PJ fans in 12 step Recovery

mickeyrat

Piper At The Gates wrote:

When I got out of rehab in early 95, I went to this halfway house that I really hated. The second night I was there, I turned on the radio and heard that a Pearl Jam special was going to be on at midnight. It was Self Pollution Radio. I don't think I would have made it through that week if it weren't for that.

in '94? went through a detox in st. pete.wasn't supposed to be any type of media contact(newspaper,tv,radio).Place was a combo center-detox longterm treatment and a halfway house.Someone left a radio on in the halfway part and thats when I first Heard "no excuses"-AIC. Boy did that really hit home.'94 is light years from my Sob. date.However i seemed to carry that concept with me during all those "experience gathering" years, along with a TON of other stuff that made my soul cry out for help.

locked

Great posts!

This is my favorite thread...

Personally, I found my first year sober to be very challenging...

I didn't drink, went to meetings..
but was pretty much a "rage-aholic"... mad at everyone..

I could find something wrong with a rainbow..

No pink cloud for me!

But Like you posted earlier, I finally learned to "put down the stick"..

I came to realize that much of the anger was the absence of the booze in my system after 30 years of drinking...

It takes time..but I'll say this..

I don't have another recovery in me.. I'm sticking with this one thank you..

I've heard about stories of people going back out and its ALWAYS bad..

Its easier to STAY sober than to GET SOBER..

If you want what we have.. do what we do..

I believe in miracles..

I believe in a better world for me and you..

mickeyrat

locked wrote:

Great posts!

This is my favorite thread...

Personally, I found my first year sober to be very challenging...

I didn't drink, went to meetings..
but was pretty much a "rage-aholic"... mad at everyone..

I could find something wrong with a rainbow..

No pink cloud for me!

But Like you posted earlier, I finally learned to "put down the stick"..

I came to realize that much of the anger was the absence of the booze in my system after 30 years of drinking...

It takes time..but I'll say this..

I don't have another recovery in me.. I'm sticking with this one thank you..

I've heard about stories of people going back out and its ALWAYS bad..

Its easier to STAY sober than to GET SOBER..

If you want what we have.. do what we do..

I believe in miracles..

I believe in a better world for me and you..

I know I have a resumption left in me but what i don't know is if i would have the courage to come back in.so i won't be testing that theory anytime soon.

Heard at my groups last anniversary that the "program" is the easier softer way

Fully believe in once you get here STAY HERE!

potluck

when i was 17 i got sentenced to rehab for 45 days for pot. the centers music policy was only on sunday nights and you had to compramise with ur roomate. anyway, about three weeks into it treatment was going terrable in everyway. For one reason or another i had to take a car ride to somewhere. It was then, just when things seemed hopeless, that i heard a pearl jam song on the radio, i got id. The next 3 weeks didnt seem so bad.

I guess what im saying is, PJ makes theraputic music. no matter what youre dealing with, listening to it always seems to help

locked

I"ll share another upside to being a sober PJ maniac..

Ed's pre-sets..
when I was using I would NEVER think of going into a venue early to check out ED..not when I have my own supply of booze to obliterate myself before the show...
fast forward to 2006 and I convince my non-sober friend to go in early for both Boston shows..

sure enough.. night #2 Ed comes out to play "Porch" solo accoustic to only about 200 of us at the Boston Garden..

now its 2008 and I did the same thing for Hartford and both Mansfield shows..
No more obsession to consume as much booze as I can before a show..

and sure enough as Ed would say to me and 500 other people at Mansfield first night "Come early and you shall be rewarded"...after he launched into THE BEST performance of "Throw Your Arms Around Me" i have ever heard ..

You shall be rewarded...indeed!

locked

bump

catch22

locked wrote:

I"ll share another upside to being a sober PJ maniac..

Ed's pre-sets..
when I was using I would NEVER think of going into a venue early to check out ED..not when I have my own supply of booze to obliterate myself before the show...
fast forward to 2006 and I convince my non-sober friend to go in early for both Boston shows..

sure enough.. night #2 Ed comes out to play "Porch" solo accoustic to only about 200 of us at the Boston Garden..

now its 2008 and I did the same thing for Hartford and both Mansfield shows..
No more obsession to consume as much booze as I can before a show..

and sure enough as Ed would say to me and 500 other people at Mansfield first night "Come early and you shall be rewarded"...after he launched into THE BEST performance of "Throw Your Arms Around Me" i have ever heard ..

You shall be rewarded...indeed!

the flipside of this is a couple shows i went to. i was at state college in 03... phenomenal show, but i was so piss wasted i made an ass of myself and can't remember a whole lot of it. the week before in cleveland i dropped TWO lit cigarettes on the dude in front of me because i was too fucking bombed to hold them. and at toledo in 04, neil young and peter frampton jammed with the band. i have no memory of being there. i was blacked out. the next night wasn't much better.

locked

catch22 wrote:

the flipside of this is a couple shows i went to. i was at state college in 03... phenomenal show, but i was so piss wasted i made an ass of myself and can't remember a whole lot of it. the week before in cleveland i dropped TWO lit cigarettes on the dude in front of me because i was too fucking bombed to hold them. and at toledo in 04, neil young and peter frampton jammed with the band. i have no memory of being there. i was blacked out. the next night wasn't much better.

been there, done that, bought the T-shirt!

locked

bump for friday>>>>>

if you have a good excuse.. don't use it..

just show up!

PJ_Lukin

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mickeyrat

PJ_Lukin wrote:

I did 1 step. I quit almost 18 years ago. 17 years and 10 months but who is counting? Not a drop since. Life improved immediately, I mean immediately, like the next day. I have been tempted, tried, stressed, pushed, and challenged but have been able to stay away for the day. But for today, I am free.

Good for you, however some of us require more than just stopping. I know I was able to stop for periods of time but ALWAYS started again.One of the things Iv'e learned through 12 steps is how to not start again.Also taught me how to LIVE as "normal" people do.Seems like I missed that day in school where they taught how to take life as it comes.Might have been cutting that day getting F'd up!

mickeyrat

Holiday weekend now as ever we must fight the beast

locked

mickeyrat wrote:

Good for you, however some of us require more than just stopping. I know I was able to stop for periods of time but ALWAYS started again.One of the things Iv'e learned through 12 steps is how to not start again.Also taught me how to LIVE as "normal" people do.Seems like I missed that day in school where they taught how to take life as it comes.Might have been cutting that day getting F'd up!

good stuff..
Personally, I feel like AA has fixed more of my character defects than my just my obsession with alcohol..

Rage-o-holic, ego-maniac sociopath to name a few..

mickeyrat

locked wrote:

good stuff..
Personally, I feel like AA has fixed more of my character defects than my just my obsession with alcohol..

Rage-o-holic, ego-maniac sociopath to name a few..

cool , for me it's turned them down a few notches not quite fixed .still a good thing but I have a ways to go yet.

catch22

locked wrote:

good stuff..
Personally, I feel like AA has fixed more of my character defects than my just my obsession with alcohol..

Rage-o-holic, ego-maniac sociopath to name a few..

that's the case for me. i've been white-kuckling it through some dryness lately, getting back into the rooms tonight. i've definitely got way more wrong with me than just the drink. i wish i was one of those who could just stop and see things improve, but for me the problem wasn't what drinking did to my life, it was what my thinking was like that drove me to drink. drinking was my answer, not the problem itself. that's not the case for some i suppose.

mickeyrat

catch22 wrote:

that's the case for me. i've been white-kuckling it through some dryness lately, getting back into the rooms tonight. i've definitely got way more wrong with me than just the drink. i wish i was one of those who could just stop and see things improve, but for me the problem wasn't what drinking did to my life, it was what my thinking was like that drove me to drink. drinking was my answer, not the problem itself. that's not the case for some i suppose.

True , the books says drinking was but a symptom of our problem.and being jusy dry is a bitch.days just drag on and on and on and NOBODY does what I want them to.Fuckers didn't you get the memo !!!!

mickeyrat

starting to think i need a pj 12 step program. this could get dangerous.

locked

more food for thought..

I may not be much but I'm all I think about...

Anger is just one letter away from Danger..

Meeting makers make it..

A problem shared is a problem cut in half.

Open your mouth and save your life..

You have to show up for your own recovery..

AA..

It works
so work it
because you're worth it..

Life comes from within your heart and desire...

Its an inside job.

locked

just remember, its progress not perfection..

catch22

mickeyrat wrote:

starting to think i need a pj 12 step program. this could get dangerous.

don't become a poster person

those people scare me more than any alcoholic i ever met!