillon

I'm seriously considering giving up alcohol permanently. I have read about people who have done it and experienced unexpected health benefits. 

anyone have any experiences like this they'd like to share?

dankind

Well, if beer is your thing and you quit drinking it, you'll likely lose some weight.

And your liver will thank you as well.

HughFreakingDillon

dankind said:

Well, if beer is your thing and you quit drinking it, you'll likely lose some weight.

And your liver will thank you as well.

more of a whiskey guy. 

lastexitlondon

I guess it can only benefit health and mental health. 

HughFreakingDillon

lastexitlondon said:

I guess it can only benefit health and mental health. 

in the long term, yes. it's the short term i'm worried about. 

HughFreakingDillon

dankind said:

Well, if beer is your thing and you quit drinking it, you'll likely lose some weight.

And your liver will thank you as well.

losing weight is a certainty for me. I don't drink much pop unless I'm mixing it with whiskey. but I also tend to snack a lot when drinking. loads of chips and other garbage. 

had a crazy anxiety episode that lasted two months; ate regular portions at meals, no junk food, drank zero alcohol. lost 40 pounds in that time. unfortunately I gained it all back once shit improved. 

people thought I was sick. I kinda was. 

mickeyrat

HughFreakingDillon said:

I'm seriously considering giving up alcohol permanently. I have read about people who have done it and experienced unexpected health benefits. 

anyone have any experiences like this they'd like to share?

well, alcohol is considered a depressant , so stopping surely would have mental health improvements, unless its being used in a self-medication way. which for many in AA is the case. So outside professional help is recommended in conjunction.

In any case, it can be done in the guise of an experiment. Stop and just see what happens.

Ernie Vedder

We have a Sober PJ fans FB group if u care to join. 

https://m.facebook.com/groups/228865097280217?multi_permalinks=1132205063612878&notif_t=group_activity&notif_id=1548268271992442&ref=m_notif