thought for the day..
If people keep disapointing you..
lower your expectations!
fairly new to this and I was wondering how many like me are out there.Doesn't matter to which fellowship you may be a part of.Curious to know how certain songs or lyrics aid in your recovery.and while certianly fictional what lessons do you get from PJ's work.
Piper At The Gates wrote:
What do you mean by better people? No one is any better than anyone else. If you mean people who have more sobriety time, that doesn't make them better, just more sober. I have met stone cold addicts and drunks who have it more together than people I know in sobriety. I know it sounds corny, but all people are equal. If you are being facetious, thats another story.
i've had a few people tell me i was less of an asshole when i was drinking i take it as a reminder that i've been letting my meeting attendance slide way too much!
Piper At The Gates wrote:
When I got out of rehab in early 95, I went to this halfway house that I really hated. The second night I was there, I turned on the radio and heard that a Pearl Jam special was going to be on at midnight. It was Self Pollution Radio. I don't think I would have made it through that week if it weren't for that.
This is my favorite thread...
Personally, I found my first year sober to be very challenging...
I didn't drink, went to meetings..
but was pretty much a "rage-aholic"... mad at everyone..
I could find something wrong with a rainbow..
No pink cloud for me!
But Like you posted earlier, I finally learned to "put down the stick"..
I came to realize that much of the anger was the absence of the booze in my system after 30 years of drinking...
It takes time..but I'll say this..
I don't have another recovery in me.. I'm sticking with this one thank you..
I've heard about stories of people going back out and its ALWAYS bad..
Its easier to STAY sober than to GET SOBER..
If you want what we have.. do what we do..
I believe in miracles..
I believe in a better world for me and you..
I"ll share another upside to being a sober PJ maniac..
when I was using I would NEVER think of going into a venue early to check out ED..not when I have my own supply of booze to obliterate myself before the show...
fast forward to 2006 and I convince my non-sober friend to go in early for both Boston shows..
sure enough.. night #2 Ed comes out to play "Porch" solo accoustic to only about 200 of us at the Boston Garden..
now its 2008 and I did the same thing for Hartford and both Mansfield shows..
No more obsession to consume as much booze as I can before a show..
and sure enough as Ed would say to me and 500 other people at Mansfield first night "Come early and you shall be rewarded"...after he launched into THE BEST performance of "Throw Your Arms Around Me" i have ever heard ..
You shall be rewarded...indeed!
the flipside of this is a couple shows i went to. i was at state college in 03... phenomenal show, but i was so piss wasted i made an ass of myself and can't remember a whole lot of it. the week before in cleveland i dropped TWO lit cigarettes on the dude in front of me because i was too fucking bombed to hold them. and at toledo in 04, neil young and peter frampton jammed with the band. i have no memory of being there. i was blacked out. the next night wasn't much better.
I did 1 step. I quit almost 18 years ago. 17 years and 10 months but who is counting? Not a drop since. Life improved immediately, I mean immediately, like the next day. I have been tempted, tried, stressed, pushed, and challenged but have been able to stay away for the day. But for today, I am free.
Good for you, however some of us require more than just stopping. I know I was able to stop for periods of time but ALWAYS started again.One of the things Iv'e learned through 12 steps is how to not start again.Also taught me how to LIVE as "normal" people do.Seems like I missed that day in school where they taught how to take life as it comes.Might have been cutting that day getting F'd up!
Personally, I feel like AA has fixed more of my character defects than my just my obsession with alcohol..
Rage-o-holic, ego-maniac sociopath to name a few..
that's the case for me. i've been white-kuckling it through some dryness lately, getting back into the rooms tonight. i've definitely got way more wrong with me than just the drink. i wish i was one of those who could just stop and see things improve, but for me the problem wasn't what drinking did to my life, it was what my thinking was like that drove me to drink. drinking was my answer, not the problem itself. that's not the case for some i suppose.
starting to think i need a pj 12 step program. this could get dangerous.